Clips of dreams

Although I've forgotten most of the dreams from the past couple of weeks, there have been a few things that stood out.

Quote out of context

I've forgotten what the dream was about, and what was the context. Just me and some other family member in the kitchen at the summerhouse. I think the other family member told me: "If you hold the world, then the world holds you".

I think I was embarrassed for them to have to tell me something this obvious. Probably that's why I'm not sure if indeed the family member told me that, or I told this to the family member.

All in all, it doesn't matter, for the quote asserts the importance of attitude towards everything.

New apartment complex

I was flying across the large pavement square next to the stores when I decided to check out a new apartment complex that was being constructed somewhere.

It appeared as an overlay behind the pavement square. A straight path through a bunch of trees, and then the apartment complex was at the end of the path, on the left. The new path and the apartment complex had a golden shine to it, like the astral counterparts of objects (and people) often do.

I touched the pavement gently (so much so that I was impressed as well), and started walking towards the building. For me, the only thing that really stood out about the dream was the way I touched the ground. The pavement looked wet and littered with tiny shards of glass and I was in socks. However, it seemed that it did not matter because of the attitude with which I touched the ground. It was the attitude that made all the difference.

Grandpa, the other one

I was having a chat with the grandpa that's still alive and well. At some point he said he was moving.

In the dream I was like: "Oh, that's nice". Me after waking up: "Wtf, this is ominous". The thing is, at his age moving apartments would be very unlikely.

Though, I'm glad that he and my sister now get along well again. Mom told me something interesting though: "She's similar to grandpa's mother. He did not get along too well with his mother." The way I see it, this hints at reincarnation again.

Grumpy granny on saucer patents

Actually before watching Kimi no na wa, I had watched Texhnolyze which had a very sad ending but it hit the same spot as Kimi no na wa. Texhnolyze is very dark and bloody, so I wouldn't recommend it.

A part of the desire and emotions that I mentioned in the previous post, were about flying saucer patents. After reading quite a few of them, the passion decreased considerably. For me, most of the mysterious shroud has been lifted and I think I have realized at least the following:

1. The reason why we're driving around in cars instead of flying around in saucers:
1. There are plenty of problems that are still not easily solved with today's physics and technology.
2. While there probably is technology that solves these problems, most of this physics and technology is still way beyond mainstream.
3. In general, nobody cares because there's old and proven technology already out there and it's way cheaper to keep using it instead of funding sketchy R&D for tens of years.
2. Most of the patents don't hold water, as it's just some inventors wishing for the big fish without having even tested a proof of concept.
1. Well, I also haven't tested the proof of concept so I shouldn't be the one labeling something as "probably pollocks". However, most of the effects are too weak to produce enough thrust. At least one of the inventors actually mentioned this in one of their patents. All of his patents were about tricks to improve the thrust.
2. Most of the patents are about the utilization of a single effect, without considering all the other factors. Most of the patents are still about ion wind, which would only work in lower atmosphere.
3. A lot of conspiracy nuts (just like myself) are blown away by just images from patents instead of actually looking into the patents. I find it hilarious that among patents of flying saucers, there's at least one patent on a generic UFO-shaped amusement device for kids.
4. Mainstream science is way more correct about things than most conspiracy nuts (including me) like to think.

Hmm .. or maybe I'm just becoming old?

Don't get me wrong, though. I'm convinced that by combining mainstream physics, there would be enough thrust for small vehicles. For sure it'll make for an interesting hobby. Also, while at it, might just as well find more pieces of the puzzle for actual anti-gravity.

Kimi no na wa

A masterpiece that hit home way more than I would've anticipated.

Recently I've been struggling with the heat of desire and emotions again. Especially since I know that I need to find a girlfriend. Yesterday I stalked an old crush of mine, to find that she's found a guy. I'm glad and I wish them all the best. I was given plenty of chances but I was a bit disappointed because except for the empathy, I couldn't find a common ground. Timing wasn't the best, either. Pff .. romance in this blog.

In "Kimi no na wa" they got it quite right about the fading of memories after waking up. However, there are a lot of memories stored in the body and when one possesses another, then they can already make use of the memories and skills. I also loved the fact that there was a time shift, and that the protagonists managed to alter things. I found it very realistic how things changed without proof that anything was altered at all, as well as the way Taki only remembered having a peculiar interest in the small town and how the townspeople had survived.

All in all, in exchange for tears, the movie helped me realize a thing or two.

