Playful dreams

For a couple of times, I've happened to look at the spot just before a situation unfolds.

In one of the dreams, I visited some place in the capital city. There was a parking lot with 1 car near a park. There were leaf trees all around the place and the ground was somewhat yellow of the dropped leaves. The ground was a bit sloped there. I approached the ground at such an angle (face towards the ground) that the car seemed to have been parked on a wall. Played climbing up a cliff. Tried to grab from the ground to pull myself up to the edge of the cliff. Hands moved through stuff, which made it difficult to climb. Afraid of falling off the cliff, I visualized the grasp improving so that I started to feel the moist ground and tree roots. This helped a lot.

Met an old classmate, who was also quite enthusiastic about such a playful approach to dreams. He had been using that for years.

In some of the dreams, I saw virtual worlds that I couldn't change with visualizations. These had been modelled with some sort of a map editor and I realized just how tedious it was to build something like this. Expanded my awareness to the surroundings, looking for a way to model maps out-of-body. This would seriously boost productivity if one were able to create video game maps instantly, just like it can be done with a dream world. Lacked good ideas, though. The only one that came to mind was a sort of volumetric noise. Though, it would take a lot of training to learn to sculpt that with one's mind.

Woke up to some sort of an intermediate state, where I was just sitting on the bed, thinking about the dreams.

Psychic presenter

Somehow enjoyed waking up really early today morning.

During the last presentation at the conference today, a triple-A battery started rolling on the table. Previously, I had glanced at it once, thinking of practicing pk on it. Quickly changed my mind, though. Then, an hour later, as the presenter was making hand gestures about 2 m from the table, the battery rolled. There were 2 batteries on the table and the other one didn't move .. so, I guess it wasn't table vibrations. Also, there were no air drafts .. there were papers on the table, which didn't budge. No doors or windows were open .. had to put a lot of effort into staying awake without the oxygen. Kept pecking in the front row, with my eyes rolling around like a crazy cow. Suspect that the presenter is psychic ^,^

iJodix and PsiKriztjan gave me a big bar of chocolate. Thank you, wish you all the best. We'll be practicing pk together the next summer, hopefully.

Apathetic absorption

Went to meet sister with all her bags at the bus station yesterday. Arrived and felt that sister won't be there .. for at least an hour. Grandma called that sister had missed the bus and would be late.

Even though it was a bit cold, I decided to take a longer walk and wait for her without going back home.

For some reason, I've been feeling apathetic again recently.

Stared at the ripples on the channel surface. Attempted stasis on the water. There was a lot of pressure building up in the central part of the brain and the 3rd eye region. Fish started splashing around the area of the stasis field focus. Occasionally it seemed as if the ripples did slow down a bit. Though, mind absorption in the water felt better than practising stasis field on it.

Looked up into the sky and became absorbed in the clouds and their movement. The clouds moved really fast. Buildings on the other side of the channel started to seem like tiny models beneath the all-covering sky.

Went to bed late, due to figuring out something about karma and enlightenment. Can't recall any special dreams.

Dream research on conspiracy theories

Had some interesting dreams today morning.

I was visiting someone and spending the night at their place. There was a bookshelf there (a bit reminiscent of grandfather's library, where I guess I might be spending a few nights this week). Not feeling tired, I looked around, tried to open the 3rd eye and observe the movement of the psi field. There was a thick green book with golden title that started to "smoke". Really hoped I hadn't geisted fire and that the book was just giving off psi. Gradually more of it started rising off the books there. At some point, symbols and letters formed out of this "smoke". The symbols, shapes and letters were so much denser that they no longer rose .. they descended down the shelves. Still worried, I tried to smell them to make sure it wasn't smoke. No smell, the symbols and letters entered my head.

Some dreams of browsing stuff and researching something. Can't remember those.

Woke up to turn around in bed. Closed the eyes again. I hadn't even fallen asleep yet, when I saw a girl appear behind the balcony window. Somehow related to the previous dreams, I asked her: "What about the presidency?" I guess she replied: "No changes in the last 180 years." Leaned back into the bed and something strange happened. Experienced vibrations and the sound of fresh snow crunching when someone steps on it. During the vibrations and that sound, there was a rush through the head and the edge of the blanket was twitching around, as if watching a time-lapse video. Pretty much the same experience as the first near-obe.

Edit: Wait, before she appeared, I remember seeing an orb fly towards the window.

The girl had red hair and she had appeared between the window glass and the plastic that's covering the windows (and causing me to feel trapped). Basically, the plastic is taped right on the windows, so there's less than 3 mm of space in between. There was one more detail that was a bit off - when I was back in body, the head was tilted to the right. When I leaned back into the bed, I didn't tilt the head. Other than that, all the details along with the feeling of being awake .. cool.

