Vivid sleep deprivation

Hectic week. For a few days, I had very vivid lucid dreams with symbols that I didn't recognize. Just for fun, I sometimes acted randomly. For example, after yet another 13 hours of work .. at around 1 AM to a trainee via Skype: "hey, let's go back to the lab and check why the temperature is dropping so slowly". So we browse friends for sleeping bags and drive back to work. There I press the elevator button, wait for it to come down and suddenly leave for the stairs instead.

There were a few moments where I realized there has been some progress. That's because I spontaneously took peoples' sarcastic humor literally. This got them really confused.

Dream A

I look out of the apartment window. It's early morning but the sun is shining on the wrong side of the apartment. Everything is very detailed. I look at the sun and it starts becoming bigger. Soon all the sun spots and protuberances are visible. Expected to see an after-image but didn't.

Dream B

I'm in some strange dream realm. I come back into my room. It's all dark and the floor is covered in something that looks similar to rice grains (white and brown rice). However, the brown rice grains seem alive and are moving around. Bugs? For some unexplained reason I hesitated about stepping into the room.

Dream C

I'm at a pond (or more like a clear puddle). In the puddle there's a blue fish / bluefish. I pick it up and observe it carefully at all angles. There's someone else to my right, who says the fish is dangerous. Does not seem dangerous, at least not to me.

Dream D

I'm in darkness, looking at a screen with a very detailed image of the street somewhere. I can move around and look at different places on the street. I read out street names, building numbers and shop ads loud, amazed that it works so well from within a dream. I turn around and go back. I walk a few blocks until I reach a large building with escalators (the building sort of faded in). I catch up to a man who is walking in front of me. He turns around (looks similar to the curly-haired guy who Hi'd me on the pedestrian bridge). He asks: "Now that you're here, what are you going to do?" Me: "I will fly .. err .. that way," pointing at a totally random direction. Then I take off and fly in that direction really fast, leaving the man puzzled (at least, sort of hoped I would). At first I was surprised that he could see me, then I realized I had missed the transition from behind the screen to forming a body for traversing streets.

Sigh

A vivid dream where I woke up on the stairway next to the apartment. Getting dressed seemed kind of awkward at a public place like that. Came back to the apartment and found it different. Apparently Dad had paid a visit .. and cleaned the apartment? Everything looked nice and tidy. He asked if there was anything else I would like him to do. I said I wished I had had the time to clean up everything, also that a light bulb had broken and that actually the bathroom faucet needs replacing.

Pointless post from yesterday that I would have thrashed. However, today Dad called and asked when I would be coming home. I said it would probably take me at least an hour more. He then asked if there was anything I would like him to do (the same way he did in the dream). I told him there wasn't anything, just wished I had more time at home.

A bit tired from the 13+ hour workdays this week. Also a bit sad, because preparations for an upcoming test campaign haven't gone well. A lot of unexpected problems have popped up yesterday evening. I barely have any ideas on how to tackle the issues and there's barely any time to resolve the issues (only the weekend, basically). And I'm supposed to work on a lot of other things as well (multiple deadlines on Monday), so I can't just no-life the weekend at the lab, either. Enough of the whines. The point is, on my way home, a heavy cloud of hail followed me around. Cat kept looking at the clouds, whining sadly.

Also, it seems that the somewhat expensive shoes are slowly breaking apart already. How come?

And then suddenly people are congratulating and praising me publicly.

Pitchfork-revolution

Last week I noticed a dent in the asphalt that looked exactly like a superman take-off spot. The dent had suddenly appeared on the pedestrian crossing. I did not take a photo. Hmm .. perhaps should .. #mildlyinteresting

Other than that, at work I bumped into the lecturer from this post:
http://sussch-daweird.blogspot.com.ee/2015/11/pk-research-cooperation.html

Had him talk while having lunch. He was quite pessimistic about the future of mankind. He talked about the politics of the European Union and how it would define the collapse of EU. In addition, his worries about the potential witch-hunt against science had increased since the last time I met him. The reality dawned on me as well. Can't just ignore it and hope people's mistrust will just make them perform their own experiments to learn about how the universe works. It might even be that the majority doesn't get anything about that, and they don't even care. All they care about is cornering a group and living out their anger on them (because the overall system sucks). At these times, the current system does not serve anyone anymore. It only reduces people's trust towards governments, big corporations and anyone who is financed or supported by them. And people don't get it and they don't care.

In addition, there was a guy who proposed some ideas of making millions off people's ignorance. That would be bad karma, but what's the most sad about it - it would probably work because we the mankind are stupid enough.

