Need that habit

Practiced some PK in the morning and thought: "Yup, there certainly is something wrong with my PK".

Actually, it's been already a few days now with a nice feeling of the object, but I can't feel like I could move it enough to see it. Usually this has happened after an enthusiastic psionics practice.

Taking a break of a few days or a week usually helps, but I don't want to take a break. I want it to finally grow into a habit. On the other hand, how come I can't move it if I have enough psi, can easily get the feeling of the object that I'm trying to move and I just can't even visualize it move. Well, I guess that the problem is that as I can't move it, I can't visualize it move past the point that it even hasn't reached yet, because it has never worked that way (for me at least).

Slept a lot during the day, don't know if I'll be able to sleep at night.

Record in going to school early

I don't know why I thought that I had to wake up at 6.30, went to school to find that nobody was there - I was 4 and a half hours too early - Why?

What is more, if I would have noticed it earlier, I could have gone back home, but I was too damn certain that the practical started at 8.15.

If I haven't gotten enough sleep, I sometimes tend to think / visualize harmful things. The exact thing happened, when I was walking to school. The somewhat bloody anime Akira was haunting in my thoughts.

At the exact moment that a really unpleasant idea popped into my mind, some taxi parking right next to me suddenly beeped and brought me back to reality. However, it seemed that he had completely accidentally hit the button.

Had another flashback in school: I was an older woman living in a small blueish-green colored house and looking out of the window. There were leafless trees everywhere. The sky was covered in light clouds. I felt happy with my life and was proud of my son.

Psionic Hangover

Had a slight headache in the morning - thought it was from yesterday's over-
practice.

Practiced PK for 20 minutes and went to bed late again. The feeling of the pencil came already within the first few minutes. The psi pressure in my hands could be sensed earlier (than yesterday) as well. I guess I'm not getting very strong psi pressure as fast as 1.5 years ago because I'm really keeping the psi pressure down in my head (don't want to experience the same headaches again) to keep away from causing short-circuits in the brain psi channels.

Short-circuits are more difficult to heal than wounds that just need
fresh psi and even heal by themselves.

Losing the urge

There's more-or-less nothing left of the "great urge to practice". Filled in the
gaps in this list of weird experiences.

I just thought I would practice a few minutes or so - just to bring the urge back or something. Ended up practicing PK for an hour without even noticing the time. I really started to feel the psi pressure in my legs, hands and head and got decent feeling of the pencil before me.

It reminded me of the weeks of practice year and a half ago when I could actually more-or-less move some things on demand. It wasn't even half as strong as it was back then, but at least it's progress.

Caffeine Psi

Hadn't slept much (just 5 and a half hours). Stuffed myself full of psi to keep
myself awake without losing focus in the electricity and magnetism practical.

I came back home and solved 3 electricity and magnetism problems in just 1 hour and 20 minutes (that's fast). It happened more than twice that I opened the book from exactly the correct page or found myself looking at the exact formula that I needed right after turning the page.

I was amazed, but I didn't have any time to think about it then. Then I slept for 10 minutes. It was difficult to wake up as I had fallen into a deep sleep state. When the alarm rang, it took some time until I came to, but before becoming fully awake, I noticed that I had seen a blurry picture of a room that had a light brown color to it. I felt like: "Hm, this isn't it - I had to do something else when the alarm rings." After that I really woke up - slowly.

Cushion of psi

Before going to sleep, I practiced levitation again and it felt as if I was being
slightly pushed upwards by a cushion of psi underneath.

After a few seconds, I realized that I couldn't keep focused on the pull against gravity anymore. Almost at the same moment, I heard my sister coughing (without being sick or anything) next door.

I paused the practice, thought that it couldn't have been me and restarted focusing on the pull. Then I heard my neighbour coughing (she's healthy aswell). Ok, I stopped the practice again. When I tried it the third time, I noticed that muscles on my hand were twitching. I didn't care, I just practiced for a few seconds longer and muscles on my neck started twitching.

It ocurred to me that this probably means that I'm too tired or something. When I stopped practicing, the twitching immediately went away. Went to bed late and couldn't sleep much (I constantly found myself trying to solve some mathematical problems in the dreams).

Note: See post "Suffocaton".

Snapping and crackling sounds around me

Watched a few psionics videos again. Practiced PK and levitation for maybe half an hour before going to sleep. While practicing, all kinds of sudden snapping and crackling sounds keep startling me. Most of the time it's the laptop that is cooling down after use. However, sometimes it's the furniture or something else that usually doesn't make any sound except for when my balcony door's open - but this isn't always the case.