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The goal of this blog is to motivate myself and others for further practice as well as provide details that might explain what's going on..


Friday, December 31, 2010

Circling flames

Before going to bed last night, I taught the pranayama exercise to uncle's wife. She seemed to be pretty interested in it, but admitted that it's a bit tough for her.

A whole day of shoving snow off roofs and digging paths with high snow walls and heating up sauna. A lot of fun.

When I took a short break and entered the kitchen, uncle's little son was playing with candles on the table. Looked at the candle flames, thought it would be fun to perform pk on them and 2 of the 6 started making circles rapidly. He replicated the movement of the flames with his fingers. A moment later the flames stopped making circles. He tried to make them move the way they did before, striking with his hand, blowing on the candles and so on, but nothing worked. It happened without control and effort, similar to how stopping the radiometer has often been..

Held a funeral for the dog that had passed away and lit 5 candles on her grave.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Listening to the wind

Nice, I have managed to catch a cold almost every day and it has disappeared an hour up to a few hours later.

Listened to the wind for a while yesterday. Atmospheric density around me started building up and managed to redirect the wind. It seemed as if even the clouds changed their direction.

Watched Andrei Tarkovsky "Stalker" with Kevin. It was 3rd time that I saw the film and I was surprised at how it discussed enlightenment related subjects. I found the end most surprising .. stalker's daughter was performing pk on drinking glasses.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Long-waited trip

Took a trip to Saaremaa today morning. Organized tickets for a morning bus so that I would be able to practice cloud bursting on the way and enjoy the rest of the day at the summerhouse. Ended up pecking at the chairs in the bus (too tired to practice pk). After waking up and falling asleep for a few times, I finally managed to keep myself awake long enough to focus on my intention and .. although it was snowing, the sky cleared up and there was sun shining through the falling snow =).

Showed Kevin a few cool pk-related videos and asked him about his practices. He said he has become more interested in reading thoughts than moving stuff. We went out to put clothes drying. I was just saying out loud stuff that came into my mind and it turned out that the same things had come to his mind as well. It was like on a spree - about 3 or 4 hits in sequence.

In the evening, the whole sky cleared up again so that we could see stars shining (haven't seen a clear sky for at least a week). It's been snowing quite hard and I even heard on the radio that it was already quite catastrophic in my hometown - snow plows are no longer enough, bigger construction gear is used to transport the snow out of the town and onto fields. It could turn pretty nasty when all of the snow starts melting.

Aunt wanted me to play 'memory' with her son. I didn't want to, but had to, because her son wanted me to. I was amazed at how the game progressed. Every turn aunt had, she was incredibly lucky. She cleared most of the table with cards that were flipped for the first time. We were all blown.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Mission wallet

A whole day of shopping around with Mom. We were on "mission wallet", searching for a new wallet for me. Not knowing where to go in a shopping mall, we thought we should ask someone if they knew where one could find wallets. A couple of minutes later, the following was on the speakers: "If you're looking for a wallet, try the shoe shop on the 1st floor in building A." Well, unfortunately, the prices were overrated and we continued our search in other shopping centres.

While walking to another shopping center, I decided to clean psi blockages that had formed within the last week. Overeating, lack of physical exercises and passing time with stressful people have helped to cause a disorder in my psi flow. When I get to the summerhouse, then I can meditate and perform yoga exercises again (here at Mom's parents place everything suspicious would make them worried or even afraid).

Meditated while walking around and visiting shops with Mom. Shortly after that I said her thoughts out loud when we passed by a peculiar ad.

Pk arts training dream

Had an interesting dream this morning. There were a few of us practicing pk in a park and some kids saw that. They wanted to come and practice with us the next time. Well, we started official training and advertised it so that we would have more participants.

On the first training day, we had everyone give an oath that they would always keep their progress smooth, never attempting to charge through their limits with sheer power. Or something like that (can't remember it exactly).

We started indoors and when we were good enough, we started training outdoors in public (and on a larger scale). This was to help against ego getting in the way. 

One of the kids that first joined, went for a show-off of skills against his oath and died. Can't remember what he did, but he couldn't move and felt being burned from the inside to the outside.

To cope with the anger of some school or something, we took a few days for practicing pk-enhanced running and organized an american football match. Although our guys hadn't played it and not very confident on the match, no-one managed to do anything against them. Actually, no-one even saw them and were shoutin all over the field: "What the heck, how's that even possible?" 

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Subconscious

Subconscious is cool, it notices a lot and sometimes draws one's attention to funny things.

Grandma and sister baked cookies yesterday. I was about to have one, when I got the feeling that there's something funny about a specific cookie. Took it and found that it had a perfect heart shape while all the others were circular or slightly oval.