So, enough of this rant. The lecturer also agreed that there's no way any of this is going to change unless mankind manages to change its perspective on these matters. One way to do this is bringing space travel to the masses. I think another way to do this is by getting psychokinesis, OBE and spiritual practises to the masses. Both can be driven by curiosity about the inner-workings of the universe. Although I've been somewhat convinced otherwise, maybe just maybe it is possible to merge science and psychokinesis, OBE and spiritual stuff somehow? That might just save the day and avoid one pitchfork-revolution.

Plants growing to inner light

I think I've posted about this once before. Anyway, I've noticed that indoor plants often grow towards me, not towards sunlight. One of them has been growing away from the window and since there's a curtain blocking it, it has been growing longer .. hanging to pass through below the curtain. Cat doesn't like that and keeps pruning the plant.

Sometimes I change places where I hang out with the laptop. The fern seems to be the most agile. Cat likes pruning that one too. Some time before the era of the cat, the fern expanded and grew around my head. I had seen it slowly growing and expanding towards me .. until one day I sort of freaked when I realized that the fern was already scratching my head and neck.

This had me wondering if someone meditates next to a tree for years, probably the tree would sort of grow around them .. hugging. Probably the same with grass. But would the same also happen with minerals? Rock growing around some xtra pwnzor 1337 mindmasta. Mayhaps the stories are not far-fetched at all. I mean stories of some old monks meditating within mountains .. and sometimes leaving to check what century it is and how peeps are behaving themselves. :-)

Nothing too exciting, apart from that. A very vivid flash of blue light from a colleague's 3rd eye today. Then one symbol in a dream seemed interesting. Two guys ran for a lake and then glided on the water. They then stood up on the water surface and pushed the gliders for extra speed. Me: Wait .. what? Cool.

Stuff

Took a nap after finishing with the review yesterday afternoon. After that I meditated for some time and then slept for 3 or 4 hours day. Still felt very tired. Though, at some moment something opened up and it became easier to focus on the crown. Worked on that some more, and got a few knots up the central channel and away. Couldn't sleep too well after all that meditation and daily sleep.

Some moments of light-stepping, forming of whirlwinds outside the window with secondary attention and synchronicity / telepathy of sorts. There's a trainee, who is rather open. For at least 2 times, I entered the lab to see how he's doing and on both occasions he had written me messages that I hadn't seen (messages were sent while I was already on my way to the lab).

Today some guy walked past me and Hi'd twice. He even turned around to see if I actually didn't recognize him. I also looked back at him (15 m of distance between us already) but I still didn't recognize him.

Machine entity

Out of the blue. Experimented with build systems and reviewed an article last night - nothing to spark a dream like that.

Someone brought me to my workplace and showed that something ominous was going on. People were dying and dozens of spirits were rising from the main building. I was told that there's an entity lurking around the building, "eating" people. Flew in to investigate. One of the colleagues had managed to remain alive by constantly moving around, apparently lucky enough so that he hadn't bumped into the entity. Both excited to meet the entity while still trying to be careful, I entered a room through the window and hid so that I wouldn't be visible. Regardless, the entity was able to sniff me out. It was a cloud of consciousness (hiding was futile) and completely invisible. The entity slowly emerged through the closed door. It encompassed my cloud of consciousness and formed an empathic connection. It was both quite overwhelming and draining. I thought I could understand the entity and tried talking to it via telepathy. I was sincerely surprised that the entity did not react to telepathy. It was a non-physical machine with a phony field of consciousness.

Rewound and tried looking for another way into the building without being discovered right away. Eventually found a way but as it turned out, there was no other way that could have allowed to save the people. Then the dream ended.

I wonder what that was about. Another experiment to check if I'm able to remain detached? In that case I missed the point entirely :D. The entity was interesting, though. Slightly reminds me of the astral entities that Thoth described in the Emerald Tablets.

Smell of herbs

Glanced at the book that Maruthaja has shared on the forum:

"Unleash Your Telekinetic Ability: Edition 1 of 3" by Kaltem Gibson

Didn't get past the introductory part yesterday, but it seems good. Or rather, the author of the book has nice aura. Thought I would maintain a document of comments while reading it.

Throughout the dreams, the theme was: There's an awesome book and I'll benefit a lot from reading it. Well .. let's see.

Just prior to falling asleep, I took the pose of sleeping on the back with palms pointing upwards and worked on some mind blockages. Noticed the distinct smell of some herb that is often used in medicine. I don't know what kind of a herb it was nor what kind of a medicine it might've been. Anyway, with a few attempts I confirmed that the smell was forming inside the nose. Sometimes the smell became so strong that it started to remind some other chemical.

