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Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Pk neutralized

Remembered that a couple of days ago, sister had dropped her HDD. The light would no longer turn on and it would beep. When I tried plugging it in and out, it once crossed my mind if I could try to heal it. At that moment, sister said: "Look! The light turned on .. and went off again." The next thought after healing had been as follows: "Even if it would start working, for how long would it be working anyway? There wouldn't be much of a point. She should better have it sent back to the manufacturer instead." I guess that thought erased the previous one.

The lightning was cool yesterday. It made the weather cooler, too .. from close to 30 *C to about 20 *C. Started recording, intended for it to strike at a certain place (one of the lowest points within 100 meters). Close, but it was flashing between the clouds and didn't hit the earth. Anyway, I had started to doubt if I really would wish for that to happen. The consequences might not have been too lovely.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Exploring..


One of the Spanish visitors analyzed me today. She said that to her I looked like a shy little boy with a big heart, who would lock unpleasant feelings and emotions deep inside. Although I've heard it a lot, I haven't really thought about it this way before.

The silence has improved and with little effort, subtle vibrations can be felt in the body. It was interesting to run home and observe the changes in the vibration.

Meditated on the analysis a little. Explored some more and meditated on what was uncovered. Everything had that stench, the stench of uncertainty and self-denial. Sometimes I would see the ego being too arrogant .. looking down on others. Then I would shackle it and force it smaller, which would turn it all into a mess (wouldn't even be able to talk properly afterwards .. difficult to find the correct terms).

Moved the old stuff aside and visualized a flower next to it. A flower that would eventually grow past the old construction. Instead of the construction, focus would now lie on the flower near the heart chakra.

Found an old vision or flashback while exploring. We had been walking on the street in the capital at night, when it occurred. In the flashback, I think I was driving around, exploring some place. We arrived at a place with a lot of hay on the ground (some on the road, even). Remember faint yellow light and intense white light that appeared also. I guess there were other people there, too. Everything felt strongly spiritual and somehow it felt related to Christ.

Should focus more on the throat chakra as well. Though, have to be careful.. that arrogance has me cautious.

Really hot

Practiced the psi-fountain energy cultivation a little yesterday. Had the urge to practice some pk in the evening. Tried to create matter .. by making a dense psi-ball. While in the midst of it, a perfect blue dot appeared on the right hand. It was bigger than any orb I've seen so far and the color was pretty clear also. It disappeared really fast though.

Read some of the "Tibetan Yogas of Dream and Sleep", starting from a random page. Intended on practicing some stuff in the dreams as well as having an OBE. Ended up rolling around in the bed .. ate too late. Couldn't remember anything meaningful from the dreams.

It's been so hot for the last few days. Mom came into the town with a few visitors from Spain and even they said it was rather hot for them. They had wanted to see us, I wasn't too happy about just going there to wave and then come back (30+30 minutes of walking in this sauna). Wind rose, thunder clouds appeared with lightning strikes and it started raining while we were at a dining place.

Noticed the "yellow light" again when the sun was covered by clouds.
 Found a nice place for pk practice, with a lot of large lamps hanging on long wires. It's public, though.

Friday, July 27, 2012

Precog of construction work?

Set alarm 15 minutes earlier than usual .. to take a shower.

In the meanwhile, in the dreams .. time was running out. I was at the summerhouse, finished with the dream-business. There were still a few minutes left before the alarm would ring; decided to try an OBE. Appeared at about 100 meters from the apartment here in the town. Everything looked fuzzy at first, but  soon became pretty detailed. In front of me, there was a man in dark clothes across the street. It was pretty detailed, but lacked 360 degree vision. Also, I was convinced that I was at the summerhouse, not here in the town .. took me some effort to wake up the stack. A dream, but a nice one.

The construction workers have covered half of the windows with plastic from the outside. Really familiar with the plastic, scaffolding, sheets of heat insulation and stuff .. remember the scene from a dream more than 12 years ago. The feeling was similar, too (really hot, can't ventilate, can't see out - at least from the kitchen window, from the living room window all one can see are scaffoldings). Remember flying around the building and looking at the scaffolding. Though, later in that dream, I visualized it into something more interesting for me.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

End of summer vacation

More work and less meditation + pk than expected. Though, the goal of spiritual progression during the vacation was still fulfilled. Re-found the source of love and compassion during one of the meditation sessions. Moved psi upward until it got to the heart chakra and started transforming. The transformed psi then spread out throughout the body.

Advertised "Toward the Terra" to Kevin. He replied with "The Giver" by Lois Lowry. The two really are alike.

Several attempts at shielding against mosquitoes and rain.