Ah, perhaps due to being a bit paranoid after this experience, my mind visualized a demonic entity wishing to enter the room. Tried to shield it.

Karma?

There's recently a lot of karma-related discussions popping up at me everywhere. Yesterday, zen faran from para-web quoted the Jainism definition on karma, which really appealed to me:

In Jainism, "karma" conveys a totally different meaning from that commonly understood in Hindu philosophy and western civilization. In Jainism, karma is referred to as karmic dirt, as it consists of very subtle and microscopic particles (pudgala) that pervade the entire universe. Karmas are attracted to the karmic field of a soul due to vibrations created by activities of mind, speech, and body as well as various mental dispositions. Hence the karmas are the subtle matter surrounding the consciousness of a soul. When these two components (consciousness and karma) interact, we experience the life we know at present.

Herman Kuhn, quoting from Tattvarthasutra, describes karmas as "a mechanism that makes us thoroughly experience the themes of our life until we gained optimal knowledge from them and until our emotional attachment to these themes falls off.

Most likely as a follow-up for the dog tick dream, I had a dream where a cat bit my finger and I knew I had to fight with it for some reason. Tried to do it so that I wouldn't hurt it too much. At some point I found that I had become faster than the cat. The fight ended. Interesting that again, I started spitting blood, though, this time it was after the cat had bitten me. Karma?

Uplifting monolith

An inspiring night with paranormal discussions around a bonfire. As symbols, the burning trunk reminded me of many things. It's as if we burned an angry dragon that resembled some sort of a system, then some sort of a psi-vamp monster. Sometimes I wish I could draw or paint well enough to share the feeling of mysticism.

Can't remember any dreams, though.

Took a nap during the day. Focused on the feeling of the mattress and some hypnagogic images appeared.

I was on some sort of a field. It was sunset, with a thin cloud cover. To my right, there was some sort of a monolith construction (or a purely functional building). It was made of some sort of a strong dark-coloured material. The shape was straight and angular, as if man-made. The surface finish was glossy, reminding me of glass. It felt really powerful and it caused psi to lift upward with a great intensity. Mind startled awake, analyzing what it had just seen.

Then, something similar appeared. Though, this time I didn't let the mind to interfere that much .. which is also why I can't remember it. Well, I remember the feeling of lift and the flow of psi and that's about it.

Seeing with the eyes closed

Meditated a bit before bed yesterday.

Attempted to shield someone from their demons, to prevent possible murders.
Tried to help with raising the awareness of mankind in general as well.

Stared into the darkness in the room. Near the clothes, there were a lot of movements in the psi field. Observed these movements for some time. Practised some pranayama with the eyes closed. Managed to focus on the hands with the 3rd eye. When I opened the eyes again, the angle was different (viewpoint moved remarkably lower). Interesting, how the feeling of the eyes refocusing and the feeling of the 3rd eye refocusing were so different. Wasn't used to the 3rd eye.

Went to bed and saw green aura with a coral-like texture. Realized that old Chinese art was inspired by the turbulence and vortexes in the psi field.
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Some posts ago, I mentioned that I had to reboot the laptop once. What happened was that I suddenly got the feeling / smell that something became really hot (it heated up in splitseconds). It was interesting that the feeling or smell of something hot was not felt in this body .. I felt / smelled it inside the laptop, roughly 5 mm below the touchpad. At that moment, touchpad froze and had to reboot.
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A while ago, at one of those tedious meetings, I happened to look at my left arm. Saw / felt it through to the bone and inside of it. Realized how fragile human body really is, compared to the forces I've usually been playing with. So far I hadn't paid much attention to this weakness.

Flying lucid

Had an amazing lucid dream last night. Suddenly just popped into a city environment and decided to try something new. I came from a park and there was a modernistic-looking building in front of me. Flew up the side wall of the building, then cross-flew over the flat roof and down the other side. There was a small platform on the other side of the building. All of this was on the edge of a man-made cliff. Down there was a 4-lane road. Made a somarsault in the air and landed right into the middle of the road. There were some cars driving around. Visualized a motorcycle and took the next branch right. There was a guy speeding around with his motorcycle and driving dangerous. He suddenly turned off the road. Had to hit the brakes faster than the bike could've handled, so I used the Flinstones' method =D. Anyway, in the end, the lucidity gradually faded.

The reason why I considered this sort of flight new was due to a fear of heights, when descending from the other side of the building. Also, I was a bit afraid if I would be able to hold focus on the feeling of having lift for long enough. It worked out way better than expected.

