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Saturday, February 28, 2015

Swimming pool dream

Relaxation and Guru yoga practice makes the body buzz with pleasure so that it's difficult to sleep. It also has an effect on the nerve system .. random parts of the body start twitching.

It's quite foggy again today.

Not as cool dreams last night as the night before, but some elements were still interesting.

When I mentioned there was a heavy wind yesterday and today as well, someone said there has been almost no wind (2 m/s).

They had built something large in the town. Although the building was not finished yet, they had filled the swimming pool with water and TV crew was there, interviewing someone. There were barely any walls around, so the water was supposed to be freezing cold. I visited the place with a friend who likes to swim in ice water. However, he did not want to, unless I failed miserably. I figured that with tummo and stuff, I could at least try the water .. I most likely wouldn't freeze within the first 10 seconds. So I walked up to the pool and dropped into the water (which had floor texture on it, for some reason - so to me it looked as if I dropped through the floor). I thought the lane was free, but as it turned out, there were people swimming underwater. I tried to make room for them, but apparently that did not work .. I had to swim back in front of them. So I only managed to do one lap, but for some reason everyone treated me as if I had been the first. Actually the one behind me was the first. Anyway, as I came out of the water, I noticed that for some odd reason, I had gone swimming with my backpack, which was now soaked. Also, as I returned to my clothes, most of them were red women clothes. I felt embarrassed and tried to act as if I didn't know whose clothes these were.

There were also other dreams, where a couple of friends visited some dangerous place behind the corner. They came back depressed. Although I knew hugging would express gayness, I hugged them anyway, as it helped dispel the depression.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Interesting dreams

Read the Kalachakra initiation a bit more. Realized how a few years ago I had done almost exactly the way it describes tantra .. without knowing about it. Practised guru yoga again yesterday, this time focusing on having the body of a Buddha and the environment of a Buddha.

Interesting dreams again.

At the summerhouse. Pretty sunshine through the trees. However, throughout the dream it was exceptionally stormy outside. Very strong ambient noise also.

We were discussing random stuff with Kevin, so we looked for places with a peculiar design of wind corridors (in that dream, all the buildings had those), which would effectively muffle the noise so we could speak. One of these buildings was the wooden storage hut. It had supporting columns that ran in parallel to the entrance. Also, there was more noise on the second floor (roof level).

Last time I had designed some sort of a sphere out of thin film of steel. The steel was elastic like a plastic, very elastic and easily deformed in the wind. This sphere had the effect of quieting the noise and stopping the wind in a short radius around it. Though, this time I was pretty sure I wouldn't need it.

For some reason, we moved from place to place and each time we moved, I couldn't find my boots. There were all sorts of shoes, slippers and stuff, but none of them were what I had arrived with. So, I took my time looking for them, but after a few times, Kevin asked "you're going to come or not?" Wondering perhaps I should go barefoot, I said "wait, my boots have to be here somewhere." He left and the point of the dream was lost, so I woke up.

Heavy fog outside. I was sweating.

Anyway, this missing boots or slippers theme is very common to the summerhouse. A long time ago we used to borrow aunt's slippers from time to time. Once we found we could make a kick-move, with which the slipper flew over the building and the trees. It was awesome. Aunt's reaction was brilliant, too :D. We always loved to play pranks on her, as she loved to play pranks on us.

Another dream. I'm at a nearby school building with sister. Sun is shining and there's a tall pile of snow in front of me. Climbed it up and down. At some point I realized the point of the dream and climbed on top of the pile as high as possible. Sister followed. From there I saw more piles to climb, so I continued climbing.

Somehow the school building transformed .. it had become an architectural wonder. Although there were more piles to be climbed, I became fascinated by the building and my consciousness moved in there.

In the building, I became fascinated about an art exhibition and my consciousness moved in there. There was a secret to simplicity and appeal of design, which the artist's work highlighted very well. Then, suddenly the artist had realized it as a problem and stopped selling her art. Other artists had started to apply the same principle, which she didn't like.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Teleportation-step


Cool fog. People wouldn't notice if someone disappeared or appeared.

While on my way home, I realized that my former fear about teleporting into another time is without foundation. When one visits a place and visualizes it, then a part of their consciousness is there. The lack of time-alteration is default simply because we are used to the idea that's how this reality works. Thus, it would rarely be a problem.