We had used some random tools to dig for potatoes on the field, since the tools meant for this job were lost and broken. A few days later we needed one of the tools and couldn't find it.

Tried multiple methods:
  • visualizing it and looking around (didn't get the location)
  • casting a radar-shield (the object was out of range and the direction was pretty ambiguous)
  • using a bicycle spoke bent into a twig (got 2 directions - one where I thought it was and the other coincided with the results of the radar shield, which was pretty inaccurate)
  • clearing the mind and connecting to the object, asking where it was (only got answers for simple yes-and-no questions; too much analytical overlay)
  • nah, too lazy to search for it .. I'll just go and find it. Just walked straight to it and picked it up, realizing how simple it actually was.
Yesterday it was a bit windy. There were some pot flowers on the stairs. One of them "fell" over the edge, or rather, made a somersault and landed on its bottom as if nothing had happened. Aunt was puzzled when she saw that happen.

Edit: I guess atious from the forum paid a visit one day. A strong feeling of him and his avatar appeared.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Dad's astral op

Summer vacation without the forum friends. Though, as it turned out, even alone, it wasn't possible for anyone to meet me at the bus station. It turned out that the lawnmower was the only thing on wheels at that time.

Decided to take a hike instead. It started raining. Sweet, got to test the new rain coat. Reached a cross-road and thought: "Now what? I wonder how that rain might be of use?" A car stopped before I even managed to free the hand to indicate that I would need a lift. The car even pretty much drove past the summerhouse, so I got home surprisingly early.

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Dad described a dream he had had in Italy. There had been a problem with his foot, which he couldn't heal just by directing psi through it. So, he cut his foot off with psi and had it stay alive on its own for 5 minutes. He washed it and healed it, then put it back. He used vibrations to re-merge it with the body. After that, it took a few minutes to get to feel the foot again.

The most interesting part of the dream had been the feeling of removing something that he has always considered as granted and having it exist on its own.

Also, it had taken him quite a lot of focus to maintain a part of the body that has been separated.
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Dad had an interesting method for healing. He would go to a freezer-room, wait until he would start to shiver all over. Then memorize the experience / feeling and try to reproduce it when the body is warm and he intends to heal it. He would then make the body vibrate, but at a higher frequency.

Reminded me of this post: http://sussch-daweird.blogspot.com/2010/10/vibration-healing.html.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Day before official vacation

Detaching the I from actions and focusing on the emptiness seems to be having a great effect. The feeling of floatiness has increased. Accidental leaning out of body.

After a while, ego still creeps in .. "What'cha doin?" .. looks at the code .. "Wow, pwnsome work have I done here. Gotta go tell everyone how visk I are." .. "In the meanwhile, you continue with that work."

It started raining again and I was happy that we had bought something to protect me against rain. Though, in a few minutes it popped to mind that it would've been a tad more useful if I had taken it with me. =)

It took about 10 - 15 minutes for the sky to clear up. So, it had stopped raining by the time we got back. Still, didn't get too wet.

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Sometimes things are predictable (or perhaps even inevitable) and often it's a good idea to avoid mentioning it before it happens. Sorry for those involved.
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Yay for vacation. But before that, I just got some extra work today. Enjoyed those extra hours of work.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Aching stomach

Remembered that 2 days ago before bed, I saw a source of light in the sky. Looked twice .. nothing except for a hole in the clouds nearby.

Described the Sushumna flame to Mom yesterday. Haven't sensed it for quite a while. About a minute later, I was struck by a sharp pain in the stomach. Lower back and stomach suddenly felt pretty sick. Turned from one side to another at night and couldn't sleep. I guess that a great blockage was dissolved in that area.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Sometimes it's good to be wrong


Not by the non-performance of actions does man reach actionlessness, nor by mere renunciation does he attain to perfection. 
Comment: Even if a man abandons action, his mind may be active. One cannot
reach perfection or freedom from action or knowledge of the Self, merely by renouncing action. He must possess knowledge of the Self.
This one answers one of the questions that has been always bugging me about the path of enlightenment. With detachment, I would start to question the point behind life. I would get the impression that none of what I'm doing or have been doing holds any meaning.

Also,
A stable-minded person will neither hug nor hate the world, he will take things as they come.
That's not what I used to believe. I came to believe that hating nothing and hugging everything was the path I would want to walk. After all, it seemed to help me surmount the obstacles easily. Well, I guess it quickly leads back to attachment.

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The same dream sequel continued today morning.

It was raining when I woke up. Intended for it to stop raining when I would have to go out. Couldn't find a free umbrella. Went out (not raining) and about 20 minutes into walking, it started raining with increasing intensity.

