Wednesday, October 13, 2010

That's not who I am

All other sources for headaches except for the one in the right hemisphere are gone. The latter one has certainly gotten better, but hasn't completely dissolved yet.

Back when I started building the superhero construct to boost my self-confidence and belief in psionics, one of the thoughts I imprinted on the superhero was that he had no ego. With associating the construct with myself, I must have blinded myself from my own ego.

I was surprised today that I felt somewhat injured and disappointed, when a great and known professor mocked people playing with "energy". Also, I had lost the sense of individualism in psionics practices when I posted something on the psychokinesis forum. And today, when talking with my sister, I felt prejudice poisoning my thoughts.

It has been a while since the last time I was so easily influenced by these minor things. I used to be a lot more aware of myself. I have either become soft due to arrogance in psionics practices or because I have been blinded from my ego. Either way, I have to change.

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