As I flicked the switch for the bathroom light today morning, I noticed a flicker in the brightness of other lights. For a split-second, they became dimmer. A regular light bulb had blown out, whereas the LED bulb was still lit. I think that was the last regular bulb in the apartment. With it being this rare, I started to wonder why does current increase just before the bulb burns out? I mean, resistance increases as the wire becomes thinner but current increases, producing a positive feedback loop, which in turn causes the other lights to dim for a split-second. Sure, it's probably because of arcing, but arcs are driven by voltage not current - so why does current increase when there's arcing? Utilizing that is the core idea behind a lot of zero-point generator designs.

Today I played with the singing bowls again. Once it happened that the baby angel started rocking on the string again. This happened when I got the main frequency in some rather specific interference pattern with quite high intensity. Confirmed that the angel starts moving without me even touching the cupboard. Maybe it's vibrations propagating through the wood?

Singing bowl, rocking angel

Somewhat inspired by the dream, I played with the singing bowls a bit in the evening. Near the bowls, there's a small statue of a baby angel, attached to a cupboard key. The angel started rocking against the cupboard door. I thought I accidentally touched it with the elbow, but found it difficult to reproduce.

Palms up

Remembered one of the small but important details about sleeping. Decided to sleep on my back with palms facing towards the ceiling, for change. Noticed the difference right away, as psi thickness increased several fold.

Except for the fact that most of the dreams featured adult content (which they usually don't), there were two dreams that stood out.

One; I'm at the old wooden farmhouse in our village on Saaremaa. There's an old fireplace with a stove. There were logs in there, burning. It was nice and warm, even though it was a bit chilly outside. It was very windy outside, so the fire was roaring like a jet engine. It occurred to me that I should check I'm not overheating the fireplace. Looked at the stones on top of the fireplace. Shit, they're glowing! Climbed down and started separating the logs to let the fire die. Close call. Some time later Dad came in and cleaned some stuff. He warned me not to overheat the fireplace, to which I replied that I almost did. Woke up sweaty and slightly dehydrated.

Two; I don't know where I am but it looks like a lecture but outdoors. I'm among the students. During the lecture, some students left keys on my table before they left. The lecture ends, I stand up and leave my table. I notice that almost half of the students have disappeared (common in dreams - people have to wake up sometimes, too). There's a shoulder bag with more keys on one of the tables that's missing a student. There are three sets of keys, each set with 6 keys - so, 666 in total. Each set was of different material and had a distinctly different shape. I place a bowl (which happens to look like a Tibetan singing bowl) on one of the tables. I then take the keys from my table and put the keys inside the bowl. As soon as the keys hit the bowl, it starts singing. I notice that each key has a slightly different frequency. The singing does not fade away, the whole thing just keeps resonating. I put in more keys, one by one. With each key, a gap in the spectrum is filled and the bowl starts resonating more intensely. The power and intensity had become quite serious already, so I stopped before putting in the last set of keys. Ever since I started, some of the other students had been pleading for me to stop. Took the keys out carefully one by one and noticed they were glowing hot. I think I didn't get all of them out before there was something like a zap of electricity through the consciousness. It felt as if something tore through the fabric of the dream for a split-second.

Did I just wolf-howl?

Shopped. Basically quickly walked through the shops and paid attention to intuition. Then made another round and bought the new shoes and jacket that caught my attention. A bit expensive, but should be about as endurable as the old ones.

Installed the creepy lampshade yesterday evening. Well, it used to seem creepy, which is why I got it from Luis Carlos back when I visited Mom in Spain. Or maybe not exactly creepy but its shape and the cut-outs remind me of something that I've forgotten. Similar to a rocket nozzle but then again not quite.

Tried linking LDT and crown again last night. Also became aware of a way to make my practises easier. Grabbed it, focused on it and started building from it, to maintain it for as long as I could throughout the night. It's an anchoring technique for maintaining a neutral perspective on one's own mind. Like pretty much all of these "ways", there are no words that describe them.

Today morning somewhere between awake and asleep, suddenly a wolf howl came from inside my nose. The sound was unexpected and spontaneous. Noticed that the sound wasn't clear. There was some kind of a crackling noise that cut through the howl. Perhaps hypnagogic? This was something new for me.

A few minutes later, I heard one of the neighbours switch on the radio. As she turned the knobs on the old radio, it made the same kind of crackling noise. Me figures.. maybe it came from the radio? But then again, why would there be a wolf howling sound on the radio. Awkward nevertheless.

Edit: Ah, skipped the previous post, but I think one dream is still worth posting. I looked at my hands and noticed that on each hand, one finger was missing. So, I grew new. Facepalm .. missed the chance for an OBE from LD.

