Noticed a strong improvement in empathy yesterday. From the morning, there were hints of it not being too good a day. Somehow managed to change the attitude about it and in the end it turned out to be one of the most awesome days, instead.
At home, found dad making pancakes and listening to Coast to Coast AM on a 5000 years old vimana found inside a cave. Several soldiers had gone missing while trying to cut it out from there. Powers that be had been summoned there, too. The guy being interviewed seemed quite afraid. Didn't feel there to be a reason (i was still floating in the bliss of the day). Got a feeling of a ship like that and the intelligence at sleep in its on-board computer. Pretty amazing.
Today I've been tired, but feeling a thick field of psi around me. Leaned a bit too close to a piece of electronics and was amazed by the feeling of current flowing through the tracks, through a LED and the LED blinking. Felt all this in the body, as with OBE or psychokinesis. Pretty amazing, too.
Remembered something that I had wanted to post a while ago. Remember that speedcam, here? Walking that same path some days later, I found the device turned off (broken). Some days later I found that it had been moved to another location (farther from the pedestrian road) and working again. An expensive prank. Glad they've got it working again. Sorry about this, won't play with it anymore.
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Monday, February 25, 2013
Feel normal
Feeling the same as used to, or used to feeling the way I do. Don't know which is which.
In one of the dreams a couple days ago, I was waiting for grandma to visit. Kept the door open. A while later she came in. Couldn't close the door anymore .. broke apart. So, I suspect the shields are down again, family's in and perhaps some others as well. Mind-space feels rather cluttered again, more difficult to keep it clear with all those people in there. Knew this would happen eventually. Grandma called the next morning.
Yesterday I found some remnants of the chakra system (re-crystallized after having melted them) and visualized these melt and drip into the abdomen. Had diarrhea this morning.
Stayed late in the lab again, debugging some. Slightly before leaving, heard something fall in an uncontrolled way. Glanced over the shoulder. Erik and his friend were debugging the 30 boards that Erik had pick'n'placed manually. Apparently, a fan had fallen off from the shelf (at that same place, where I had experienced some weird geisting about a month ago - stuff falling off the table and shelves). Erik said to his friend: "God must have something against you or something."
In one of the dreams a couple days ago, I was waiting for grandma to visit. Kept the door open. A while later she came in. Couldn't close the door anymore .. broke apart. So, I suspect the shields are down again, family's in and perhaps some others as well. Mind-space feels rather cluttered again, more difficult to keep it clear with all those people in there. Knew this would happen eventually. Grandma called the next morning.
Yesterday I found some remnants of the chakra system (re-crystallized after having melted them) and visualized these melt and drip into the abdomen. Had diarrhea this morning.
Stayed late in the lab again, debugging some. Slightly before leaving, heard something fall in an uncontrolled way. Glanced over the shoulder. Erik and his friend were debugging the 30 boards that Erik had pick'n'placed manually. Apparently, a fan had fallen off from the shelf (at that same place, where I had experienced some weird geisting about a month ago - stuff falling off the table and shelves). Erik said to his friend: "God must have something against you or something."
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Just a baby
No, empathy is stronger now.
It's cool how clearing the mind has become so much easier. Laid down in bed, cleared the mind once .. mind wandered .. *snap* a silence of slightly less than a minute.
Due to a sharp change, I now experienced what the dust does to this body. It made it sneeze and produce phlegm, caused psi to pile up at the lower half of the body and made it feel really sleepy all of a sudden.
Uncle visited and there was an overnight discussion on interesting things. He described how politics works; noticed a subtle but rapid change in emotions .. *crack*crack* the light flickered due to arcing. Father: Uh Oh.
A while ago, a forum member posted in his journal that after removing his chakras, he feels like a baby. Feel the same way now .. the learning and evolution process has just started. Also, memories of the previous life have started to degrade. It's still there, but seems rather irrelevant. This moment is so much more important.
This is reminiscent of an old dream, where I built myself a new body and transferred. Too excited, I transferred before the brain was fully operational. After being transferred, the new body felt like a baby - a fresh start. Fairly quickly, brain rewired itself and I started to like the new body more. Couldn't find the post about it, though.
It's cool how clearing the mind has become so much easier. Laid down in bed, cleared the mind once .. mind wandered .. *snap* a silence of slightly less than a minute.
Due to a sharp change, I now experienced what the dust does to this body. It made it sneeze and produce phlegm, caused psi to pile up at the lower half of the body and made it feel really sleepy all of a sudden.
Uncle visited and there was an overnight discussion on interesting things. He described how politics works; noticed a subtle but rapid change in emotions .. *crack*crack* the light flickered due to arcing. Father: Uh Oh.