Then had an idea of how to train teleportation in a way that seems rather safe. While walking (and I walk a lot), I would visualize on stepping into another place (as if through a portal). Each time I take a step with my right foot, I would visualize stepping into an area close to my destination. This practice got my psi / energy moving around nicely. It needs more focus and more practice for it to have any other effect, but that's okay :)

Song-geist

Remembered about a song that I've geisted:

At some point I noticed that there are beeps in the song, which are exactly the same as the beeps that occur when somebody opens the apartment block door. "::Beep:: You just need to come back home" which symbolizes me waiting for father to come home. A very strange song. For several times I've been fooled into thinking the door actually beeped and someone is coming.

Dreams, dreams

A couple of nights ago I had a dream, where I woke up in a hospital / mental health care / prison. I don't know what it was and I don't know whose body it was that I was inhabiting. For now, I'll refer to that as "I". I had been brought in there with several injuries. My head and my arm (I think it was left) were in bands. I had been there for quite some time and I was recovering nicely.

I was meditating when another person was brought into the room. I thought he would ask: "What are you in for?" If he had, I would've replied: "You don't want to know". But he didn't. We discussed something else (I don't remember what it was, though).

Soon I felt my mouth was too dry. Took some water into a metal cup. Water became food. Although I was already full, I emptied the cup with pleasure.

The latter part is the same in this waking reality .. I'm hungry even when I'm full.

Last night I had a dream that stood out again.

I was at a lab, building stuff. For some reason, a bunch of other white-coats were operating a violet-blue (UV?) laser .. they were cutting a piece of metal, an inch or two thick.

Although the laser was pointed away from us, at first it blinded me, then the ray hit me several times. What is more, they did not announce when they were going to fire the laser, so it hit me at random times .. couldn't prepare. Finally I tried to crawl through from underneath, but the ray bent and tracked me.

I was not afraid, more like annoyed. Although it made my head ache, blinded the eyes, popped the ears and so on .. I wondered how all of the effects were temporary and far milder than what I would've expected from such a laser (which cuts thick metal like butter).

With Mom's help, we decoded the dreams from a few weeks ago. Then I realized how I had consciously acted as if I had understood the dreams, when actually I had not. So, interpreting dreams with the rational mind is not even necessary.

A good dream dictionary:
http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/l.htm

So, I'll try to decode the recent dreams also.

The lab dream:
  • Lab coat represents protective nature or a desire to sanitize the situation. Perhaps even an attempt to cover it up.
  • Laser symbolizes clarity and truth. In my case, laser also symbolizes the energy cultivation exercise, which I mentioned in the previous post. Sometimes I visualize the column of energy as a laser, self-amplifying the intense energy flow.
  • Injury represents an injury of the ego.
The prison dream:
  • Overeating signifies a lack of spirituality and fulfilment in the waking life.
  • Eating alone signifies loss, loneliness, depression. Eating may be a replacement for companionship and provide a form of comfort. Note that in the waking life I almost always eat alone.
  • Muddy or dirty water indicates negative emotions or thinking / judgement that is unclear.
  • Hospital represents needing or being involved in a healing process of the body or mind.
  • Prison indicates being censored. Creativity is being limited.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Cultivation

Went jogging today. 30 minutes of jogging (with several jolts of consciousness and weight reduction), after which, the energy intensity seems to have dropped. The sweating-hot cloud of energy hasn't popped up as strong as it did yesterday or a couple of days before.

Here's what I've been up to:
  • Occasional guru meditation (visualizing a Buddha in me, until I lose a sense of self and start feeling like a Buddha).
  • Visualize a high-intensity energy flow up the spine. I would shrink it, to increase the intensity even further.
  • Pinpoint and relax everything that seems to be tense.
This has been very effective for energy cultivation and focus practice.

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Nothing

Ugh .. bored and nothing that I want to do. Resting awareness on emptiness seems to be the only thing I do want to do. However, it doesn't take long before the mind starts to wander around again. So, can't do that for very long either.

Edit: The practice, which I used to call grounding .. that seems to stimulate the motion of energy quite well.

Edit: Also started watching Mushishi. Already enjoyed the first episode a lot.