I thought I was numb to presents, but the clothes mother had bought from all over the world .. these made me happy.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Pum in OBE

Waiting for the bus to Tallinn at the bus station, there was an unconscious pum. Police was there and soon Ambulance arrived. It seemed that no matter what they did, he didn't gain consciousness - he had drunk something suspicious and lost it. Visualized pushing him back into his body and at the same moment he regained consciousness and started coughing. I doubt it was me, but the timing was a bit suspicious (synchronicity with an uncertainty of less than 1/4 of a second).

I hurt my feet while wearing the new pair of boots, so I have to use the old boots. Though, the old boots are so full of holes that I can feel the snow I'm walking on. It has been more than a week already that my right heel hurts. Left heel recovered a while ago already. Anyway, visualized big hot socks of psi around my feet. Left foot got warm, but the breeze was too strong to warm up the right foot.

Random attempts

A scale caught my attention at the department store today. It showed 0.000 and occasionally jumped to 0.002. The salesperson had left for some time and I had some time to focus on the scale with nobody interrupting. Started to feel atmospheric density building up on the scale plate. Focused on it becoming denser and heavier while staring at the digits. Managed to get it to show 0.002 constantly, but nothing more. It felt the same as with the hot-spot practice on the thermometer .. I was a bit "doubty".

Sister baked a cake and we visited a neighbor for Christmas. She has a cute black cat. Tried to invite it via telepathy after I had finished eating. It jumped to me and sat down on my lap. I sometimes noticed that the cat was looking at the wall to my left .. I couldn't see anything there.

When Mom wanted to take a picture of the cat stretching itself on my lap, it understood her thoughts and became alert. Mom came back to take a photo and before she managed to do it, the cat jumped off.

There were 4 candles set up on the floor at neighbor's and there were Christian songs on TV. Looked at the candles and fancied pulsing them all. Well, ended up focusing on only one of the candles and enjoyed it dancing (leaning, growing and shrinking) to the rhythm of the songs. It looked pretty responsive.

Back in my room, I attempted rolling a can again, while listening to the song FridgeNatious posted on the forums (Let Go). Too much mind wander at first and after that, I felt stopping it (too much doubt). It wobbled a few times, but didn't roll. What was interesting though, right when I focused on it, I saw psi moving to it, gathering in and around the can (slightly reminded me of a plasma ball but with fully transparent discharge branches - which is a very crude comparison though).

Friday, December 24, 2010

qRV

Been programming again. Decided to try the utility I had written for remote viewing and precognition practice some time ago. It turned out that google had changed their image search page source and I had to generalize the image searching algorithm (a bit slower now). Fixed a couple of bugs and uploaded it here: https://code.google.com/p/q-rv/. I guess it shouldn't be difficult for linux users to get it compiled. For windows users I'll have to build a binary sometime soon.

Almost didn't get any pictures right, but I did see weird things. Mostly fractals, random objects, rooms and people from strange angles. It was interesting that the images became more vivid and detailed when I touched the atmospheric density around my head with my mind.

Watched Green Lantern with dad in the evening and were greatly entertained. Mom and sister are not very interested in anime though. The construct ideas were really ingenious and surprising.

Have noticed recently that lamps sometimes turn off for a split-second when I'm in the room.

Also, the last couple of days I have occasionally been feeling my throat chakra heating up well over normal body temperature. The whole base of the throat is like glowing.

Before going to sleep, I meditated on a chakra above the head and started feeling pressure on the 3rd eye. Focused on energy flow through the 3rd eye until it faded.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Programming stuff

Have been programming mostly. Now that school is over, I could spend a few days on trying to come up with a demo for old-school 8-bit dithered lookealike post-processing.

The past few days I haven't been very active on practicing pk. Fortunately, pk practice never stops and throughout these days I often found towels or curtains swinging around.

During a short meditation session yesterday evening I physically felt my crown opening up. I have felt it before, but this time it felt as if physical petals were spreading and the top of my head being revealed.

Opened the balcony door before sitting down to meditate yesterday. With cold air, I could feel the density of the atmosphere around me a bit better (bigger contrasts with the surroundings). Although in cold, most of my body was covered in dense atmosphere and psi so that I felt the cold, but it barely reached the body.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Wind shield

While coming home, my face and forehead was getting cold (was wearing a thin hat) .. it was windy (about 5 m/s) and about -10*C. Attempted to visualize a stasis field for wind around me. Couldn't get the feeling right. Remembered my discovery on the propeller stasis field last night and how efficiently the field split the wind in two. When I did, a shield appeared on my face so that even though wind was blowing right at my face and I could hear the hood rustling, cold air no longer reached my skin.

Practiced levitation yesterday night. It was great fun and different than it has been a year or even more ago, though, no astonishing results yet. Remembering and focusing on the feeling of levitating from a dream, I was able to make myself feel quite light, but I couldn't help but hold myself back yet.