A while ago, a forum member posted in his journal that after removing his chakras, he feels like a baby. Feel the same way now .. the learning and evolution process has just started. Also, memories of the previous life have started to degrade. It's still there, but seems rather irrelevant. This moment is so much more important.
This is reminiscent of an old dream, where I built myself a new body and transferred. Too excited, I transferred before the brain was fully operational. After being transferred, the new body felt like a baby - a fresh start. Fairly quickly, brain rewired itself and I started to like the new body more. Couldn't find the post about it, though.
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Random
Expanded consciousness over a part of the town. Empathy is there alright. A lot of noise has disappeared. The mind is just .. alone. Feel having become more selfish in a way. Would be cool to be able to have mind, body and spirit coherent at a guided frequency.
Pk feels the same, though, the psi field feels thicker. Playing FTL (faster than light) still causes the chest to be hurt and freeze over from the inside. Relaxed the mind and explored the feeling of a hi-freq buzzing auto-healing it again. Occasional breath cessation and sightings of a light during the moments of deeper mind relaxation.
Pk feels the same, though, the psi field feels thicker. Playing FTL (faster than light) still causes the chest to be hurt and freeze over from the inside. Relaxed the mind and explored the feeling of a hi-freq buzzing auto-healing it again. Occasional breath cessation and sightings of a light during the moments of deeper mind relaxation.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
At a doorstep
Feel different. Stuff is melting inside and there's a sort of floaty feeling that's somehow different from before. Feel uncertain at the same time, unsure if it was the right thing to do.
Discussed it with dad and at least he opposed it. And he was right. Don't feel any regret, though. Let's see what happens with empathy. It should eventually improve again.
Discussed it with dad and at least he opposed it. And he was right. Don't feel any regret, though. Let's see what happens with empathy. It should eventually improve again.
Bugs came out
Decided to try and free this body of chakras like this: boost the internal energy source and burst the body clean of parasites and then visualize melting the chakras.
Went to bed and silenced the mind, resting it on a feeling of presence in me. Several bubbles appeared, with thoughts and emotions that tried to look like mine. Having been focused on the real feeling of presence, I could clearly see that these bubbles did not source from it. Became aware of 2 people around the body, both astral. The one to my left looked blue and judging by intentions, he was observing me, ready to help if needed. The other one was farther away and it didn't seem that he was there to help. More like to help others hack into this body.
A while later, somewhere in a dream, I was busy thickening the shields and cleaning up in the body when something strange happened. Felt something crawling under the skin, trying to escape. Pushed the channels shut in the arm, to avoid the bug slipping back in. The arm immediately became numb and it felt as if there were just seconds left before this might start to damage the arm. The bug crawled up to the fingers and came out there. Woke up on the feeling of something biting the finger. WTF .. couldn't see in the dark and just hit that dark spot on the sheet. That thing hit the wall with the sound of a real physical bug with a chitin shell and all. Another bite on a toe. Same kind of bug there. The whole skin was buzzing of smaller bites and stuff. This made it a bit difficult to fall asleep again.
Another thing that I noticed .. at the location of these bugs, the blanket was off the body.
I guess this proves how important kriyas and cleansing procedures actually are. And what security holes these chakras are. Feel sorry for these hackers to have lost a great source of energy.
Went to bed and silenced the mind, resting it on a feeling of presence in me. Several bubbles appeared, with thoughts and emotions that tried to look like mine. Having been focused on the real feeling of presence, I could clearly see that these bubbles did not source from it. Became aware of 2 people around the body, both astral. The one to my left looked blue and judging by intentions, he was observing me, ready to help if needed. The other one was farther away and it didn't seem that he was there to help. More like to help others hack into this body.
A while later, somewhere in a dream, I was busy thickening the shields and cleaning up in the body when something strange happened. Felt something crawling under the skin, trying to escape. Pushed the channels shut in the arm, to avoid the bug slipping back in. The arm immediately became numb and it felt as if there were just seconds left before this might start to damage the arm. The bug crawled up to the fingers and came out there. Woke up on the feeling of something biting the finger. WTF .. couldn't see in the dark and just hit that dark spot on the sheet. That thing hit the wall with the sound of a real physical bug with a chitin shell and all. Another bite on a toe. Same kind of bug there. The whole skin was buzzing of smaller bites and stuff. This made it a bit difficult to fall asleep again.
Another thing that I noticed .. at the location of these bugs, the blanket was off the body.
I guess this proves how important kriyas and cleansing procedures actually are. And what security holes these chakras are. Feel sorry for these hackers to have lost a great source of energy.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Chakra system redundant?