Semi-successful attempts at rain shielding, but in the end, the sweater still got wet. T-shirt remained dry, though.

Since the sweater was wet, I intended for sun to start shining when I would be walking back home. Sun was shining until I got home.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

First aid course

Slept a lot yesterday, too.

Meditated before bed, visualizing the body full of light and surrounded by light. Visualized the feeling of the body being full of energy. It felt so good that I wouldn't want to stop meditating.

In the dreams, I witnessed a long sequel of superheros completing missions.

A first aid course. Found it rather difficult to control the mind while images and feelings of those situations popped up. The mind would visualize all the symptoms and effects on this body. Occasionally healed the body again (or any other culprits) and focused on the idea of a healthy and long-lasting body. Psi was rushing around a lot, making me feel floaty.

Edit: Planned to do a lot of stuff, but pretty much slept the rest of the day.

Joshua practiced Shaktipat on me. Felt as if someone were holding their hand against the forehead and having some psi move through.

He gave me a link to Bhagavad Gita. That's really good stuff. With these kind of texts or scriptures, it's interesting, how the answers pop up when a question would appear in the reader's mind.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Masochist ego

Felt more like aiming for detachment today morning.

Apparently ego didn't like the idea and used the good old plot to stab itself and then have someone feel compassion. This way it has usually gotten the attention that it wants. It's like a recursive function .. ego starts to hate itself, then hates itself for hating itself and also for trying to beg for someone's compassion. Also, it 's kind of addicted to the feeling of being sad and lonely and then pities itself for being all sad and lonely.

Today, when the workday was about to end, it started raining. Started walking home .. so heavy rain that it became difficult to keep the eyes open. 30 minutes of walking while soaked .. bitter-sweet.

I know how this construct was born. I don't need it any more and I want it to finally become at peace.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

A few dreams

Saw some sort of a sports game in the dreams. The game caught my attention, when I saw some people playing it. The idea was to shoot the other players with a stream of psi. It was a lot of fun for amateurs to play, as it would happen when they expect it the least.

There was a bigger competition coming up and some competitors were pretty nervous about it. I had an old friend there in that dream-world. It turned out his Mom was one of the competitors and she was really nervous about it. Tried to get through to her, but it was quite difficult.

Later I followed a genius at that sports field. He was a first-timer and an awesome psion. Just out of pure joy and without thinking about it, he blew away his opponents with techniques that surprised the judges.

Seems somewhat derived from The Legend of Korra. Even though I haven't watched it for slightly more than a week now.
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In another dream, I guess I was also in a slightly different dream reality. Here, Kevin (I think) was even more into tech and programming. With a couple of mates, he had built an amazing device, which was also amazingly small. The placement of components was so carefully planned. Also, they had designed a custom ASIC for it.
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In general, I often changed the form of the astral body; flew through the windows and materialized the body again on the other side and stuff. Felt really good.
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Today's workday stretched out to 12 hours. Hadn't expected it, but we ended up "carefully planning the placement of components to make it smaller." Just like Kevin (I think) had done in one of the dreams.

Love the way daily reality defines dreams and dreams define daily reality.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Short OBEs

Despite the building dust, I still practiced some pranayama today morning. It's been a while and it felt so good.

Some meditation and OBE practices while listening to music. A lot of short pop-out, realize-it, pop-back type experiences.

Feel sort of empty and detached today. I guess I've become addicted to meditation, OBE practice and lazy for the material stuff (it's really hot, too).

Edit: Remembered that when we went jogging yesterday morning, there were a lot of dogs and all of them would bark at Dad. At first I thought they were barking at us, but then one of them ran past me and started barking at Dad. I wonder what this was about.

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Friday evening meditation

Had a nice chat with Joshua3109 yesterday evening. He described one of the methods he uses for meditating.

I had been feeling rather tired and wanted to go to bed .. which was all covered in clothes, which sister was ironing in my room. So, I went to meditate on the balcony and decided to postpone sleeping.

It was pretty cool. Tried some So-Ham (I am that) breathing meditation.

Noticed that the moon had risen from behind one of the buildings. Seemed to be almost full moon. Practiced some Trataka on it. A lot of pressure appeared on the thalamus and the 3rd eye. When I moved the focus onto the balcony floor, I started feeling pressure on the lower-spine.

Nice, it turns out there had been a greater disturbance in Earth's magnetic field roughly at the time I was performing Trataka on the moon.

It seems this did open up something.

Friday, July 6, 2012

Glowing blue ointment

Felt a bit tired of driving every day and night. Opted for something different yesterday night.