Cat glowing red

Vacation, so have been sleeping a lot.

Had a dream of attending a conference far away (still on Earth, tho) and missing the bus back home. Woke on alarm.

The cat had been sleeping on the blanket, just on top of my feet. As it woke up and stretched itself, I saw it as glowing red. Everything else in my room looked normal. At first, the glowing red cloud extended beyond its fur. With the gradual fading of the cloud, in a couple of seconds I could only see the red glow from underneath its fur, and eventually I lost sight of it altogether.

Haibane Renmei

Watched Haibane Renmei. It's a masterpiece that deals with the cycles of reincarnation and enlightenment.

A really good one:

Communicator: "To recognize one's own sin is to have no sin. So, are you a sinner?"

Rakka: "Uh! But if I think I have no sin, then I become a sinner!"

Communicator: "Perhaps this is what it means to be bound by sin. To spin in the same circle, looking for where the sin lies, and at some point losing sight of the way out."

Non-standard dreams

Went to bed after returning from a sauna evening yesterday. I think my hair was still a bit moist as I left, which might have triggered the second dream.

Dream: Astronaut

For the first time I got to experience being launched to low earth orbit with a rocket, in a dream, though. An awesome experience. At some point during the ascent, the dangers dawned on me, so I started a thorough observation of my emotions and thoughts. The launch was flawless, and got to observe the Earth while floating around weightless.

Dream: Attempts to fix the roof

It was a nice and calm weather, so I went to fix the roof of a building. As a temporary solution, the roof was covered in a plastic film. As the first thing, I removed the film. But then I thought that I could do it better. Rewound and tried it again, then again. Each time that I redid it, it became more windy and it was more and more difficult to even reach the same quality as I did for the first time.

All in all, due to seeking quality beyond what I could achieve without trying, I failed to fix the roof.

Wisdom from a grumpy cat

Got a chance to visit father yesterday. Reserved a few hours for chatting.

Among other interesting stories, he told one of his dreams where their cat asked him a question.

• Cat: "When one asks a question, then what is it that they want?"
• Father: "What a complicated question, how would I know?"
• Cat: "They want their question to be understood."
• .. cat leaves the scene ..

Ingenious, imho.

Latent power

On Sunday evening I found the source of my cellphone wallpaper. Official music video of Porter Robinson & Madeon - Shelter. Found the story and visuals quite good.

After working late again yesterday evening, I went to bed. While meditating / simply laying there before falling asleep, I noticed some kind of a power that I had not noticed for a long time. Guided by prior experience, I kept a safe distance and simply observed the power that was asleep somewhere within the body. I figured that I would need to maintain constant awareness of it, to avoid misusing it.

Well, from my own perspective today I seemed more impulsive than usual, and found it rather easy to produce bursts of psi.

Dream: Predator

A predator entered home. Due to the lack of a better idea of how to get rid of it, I decided to domesticate it by ensuring that it has enough food. Started browsing the fridge. Found all sorts of food, snacks and stuff. The predator gratefully ate all of these. Among the last items from the fridge was a plastic bag with a bunch of moss and green grass .. and as it turned out, a live hare. So the predator ate the hare as well.

Although the predator looked like a large cute cat, all the other cats and dogs were scared for their lives whenever this predator was in the house. The predator was full, so I was relieved and decided to go to the store to stock up for the next day so that it wouldn't eat all the cats and dogs.

Dream of flight

A summary, written during fast times.

Too much media. Probably family will be pissed about me not notifying them about my appearances.

One morning I saw through the closed eyelids again, with a matrix of light overlay. As I opened my eyes, I still saw the matrix for a couple of seconds or so before it faded away.

Yesterday I had the chance to meet a mind that thinks alike. He had not done as much research and was a bit reckless but it's rare to find people with enthusiasm about the taboo topics such as UFO, ZPE, anti-gravity and so on.

Yesterday I put forth some effort to compensate for my sleep deprivation. Today morning I fancied flying in dreams. Flew around a bit, enjoying the freedom. Woke into another dream, still desiring to fly .. realized I've been practising it wrong .. and flew across the street. Saw my supervisor and decided to descend next to him for a quick chat. Walked home, and he transformed into father, I think.

I wish I would become fluent in flying around on all layers of dreamscape. Of course, including this one that they call reality.

Edit: Recently I've also found a lot of power from folk music. Wardruna, Hu and the like. Similar to what uncle's band used to produce.