A rather dark dream last night. I was being bullied and played with again, by some fellows. Experienced the consequences in the daily life.
The subject of the chakra system being a part of the "trap system" has popped up more than once on the forum already.
And a link of sorts: http://www.fw-indigo-adults.com/pages/SecretBehindChakras.html
Still slightly skeptical about it, although it seems to explain a lot.
The subject of the chakra system being a part of the "trap system" has popped up more than once on the forum already.
Still slightly skeptical about it, although it seems to explain a lot.
- Usually I can't detect the chakras. Can only feel them while either visualizing them or when there's a problem at the location of one.
- Stuff on the Kundalini did feel off when I read the first book on Kundalini yoga.
- After opening a chakra, it usually tends to close off too quickly .. psi gets drained somewhere.
- From the books and scriptures, most deities seem remarkably less intelligent than an average human.
- Suddenly becoming drained, apparently without a reason.
- The need to visualize chakras, even though they're supposed to be there inherently.
- While visualizing the chakras dissolving, I sensed anger. It seemed to have hurt an ego or two.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
More real than reality .. unreal
A flying dream or two. But what was even more amazing, a dream remarkably more vivid than the life when awake. I had been there the night before also. A place with grass, trees and water. Could see and feel the grass blades, tree leaves and surface of the water glittering. I remember just jawdropping with "Wow, all those details .. unreal." Funny but I had had the same reaction the night before.
For the last few days, I've been feeling a bit darker again. Though, I've always focused on the light. A moment later, I would usually feel refreshed, clouds would disappear and the sun would start shining.
Also, empathy hasn't come back on its own. Though, each day I've focused on it and invisible clouds of warmth have appeared from the consciousness.
For the last few days, I've been feeling a bit darker again. Though, I've always focused on the light. A moment later, I would usually feel refreshed, clouds would disappear and the sun would start shining.
Also, empathy hasn't come back on its own. Though, each day I've focused on it and invisible clouds of warmth have appeared from the consciousness.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Waking up
Recently I've noticed that my back is a lot warmer than other parts of the body. Washing with warm water makes the back feel the water being cold. The front of the body, on the other hand, feels the water being unbearably hot. This seems to back up one of the theories that popped up on energy propagation throughout the body a while ago. Need to draw it sometime when I get the time.
Felt a stronger gradient between the two halves of the body today. Kept it back and tried to ease it out so that it wouldn't damage the organs.
While walking home from work late today evening, the experience of the pedestrian bridge split in two. One - the way I've always thought and felt about it. The other - totally different, brighter, more pure and without my old preconceptions. The dark veil of many years had finally cracked.
Felt a stronger gradient between the two halves of the body today. Kept it back and tried to ease it out so that it wouldn't damage the organs.
While walking home from work late today evening, the experience of the pedestrian bridge split in two. One - the way I've always thought and felt about it. The other - totally different, brighter, more pure and without my old preconceptions. The dark veil of many years had finally cracked.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Old(er) stuff
Back home again.
Some stuff I've forgotten to post about:
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A few days ago, had to rush for a vaccine against yellow fever, due to some soon-to-come travels. Decided to observe the effect it would have on this body and mind.
Before vaccination, I was slightly nervous about the possible side-effects. After the injection, at first psi went crazy, all sorts of constructs popped up to protect the body against this poison. I disabled the natural bodily reaction and carefully let it spread across the body. When it entered the throat, throat became sore. When it entered the brain, I felt it didn't have too good an effect there either. As it spread, the feeling of empathy and pk decreased. Mind became a bit more chaotic.
Intended on getting empathy going with this vaccine. Body started producing more sweat. Waves of warmth were introduced. By the end of the day, I was feeling perfectly normal.
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The end of the day was followed by a rather sleepless night when I managed to overcome my problems with having emotions about sleepless nights. It became rather productive and meditative.
After coming home for 1h sleep before departure, I was geisting explosions in light switches again. Tried 2x and kitchen light did not turn on.
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A few days ago as I was going to a lecture somewhere in the old town, I noticed they had installed a speed camera on one of the roads there.
A car went past .. about 28 km/h. Another car was coming.
Wondered .. how does it tell the difference whether it's a car or a pedestrian. How fast am I walking? I wonder if I could somehow have the speed camera show me my walking speed.
It's showing 7 or 8 km/h. The car went past at at least 20 km/h, whereas the display still shows 8 km/h and seems to be changing according to my movement. It seemed to have ignored that car completely. Cool.
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Some days ago I had a dream where we had to build something really big and complex out of small parts.
Later in that dream, I found I can levitate and fly without effort.
