A few evenings ago I performed pranayama and looked down at the body. Compared to the surroundings, there was a lot of yellowish biophoton noise surrounding it. This faintly glowing cloud extended quite far from the skin (at least some 30 cm in radius, around arms and feet). I don't think I've seen it with regular eyes this clearly before.
My habit of searching for a camera and trying to take photos of amazing scenery in the dreams is ruining it. This morning in a dream I was hiking around in the forest somewhere (between Poland and Germany, I think). Haven't physically been there yet. Anyway, waved bye to some people with a car and started walking towards a place I knew had to be in a certain direction. I had walked there once before. There was a fork in the road and although I was supposed to pick the right branch, I peeked left. In the distance, the left road crossed a railroad. The way that the morning sun was reflecting from the tracks .. I wanted to take a photo of that. Quickly the vividness of the surroundings faded and I woke up. Actually, the same happened to the dream in the previous post. I tried to take photos of the white ... whatever it was and those lights in the distance. Should really remember not to take photos, no matter how amazing a scenery.
Sunday, August 30, 2015
A portal of some sort
Recently I've found it rather difficult to maintain constant focus on pranayama and vajrayana. So I've been bouncing between stress and strong internal heat. There have been some familiar breakthroughs, though. Realized that the depressive mood was an old mind-pattern being released. It dissolved once I let it go. It was then that the sun came out, gradually clouds crumbled and the sky cleared up. This happened while I was waiting for the chicken that I had put in the oven. With the new energy that was released with the mind-pattern, I played with some water droplets on the oven window. Moved them left, right or stopped them from running down the glass.
Dreams have been quite interesting for about a week or so. A couple of nights ago I appeared in a town in a foreign country. The town was on a mountain side. A bit higher on the mountain, there was a large Midas-like gateway that looked really exciting. Wandered around the town restaurants and found some stone stoves and ovens interesting .. crawled around in them & stuff. Air chutes, chimneys become really puzzling while without a proper body. Once the sun had set, a group of us gathered somewhere in the town and left through a gate. I think I thought it was a normal gate leading onto a bridge, until I paid more attention to the surroundings. It was quite dark and somehow I had to look in one direction for quite a while in order to see what's there. We were walking above an infinitude of some sort of white ... (reminded of mountain ridges or a corral reef-like structure of salt). At first I thought the whole town stood at the top of a mountain with steep cliffs. Having previously explored the town a bit, I had not seen any sharp cliffs like that. Also, there was this sense of fractal infinitude in everything, which has been very rare in my dreams. After looking around at the white ... for some time, I started to wonder about those clusters of lights that I saw at a distance. Well, about the lights I only remember that they were not what I had thought they were. I had thought they were other towns, or houses or something. Woke up.
On second thought, La Gruta de las Maravillas in Aracena might be the closest match to the structures beyond the gateway.
Last night I had a dream where a colleague was present, whom I've very rarely seen in dreams. He wanted to show me his friend's place. His friend worked on special effects, much like himself. Well .. it was a mansion with interesting solutions in architecture and interior design. They showed me some of the tech, which was amazing but was not real (noticed inconsistencies due to dreaming).
The next dream I had a big house, which was quite cluttered with boxes. Wanted to open the window to let some fresh air in.
Dreams have been quite interesting for about a week or so. A couple of nights ago I appeared in a town in a foreign country. The town was on a mountain side. A bit higher on the mountain, there was a large Midas-like gateway that looked really exciting. Wandered around the town restaurants and found some stone stoves and ovens interesting .. crawled around in them & stuff. Air chutes, chimneys become really puzzling while without a proper body. Once the sun had set, a group of us gathered somewhere in the town and left through a gate. I think I thought it was a normal gate leading onto a bridge, until I paid more attention to the surroundings. It was quite dark and somehow I had to look in one direction for quite a while in order to see what's there. We were walking above an infinitude of some sort of white ... (reminded of mountain ridges or a corral reef-like structure of salt). At first I thought the whole town stood at the top of a mountain with steep cliffs. Having previously explored the town a bit, I had not seen any sharp cliffs like that. Also, there was this sense of fractal infinitude in everything, which has been very rare in my dreams. After looking around at the white ... for some time, I started to wonder about those clusters of lights that I saw at a distance. Well, about the lights I only remember that they were not what I had thought they were. I had thought they were other towns, or houses or something. Woke up.