Wanted to practice for about 30 minutes, but ended up with more than an hour and had to force myself to sleep because of an exam the next morning. Tried to visualize and intend on the feeling of becoming sleepy rather than going through the usual routine of visualizing dreams until they become real. I can't remember being able to spot the half-dream stages with this method, but I could remember my dreams very well the next morning (they didn't contain much pk though).

Wind bending

Wowf, cool.

Set the fan blowing at the propeller and placed a toy windmill at 90 degrees angle from the direction that the fan blows the wind. Attempted to turn the wind 90 degrees with about 30 cm of room. Well, at first the propeller occasionally stopped and the windmill budged. Then, a few moments later, The propeller stood still for a bit longer and the windmill started spinning slowly, stopping every now and then. I scanned the wind with my hand and I was blown .. about 10 - 15 cm towards the fan from the propeller, there was intense wind, however, about 10 cm from the propeller, there was barely any air movement (which is why the propeller barely rotates). The air flow forks and bends to the left of the propeller and to the right of it.

When we went to the department store with Mom, I used the windy weather to practice a dome of stasis field around us. Couldn't keep it constant, but managed to slow down bigger gusts of wind.

At the department store, I got tired real quick (crowded places often drain me of psi). Decided to draw some psi from the ground and almost immediately when I started, I felt a lot better. Started feeling pressure on the upper chakras and psi field becoming denser around me. I was amazed at how fast it worked and all the exhaustion disappeared. The inward flow of psi easily beat the outward flow and I no longer became tired.

While washing teeth, some toothpaste got on the area near the two holes in the palate. Near the holes, there is a spot that makes me hiccup when I try to clean it. This time, something interesting happened: a straw on the edge of the sink suddenly moved, then something snapped and a bottle of shower gel fell into the tub. I wonder what would happen when one performed khechari mudra on the spot..

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Studying with pk

There's a great wind outside tonight. It even got too cold with just a T-shirt in my room. Should meditate and practice wind draft forming again.

Took the conspectus of microworld physics (have also called it "quantum mechanics", because it started off from quantum mechanics) and became slightly frustrated when I looked at the clock and at how thick the conspectus was .. there's an exam on Monday. Read some pages and slept for an hour. Continued reading, but it still didn't go too well .. I felt awfully distracted by the sounds from the other rooms (as the whole family is together after a while, there's a lot going on everywhere).

So, I started focusing on the chakras above my head and managed to surpass the distractions. A moment later I started visualizing microworld physics related knowledge pouring in through the 3rd eye and later the top of my head. Doing this has greatly improved the efficiency of studying almost every time I have used it (haven't done this very often). Anyway, the reading speed increased and I could grasp everything faster.

While reading, I was also playing around with pk on neighboring objects and the conspectus notebook itself. Since I was active reading, my mind didn't have the time to start with any doubtful thoughts. Though, I wasn't 100% dedicated to the pk either (more like a passive training of sorts).

Like with the hurricanes and typhoons, after some intent projection and visualization, I have been feeling that FridgeNatious's mother is alright. I simply don't feel motivated to continue the visualizations of remote healing.

I had been visualizing her and evening out her energy just like higheriam described it later. Just like I have done with myself, also I visualized a map of her problems and started changing red areas into green (green should represent calmness and healing intent). I thought it would be fun if she would be into healing with hands after the recovery - this could keep her on a healthier lifestyle.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Mom returns

Yaay, Mom finally came home after working on a cruise ship for almost a year.

Just to mention, my uncle is back from hospital again. It's the second time for him to visit the hospital because of his brain tumor. Although he's into meditation and he's calm, always in control and so on, he still lives the lifestyle of famous musicians (touring from one country to another, performing live, recording songs), giving lectures, selling sea-buckthorns and marketing their products. Relaxing and taking the time off to admire one's work would really suit him. I think the same would work for FridgeNatious's mother as well.

Nice, she asked why did I buy a radiometer, when she saw it spinning under a lamp. I answered: "To stop it with my mind." Then, after we had gone shopping, played around with her Kindle (uploaded a couple of Kundalini pdf-s for her), I showed her the radiometer standing still. After that I released it from stasis again (well, it accidentally slipped when I attempted to move it in the opposite direction). =D She was interested in trying it if she were less tired.

It turned out that she had some books with a lot of info on the Bindu point and chakras above the head .. they just had different names. She suggested the following books:

While browsing through the books, the first one seemed to contain pretty awesome imagery on auras (the translation only covered 1/3 of the whole book). The second book contained a lot of diagrams on the positions of different chakras, nadis and their descriptions (though, no chakras outside the body).

I used to be really skeptical about this stuff that I now consider a treasure. From the first book, I learned that these protuberance-like aura movements around my legs probably meant psi / chi leaking out. Though, I have also seen the same aura movements in my room (around the radiometer or on the walls, for example). It would be nice to find original versions of the books (the translations are a bit off).