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Made a not too tasty choice on pizza a couple of days ago. Same stuff with soda, just wanted to try something random that's not mainstream.
This effectively reminded to me that life is a system with a feedback and you're the one who controls the feedback.
Eating is basically communication between your mind and food (expectation, taste, effects on body and feedback that alters all the previous variables). By controlling the feedback, one can change the way food tastes and the way it affects the body. Pretty cool what one can do without prejudices .. add spices here and there or smoothen out a rough taste. Or even drink poison and have it not affect the body in any way.
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Ah, one more thing. Finally got a windowed seat on one of the planes back home. Noticed some strange movements on the surface of the rather uniform cloud-cover. There were brighter and darker spots moving around, entering the clouds, leaving them, distorting them at some places. Mostly saw this from the corner of the eyes.
Not too sure yet - might be some sort of eye tricks, due to not being used to flying.
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Hmm, also got a strong feeling of big corporations and illuminati from a plane flight. Had misunderstood it earlier. There seems to be a gap between the "higher" and the "lower" class. These usually don't like each other because their viewpoints on the world are a bit too different and they're simply having difficulties understanding each other. However, both seem to have similar goals, just different means to achieve this. Greed for more power or more money seems to be more of a misconception than a real problem (used to be, but not any more - or at least, that's what it felt like).
Some stuff I've forgotten to post about:
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A few days ago, had to rush for a vaccine against yellow fever, due to some soon-to-come travels. Decided to observe the effect it would have on this body and mind.
Before vaccination, I was slightly nervous about the possible side-effects. After the injection, at first psi went crazy, all sorts of constructs popped up to protect the body against this poison. I disabled the natural bodily reaction and carefully let it spread across the body. When it entered the throat, throat became sore. When it entered the brain, I felt it didn't have too good an effect there either. As it spread, the feeling of empathy and pk decreased. Mind became a bit more chaotic.
Intended on getting empathy going with this vaccine. Body started producing more sweat. Waves of warmth were introduced. By the end of the day, I was feeling perfectly normal.
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The end of the day was followed by a rather sleepless night when I managed to overcome my problems with having emotions about sleepless nights. It became rather productive and meditative.
After coming home for 1h sleep before departure, I was geisting explosions in light switches again. Tried 2x and kitchen light did not turn on.
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A few days ago as I was going to a lecture somewhere in the old town, I noticed they had installed a speed camera on one of the roads there.
A car went past .. about 28 km/h. Another car was coming.
Wondered .. how does it tell the difference whether it's a car or a pedestrian. How fast am I walking? I wonder if I could somehow have the speed camera show me my walking speed.
It's showing 7 or 8 km/h. The car went past at at least 20 km/h, whereas the display still shows 8 km/h and seems to be changing according to my movement. It seemed to have ignored that car completely. Cool.
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Some days ago I had a dream where we had to build something really big and complex out of small parts.
Later in that dream, I found I can levitate and fly without effort.
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Made a not too tasty choice on pizza a couple of days ago. Same stuff with soda, just wanted to try something random that's not mainstream.
This effectively reminded to me that life is a system with a feedback and you're the one who controls the feedback.
Eating is basically communication between your mind and food (expectation, taste, effects on body and feedback that alters all the previous variables). By controlling the feedback, one can change the way food tastes and the way it affects the body. Pretty cool what one can do without prejudices .. add spices here and there or smoothen out a rough taste. Or even drink poison and have it not affect the body in any way.
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Ah, one more thing. Finally got a windowed seat on one of the planes back home. Noticed some strange movements on the surface of the rather uniform cloud-cover. There were brighter and darker spots moving around, entering the clouds, leaving them, distorting them at some places. Mostly saw this from the corner of the eyes.
Not too sure yet - might be some sort of eye tricks, due to not being used to flying.
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Hmm, also got a strong feeling of big corporations and illuminati from a plane flight. Had misunderstood it earlier. There seems to be a gap between the "higher" and the "lower" class. These usually don't like each other because their viewpoints on the world are a bit too different and they're simply having difficulties understanding each other. However, both seem to have similar goals, just different means to achieve this. Greed for more power or more money seems to be more of a misconception than a real problem (used to be, but not any more - or at least, that's what it felt like).
Yay for the Netherlands
First flight, Netherlands .. yay!
That was cool, even though I had missed the previous night due to yet another extra-long working day-night-day.
Quite an experience to fly on a plane and feel the air around it, as it moves 800 km/h above the clouds. The sunset was cool too, over the sea of clouds. Areas of turbulence felt like denser blobs of warmer air. Would be really awesome to learn to levitate and fly like that without needing any tech.