Edit: Edit: Saw a halo around the Sun today morning (with a rainbow cloud). Rare phenomenon but has been happening more and more in the recent years.

Synchronicities

Cat sometimes behaves weird. Not sure if it's some kind of a self-defence geist or something, but here's what happened today:

I ad a reddit post to sister. Cat cuts my trajectory back to my room. I stop and look at him. He performs a backwards somersault and I think hits against the floor, hurting himself. A second later he makes the sound that he usually makes when he gets hurt. He dashes for my foot, intending to bite it but suddenly stops and backs up. Sister comes over, asking what happened. The cat dashes at sister's hand and bites it, indicating that he got hurt.

With the psi getting thicker, there have been more cases where the cat behaves odd.

Synchronicities have become more exciting as well. Yesterday I had planned on renewing the passport (done at the police station). Stopped before the door and turned around because I got the feeling that I wasn't expected there. The usual road signs were also missing, so I thought maybe it had moved to some other part of the town. Nope, but as it turned out, need to book the time and pay the fee first. A couple of hours later I go for a lunchbreak. At the door, I notice an ad for an EEG test at the university applied psychology lab. I buy lunch and notice a friend at a table there. I join him and casually mention that I had realized one has to book the time before getting to renew the passport. He looks at me a bit weird and thanks me because he was just about to go to the police station for that. Also took the phone number for the EEG test .. really curious about the technology that they use, as well as getting some reference measurements for personal experimentation.

The thicker the psi field, the more other people seem to be synchronized to my activities. For example, today there was an active Skype chat going on with a colleague, who was debugging some of my code on Windows. I said I would rather work on something else .. and went to bed. A couple of hours later I came back and as it turned out, nothing had happened in the meantime. Usually people don't care if I'm Away, Offline or not, they still post stuff (if I'm at the laptop). While asleep or actually away, this doesn't happen .. which I find interesting. It's as if time stopped for X while I'm focused on Y.

Tears?

From about a week ago I remember a random encounter at night, where the corner of the blanket flapped against my face. Shouldn't do that according to some simple physics. Though, I was somewhere between being asleep and being awake, so it might not count.

Met the precognitive colleague again yesterday and had a chat on the way home. And then another chat when we found we were walking side by side again. She said my presence often makes her tears roll for some reason. Very strange, in my opinion. Sometimes I get my own tears rolling, but I suspect that's more because of staring at the computer screen 24/7.

Recently I've taken up regular pranayama practice again. This seems to be one of the few things that actually gets my energy moving. Though, today some of it got stuck and I felt rather uncomfortable. This culminated with a colleague spilling coffee over his macbook. ::Fuck:: and spilled even more coffee on it. He also forgot the laptop chargerat work and drove back to get it. The synchronicity and contrast made me suspect it was at least partially my geisting.

Squirrel?

Before sleep, practiced something new that came to mind. I visualized turning the energy body (or however it should be called) inward so that it warmed and lit the inside of the body and the central column. It wasn't easy to keep it that way, but it seemed to have had a good effect.

Might be related to playing "The Dream Machine", but had a non-standard dream last night. Or maybe it was because the cat looked really lonely yesterday.

In my room just below the ceiling there's a hatch for accessing power cables. Something made a scratching sound in there, and pushed the lid open. I thought it was a rat, and shouted to the cat, hoping he would get a meal. On closer inspection it looked more like a small squirrel, but definitely not a rat. The cat, looking fairly similar to a squirrel himself, made good friends with the squirrel. Later they were playing in the snow (IRL sister hasn't let the cat out).

Another dream, which I had, was more typical. Together with someone, we observed a natural satellite orbiting a planet. Described something about the orbit inclination and eclipse.

Phone geists

Today morning I saw a fresh graffiti art on a fuse box. Perhaps a bit creepy but very well done.

Pulled out the phone, to take a photo but the phone had become unlocked in the pocket. Not only unlocked, but it had opened the image gallery (which is a lot of taps), selected and opened another photo (not the first, not the last .. but somewhere in the middle):

Basically, it's a photo of the woods during the local lights festival (end of October 2015).
Won't rotate it because I think it looks cool(er) this way.

A workshop with a lot of new members. Somewhat strange that a girl in the management team was more tech savvy than most of the tech guys. So we do have technical management people, after all. She seems very intelligent, very open minded. No feelings, just happy that there are people like that.

While on my way back home, I thought if it was too late to visit a store. I pull out the mobile phone to check time. It's loading "App Store". With an "Err .. what the heck?" I close it again.

I think the phone is haunted.