Saturday, February 21, 2015

Another diet comparison

I think I should've taken more regular water instead of juice. Urine seems to be very acidic, so no wonder the kidneys were having a hard time.

For comparison, today evening I ate the following:
  • Boiled potatoes
  • Salted herring
  • Onions
  • Sour cream
  • A slice of bread + regular butter
  • A lot of pasteurized vegetable juice + pasteurized fruit juice (with added sugar)
It seems that raw or salted fish does not generate that warm, thick and heavy energy. Not sure if it's a matter of raw vs. cooked meat or a matter of fish vs. pork.

Anyway, that also tasted really good and it seemed to have helped with the digestion (raw onions and boiled potatoes, I suspect).

In addition to making me feel sleepier, sugar also seems to make eye-sight worse. During the days I was on 100% raw food diet, my eyesight was better (I was amazed, actually) .. regardless of spending all the mornings, days and evenings at the laptop.

Some more food experiments

Yesterday evening I ate the following:
  • An orange
  • Coconut (was starting to dry up)
  • Banana
  • Pear juice (without added sugars or preservatives .. though, several weeks old and fungus was growing on it)
  • A champignon
Today morning kidneys were aching. This may be due to any of the following reasons:
  • That pear juice with fungus.
  • Not enough juice or water yesterday.
  • Maybe ate too late?
  • "Normal" lunch yesterday.
  • Read a lot of inspiring text, which caused the movement of energy.
  • Edit: Stomach flu, which has been pretty popular these days.

Today morning I snacked the following:
  • A champignon
  • Banana
  • A piece of cucumber
For lunch I ate the following:
  • Boiled buckwheat
    • Brown Himalayan salt
    • Pan salt
  • Salad
    • A tomato
    • Two champignons
    • Parsley
    • Pan salt
    • Pepper
Although it's not raw, boiled buckwheat tasted very good.

Friday, February 20, 2015

Fascination

Really psyched about "The life and teaching of Naropa" by Herbert V. Guenther. A fascinating book.
http://www.amazon.com/Life-Teaching-Naropa-Herbert-Guenther/dp/1570621012

Also started reading about Kalachakra and once again .. I'm fascinated.
http://kalachakranet.org/kalachakra_tantra_introduction.html
http://kalachakranet.org/teachings/Kalachakra-initiation-Berzin.doc

Short white skeleton with a bang

Practised the White Skeleton meditation yesterday evening. It didn't go too well at the beginning, but gradually energy was released from the abdomen and concentration became easier. I did not close the door on purpose .. pretty often my focus was disturbed and I had to bring it back. I was a bit too lazy to do it the way I think it's meant to be done, so it took me less than 3 hours. But still, the effect was remarkable.

The aching in the shoulders disappeared, as well as did some other issues I had in the body.

For the past months I've noticed that the bathroom pipes make a gurgling sound, which is somehow related to the movement of energy .. similar to the snapping and crackling sounds in furniture, apartment floor and walls.

This gurgling happened several times during the practice. Also, when I finished the exercise with dissolving the white bones into energy within the hollow body visualization, there was the sound of an explosion outdoors (probably a firecracker). Though, the timing made me smile.

Diet-summary of the week

Ate "normal" lunch at work today:
  • Boiled potatoes
  • Some sort of sauce
  • Meat ball
  • Pancake with cherry jam (a lot of sugar)
  • Kefir (pasteurized, of course)
About 2 hours after the lunch, I started feeling tired. This continued for about 4 hours.

Also noticed that this "normal" lunch produced a thick, heavy, warm clump of energy. With the help of concentration, the energy slowly rose from the abdomen and flew up the central column. An excess of this type of energy usually results in aggressive behaviour, which is an easy way to get rid of it. Rumors have it (English teacher from secondary school said so) that it's meat, which causes this energy. Though, I'm not convinced yet. Not always has meat produced that effect and I suspect some other boiled food may also have a similar result. This sort of energy is the most challenging to transform for spiritual purposes, however, it seems to be very good for enhancing intensity and willpower.
Edit: Right .. it also reduced eye-sight.

With raw food, that does not happen. So far it seems that it produces a cold, sparse, lightweight cloud of energy.
Edit: Raw food improved eye-sight and removed blemishes from my face.
Edit: Edit: Not sure, but I suspect it might be coconut .. when I ate it a lot, I got diarrhea the next morning.