On second thought, La Gruta de las Maravillas in Aracena might be the closest match to the structures beyond the gateway.
Last night I had a dream where a colleague was present, whom I've very rarely seen in dreams. He wanted to show me his friend's place. His friend worked on special effects, much like himself. Well .. it was a mansion with interesting solutions in architecture and interior design. They showed me some of the tech, which was amazing but was not real (noticed inconsistencies due to dreaming).
The next dream I had a big house, which was quite cluttered with boxes. Wanted to open the window to let some fresh air in.
Tuesday, August 25, 2015
Visualization: shining and weightless
Practised some Vajrayana last night. It affected the dreams in a nice way, I think. Dreams of first-person puzzles of climbing around and looking for secret areas.
Did not today morning and afternoon, which resulted in a backlash of stress and tension in the body. Noticed some strange effects.
In the lab I somehow managed to hit my right knee hard against the table while trying to step past a chair, I guess. I found it strange that it did not hurt at all, and somehow it looked and felt as if the steel beam had elastically bent around the knee and then back. Interesting.. ..
A colleague provided a lift to town. ::A medium-sized moth slams into the display while writing this:: Walked a bit with his daughter, discussing work and school stuff. There was a sudden change / jolt in the energy field and to her right, two cars crashed into each other. I said: "I wonder if that left a dent." However, it was evident that she had not noticed anything .. it was as if in her world nothing like that had happened. Even more strange was the fact that she didn't even hear I said anything. Realized it was my semi-subconscious design. While writing this down, it reminds me of the dream where she was driving his father's van and I was observing the field-of-view / limits of her creation.
While waiting for a bus, noticed a man that walked past me. Energy around him was red. Very red. I wouldn't say I see energy but he just stood out.
This incident brought me back to practising Vajrayana more. Visited the gym and noticed an effect right away. For the first time, people greeted me. One of the ladies seemed to be behaving differently.
Did not today morning and afternoon, which resulted in a backlash of stress and tension in the body. Noticed some strange effects.
In the lab I somehow managed to hit my right knee hard against the table while trying to step past a chair, I guess. I found it strange that it did not hurt at all, and somehow it looked and felt as if the steel beam had elastically bent around the knee and then back. Interesting.. ..
A colleague provided a lift to town. ::A medium-sized moth slams into the display while writing this:: Walked a bit with his daughter, discussing work and school stuff. There was a sudden change / jolt in the energy field and to her right, two cars crashed into each other. I said: "I wonder if that left a dent." However, it was evident that she had not noticed anything .. it was as if in her world nothing like that had happened. Even more strange was the fact that she didn't even hear I said anything. Realized it was my semi-subconscious design. While writing this down, it reminds me of the dream where she was driving his father's van and I was observing the field-of-view / limits of her creation.
While waiting for a bus, noticed a man that walked past me. Energy around him was red. Very red. I wouldn't say I see energy but he just stood out.
This incident brought me back to practising Vajrayana more. Visited the gym and noticed an effect right away. For the first time, people greeted me. One of the ladies seemed to be behaving differently.
Sunday, August 23, 2015
Sliding on water
Sexual energy was still crazy last night. Had a dream where I was leaking heavily and couldn't stop it. Woke up to realize it was just a dream without physical consequences. Still, today I've been occasionally feeling pressure or even mild pain down there. Luckily focusing on the breath works and turns it into heat. Well, it's really hot too. Not sure if it's the heat that's caused in the body or if it's really that hot outside. Weather forecast says about 20 *C, which should be normal. I don't have any thermometers in the shadow, but in sunlight it's 30+*C.