The details were amazing .. a morning with the sun rising, all the materials, people on the streets, cars behaving realistically, traffic signs, sounds, wind .. pretty awesome experience. The scenery was new .. haven't seen it before.

An RV session coming up?

Remembered that yesterday I suddenly saw images of a gory crime scene. It was near the road, a short distance into the woods. All the leaves were yellow and the trees had shed most of their leaves already. Forensic investigators arrived on the scene and sighed .. they had never seen anything like this before. Just out of the blue, seemingly no relation with emotions or daily events whatsoever.

Today, while googling something quite random, a photo of the girl popped up, whom I had tried to save with remote viewing. Clicked on it and found a random newspaper page (not related to that case). In the first sentences, a murderer expressed their sorrow in what they had done. Felt sorry for them.
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Edit: Remembered that during a meditation session yesterday evening, I saw faces. The detail, depth and field of view were amazing and beyond the capabilities of normal sight.

Don't be a flag in the wind of emotions

Spent the dreams cleaning stuff.

Woke up tired today morning. Today's progress, or lack of it (for about a week already) was rather disappointing. Also, laptop started behaving weird again .. had to reboot it once.

Definitely have to overcome this emotional distress if I were to continue trying to increase the awareness of mankind. Can't afford a lack of control like that.
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While coming home yesterday evening, one of the streetlamps blew as I walked past under.

Disgust instead of love

Attempted for some more OBE, but the mind was too excited.

Had some dreams, where I was setting up some stuff in my old room (now sister's room).

In one of the dreams, I was somewhere foreign. A large dog tick had attached to my arm, I think. For some unknown reason, I bit it off. Having done this, I realized what I had done (these sometimes carry some pretty serious diseases). Spit it out.

Now my mouth was full of tick pieces and blood. The dog tick that I had spit out, jumped around as if just awakened. It jumped to a height of 54 cm from the concrete floor. Clearly, it was curious and intended to take a good look at what I am.

Attempted to look at it while feeling love from the depths of my heart. Couldn't, not with my mouth full of its insides.

Tried to stay out of its reach, at the same time moving it outside the hut (a small wooden hut for storage of some sort). Kept spitting out tick pieces and blood .. which seemed infinite. The dog tick looked really happy (at its last stage of life cycle, but more active than it had ever been). Had it jump into the sea, to keep others safe.

OBE, trapped

Watched a random OBE-related clip on Youtube before bed yesterday.

Decided to try and wake up into a half-dream state and go out of body from there. Realized that I hadn't really explored sleep paralysis.

I guess I still woke up fully and then body fell asleep before the mind. Laid still until I was certain that sleep paralysis had kicked in .. felt rather detached from the body.

So far I've considered sleep paralysis unnecessary. Though, with sleep paralysis down, leaving the body was effortless. I wanted to leave the building by going straight through the wall that I thought was next to me. Flew out of body at hi-speed. Couldn't do that without sleep paralysis.

There was one problem .. the farther I got, the stronger the force pulling me back. As if attached to a rubber string, I was drawn back.

I was quite close to the body, afraid to open the eyes. I thought it might cause the body to wake up. So I carefully and slowly opened the eyes, looking around.

It was all dark at first, but gradually I started to see more and more details. It looked like the apartment alright, but had some problems with orientation. Couldn't understand which room I was in.

Saw the shape of a window, with light shining through. Whoosh, took off like a rocket to fly through.. ::bounce:: back in the room.

This made me feel a bit sad .. an awesome OBE and I'm trapped within 4 walls like that. So, I decided to do something else.

Now that I paid attention to it, found myself spinning around. Tried to grab to the environment around me, to experience it more vividly and perhaps find something familiar. Bookshelf. Familiar, but not quite what should've been in my room.

Went back to body and woke up. Realized that the body was actually facing a different direction. Most likely I had been darting around in my old room (now sister's room). The bookshelf also seemed to be more like sister's.

One of the longest and most consistent OBE so far.

Plastic wrapper

Not very pk-related dreams this morning. More like finding and disarming a threat that was buried underground .. some sort of a matchbox with "poisonous containers" inside it or something. This took at least 3/4 of the night, probably more. Saw some strange tech, too, in a following dream.

There was a piece of wrapping paper or something rolling around on the road. Attempted to lift it up with pk .. didn't want to rise. Then it rose .. ::splat:: .. it faceplanted the front lights of a car. Not what I had intended, but still something new.

This reminded me of another incident a while ago. I was walking home, with the wind pushing me forward. There was a bag rolling around in the wind. Targeted it as it moved past me. Had it follow the rules and cross the zebra with green light. It looked so awesome that I became a bit too excited and the next zebra it crossed with red light. Then opted to leave the sidewalk.