Psi became crazy and geisted some internet problems when sister asked via Skype: "Where are you?" Work-related stuff sort of faded out and stopped working for a moment.
Netherlands seems really cosy, safe and calm. And warm also. Cheers me up a lot.
That was cool, even though I had missed the previous night due to yet another extra-long working day-night-day.
Quite an experience to fly on a plane and feel the air around it, as it moves 800 km/h above the clouds. The sunset was cool too, over the sea of clouds. Areas of turbulence felt like denser blobs of warmer air. Would be really awesome to learn to levitate and fly like that without needing any tech.
Psi became crazy and geisted some internet problems when sister asked via Skype: "Where are you?" Work-related stuff sort of faded out and stopped working for a moment.
Netherlands seems really cosy, safe and calm. And warm also. Cheers me up a lot.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Empathy and stuff :)
Moments when I lack confidence, feel fear .. in contrast with feeling at peace, love and light with heightened empathy.
Found it interesting to eat food while feeling the sausages and potatoes being alive in a sense. Active feedback on taste and pleasure from eating.
Stepping on snow was interesting as well. Felt this life or peace, love, light and heat in the snow while stepping on it.
Found it interesting to eat food while feeling the sausages and potatoes being alive in a sense. Active feedback on taste and pleasure from eating.
Stepping on snow was interesting as well. Felt this life or peace, love, light and heat in the snow while stepping on it.
Monday, February 11, 2013
Influence
.. a follow-up ..
In bed, remembered a feeling, in which his mind silenced when I was about to show him things. It silenced, in an expectation of something wise and spiritually guiding.
The following was weaker, but an image appeared of him having performed a suicide. This possibility didn't even cross my mind earlier. I was blinded in emotions as well. Not wise and not spiritually guiding, either =(.
Also weak, but there have been hints of him hanging around. Or it might be just my imagination. Anyway, he's a nice guy.
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Today after a lecture, walked towards the city centre with an old friend. Had noticed a change in my mind when he was around. A slight arrogance of sorts, might be due to him praising me every so often.
Anyway, changed that attitude and geared towards focus on empathy. Felt a slight change in the body.
At the same moment, the friend said he started feeling real warm all of a sudden. He was probably less than 1 m away from me. The reverse happened about 5 years ago when he had been practising psi-balls at school.
The recent situations seem to have been suggesting that I've considerably under-estimated my influence.
In bed, remembered a feeling, in which his mind silenced when I was about to show him things. It silenced, in an expectation of something wise and spiritually guiding.
The following was weaker, but an image appeared of him having performed a suicide. This possibility didn't even cross my mind earlier. I was blinded in emotions as well. Not wise and not spiritually guiding, either =(.
Also weak, but there have been hints of him hanging around. Or it might be just my imagination. Anyway, he's a nice guy.
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Today after a lecture, walked towards the city centre with an old friend. Had noticed a change in my mind when he was around. A slight arrogance of sorts, might be due to him praising me every so often.
Anyway, changed that attitude and geared towards focus on empathy. Felt a slight change in the body.
At the same moment, the friend said he started feeling real warm all of a sudden. He was probably less than 1 m away from me. The reverse happened about 5 years ago when he had been practising psi-balls at school.
The recent situations seem to have been suggesting that I've considerably under-estimated my influence.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Arrogance and a bullet
My face is pretty messed up by acne. Recently I've been wondering what might be the psychological cause for this.
Got a strong feeling of a situation where a man was shot through the cheek, with the jaw broken and stuff. The shooter then stepped on the head of the man and left him there. The shooter knew no empathy and was not aware of the responsibilities he had taken. The feeling of being superior and having scum get what it deserves .. felt I had to do something about it. There were 2 of them and alone, neither one of them would've done anything like that without careful thinking. Grabbed the feeling and tried to show this guy the life his victim would have after receiving such a "gift". Don't know if that helped but the feeling of arrogance faded out.
Although the feelings were amazingly vivid, the images were fuzzy or not even there. More like a mind-conversation of sorts.
Got a strong feeling of a situation where a man was shot through the cheek, with the jaw broken and stuff. The shooter then stepped on the head of the man and left him there. The shooter knew no empathy and was not aware of the responsibilities he had taken. The feeling of being superior and having scum get what it deserves .. felt I had to do something about it. There were 2 of them and alone, neither one of them would've done anything like that without careful thinking. Grabbed the feeling and tried to show this guy the life his victim would have after receiving such a "gift". Don't know if that helped but the feeling of arrogance faded out.
Although the feelings were amazingly vivid, the images were fuzzy or not even there. More like a mind-conversation of sorts.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Reborn once more
Yesterday evening at a relaxation event with sauna, one of the colleagues shared a video clip he had made. He didn't want us to invite more people and even said he would only show it to us once. He probably felt uneasy about it, which caused a tiny blackout and reset the player. Cool..