Just like in the video that inspired me to experiment with this .. both diets / foods are merely tools. The most important tool is still concentration and concentration doesn't practice itself.

I'll quote master Owltwelve:
Concentration is a sort crucible for refinement of sexual energy. Without the heat of concentration, sexual energy remains heavy, & falls out of the body. In terms of purification; a somatic practice like the white skeleton meditation is very helpful.
Anyway, comparing the tastes, I conclude that a week of 100% raw food diet most likely does not cause any malnutrition issues. Since, if the body lacks something, then it would taste exceptionally good.

With the past few days, I've grown fond of raw food. So, my experimentation shall continue.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

German goods

Yay, the transformer core arrived. I'm once again pleasantly surprised by the customer service of German companies. Though, I think they slighly overdid it this time =D.

At first I thought they must've sent some other core, because the box was a bit too large and heavy for a 30 x 20 x 10 mm toroid.

Then I checked the papers in the pouch. According to the paper: "Dims: 30 x 20 x 3 cm". Wait, what? Well, that would certainly fit into the box and that might just weigh just as much.

The epic unboxing procedure:




Ah, there it is, in the top corner of the box.

..The Core..

.. and cardboard ..



Now that there's a lot of cardboard, perhaps some day I'll have an idea what to build out of cardboard.

Diet experiments continued


Neck is still stiff. Shoulders are also aching slightly.

Noticed that today morning I had improved resistance to cold. Opened the balcony window and left it open for 30 minutes?

Today's menu:
  • Coconut
  • Kiwi
  • Three bananas
  • Salad
    • Three champignons
    • Tomato
    • A piece of cucumber
    • Parsley
    • Pan salt
    • Herb spices
    • Pepper
  • A loaf of bread with 3 sprats
The loaf of bread tasted very good, but sprats left me indifferent .. so, probably I didn't really need sprats or oil after all.

Noticed that coconut made me feel slightly tired (similar to the effect of sugar).

Took a 1-hour nap during the day.

Suspicious dreams

More dreams:

Woke up and found that father had made a gift. There was something next to the bed. Touched it and it seemed like a sphere of some sort.

Father came in, took the gift and put it on the table. In his hands, it was a box. I wasn't sure what was there on the table before or what was his gift.

Anyway, on the table there was some sort of a high voltage supply and a lamp. His gift somehow amplified the output to surreal levels. He switched it on. There were long arcs all over the table. As he cranked it up, I took some distance. In the tiny room, the arcs were several meters already. He was both hurt by arcs (I assumed that's why he groaned), while he was also fascinated about them, touching the arcs several times.

I did not understand his behaviour. To me it seemed that the device is very dangerous and care has to be taken during experiments.

Sister (runs a band of handicapped people) said she had a dream, where I had a seizure and transformed into a small kid afterwards.

Not a very promising plot, I might add. Though, there's a good point - one should not be afraid of these things, as fear is one of the main causes of those diseases.

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Diet experiments

Food summary from yesterday:
  • Cake for lunch.
  • Two apples.
  • Two kiwis.
  • A carrot.
  • Two tomatoes + pan salt.
  • A piece of cucumber + pan salt with herbs.
  • Juice with no added sugar, colouring agents or preservatives.
All in all, pretty acidic.

Didn't sleep too well last night. Didn't feel that tired. Played around with some sort of a cloud of energy within the body. Moved it around from body part to body part. The cloud was white with a faint tint of blue and gold. The cloud was warm and it was viscous.

Although better, the digestive system had still procrastinated during the day. So, in bed it started rushing with it. Perhaps that issue is not caused by food but simply a lack of physical exercise. But then again, I probably wouldn't think of trying a raw food diet if I would be physically more active.

Since today morning, the left side of my neck is stiff. There are two potential reasons: neck was exposed to cold wind yesterday and / or body lacks fat.

With raw food, I've noticed that I pee more often. Previously I used to eat very dry food, barely drinking anything.
 Food summary for today:
  • Two apples.
  • One kiwi.
  • Salad:
    • Two tomatoes
    • Cucumber
    • Parsley
    • Brown Himalayan salt (contains a lot of sulphur)
    • Pan salt
    • Black pepper
  • A carrot.
  • Three champignons.
  • A banana.
Apple and kiwi tasted a lot more sweet today morning. The salad also tasted amazingly good.