Mind cleansing

I think I'm overanalyzing all experiences so that I could remember them well enough to write down here. Even though I remember there was something I planned on remembering from a half-dream state yesterday night, I can't remember it =/.

I was visualizing myself with all kind of fun pk abilities on the imaginary island. Whenever I felt the visualization becoming deep and detailed enough, something random would snap in my room (table, door and bed snapped quite loud) and wake me up.

Meditated on a blank mindset today evening. Since I haven't done this for quite some time, already the first 10 minutes had a great effect. I wouldn't have imagined my mind was this full of clutter. While meditating, I started feeling intense psi rushing around everywhere. My fingers were overwhelmed with the intensity of psi rushing through them and I had to change to a mudra that contained enough loops that would either short-circuit or direct psi back.

Anyway, I could barely keep my mind still for a second (the maximum was probably even less than that). Need to meditate more before going to sleep.

Meditated before going to sleep as well, though, nothing special happened.

Ate quite a lot of cheese and saw a lot of pk dreams. Can't remember them very well though =/. In one of them, I met some 2 toddlers with really mindblowing pk skills, but I can't remember any of them.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Sliding practice

Practiced book, notebook sliding and forming wind drafts + whirlwind yesterday evening and last night. I'm having quite a problem with thinking about the results and what would happen if I succeeded in it instead of completely focusing on the intent and feeling of it. I feel like it would all be easy for me to do when I could control my thoughts, feelings and emotions well enough.

After the crown blooming experience, I have been having some slight pain strikes around the body again and my head hurt occasionally. I guess I'm slowly adapting again.

=? .. the heck just happened? Opera suddenly threw away everything I had written. Ok, writing it again..

In bed yesterday night I noticed that I was subconsciously playing around with push / pull on the blanket through my hands. Attempted to do it consciously and I could feel it moving pretty well, though, I unintentionally stopped it right after it started moving.

Sat down for sliding practice on the book again. Could feel it becoming lighter and slowly moving, but then at some moment I started thinking about me doing pk. Messed it all up with that and couldn't feel it move that well anymore. Took the next object right behind it, which was a toy windmill. Twitched that in both directions until the same happened. Then took a piece of paper and attempted pk on that.

Again, I could feel myself holding it still while attempting to move it at the same time. So far I have only managed to work around this issue, but I still haven't solved it. With these yoga exercises and focusing on chakras and Bindu point, my awareness has spread and I feel I have more power. However, it was already when I first started with the psi-wheel that I felt I had enough power to do amazing things provided that I only learn to control and use it.

I think I should take serious steps towards enhancing control again .. which means these tedious "chest" meditation exercises. One way to make it all the more pleasant would be visualizing some fun stuff.

Wanted to mention that while I was attempting the book sliding, I took a short break and tried the grounding exercise again that I posted here. Now I could feel the effects of it better. It seems that I have been applying great psi pressure on the Bindu point with this. The feelings I get now while doing this exercise are beyond what I had previously felt and even then (when I had my first successful pk attempt), it already allowed me to greatly increase the amount of psi intensity I could use for doing stuff. It slightly reminds me of how Dragon ball characters raise their battle power.

Ok, maybe it's not only control that I need to improve on .. my hands are twitching, since I haven't used them for pk for quite a long time.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Crown blooming

Yesterday's emotional excitement must have done it =D.

Performed pranayama and khechari mudra again. I focused on the feeling of being for some time. Went to bed after that. Since I had slept for an hour during the day, I had trouble falling asleep.

Noticed that my heart was all tense. I guess I had a heart chakra problem because of not loving my aunt (well, I couldn't even find any reason for me not to). It came to me that perhaps love is the same as a pk connection. A few moments later I started feeling hot psi with the feeling of love radiating from my chest again.

At some point, I almost fell asleep, but it was interrupted with a moment of clear mind and a feeling of buzzing (happens a lot because I usually meditate before falling asleep). When I focused on the bindu point and on the feeling of being, suddenly a large lump of psi started moving in the head. It felt pretty dense, wet and cold from the Bindu fluid and yet hot at the same time.

I focused on a chakra as high as I could feel or visualize any (used the feelings from the rope-climbing visualization from a couple of days ago). As this lump of psi moved on to higher and higher chakras, I felt the projection of these chakras on my head. It's as if there were a crown that has become heavier so that I can feel it applying pressure on different areas of my head. When the lump of psi moved higher by one chakra, I felt the previously active chakras becoming cold.

Couldn't go to sleep yet. Kept focused on the higher chakra for as long as I could, trying to take advantage from this experience. A few moments later I started to feel a hole spreading instead of what I had felt as the uppermost chakra. It felt as if I was a flower blooming and spreading petals. I definitely felt a lot more open but somewhat naked.