Had a few daily naps, during which I had dreams of playing some sort of sportsy competition games. Aftermath of the great hike? Dunno but there's one thing in common between all those dreams - I'm leading a team and I have no idea what the competition is about or what we have to do. Then again, I usually haven't cared about the competition anyway. Today I found nice hiking socks lying on the ground .. took them. As it turned out, we had to collect stuff from the ground. Anyway, a summer student who was in my team, asked how I could move so fast. Then I noticed that I had been semi-walking, semi-flying or something of that sort.
Yesterday during a daily nap there was a competition again of some sort. There was a river, which I crossed by levitating a few mm from the water surface. Started to wonder if I could do the same in this physical world as well. Sometimes I've swum simply by sliding on the water, without moving hands, sometimes even without moving feet. For some reason, I haven't been able to do it for very long though .. always thought it was because some muscles got tired and posture wore out or something.
Went to the gym again .. it's been a while and it's the last week of the contract. Visited a store next that's to the gym, for buying mineral water. There was a girl there, who seemed to have had a crush on me. Tried to keep my cool and remain unaffected.
It seems that when I don't visit gym often enough, I tend to become dehydrated (lose the habit of drinking enough water).
Had a few daily naps, during which I had dreams of playing some sort of sportsy competition games. Aftermath of the great hike? Dunno but there's one thing in common between all those dreams - I'm leading a team and I have no idea what the competition is about or what we have to do. Then again, I usually haven't cared about the competition anyway. Today I found nice hiking socks lying on the ground .. took them. As it turned out, we had to collect stuff from the ground. Anyway, a summer student who was in my team, asked how I could move so fast. Then I noticed that I had been semi-walking, semi-flying or something of that sort.
Yesterday during a daily nap there was a competition again of some sort. There was a river, which I crossed by levitating a few mm from the water surface. Started to wonder if I could do the same in this physical world as well. Sometimes I've swum simply by sliding on the water, without moving hands, sometimes even without moving feet. For some reason, I haven't been able to do it for very long though .. always thought it was because some muscles got tired and posture wore out or something.
Went to the gym again .. it's been a while and it's the last week of the contract. Visited a store next that's to the gym, for buying mineral water. There was a girl there, who seemed to have had a crush on me. Tried to keep my cool and remain unaffected.
It seems that when I don't visit gym often enough, I tend to become dehydrated (lose the habit of drinking enough water).
Saturday, August 22, 2015
Ventspils, again
Visited Ventspils for a conference. The conference was exceptionally small. Though, got a chance to try the adventure park tracks again. For a couple of times, I noticed the seeds of negative thoughts. Managed not to let them poison the mind. Although there are safety ropes, I did not want to fall, so there really wasn't much of a choice. Colleagues were a bit surprised at my performance and one of them asked me if I've been secretly practising climbing on these things somewhere. Said no, but I have had dream-training on that.
Sexual energy was a bit crazy again. Interestingly enough, focusing on the breath at the tip of the nose worked this time (enough energy / personal power?). Tried to maintain the focus for 6+ hours. At first, pain and stress was being released from various points in the body. Then I started having waves of pleasure running up the feet. Recently I've been paying more attention to the voice and personality transformations as well; noticed that there was a slight change in voice .. as if I were between the two personas.
Last night's dreams ended with me coming home. The apartment block looked different and there were heavy reconstruction works going on in there, so it was difficult to get in.
Today I noticed that I was somehow breathing back instead of breathing out. This is familiar .. and this is producing quite a bit of heat in the body.
Sexual energy was a bit crazy again. Interestingly enough, focusing on the breath at the tip of the nose worked this time (enough energy / personal power?). Tried to maintain the focus for 6+ hours. At first, pain and stress was being released from various points in the body. Then I started having waves of pleasure running up the feet. Recently I've been paying more attention to the voice and personality transformations as well; noticed that there was a slight change in voice .. as if I were between the two personas.