Still feeling dull and clumsy. A slight stress has built up due to feeling dull for so long. It's the fear of not being able to completely fulfil my responsibilities. I feel that this sensation of dullness and clumsiness is fake or hollow. I know it is possible to overcome it, though, I'm currently not all too confident in taking the step (more like a leap).

Thinking straight doesn't seem to be a problem anymore. Managed to solve a medium complexity problem in a quite elegant way today. It took some effort at first, but the effect seemed to have been long-lasting.

Tomorrow I may try sprats to see if it's fat that I'm missing. Black bread would be nice, too. I've also been attracted by peanut butter (100% roasted peanuts).

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Dream of being bitten / chewed

Had a dream with unknown symbolism again last night.

Our family is at a foreign place, which I didn't recognize. It was quite cold outside and everything was covered in ice.

Uncle and a friend leave the building, sit in a car and are about to leave. When the car moves, there's a crunching noise. As it turned out, a dog had climbed under the car and was injured as the car moved a little. I thought its bones got broken. For some awkward reason, uncle's interpretation (or the interpretation of an entity with uncle's form) was that the flesh of the dog had somehow made the noise (even though, in his mind he was aware that would be absurd). "Perhaps due to the cold," he thought. The dog looked alright, although deformed (quite common in the dreams). Anyway, I told uncle to contact a vet.

We were about to go back into the building. However, related to the incident with the dog, a lot of dogs, cats and other animals showed up to observe what was going on. Among them, there was a creature with a cat's head and an abnormally large body. I was confused as to what it is .. but considered it a dream anomaly that symbolized a jaguar or a similar animal. This weird creature comes into the building, squishing itself through a small opening and biting my right hand. I think I grabbed the creature's head and tried to extract my hand, which seemed very ineffective. Asked it to release my hand. It said it would, if I would release its head. Did so .. the creature let go of most of my hand, but was still biting my index finger. A moment later I asked it to release my finger also. The creature was like "Oh, right," and released it.

I was surprised to find my aunt (a vet) in the building.

A very awkward dream.

Raw food?

Watched this one yesterday:

Suddenly saw my eating habits from another angle. What is more, I realized the meaning of the dreams from the previous post.

Basically, I've been eating anything and whenever that anything causes issues with energy flow, I've tried to work around it with willpower and concentration. Also, when there's been food that doesn't taste right, I've tuned my sense of taste so that I could clean the plate without effort.

Since so far I've been on an "everything" diet, I thought I might try a raw food diet as well, for comparison. This way I could perhaps more easily determine the effect of eating habits on energy flow and spiritual development.

Similar to how some people die from radiation or toxines, I think a full prolonged diet of raw food may also be deadly for some people (malnutrition, lack of fat, etc.). Let's see what I'll feel during / after a raw food diet for couple of days. Not sure I would be able to psychically auto-generate all the lacking nutrients yet. So, if I feel the body needs meat, dairy or fish .. it's all ready in the fridge.

Well, there was a media event with a lot of cake for lunch. Shopped for some fruits, vegetables on my way home.

I guess it's about 7 hours on the raw food diet. So far I've noticed the following:
  • Having difficulties thinking straight.
  • Too much saliva is being produced.
  • Feeling slightly tired.
  • The digestive system seems to be working better.
  • Pretty much no tension or stress anywhere in the body.
  • Bodily odour has reduced remarkably.
  • Energy movement is more active. Have experienced several jolts of consciousness, as well as near-OBE while awake (leaning out of body).
  • Something seems to be dissolving at the pineal gland and at the area where I have a back problem.

Monday, February 16, 2015

Hole in the thumb

Dad asked if it's been cold with the blanket. I said no.

Last night it was cold. A lot of dreams were cut short, as I tried to tuck it in better. Oh well.

A lot of dreams with unknown symbolism.

I was walking along the channel. Enjoyed the beautiful sunrise. Turned towards the water and went through the bushes. One of the branches of a bush cut into the right thumb, 5 mm deep. That hurt and I started to wonder what I have done wrong to deserve treatment like that. Nothing came to mind. Then an entity popped up and tried to explain it to me.