Some moments later I started feeling a tingling sensation of pleasure moving up from the legs, up into the head. Now it felt too good for falling asleep naturally. It was already 3 AM and I wanted to wake up at 6.30 AM. Thought I would postpone the alarm for 10.30 AM and force myself into sleeping (by focusing on the noise in front of the eyes, forming figures, then scenery out of it and stepping in when it's ready).

Finally I still managed to sleep, although, for barely 3 hours =D.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Wind draft spiral

Put a lot more effort into pranayama exercise yesterday. When I stood up and took a step after that, I felt a serious irregularity in space and time again.

Performed some khechari mudra and practiced forming of wind drafts. It's somewhat strange that I could stretch my tongue quite well when I first did khechari mudra. However, it seems as if with every day I can stretch it less.

Tried to form a clockwise spiral of wind drafts around me. Visualized wind drafts from the closed balcony door slowly (really slowly) making circles around me and lifting towards the ceiling. At first I couldn't feel the spiraled draft with my skin, but then I noticed that air had just warmed up and was more-or-less at body temperature. Sitting next to a plant, I could see its hangings move around as if there was wind blowing at them. Nice.

I had previously noticed the radiometer shaking and thought it was table vibrations. Hit the table for a few times today morning and the radiometer vanes didn't shake because of that. 

Thought I would go to gym, but it seems I have lost the key (used to be afraid that I would). Oh well, had some visualization training on doing exercises in the gym instead. And when I fell asleep so deep that I forgot I was supposed to be visualizing physical exercises, I continued with pk training. Within the first few minutes I realized I should do this more often, as I had some difficulties visualizing stuff in balance. At some point I realized something and visualizations clicked into place .. I had discovered joint constructs. After that, visualizing exercises on my hand muscles was a lot easier, because I knew how they would react to to these exercises. Ended up doing multiple exercises at the same time (cycling and lifting weights, for example) - this way it was a bit more difficult to maintain the stability of the visualizations. It's a lot of those "chest" meditation exercises that I used to do.

It's about a week of eating food containing meat again. I guess it's also something that works in waves for me. Actually, I barely ate anything during that weird diet and now I eat a lot. During the weird diet period, I had to eat vitamin tablets a few times and drink mineral water, because I couldn't get enough minerals I guess.

Hm, strange timing. I was enjoying Windy Tales ep. 11 when father came into the room, looking at what I was up to. So, I started to describe the anime for him and while I was at it, I noticed that the radiometer stood still again. Wanted to film it and try to stop it again so that I would finally get it on tape. Well, while I was talking, I accidentally shook the table a few times, but nothing happened .. every time the vanes stopped again. In the middle of describing the anime, aunt called and I had do help her with some network related stuff. Father got bored, looked around and noticed the radiometer acting weird. He looked at it from different angles and before I managed to finish praising the anime, he left .. and I was still talking to my aunt. Anyway, the radiometer still stood still when I had finished the phone call. So, I filmed it (though, I had forgotten reduced brightness on since yesterday's candle practice), hit the oscilloscope on which the radiometer stands and stopped it again. Tapped on the glass and attempted to stop it again while recording with normal brightness. This time I found it difficult to hook onto the feeling of stasis on the vanes and only managed to slow it down slightly. The radiometer is spinning really fast again now.

Since it's not much of a development since the last video and since my previous successful attempts on stopping the vanes, I'm not sure if I should upload it.

Edit: Yup, I should, even though it's not much, it might still work as a motivation.

The toy windmill that's on the table started spinning again when I came into my room. It seems as if there's an above normal gust of wind pushing me forward when I walk. Thanks to this, walking feels really effortless even on icy surfaces. I also feel really light as I walk.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Wind and crazy flame

Practiced push-pull on an A4 paper yesterday evening. Probably due to having practiced pk on paper a lot when I first started, I connected with the paper pretty quick. Moved it around slightly, but couldn't make it fall over.

Meditated on forming wind drafts around the room yesterday night. After that, I meditated on what's above the head, which later turned out as a visualization of climbing on an infinite rope of chakras.

Although I had intended on it, I didn't have any lucid dreams of the light table experiment for the last few days. Before falling asleep yesterday night, I put more effort into the intention and got into a half-dream state where I started seeing some objects. Could only remember one of the several objects I had seen like this.

Have also been intending and visualizing on Treasure Hunter succeeding spinning his toy windmill in the opposite direction occasionally.

Attempted forming a hot-spot on the thermometer again. I guess I managed to rise it by perhaps half a degree.

Lit a candle and thought I would play pk on it. Well, the flame hopped around, pulsed and did all kind of things violently. I thought it was because of the drafts from the balcony door (which slightly leaks cold). Put a box between the candle and balcony door, but the flame still kept hopping around the same way. When I intended on it moving in a specific manner, it usually did and when I focused on being still, the flame didn't rock so violently, but it was not as fun as I had hoped it would be.

