3 months

I guess it has been about 3 months of celibacy by now.

Recently I haven't been very active at forcing chi up the central channel .. with the exception of yesterday evening and today morning. Today I got a headache, the likes of which I've previously called short-circuits. Luckily, it hurts quite rarely. Anyway, I'm not sure whether the headache has been caused by moving more chi or by the surprisingly hot weather today.

Edit: The headache from hot weather was different: dull and originating from the back of the head. The short-circuits are sharp and very localized, but in a seemingly random spot within the brain.

In the past week or so, the chain-reaction of consequences from my actions throughout the past year have started to become visible. I'm glad and I hope people find it helpful and inspiring.

This also reminded me that I had been planning to leave (or at least stop frequenting these places), and that perhaps I would be met with less resistance this time.

While there have been a few situations and dreams which I had wanted to post, I guess I've forgotten most of them.

Driving

8 days ago, I had a chat with someone on Discord. While nowadays this is hardly a surprise, there was an interesting synchronicity. In this chat I happened to mention a friend (A) and his brother (B). We also discussed walking on foot vs. driving and driving licenses.

The next day, (B) messaged me and asked if I had bought myself a car. Apparently (A) thought he saw me driving around. Well, I don't have a car, nor have I had a driving license for years.

Dream: Blindfold

Last night I had a dream of a competition of some sort. I was observing the event, cheering for a random nice guy. Somehow, after he was awarded, I was asked to step forward. I was also given an award of sorts - a hug and the blindfold which the winner had used during the competition.

As I put on the blindfold, I couldn't see very well. I guess it meant that it worked. I willed for myself to see, and started to see as if there were no blindfold. Since then, I saw everything, regardless of the blindfold. I started to doubt whether the blindfold had really been working at all. Had I broken it somehow, or was it broken when I received it?

According to Dream Moods dictionary, this could mean that I'm trying to deceive myself or trying to cut myself off from the world. But I think that has been obvious anyway.

Stuff

Recently I've been having some increased psi intensity, sometimes with a mild headache and nausea (due to blockages in the channels). There have also been moments with waves of heat propagating up the body.

While sitting in the lotus pose a couple of days ago, the cat curled onto my feet. Though, at some point the cat suddenly leaped off, looking at me with surprise. I suspect it might've been one of those heat waves propagating through the body which maybe caused the cat to feel weird.

I built up the density of psi surrounding the body again, for I realized that it helps with healing. I also realized that the issue with the left eye wasn't an issue with the left eye, it's still nothing more than an indicator for issues elsewhere in the body.

Occasionally I've happened to focus on the standing wave in the central channel. This usually builds up psi intensity really quickly (and results in the headache and nausea).

Watched Doctor Sleep yesterday and it was awesome. Most of it fit very well with past experiences and impressions of how things worked. Though, imho the thing with people hunting people with powers seemed like something out of the ancient times. While perhaps realistic, I don't think they would stand a chance against proper spiritual development in real life. It would simply be too overwhelming for them.

Edit: Ah, almost forgot. Wanted to note down that today morning I saw the Crookes radiometer spinning in sunlight. I had already convinced myself that I had probably broken it. It seems that I was mistaken, and perhaps the stasis field has finally worn off after all these years.


An interesting dream from a few weeks ago.

Dream: Homeless kids

During the pandemic, Grandma liked to visit their summer house and cook food there. She always cooked in large quantities. I wondered why was that.

At some point, a lot of homeless children revealed themselves. For most of the time, they simply remained hidden.

While there were police patrols nearby, thus far the homeless kids had gone unnoticed.