A late night due to debugging graphics card issues at home. Noticed a lot of snapping in furniture and electronics at 2 m radius from the body.
Took a nap during the day, which ended up pretty meditative. Still feeling calm and peaceful thanks to that.
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Meditated on a serial experiments lain wallpaper while listening to music. At first, images appeared of what I had thought I wanted to be like. After playing with these for a while, I let go and started to undesign everything I had ever thought about myself. Closed the eyes and continued.
Focused on the 3rd eye and saw something dark looking onto me (obstructing the light that was shining on the closed eyelids). Without changes in feelings or emotions, I turned the 3rd eye into it. Gradually it dissolved, or at least, most of it. Though, some of it entered the body through the right arm.
Targeted multiple regions in the body that felt a bit off, by turning the 3rd eye inwards and focused at these spots. With little focus, I felt consciousness shift into the region and saw some faint images emerge. During this practice, body was heating up with sweat dripping.
Felt reborn, left with a faded memory of what I did last week and before.
A late night due to debugging graphics card issues at home. Noticed a lot of snapping in furniture and electronics at 2 m radius from the body.
Took a nap during the day, which ended up pretty meditative. Still feeling calm and peaceful thanks to that.
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Meditated on a serial experiments lain wallpaper while listening to music. At first, images appeared of what I had thought I wanted to be like. After playing with these for a while, I let go and started to undesign everything I had ever thought about myself. Closed the eyes and continued.
Focused on the 3rd eye and saw something dark looking onto me (obstructing the light that was shining on the closed eyelids). Without changes in feelings or emotions, I turned the 3rd eye into it. Gradually it dissolved, or at least, most of it. Though, some of it entered the body through the right arm.
Targeted multiple regions in the body that felt a bit off, by turning the 3rd eye inwards and focused at these spots. With little focus, I felt consciousness shift into the region and saw some faint images emerge. During this practice, body was heating up with sweat dripping.
Felt reborn, left with a faded memory of what I did last week and before.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Relax and enjoy
Felt the top of the skull open up during last night's pranayama practice.
For most of the first dream, I was still working, implementing, debugging and testing stuff. Finally, when I was done, there was a sweet sense of achievement. Could finally go to sleep from inside that dream.
However, right when I got it done and the pressure suddenly dropped, something strange happened. Dirty water started pouring from seemingly nowhere (from atop a window sill). Sister happened to be sleeping under that window sill with that water dripping on her bed. Similar to what happened in 2009 (then it wasn't a dream, tho).
Ate yoghurt again today and felt it affecting the crown (started wobbling and pulsing more). Cold air also seems to be affecting the chakras in an interesting way.
While walking home late today, I relaxed on the surroundings and really enjoyed it. Felt the buildings, streets, cars, water beneath the cover of ice and snow .. it wasn't quite as vivid as in an OBE, but still nice..
For most of the first dream, I was still working, implementing, debugging and testing stuff. Finally, when I was done, there was a sweet sense of achievement. Could finally go to sleep from inside that dream.
However, right when I got it done and the pressure suddenly dropped, something strange happened. Dirty water started pouring from seemingly nowhere (from atop a window sill). Sister happened to be sleeping under that window sill with that water dripping on her bed. Similar to what happened in 2009 (then it wasn't a dream, tho).
Ate yoghurt again today and felt it affecting the crown (started wobbling and pulsing more). Cold air also seems to be affecting the chakras in an interesting way.
While walking home late today, I relaxed on the surroundings and really enjoyed it. Felt the buildings, streets, cars, water beneath the cover of ice and snow .. it wasn't quite as vivid as in an OBE, but still nice..
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Alienation
Didn't feel too aware today. A kind of force seemed to be missing. Still tried to push it up the spine, into the crown occasionally and got that familiar feeling of prana or hot air flowing into the central part of the brain. Even though I mostly focused on the bindu point at the back of the top of the head, this affected the crown chakra and 3rd eye, mostly.
Usually I eat just pies, cookies and yoghurt. Opted for some real food (rice + fish) at an Asian restaurant today. That felt good and helped me re-acquire a state of peace and pleasure shortly after. The weather was affected as well, which is usually the case (snowfall stopped, holes appeared in the clouds and sun came out).
About to leave for home, I flipped the light switch and heard an explosion (some really heavy arcing?) from inside the switch. Tried again to make sure I didn't break it. Worked fine. Well, there was a similar problem with the kitchen lamp just recently.