Last night's dreams ended with me coming home. The apartment block looked different and there were heavy reconstruction works going on in there, so it was difficult to get in.
Today I noticed that I was somehow breathing back instead of breathing out. This is familiar .. and this is producing quite a bit of heat in the body.
Sunday, August 16, 2015
Recursive singularity
Today I realized a peculiarity in my behaviour, which I have been unaware of. This explains why I've been so annoyed by them Jehova witnesses, who spammed my work mailbox. I realized I've been acting the same by trying to point out to people that it's important to see things from multiple perspectives. For most of the time, people don't do that and that's a source of many conflicts. Then I was a bit annoyed by my friend's attempt at convincing me to sign his petition on refusing immigrants. I was annoyed because his forceful approach reminded me of Jehova witnesses. So, this is the chance to undo my Jehova-witness-like behaviour and forgive myself.
While being absent-minded about the ego issues, I managed to achieve a recursive singularity in my awareness (or unawareness). After gym, I went for the shower .. came back to the dressing room because I realized I had missed swimming pants. Looked for the pants .. not there, must have forgotten them home (since I couldn't remember packing them in). Although I think through all the necessary components each time, I figured I must have made a mistake this time. Shrugged, took a shower, sauna and came back to dressing room. Packed my stuff and then realized something was left over .. my swimming pants. Wadaf? Apparently I had forgotten that I had not forgotten to take the swimming pants, hence the recursive singularity.
Started FB, clicked on the event that sister visited yesterday. Browsed the page, wondering what the event was about and stuff. Heard a loud non-localized voice saying something, from which I couldn't make out words. It reminded me of sister's voice, but it was a bit different. Also, I think sister is in the other room sleeping. It couldn't have been the neighbours, either, because it was loud and yet didn't seem to have come from any particular direction. Not sure, but I think the voice was moving a bit towards the balcony door. Weird, might this be sister's cloud of consciousness that was drawn to me browsing FB on the event she had visited?
While being absent-minded about the ego issues, I managed to achieve a recursive singularity in my awareness (or unawareness). After gym, I went for the shower .. came back to the dressing room because I realized I had missed swimming pants. Looked for the pants .. not there, must have forgotten them home (since I couldn't remember packing them in). Although I think through all the necessary components each time, I figured I must have made a mistake this time. Shrugged, took a shower, sauna and came back to dressing room. Packed my stuff and then realized something was left over .. my swimming pants. Wadaf? Apparently I had forgotten that I had not forgotten to take the swimming pants, hence the recursive singularity.
Started FB, clicked on the event that sister visited yesterday. Browsed the page, wondering what the event was about and stuff. Heard a loud non-localized voice saying something, from which I couldn't make out words. It reminded me of sister's voice, but it was a bit different. Also, I think sister is in the other room sleeping. It couldn't have been the neighbours, either, because it was loud and yet didn't seem to have come from any particular direction. Not sure, but I think the voice was moving a bit towards the balcony door. Weird, might this be sister's cloud of consciousness that was drawn to me browsing FB on the event she had visited?
OBE realism
One of the most realistic OBEs so far. Found myself behind the summerhouse, not entirely synchronized to the plane. Ran through the house extension and its doors, jumped and landed on the dirt road. Walked it towards the front door, focusing on the senses. Rubbed my hands, touched the grass, the dirt in the flower bed, the walls. This fortified the image and the realism of the body nicely. Looked around, tried to feel the air .. which seemed a bit cooler than here in the south. Thought I would enter the building, but then noticed a pull. Grabbed from the corner of the building, as the pull grew in intensity and forced me horizontal. At some moment I let go, which caused the focus to dissolve from the place.
Also, there's a pose that seems to force me out of body. When I lay on the bed on my stomach with my head straight and lean on the chin, I start feeling a strong pull away from the body. I consider the pose a bit dangerous, though (it hampers the blood flow to the head) .. wouldn't want to leave the body unattended like that.