Focused on a point somewhere in void space. A detailed image of traffic appeared around me. Remembered that was not what I had come to do there. Traffic dissolved.

I guess I was at a loss and didn't know what to do .. short and shallow dreams.

In one of the dreams, I felt the bottom of my feet slightly hurt. Looked at the feet .. there were still some reminders of trench feet. Tried 2 different medicines. Covered the left foot in some sort of a transparent ointment. Thought it might not be enough and poured a lot of the other medicine (transparent blue and glowing) on the right foot. Started to wonder if I had overdone it a little, because it felt kind of aggressive on the skin. The blue medicine was absorbed deep into the right foot and up the leg. Well, it didn't feel too good, but I didn't think it would be of much harm either.

Well, today I felt quite floaty .. as if wobbling slightly in and out of body.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Driving daily-nightly

Pretty much no pk training recently. Have been practicing driving daily and nightly (in dreams). Usually wake up when I feel I've finished the goal set for the night, which is up to just an hour before the alarm would ring. Had the first more serious drive through the city today and boy did I make mistakes =). A lot to digest for the next 3 nights before the next practicals..

It's amazing, what the other guys and girls on the psychokinesis forum are doing:

Edit: The soap made some funny hops while I was taking the shower.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

What new? Thin-film materials?

Remembered  that a couple of weeks ago, I had formed a question in my mind: "What would the next few years hold for us, tech-wise?"

A feeling-packet with a lot of attached images popped up. All sorts of new materials (mostly thin-film). The images described some interesting characteristics of these new materials .. can't remember them too well though. Amazing thermal isolation and protection against fast deformations.

Remembered a clip from one of the dreams today morning. A street lamp of rather familiar design, but instead of having a lamp in it, there was a thin film on the bottom surface. When turned on, this thin film started to emit intense white light.

Most of this stuff I've seen or read about many years ago. Though, it seemed as the materials had been improved on. Also, it'll be neat to have these materials made for everyday appliances with low price.

Let's see =)

Increased solar activity?

Woke up an hour before I was supposed to (did something in the dreams and finished it early) .. only to find that I had forgotten to set the alarm.

A lot of friends were ill today, some of them were still at "work", but coughing. I'm just experiencing mild headaches in the evenings. Though, other than that, I feel normal. Weather is pretty hot and my eating habits have changed.

There was a glitch in the system that controls traffic lights in our town.

In Thailand, an oil refinery exploded, close to where a friend lives.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Medding in the evening

Yesterday evening, I had a headache and my stomach ached as well. Sleeping nervous really has nasty consequences. Laid down on my back and meditated for a few hours.

The stomach ache was relieved just by dissipating psi from the stomach area and moving it around.

Experienced the unbearably pleasant feeling rushing from the right foot up to the hip and spreading. I guess the pose could be called Savasana (one of the most comfortable poses to sleep in, whenever there's a stomach problem). The rushes continued until I changed the pose.

Forgot the dreams though.

Today I felt a lot happier and more at peace again. While writing this, there are waves of heat running up the body, occasionally.

Edit: While discussing error handling with a friend, he wrote THOR instead of THROW. Found it really funny for some reason. We had a good laugh. Then I started thinking if the symbol might have been of significance.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Nervous from the dream

Being slightly nervous about the first driving practical, I had a dream where I took a seat in the car. I was there early. My driving teacher was there, chatting with an old man with gray hair. At some point it struck me that I had forgotten to bring my folder from the office. Rushed back .. became nervous .. and the dream went downfall. Finally managed to miss the practical whatsoever.

Woke up with a stomach ache. That nervousness had left its scars on multiple organs. Worked on healing it. Asked who it was that had become nervous and what was the reason. Expressed love towards that aspect - after all, it takes a lot of caring to become this worried or nervous about me.

The sky was cloudy and it started to rain when I got to "work". When the time came to go to the practical, sky cleared up, stomach ache disappeared. The scars were still there, but I wasn't that nervous any longer.

Went to the office right away and asked for the folder. It turned out that my driving teacher had already taken it with him. Anyway, the ride was smooth and fun (much like I had been self-suggesting). The weather gradually became nicer as well.

On my way back to "work", I noticed the driving teacher go chatting with an old man with gray hair (another driving teacher). It was similar to the dream, but also slightly different from it.

Edit: There was a "coincidence" with the driving teacher. We live in the same building. A what if .. thought, that manifested. Also, his personality seems quite close to what I had wished for. Furthermore, a while ago I had set myself a goal to learn to drive really smooth. Which was the aim of the first driving practical today.