In the dreams I often meet strange beings or strange people at the channel but I've never seen Keanu Reeves / Neo yet. At least that's the form that the entity took. The form seemed fake and I didn't understand why the entity would've wanted to look like Neo anyway.

Well, he had a strange idea, how it's possible to use pain or injuries for spiritual practice. He talked about dividing the hand into sections, then dividing those sections into smaller sections and so on.. basically a derivative of some sort, around the injury. I didn't get the point, but I thought perhaps he meant that I should pin-point the location of the injury and look it up in the accupuncture charts for a meaning.

Note that the thumb was wounded throughout all the dreams. However, it wasn't wounded on the physical body.

Another dream. I'm playing with kids at the summerhouse. We climb through a bunch of mess behind an old storage building. I accidentally tipped a scythe, which was leaning against the roof. It was so sharp that just with gravity, it cut through the roof. I took it away and put it somewhere less dangerous.

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Uncle

Last night I fell asleep late and then barely had any dreams.

Uncle visited me (it's about 1 year and 1.5 months since his death). He told me something, which he considered very important. After that, he it seemed as if he had all the time. Asked advice and discussed a lot of stuff .. the whole night. So many topics and so much discussion that I've forgotten almost everything.

At some moment, I asked / commented on his ability to maintain form for such a long period of time (the whole night). His focus never faded, there were no glitches in his presence. I was fascinated by that, and said that I've been able to maintain such focus for only a couple of minutes at maximum.

I wasn't sure if I had seen an entity with uncle's form or if it really was him. I didn't interact with him much and as much as I did, he had changed beyond recognition within the few years before his death. Mentioned the visit to dad today. Dad confirmed uncle's ability to maintain full focus for at least a full day + night. Amazing .. I wish I could concentrate that well.

Monday, February 9, 2015

Midnight purification

Yesterday the idea of me having a money-phobia of sorts arised at the pk forum. Since it triggered an egoic response, I assume it hit the spot. That improved intensity quite a bit. Used it to will purification and enlightenment.

Couldn't sleep for more than a few hours. Woke up at 3 AM. Then, for 3 hours, I worked on purifying the body. Learned something about psi dynamics in the process. Furniture made cracking and snapping noises as blockages were released.

Also, an idea popped into mind, which in my opinion would make a nice video game.

The dreams were pretty boring, though.

Saturday, February 7, 2015

The Holy Mountain

A lot of thanks to a friend, who recommended "The Holy Mountain 1973" to me.

The quest to the holy mountain and the strive towards spiritual development is just amazing. It contains a lot of adult rated stuff, crazy symbols and dream-like metaphors. However, without those, the film would lose its idea. The idea of the film was to directly show the main worldly problems and then propose the solution (everything as literally as possible).

Amazing..

Also, on the psychokinesis forum, a link to the following online library was shared:
http://minhateca.com.br/Aprendiz_de_tudo/Oculto-Magick-Wicca-Demonologia-Outros

That's a lot of books.

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Black blob half-crossed the road

Remembered that today I saw something cross the road just in front of me, then stopped at my right. Looked at it and saw nothing there. I only saw it while it was moving (and only from the corner of my eyes). While I saw it, it looked like a dark blurry object (almost completely transparent) the size of a rat.

Ladders, old lady of yoga .. dreams

Performed a ZPE test that wasn't successful. I was fascinated by dad's idea. Aromatic ring can be considered an oscillating circuit. Pour coke on aluminium foil, the rings stick to the foil (one plate of high-voltage capacitor) and form a sort of diode there. This should gather high-frequency oscillations and charge the capacitor. Though, it seems it might not be that simple.

Felt tired and went to bed early.

A handful of dreams:


There's a conference on cosmology, which, for some odd reason is taking place down in the electronics lab. Two experts had shown up for this miniature conference. One of them had a low self-esteem and seemed pretty nervous. I think he was the one to present his work first.

First couple of sentences. Bam, I realize something and out of excitement, I poof away immediately. Woke up so that I would remember the information. The presenter drew a connection between the self-sustainability of typhoons, storms, cloud movement and the motion of the galaxy.