Anyway, the drafts around the room have been pretty noticeable today. While attempting pk on the candle flame, I could feel a constant draft coming from the balcony door that greatly tilted the candle flame towards me. When I opened my room door and closed it, a toy windmill on the table started spinning from wind. That was slightly unexpected, as it has never happened before and it also didn't happen when I tried to reproduce it by moving the door.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Meditating on cavity

It has been a while since I last sat down and just meditated. Already 20 minutes of meditation had cool results. Meditated on widening channels and chakras as well as the cavity in the head. Psi density in the area rose remarkably and it felt as if my head was pushed to the right. In the right side of the brain, psi density didn't rise and things were a bit out of balance again.

The bindu point that I used to focus on, for the last couple of weeks I haven't felt like I should focus on it again. It seems that there are other areas that wouldn't be able to keep up with it when I did. So, I have been focusing on the cavity between the ears and forehead instead.

Attempted pk on a soda can after that, but couldn't spot much improvements yet. Need to meditate more and balance the hemispheres again, perhaps then I might see a difference.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Some geisting

Shirak suggested an experiment - light table experiment. It's basically a room which people can visit while having lucid dreams or just meditating. The idea is that everyone takes a look at the table, remembers the objects and perhaps adds a few of their own.

Before falling asleep, I attempted to visit it and added an object. I'm not sure of the objects that were on the table .. couldn't recognize many of them.

TranceEffect had uploaded a video on which he attempted to light an incense stick by doing pk on a nearby candle. I found the way he treated the flame worth noticing. He treated the flame as if it were a perfect lifeform on its own. Then, through love he had become one with the flame. 

There's quite a heavy snowfall around here (which makes it easy to see and feel the wind), so in a morning lecture, I tried to apply the same attitude towards the wind and snow outside. It was fun playing around with redirecting the wind with snowflakes, applying stasis on it, make snowflakes rise higher by blowing wind from below and so on. Tried the same while coming home.

The experience of being filmed by a TV crew and being able to see how it all works made my camera-nervousness drop significantly. At some point I realized it didn't make a difference whether there was a camera or there wasn't. After a while I noticed that I was subconsciously practicing pk there. A few loud snapping sounds appeared from random places around the room while they were interviewing a colleague. Then, even though no doors nor windows were open, the flags on the table started moving. No-one noticed this, because there were bigger problems like someone opening the creaky door, rushing in, talking on the phone and stuff.

At home, I switched the light on (the one above the radiometer) - thought I could slip in some pk practice or something. I ate and read posts on the forums at the same time. Finished eating and when I did, I realized there had been something strange going on the whole time. The radiometer didn't start spinning. I quickly took the camera and started recording. Knocked on the glass and the vanes started rotating slowly, practiced some stasis field on the vanes and then let the vanes go .. they started gaining speed again. Didn't feel any connection, I didn't even feel being in a pk mind-state - it was just another geisting experience resulting from pk practice.

Man, the whole day went into searching for working video editing programs and working encoders for linux. At least I think I've got it now and the editing of next videos should be faster. Gimp for drawing pictures, Lives for turning pictures into video clips and Avidemux for sequencing video clips and adding transition filters.

Radiometer stasis geisting

Toy windmill stasis with wind from the balcony

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Nirvana chakra

Opened the balcony door to let some air in yesterday. The air was quite warm (about -4 degrees Celsius) and I decided to place a toy windmill in front of the door. Tried to spin it clockwise, as wind spins it counter-clockwise. Budged it a little clockwise a few times. Although it usually doesn't move much, it responds to pk very well (through small movements).

Performed pranayama and khechari mudra again yesterday night. With the pranayama, there was a rush of blood into my head and it got quite hot.

Then meditated on what I thought was Nirvana chakra. I didn't know where it was and just started visualizing myself cleaning and polishing a sphere above the center of the head. After a while, I started to feel it and my head started getting hot from near the center. The heat spread downwards from there.

Couldn't sleep very well and woke up pretty often. I had slept for a couple of hours during the day, perhaps that's why.

The TV crew postponed the visit XD .. nice.

Took another attempt on the toy windmill at the balcony door today. This time I also recorded it .. until I started freezing (5 minutes) because of the -3 degrees Celsius blowing on my hands and T-shirt. It seems as if cold slightly helps me get into pk mind-set. Anyway, the recording turned out pretty crappy - forgot the camera in macro mode and it kept focusing & defocusing again. Some weird glitches also turned up on the recording (as if a few pixel rows on the sensor had lagged behind the others).

Have been attempting stasis directly on the microwave oven fan for a few times now. I'm seeing some effects of it slowing down slightly. At full speed it looks like one continuous blur and when it slows down, darker (or more transparent) stripes appear. It spins so fast that it's somewhat difficult for me to feel separate blades spinning.