Also, there's a pose that seems to force me out of body. When I lay on the bed on my stomach with my head straight and lean on the chin, I start feeling a strong pull away from the body. I consider the pose a bit dangerous, though (it hampers the blood flow to the head) .. wouldn't want to leave the body unattended like that.
Saturday, August 15, 2015
Voice
Busy times..
Had a nightly presentation at a hobby astronomer's event two nights ago. Observed perseid shower and noticed how I subconsciously looked at the place where there was going to be meteor in less than a second. Overall, the nature there was amazing. Acquired a really good connection with all the grass, bushes, birds, trees .. everything seemed to be following the flow of unconditional love. Had an interesting and rather awkward dream there. It was still dark, but the sun was already approaching the horizon. Someone (either me with a strange voice or someone else) said "Father", while I was looking towards two men walking away from me, having a chat. Hadn't met father for quite a while, so I hugged him .. as well as the other man, who seemed to be confused. The man thought I had called him Father .. which seemed normal to me, because I had difficulties localizing things while being a floating cloud of consciousness (or at least started off without form). Due to the "cloudness", I think hugging both must've been a bit easier, too. Now, what makes the dream awkward is the fact that the other man was my boss.
Last night I came from a farewell party and bumped into Hyena on the pedestrian bridge. He was a bit surprised and asked what had happened to my voice. I said I didn't find anything abnormal about it. "Opening of the throat chakra?", he asked.
It's interesting, how I may be tired, but there's a ball of energy in me that's not. It stretches inside and I feel fresh again. Sometimes it causes a jolt in consciousness, sometimes the upper chakras close and the ball of energy descends a little. Or sometimes the upper chakras open up and the ball rises. Trying to maintain an upward pull on it, though .. to enable celibacy.
Edit: Remembered a few more things I had been wanting to post someday. Played table football at work once again. The game was so strange that I had to put forth a lot of effort in order to stop my laughter. Somehow when I'm playing, the ball moves really slowly, there are a lot of dumb moves that in some weird way turn out to be successful. The ball moves odd and confuses / stuns the opponents somehow so that they start making more own goals. Also, when the opponent strikes fast, then somehow I've managed to block it fairly efficiently.
The school building, where I made the presentation on Thursday night, looked pretty impressive. The waxed wooden floor reminded me of karate training, the moves and the state of mind. The size and the shape of the building reminded me of the idea to start a psionics school.
While coming back from work yesterday, I pecked sleep in the car. Got into some fairly strange mind-states while still conscious about it. Eventually fell into a regular sleep state with compressed time.
Just took a nap and found an interesting opportunity. Realized that when I have hypnagogic imagery of people, it's easy to probe them (acquire the feeling of what they're like, along with their past, personal traits, patterns of logic, etc.) .. for as long as I'm not seeing their faces (which seemed to have disturbed the empathy a bit). Stumbled on a strange state of mind again as well. Startled out of it, though.
Had a nightly presentation at a hobby astronomer's event two nights ago. Observed perseid shower and noticed how I subconsciously looked at the place where there was going to be meteor in less than a second. Overall, the nature there was amazing. Acquired a really good connection with all the grass, bushes, birds, trees .. everything seemed to be following the flow of unconditional love. Had an interesting and rather awkward dream there. It was still dark, but the sun was already approaching the horizon. Someone (either me with a strange voice or someone else) said "Father", while I was looking towards two men walking away from me, having a chat. Hadn't met father for quite a while, so I hugged him .. as well as the other man, who seemed to be confused. The man thought I had called him Father .. which seemed normal to me, because I had difficulties localizing things while being a floating cloud of consciousness (or at least started off without form). Due to the "cloudness", I think hugging both must've been a bit easier, too. Now, what makes the dream awkward is the fact that the other man was my boss.