I'm walking through high grass in someone's backyard. I think I had a piece of white bread or something, which was covered in little green spiders and ants. Blew the spiders and ants off. They got stuck in the high grass. Tried to avoid stepping on them. I had some sort of an issue with the stomach. Didn't know what I should do to resolve the issue. Found an arc ladder, walked over it. At some moment I realized I was carrying a straight ladder, so I put it aside.

A couple of people came and greeted me. There was no high grass where they were. One of them was an old lady, the other one was an entity (a lady, I guess). The old lady said her old man (she meant husband) was a great yogi. I could tell that she was at least as great a yogi as her husband had been (if she even had had a husband who had been a yogi in the first place - she might've referred to herself through a third person perspective). Anyway, she showed me one of the techniques her old man had been practising (one of her favourite techniques, I could tell).

The arc ladder was good for practising that technique, but I was not all too eager to try that exercise. Although I took the pose and tried, I said for several times: "I don't know. Probably I'm not capable of performing the exercise. I haven't practised." It's as if she was deaf to these words. Tried, but my body didn't stretch enough (the technique was at least as difficult as the scorpion pose, which I have not even tried). Anyway, what little did I try, it helped a little.

The entity asked me how my pinky was doing. I replied: "Fine," then looked at my right hand, wondering what she had meant by that (my pinky has always been alright). The finger next to the pinky was deformed in a weird way. Analyzed it and didn't find any explanation, other than I was dreaming (which means I'm capable of doing anything, provided that I put my mind to it).

The old lady (close to her 90s) was earning her living by knitting socks, scarfs, etc. and selling those. Had a look around her house .. very very cool. A lot of respect.

At some moment during the night I woke up into an OBE. Bored, I just practised psychokinesis in the bed. Remotely dragged the pillow (white) from underneath the head of the body. Gradually moved away so that I could see the head and the pillow twitching, shifting under the weight of the head. Quite fun for a while. Then looked at the experiment (two leyden jars) I had left for the night. Shot a Kamehameha-like blow at one of the jars. Flew around a little, before I woke up again.

My pillow is dark blue.

I'm next to the summerhouse. Caspar is out there, climbing a tree.

I go behind a bush and start peeing, which takes forever (indicates that I need to wake up and visit the bathroom). After I stopped, the sun came out and everywhere I had peed, pretty flowers spawned. A part of me felt bad for peeing in the yard. That part went into the house, mumbling to itself. I remained outdoors and looked around, enchanted by the beauty. Caspar had built a treehouse on top of the tree.

Woke up and visited the bathroom.

Monday, February 2, 2015

Webgeist

WDaf?

Wanted to post this video clip on the psychokinesis forum:

Well, I messed up, as I copied this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?x-yt-ts=1422579428
instead of this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXMXqULrEWg

Realized that after posting. Clicked Edit Post and it redirected me to the local WiFi access point page (http://192.168.0.1/login.asp). From Firefox, psychokinesis forum now always does that.

Edit: Yay, a few minutes later it started working properly again.

Mirrored experience

Today I saw a colleague, whose energy levels seem to have risen.

He mentioned that yesterday he had been in bed for the whole day because any light that entered his eyes, had caused a serious headache. My interpretation: brain being re-wired. I haven't experienced this to such an extreme, though.

During a 4-hour meeting today, he thought about leaving for lunch and work but wanted to wait for the topics that were the most relevant for him. At that moment, at the other end of the telecom, they changed plans (one guy had to leave for a moment, so they decided to continue discussing the other topic first). So, our colleague heard out the topic that was the most relevant for him. After hearing the topic, he was about to leave when at the other side of the telecom, someone also left and so everyone said "bye".

Also noticed that the colleague was very calm .. while I was pretty nervous and impatient (could've improved the efficiency of the meeting 4x, if it were my responsibility). In the past weeks, though, I've been able to alleviate the issues with my anxiety considerably .. but it still takes A LOT of effort and focus to even try to calm down. That guy was very calm. This even reminded me of a situation a few years ago, when our roles were in reverse. I'm happy for him, but I want to be at that level too.

The wobbling of space-time is still there and increasing. Today while discussing stuff with dad in the kitchen, I found a calm focus from within.

Recently I've found my stomach acid having uncomfortable pH levels. Yesterday I ate black bread with liver pate and drank pure water. That cured the issue. Realized I haven't taken pure tap water for years (always juice or milk). Note that the tap water here is very good.