After this event, I paid some more attention to those street lamps. Next to school / work building, there's 1 lamp which always seems to turn on when I'm nearby. On the pedestrian bridge, there are about 3 lamps that flicker. One of these usually goes out when walk past.
Ah, right. Today morning, toilet water system also got stuck. Geisting as well?
Anyway, I've started to feel alienated again. Most of coworkers' jokes no longer make me laugh. Also, most of what either I or they say, seems pointless.
Usually I eat just pies, cookies and yoghurt. Opted for some real food (rice + fish) at an Asian restaurant today. That felt good and helped me re-acquire a state of peace and pleasure shortly after. The weather was affected as well, which is usually the case (snowfall stopped, holes appeared in the clouds and sun came out).
About to leave for home, I flipped the light switch and heard an explosion (some really heavy arcing?) from inside the switch. Tried again to make sure I didn't break it. Worked fine. Well, there was a similar problem with the kitchen lamp just recently.
After this event, I paid some more attention to those street lamps. Next to school / work building, there's 1 lamp which always seems to turn on when I'm nearby. On the pedestrian bridge, there are about 3 lamps that flicker. One of these usually goes out when walk past.
Ah, right. Today morning, toilet water system also got stuck. Geisting as well?
Anyway, I've started to feel alienated again. Most of coworkers' jokes no longer make me laugh. Also, most of what either I or they say, seems pointless.
nExt dreams
Forgot to mention a dream about a naive king with cunning henchmen. Just a scene from a lunch / dinner. Nothing special in the scene, except for everyone being alien and the intentions, thoughts floating around there.
Forgot to mention another one with a bit strange roundtable. Around it, there were some sort of important people whom I didn't quite know. The president had also taken a seat there. Everyone had dressed polite, except for me (some summer casual clothing). For some reason, our family was sitting at the center. Thought it was some kind of a work-related event (would explain those important people) or an important event for one of the relatives (would explain our family being there).
A lot of strange places and taking photos of UFOs last night. Wasn't as aware as the night before.
Forgot to mention another one with a bit strange roundtable. Around it, there were some sort of important people whom I didn't quite know. The president had also taken a seat there. Everyone had dressed polite, except for me (some summer casual clothing). For some reason, our family was sitting at the center. Thought it was some kind of a work-related event (would explain those important people) or an important event for one of the relatives (would explain our family being there).
A lot of strange places and taking photos of UFOs last night. Wasn't as aware as the night before.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
A few dreams
Managed to maintain some amount of focus on the design of my mindset throughout the night.
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In one of the dreams, I visited the summerhouse. For a few hours, I had been waiting there at the door. It had gradually become dark. Enjoyed being there.
After a while, a dog noticed me and came to play with me. Played and while doing so, I noticed that I could guess its movements by changes in the aura. Somehow saw its aura more clearly than before. Noticed something else as well .. the dog was only attracted towards my right hand (Yang?).
At some moment, I decided to check the health of the right hand, just in case. Realized I had been covered in an invisible protective robe of sorts. These bites wouldn't affect anything through the robe.
Some time later, Caspar came out with a few friends. He demonstrated what he had learned in the meanwhile. He was floating, with a friend supporting his hand. Looked around and got the impression that he had somehow transferred his weight onto that hand. His muscles were twitching a little. A rather impressive feat.
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Another dream. A highly dynamic one. It was a bright morning and with the approach of spring, construction workers had come back to work on the building. Looked back from the roof of a nearby building and saw a workers on dangerous swinging ladders and scaffolding.
Back in the apartment, some guy (an acquaintance of an acquaintance) came to sell schematics, about 100 € each. Noticed that he didn't read my thoughts and assumed I wouldn't either. He wanted the money real bad and finally figured out I wouldn't buy any of those, backtalking about me in his mind. The schematics looked stolen and I recognized some from the student satellite project.
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In one of the dreams, I visited the summerhouse. For a few hours, I had been waiting there at the door. It had gradually become dark. Enjoyed being there.
After a while, a dog noticed me and came to play with me. Played and while doing so, I noticed that I could guess its movements by changes in the aura. Somehow saw its aura more clearly than before. Noticed something else as well .. the dog was only attracted towards my right hand (Yang?).
At some moment, I decided to check the health of the right hand, just in case. Realized I had been covered in an invisible protective robe of sorts. These bites wouldn't affect anything through the robe.
Some time later, Caspar came out with a few friends. He demonstrated what he had learned in the meanwhile. He was floating, with a friend supporting his hand. Looked around and got the impression that he had somehow transferred his weight onto that hand. His muscles were twitching a little. A rather impressive feat.