Last night I came from a farewell party and bumped into Hyena on the pedestrian bridge. He was a bit surprised and asked what had happened to my voice. I said I didn't find anything abnormal about it. "Opening of the throat chakra?", he asked.
It's interesting, how I may be tired, but there's a ball of energy in me that's not. It stretches inside and I feel fresh again. Sometimes it causes a jolt in consciousness, sometimes the upper chakras close and the ball of energy descends a little. Or sometimes the upper chakras open up and the ball rises. Trying to maintain an upward pull on it, though .. to enable celibacy.
Edit: Remembered a few more things I had been wanting to post someday. Played table football at work once again. The game was so strange that I had to put forth a lot of effort in order to stop my laughter. Somehow when I'm playing, the ball moves really slowly, there are a lot of dumb moves that in some weird way turn out to be successful. The ball moves odd and confuses / stuns the opponents somehow so that they start making more own goals. Also, when the opponent strikes fast, then somehow I've managed to block it fairly efficiently.
The school building, where I made the presentation on Thursday night, looked pretty impressive. The waxed wooden floor reminded me of karate training, the moves and the state of mind. The size and the shape of the building reminded me of the idea to start a psionics school.
While coming back from work yesterday, I pecked sleep in the car. Got into some fairly strange mind-states while still conscious about it. Eventually fell into a regular sleep state with compressed time.
Just took a nap and found an interesting opportunity. Realized that when I have hypnagogic imagery of people, it's easy to probe them (acquire the feeling of what they're like, along with their past, personal traits, patterns of logic, etc.) .. for as long as I'm not seeing their faces (which seemed to have disturbed the empathy a bit). Stumbled on a strange state of mind again as well. Startled out of it, though.
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
Projection
Saw an interesting object / entity in the dream last night. A butterfly the size of my palm. The butterfly was transparent and glowing blue. I tried to touch it with my right hand, but my hand went through it, as if it were just a projection into the 3D / 4D realm. So, I reached out of space and actually managed to touch the real object that was being projected.
Have been feeling quite tired recently. Nothing feels quite right .. except for the hike in the forest. Got to face the challenge of no proper vacation and take care of my responsibilities. Recently I've also been having a lot of flashbacks augmented with temporary shifts in the way of seeing the world.
Have been feeling quite tired recently. Nothing feels quite right .. except for the hike in the forest. Got to face the challenge of no proper vacation and take care of my responsibilities. Recently I've also been having a lot of flashbacks augmented with temporary shifts in the way of seeing the world.
Monday, August 10, 2015
Next level
Hmm .. with the hike, energy intensity has increased quite remarkably. Waves of heat and cold spreading throughout the body. It seems it's easier to slip and be overcome with emotions. Found it tougher than before to maintain emotional stability. On the other hand, it's also easier to notice subtleties in the emotion-scape. It's as if stalking has been taken to the next level.
Spent most of the workday on testing and debugging the server .. and then a LAN-controllable extension cord. Quite strange bunch, I would say. It seems it's easier to debug them in their natural habitat (noisy fridge-room of many servers in another town), rather than trying to simulate the DHCP server, connection to DNS (through NAT) and clients on my laptop.
At home, sister said the monitor in the living room was not working .. that perhaps it had been the lightning. A silent emotional outburst of thoughts: "No way, I'm not buying another monitor .. just bought it a year or two ago." Went there to check it out. Found it to be UPS protected .. just that the power cable had somehow come out of the socket. Plugged it in and it was working. Next, sister said that the remote was not working, that she had replaced the batteries and it still didn't do anything. I went there, tested and it was working for me alright.
Spent most of the workday on testing and debugging the server .. and then a LAN-controllable extension cord. Quite strange bunch, I would say. It seems it's easier to debug them in their natural habitat (noisy fridge-room of many servers in another town), rather than trying to simulate the DHCP server, connection to DNS (through NAT) and clients on my laptop.