Watched this Oscar Hsu interview again, to figure out what this embryonic breathing is about. While watching it again, I felt some presence also watching it from behind me. Couldn't recognize it and I couldn't get any answer by asking it.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Too many mind

While walking to school .. uphill at that moment, I guess my bindu point opened up a bit more or something. I suddenly got the familiar feeling of density inside and around my head. With it, more cold fluid flowed into the system and my breathing slowed down from wheezing to barely breathing at all (while still going uphill on slippery ice and snow).

It was rather windy today. Practiced wind redirection, blocking and stasis on school- and homewalks. Success rate has been almost 100% for quite a while already. Well, after mentioning success on car location (which was also about 100% for a few weeks) on the forums, I noticed that my success rate had dropped. With every attempt, my mind was clouded with thoughts on the post .. need to improve on that.

Took a pk rolling attempt on a soda can. Thought I should set camera up and recording just in case. Since it's been a while since I last recorded anything, I got a bit nervous and mind became busy. Occasionally my mind became clear enough and the can started wobbling. Should take it on more seriously when there's more time. Too bad there's a test in microworld physics at the same time as TV crew that will be interviewing students working on the student satellite (would've wanted to participate).

Have been occasionally intending on Treasure Hunter's success with opposing force training on a toy windmill yesterday and today. Sometimes I visualized the situation and attempted pk on it, trying to help him. He had taken a picture of this windmill and I found it interesting that when I first saw the picture, I saw it spinning clockwise. It was later that I read the text - he wanted to make it spin clockwise, as it would normally spin counter-clockwise with the fan.

Amrit oven

Had an interesting dream today morning, though I'm not happy about it at all.

There was a strange oven in the kitchen and I noticed it was on so that the whole room was heated up. With the insides of the oven glowing in heat and slight smoke rising, I quickly turned the knobs to turn it off. The grates and walls inside the oven stopped glowing.

Inside the oven there was a small tank with a nozzle that seemed to have been made of some transparent plastic. It was weird that it had withstood all the heat. Anyway, right as I had turned the oven off, a flame shot out from the nozzle. I tried to blow it out, but it always got on fire again. When the nozzle previously had spots of mold and dirt on it, it all completely burned away. I was getting more and more worried both about the tank melting up, exploding or the transparent liquid inside it burning up.

Removed the tank from the oven and managed to put the flame out. When I did this, some of the fluid started leaking out and I realized that the tank was under pressure. I was about to put the tank on the table to look at how I could fix it, but due to moving the tank with an acceleration, the surface of the liquid became unstable, a lot of fumes built up and it sprayed all over the place.

As the liquid fell on my hands, it was soft, but cold and somewhat superfluous - one drop covered the whole hand. It was more than a material fluid - it felt highly spiritual and densely packed with psi. Being pressurized and with a high fluidity, the tank sprayed completely empty. Then I was like: "NoOooOOO" and loaded the save game again (thought I should be able to do that in the dream).

Well, I couldn't load it and had a wet dream. Woke up to stop the wet dream, as I realized that I had just messed up and emptied my Bindu fluid reserves in the dream (that tank with the cold liquid). Visualized filling the tank up again. It felt as if it really did something - my body and head really felt like being filled with a cold liquid.

The pranayama exercise I did before going to sleep probably pumped more psi and bindu fluid together, resulting in too much pressure for me. Need to work on coping with higher pressures.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Time-stop

Father came home late and we kept chattering on psionics and holographic universe subjects .. until it was 4 AM. He suggested me to practice telepathy on schoolwalks instead of doing it at home, as I had previously suggested we should do. Well, it's correct that I haven't practiced it on schoolwalks lately, but I didn't quite like the answer - it's the same as with all other skills, he avoids teaching me stuff and intends on me learning everything by myself. On the other hand, this is what I also like about his teaching - it clearly emphasizes that a student should be more open-minded than their teacher and should in every way surpass their teacher.

Ah, one more thing that we discussed was retrokinesis. Father didn't believe one could affect the past and on my experiment with applying stasis field on an already recorded video, he thought I might've affected the video instead. When he said this, I realized that I had a mind-block that affecting digital information is so difficult it's nearly impossible. I had failed to realize that with pk on material objects, we also don't focus on moving all molecules, but rather we focus on moving the whole. The same could be done with a video - a new kind of training - using pk to draw shapes on a pre-recorded video.

Meditated before going to sleep. Performed pranayama and khechari mudra again. Lately it has happened more than once that I take a look at the clock projection on the ceiling, meditate for what I think lasts about 30 minutes and when I look back at the clock projection, it hasn't changed. Yesterday night it showed 5.49 (which means it was actually 4.49 AM), then continued with khechari mudra and focused on Sahasrara. After a while of tongue stretching and feeling of psi rocking around in my head and above the top of my head, I looked at the clock again and it still showed 5.49. At first I thought I had remembered the clock wrong, but since it has happened at least twice already, I'm wondering if there's actually something going on.