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Another dream. A highly dynamic one. It was a bright morning and with the approach of spring, construction workers had come back to work on the building. Looked back from the roof of a nearby building and saw a workers on dangerous swinging ladders and scaffolding.
Back in the apartment, some guy (an acquaintance of an acquaintance) came to sell schematics, about 100 € each. Noticed that he didn't read my thoughts and assumed I wouldn't either. He wanted the money real bad and finally figured out I wouldn't buy any of those, backtalking about me in his mind. The schematics looked stolen and I recognized some from the student satellite project.
Mischievous blob of heat
A couple of days ago, father showed us this video:
In which Bashar sums up some of the key points of pk and attitude towards life.
Decided to apply a more forceful push to my progress (a firm design of the avatar). Got that familiar floaty feeling with empathy, visions and weather geisting. Dreams became a lot more vivid and remembered them better after waking up.
Yesterday I noticed that there was something off. Had to visit the bathroom way too often. Also, at night, I would leak jing. During pranayama practice, I held the breath for a bit longer, in order to observe what was going on in the abdomen. There was a pillar of burning heat that caused a mess. Focused on the area and felt a strong bubble of heat emanating from it. Too difficult for me to force that upwards..
Leaked a lot of jing during the night. After that, the body felt more at ease again .. psi could be moved around more easily. Had probably leaked that blob of heat out.
For a few hours in the morning, the mind was amazingly calm and psi was wobbling, pulsing at the crown chakra. Shortly after eating lunch, I became grounded again .. slipped into a slight depression and panic again.
Decided to apply a more forceful push to my progress (a firm design of the avatar). Got that familiar floaty feeling with empathy, visions and weather geisting. Dreams became a lot more vivid and remembered them better after waking up.
Yesterday I noticed that there was something off. Had to visit the bathroom way too often. Also, at night, I would leak jing. During pranayama practice, I held the breath for a bit longer, in order to observe what was going on in the abdomen. There was a pillar of burning heat that caused a mess. Focused on the area and felt a strong bubble of heat emanating from it. Too difficult for me to force that upwards..
Leaked a lot of jing during the night. After that, the body felt more at ease again .. psi could be moved around more easily. Had probably leaked that blob of heat out.
For a few hours in the morning, the mind was amazingly calm and psi was wobbling, pulsing at the crown chakra. Shortly after eating lunch, I became grounded again .. slipped into a slight depression and panic again.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
RV on code
Tried using RV on code and buggy behaviour. Though, saw a tempting sidetrack and decided to go there, instead.
The sidetrack lead into the nature. A lot of green plants and bushes, probably belonging to a warmer climate. Moved further and got an image of a wooden building in there. Got the image and feeling of sun shining on the brown door / window frame. These feelings sourced from somebody living there.
So far RV and empathy on code has mostly been spontaneous. Still, got to find that bug in someone else's code, which is not too easy to read.
Yesterday's random RV attempts were not too successful. Revived the good old qRV project for some precognition and remote-viewing practices.
The sidetrack lead into the nature. A lot of green plants and bushes, probably belonging to a warmer climate. Moved further and got an image of a wooden building in there. Got the image and feeling of sun shining on the brown door / window frame. These feelings sourced from somebody living there.
So far RV and empathy on code has mostly been spontaneous. Still, got to find that bug in someone else's code, which is not too easy to read.
Yesterday's random RV attempts were not too successful. Revived the good old qRV project for some precognition and remote-viewing practices.
Friday, February 1, 2013
More awake
With the last couple of days, I guess stuff in the body has started to melt again.
Felt different after work today. Somehow, the mind was at peace. I was more awake and aware.
Empathy with the surroundings had improved. Felt the cars rushing past, people walking on the street, traffic signs and lamp posts. A mild feeling of pleasure had filled the body.
Edit: Finished reading Jim Marrs "Psi spies". Oh man that's inspiring. Itching for OBE and remote viewing practices again. So far almost all of these have been without feedback.
Visited the kitchen with this excitement and failed 3x at turning the light on. The CFL would just flicker, flash and then go out again. Weird, a bit. Last time I visited the kitchen, it was still working and all.
Felt different after work today. Somehow, the mind was at peace. I was more awake and aware.
Empathy with the surroundings had improved. Felt the cars rushing past, people walking on the street, traffic signs and lamp posts. A mild feeling of pleasure had filled the body.
Edit: Finished reading Jim Marrs "Psi spies". Oh man that's inspiring. Itching for OBE and remote viewing practices again. So far almost all of these have been without feedback.
Visited the kitchen with this excitement and failed 3x at turning the light on. The CFL would just flicker, flash and then go out again. Weird, a bit. Last time I visited the kitchen, it was still working and all.
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