At home, sister said the monitor in the living room was not working .. that perhaps it had been the lightning. A silent emotional outburst of thoughts: "No way, I'm not buying another monitor .. just bought it a year or two ago." Went there to check it out. Found it to be UPS protected .. just that the power cable had somehow come out of the socket. Plugged it in and it was working. Next, sister said that the remote was not working, that she had replaced the batteries and it still didn't do anything. I went there, tested and it was working for me alright.
Erna
Erna hike was fun. Though, I think I would prefer custom hikes more because I would've liked to enjoy the nature instead of constantly running around to reach the next checkpoint in time. I was quite surprised at our performance actually.
I think this was the first time I was actually prepared for something like this. Started out with so much passion that I felt it burning inside me. Even at the finish, I felt somewhat fresh. Due to a lack of proper pauses in the end, my feet got bad but that was surmountable. However, the first time I took a nap after 24h of hiking, I started feeling tired. Dream-training definitely helps a lot.
Although intuition pointed things out every now and then, I did not utilize it much, though. For most of the time I simply observed how situations played out. Although I did not have a map with me, and I hadn't taken my compass out, I could sometimes tell that we were going in the wrong direction .. which later turned out to have been the case. In the control points also, subconscious notified about different things. If we had followed my intuition, we might have earned a few more points. But then again, before the hike we had agreed that we were not in for the points but for the hike and just to have fun.
On Friday evening there were chemtrails (or really suspicious weather phenomena) - clouds with a metallic glare that caused a rainbow halo around the sun. Also, during the hike they provided water in the control points. This water was spoiled with some sort of an energy drink (tasted awful).
I think this was the first time I was actually prepared for something like this. Started out with so much passion that I felt it burning inside me. Even at the finish, I felt somewhat fresh. Due to a lack of proper pauses in the end, my feet got bad but that was surmountable. However, the first time I took a nap after 24h of hiking, I started feeling tired. Dream-training definitely helps a lot.
Although intuition pointed things out every now and then, I did not utilize it much, though. For most of the time I simply observed how situations played out. Although I did not have a map with me, and I hadn't taken my compass out, I could sometimes tell that we were going in the wrong direction .. which later turned out to have been the case. In the control points also, subconscious notified about different things. If we had followed my intuition, we might have earned a few more points. But then again, before the hike we had agreed that we were not in for the points but for the hike and just to have fun.
On Friday evening there were chemtrails (or really suspicious weather phenomena) - clouds with a metallic glare that caused a rainbow halo around the sun. Also, during the hike they provided water in the control points. This water was spoiled with some sort of an energy drink (tasted awful).
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
Still on the bridge
About a week ago, something happened to one of our servers (in a server room in another town). Since authentication worked through that one, then all the other services running on other servers were also down. All relevant personnel were on holiday or inaccessible. So, we called some IT contacts, who either were on holiday too, or simply failed to locate the server and then went on holiday. Management dealt with the issue and yesterday we found the server on our desk at work.
Ok, I was a bit surprised about a few details. The first time I noticed there was an issue with the server, it struck me that it's not a matter of resetting it. It felt like a hard-drive issue, which it actually was. Once the server was in our room, we tried to pin-point the broken drive to get RAID working again. I started from the top-most drive, although it felt like the second from top is fried. The second from the top it was indeed. This got a bit creep already, as I started to wonder if I had caused it .. like why would I know so much about this server issue subconsciously? Anyway, had to reconfigure the RAID after replacing the disk. This sort of beats the purpose of RAID, in my opinion. It adds more single points of failure into the design at the cost of removing one (at most). A single drive with regular backups seems a safer solution.
While at the lab, there was another person there. At some moment I got a strong feeling that I would have to go. Double-checked the carpool and times .. nope. Then the other person gets up and says he has to leave, his car is going back to town early.
Bought an ice cream. Ate it while walking home. Somehow I was so occupied with the ice cream bar that I didn't notice where I was walking. At some moment, confusion kicked in because I felt myself suspended in air, off the bridge. Realized I had moved a bit too close to the bridge railing and had a bilocation experience (the body was still walking on the bridge, while a part of me had accidentally shifted out). Had a couple of more consciousness jolts on my way home.