It could be that when we tap into higher frequencies while meditating, we begin to function so much faster than usual that it would appear as if time had stopped.

Hm, judging by this wiki page on mass deficit and assuming that vacuum is full of high-energy oscillations and rather unstable, one could create matter just by dissipating energy. Now this would be fun to do with pk =D.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Increased sensitivity

Felt quite tired, slept for a couple of times and then started studying for an upcoming test.

Couldn't understand much of what I had written there in the lectures. Anyway, at some point, my mind was overcome in calmness and the only thoughts that were wandering were about the text I was reading. During reading, I occasionally made a few short pauses to think about it, but ended up playing around with pk on the conspectus pages without any thoughts.

While going to the bathroom, I passed by the mirror and I was a bit surprised how well I could feel myself through my reflection in the mirror. I wondered if that's why they consider meditation in front of a mirror being dangerous without the presence of a guru.

I came back and opened the balcony window to let in some fresh air. Thought I could attempt pk on the door via wind manipulation instead of the direct manipulation that I usually practice. The door only budged a little in the intended directions. While looking at the door, I noticed I could see psi rising on the edge of the door. Closed the door manually.

Took a few short attempts on other objects as well and I could see psi rising off a chair, psi moving around on the floor just above the carpet. It looked the same - like a totally transparent smoke that stands out from dark background as if it were slightly glowing. On a bright background it appears as a pattern of brighter and darker areas (just like some kind of a smoke).

Meditated some and thought it would be fun to attempt levitation again (it's been a while since I last tried it). Well, I didn't succeed in lifting off, but something was different from previous times. I developed a feeling that I haven't felt before - it's not the regular feeling of being lifted (though, it's difficult to describe). When I focused on the feeling, it got stronger and I started having the feeling of knowing I would succeed in this. I chickened out aka became too excited and lost the emptiness of my mind.

Robotex '10

Watching Robotex 2010 live. This is the time when robots really become alive, acquire a personality and do how they see fit.

I decided to cheer for the robot of one of my friends that take part in the competition. In the first match, their robot just stood still and did nothing. I wished I would see it moving.

Next match it was moving slowly and kicking golf balls randomly around the field.

Next round, it was still slow but started hitting a few goals. There were matches against faster and more accurate robots, but so far they have won them .. with real funny "coincidences". It was nice to see their faces .. amazed at their luck XD.

I had wished they would get the 4th place .. and they've got it, yay =D.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Not-very-titled

Even though I visualized venting the psi of the food I ate yesterday, I still felt the psi at school today. It made me feel uncomfortable.

For the last few days, the psi density around my head has been rising again even while not practicing anything. While walking to school or back home, the psi density around my head occasionally changed rapidly just like during the OBE step I experienced about 2 weeks ago.

Also, that pranayama exercise I've been doing, I went from intermediate to beginner level and still couldn't keep doing it for very long - this probably means that I'm doing it right or at least better than before.

I've noticed recently that I can concentrate on my consciousness without much effort. Although I haven't meditated much in the Mooji way, I can feel my consciousness and body separately. Perhaps it's a side-effect of performing khechari mudra?

Ah, one thing I've noticed for quite a few times already, but haven't quite understood yet. When I switch the light off, radiometer usually takes a quick burst. I wonder if the lamp somehow bursts before switching off (haven't really seen any flashes while switching it off). Also, when I switch the lamp on, it starts off slow because of some self-sustaining constructs around it. Then why would it quickly gain speed before slowing down when I switch the light off?

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Weird diet

Aw, man. I haven't eaten much for a day .. been messing around with a presentation for tomorrow. The weirdest / worst thing is that even though I'm hungry, meat foods make me sick.

At first I thought it was one of those vegetarian waves I have had. Most of these waves usually lasted for a day or two and never longer than that. However, it has now been almost like a month - haven't been able to eat meat very well since I had that flu.

It's strange .. some of my favorite foods don't taste edible anymore .. man, at least I have to eat what I have stuffed up on the plate. Hope I won't throw anything up. Have to taste a small amount of stuff before eating. I was able to eat blood sausages last week and somehow these tasted good.

A month ago or so I wasn't able to last very long without eating at school, I grew really hungry and always ate a lot. Now I barely feel any hunger even when I haven't eaten anything for a day.

Eating only dairy products and sweets, can I really get all the nutrients I need this way? Well, after visiting the gym, the only thing I really want is kefir. During the day I eat curd, muesli, black and white bread.

Got to try khechari mudra when I start feeling hungry. I wonder how long I could stay alive without eating anything like this. Well, I think that with this weird diet continuing, I'll soon be only drinking juice and then eating nothing.