Edit: Oh, remembered another incident. While walking home, I saw a couple on the path (happens often, because I live in a town). Due to eyesight issues, I couldn't determine if the girl was walking away from the guy or not. What made it even more confusing, I got the feeling that they're both going the wrong way. As I got closer, the guy stopped and turned around to look at the back of the girl. He stared at her back, then glanced at me and looked back. Then he started calling the girl (by whistling or something). The girl turned around, looked at him and eventually started walking back towards the guy.
Ok, I was a bit surprised about a few details. The first time I noticed there was an issue with the server, it struck me that it's not a matter of resetting it. It felt like a hard-drive issue, which it actually was. Once the server was in our room, we tried to pin-point the broken drive to get RAID working again. I started from the top-most drive, although it felt like the second from top is fried. The second from the top it was indeed. This got a bit creep already, as I started to wonder if I had caused it .. like why would I know so much about this server issue subconsciously? Anyway, had to reconfigure the RAID after replacing the disk. This sort of beats the purpose of RAID, in my opinion. It adds more single points of failure into the design at the cost of removing one (at most). A single drive with regular backups seems a safer solution.
While at the lab, there was another person there. At some moment I got a strong feeling that I would have to go. Double-checked the carpool and times .. nope. Then the other person gets up and says he has to leave, his car is going back to town early.
Bought an ice cream. Ate it while walking home. Somehow I was so occupied with the ice cream bar that I didn't notice where I was walking. At some moment, confusion kicked in because I felt myself suspended in air, off the bridge. Realized I had moved a bit too close to the bridge railing and had a bilocation experience (the body was still walking on the bridge, while a part of me had accidentally shifted out). Had a couple of more consciousness jolts on my way home.
Edit: Oh, remembered another incident. While walking home, I saw a couple on the path (happens often, because I live in a town). Due to eyesight issues, I couldn't determine if the girl was walking away from the guy or not. What made it even more confusing, I got the feeling that they're both going the wrong way. As I got closer, the guy stopped and turned around to look at the back of the girl. He stared at her back, then glanced at me and looked back. Then he started calling the girl (by whistling or something). The girl turned around, looked at him and eventually started walking back towards the guy.
The Giver
Watched "The Giver" with sister yesterday evening. Having read the book, I was still impressed by the movie. Chatted into the night about dreams and stuff. The more I recounted my dreams, the more I remembered.
I've been trying to move the body as little as possible, while taking a nap or sleeping. This way I feel more refreshed in the morning.
A few interesting details in the dreams. In one of them, I saw a moth flying around at a school building (I think). The right wing of the moth was rainbow-colored. The moth landed on the dream body and stayed there for what seemed like a minute before I woke up.
One of the dreams ended with me going home again. It was dark and it was raining. Usually I had taken the bus, but this time the possibility didn't occur to me before I saw one. The bus was not real, but perhaps it never had been (a way for the mind to interpret movement between planes).
Just before getting out of the bed, I remembered all the dreams well. Now even thinking and writing about them doesn't trigger a recall ... just fragments that I considered the most important.
I've been trying to move the body as little as possible, while taking a nap or sleeping. This way I feel more refreshed in the morning.
A few interesting details in the dreams. In one of them, I saw a moth flying around at a school building (I think). The right wing of the moth was rainbow-colored. The moth landed on the dream body and stayed there for what seemed like a minute before I woke up.
One of the dreams ended with me going home again. It was dark and it was raining. Usually I had taken the bus, but this time the possibility didn't occur to me before I saw one. The bus was not real, but perhaps it never had been (a way for the mind to interpret movement between planes).
Just before getting out of the bed, I remembered all the dreams well. Now even thinking and writing about them doesn't trigger a recall ... just fragments that I considered the most important.
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