At work, there was a meeting. The atmosphere got somewhat anxious. Bang, a coffee jug crashed to the floor. It wasn't me. That other guy pushed it, accidentally. Still, stuff tends to happen when it's challenging to maintain control over the emotions. This event still didn't relieve the situation and the meeting was still uncomfortably emotional.

Situation solvant

Took a nap, with the intention to meditate in the half-dream state.

Very uplifting.

In one of the dreams, I was observing a guy solving situations. He was called because someone had hijacked a plane. I was observing from the ground as well as from the plane. Both of the guys looked alike (the one who hijacked the plane and the one, who was called). Anyway, the guy came, recognized the situation and calmly said it has already been solved. He had done it while asleep. The solution to this particular situation was the one he was the most proud of.

Woke up into a half-dream state and almost OBEd. It felt as if buoyancy was pushing me up, outside the body. Tried to grab the feeling to go with it .. visualized myself leaving the body. But it became just a low-def dream. Woke up.

Bright dream

Some attempts at meditating in a half-sleep state.

There were some interesting dreams yesterday night. What I remember from the first dreams, is that the world looked totally different. Everything was brighter, more peaceful and giving off vibrations of higher frequencies. Remember that it was all packed of different lifeforms, though, can't remember them.

Heart and throat chakras are producing heat that's constantly moving up the neck, into the rear part of the brain.

Some of the old stuff no longer bothers me.

Remembered that a morning or two ago, I woke from a lucid dream (recognized the wallpaper). Without opening the eyes, I could see the wallpaper on the wall. The pattern was faint, but recognizable. It's been a while..

Short workday

Meditated before bed yesterday evening. Just .. on nothing. Heat built up in the body and psi started to pulse. It happened again that I smelled the scent of something heating up (the same smell that a chip gives off before melting). It seemed to be coming from the body.

A lot of meetings. Mind became foggy after eating "lunch". Noticed that the mind had become too foggy to express thoughts well enough. Often just looked the other members in the eyes and had them express it.

Intended on making it a short work-day and ended up with about 11 hours. Stepped out of the building and considered it tedious to walk home again. Just went, nothing on mind. After a while, with hot psi rising up the spine, walking became really pleasureful.

Edit: Ate some fresh vegetables and the mind cleared up. Cool..

Edit: Edit: Laptop current limiting has become less frequent now.

Slipping?

They have closed the balcony with plastic now. Feels as if the room were halfway shut from the movement of psi.

It was really hot yesterday. Had a slight headache and slept the evening off.

I've tried to keep the focus more mild and soft (referring to the dream with the village swing), but it doesn't seem to be having the effect. I feel I'm slipping and have the urge to crawl up again.

Stuff piling up in the mind and manifesting as geisting. I guess the laptop has already suffered some. It's throwing current limit (suspect that's what the flickering battery light means).

Need to meditate more..

Alley of Friendship

The last meditation session highlighted a tension in the chest area. Meditated before bed, trying to heal it. There were friends, who wanted to help, but there was someone continuously shooing them away. He was frustrated of being left alone. Had him tell his story.

Realized that I actually don't have any friends. There are a lot of acquaintances, but no friends. So far I had called many of them friends, without really thinking about it. Maybe I've misunderstood the feeling of friendship? It kind of hurt, how true the story was. However, on the other hand, there are no bonds and it's easier to become detached. This sort of detachment and loneliness powers the urge and curiosity to venture beyond the limits.

Had an interesting dream last night. Some acquaintances were hanging around with me. We went on a village swing. At first, I put a lot of force and effort into making it swing. Well, it swung with a great amplitude, but it wasn't right. The feeling of flying was missing. Reduced the amplitude and had it swing soft and gentle. Without effort, we started floating in the air.

They have built a new road at the side of the channel. Took the path to work. There was no one else on the road, with the exception of a lot of lovely trees around the road. For the first time, I noticed the sign: "Alley of Friendship".

Some PJK circuit attempts

Practiced pk with iJodix or his brother over Skype yesterday .. don't know, which one.. =S

Although I was lazy and not too fond of practicing pk, I couldn't stop. It was so pleasurable to just stare at stuff, even though it wasn't moving. Later I found that the toy windmill was physically stuck so strong that it didn't even move when I attempted to do it manually.

The coming week Mom will be attending a Meditationfest. She had shared a link with me that I hadn't listened yet. Although the full course costs money, there's a 39-minutes free session. Found it really good, especially the descriptions of the surroundings .. it was quite inspiring. A lot of hot psi moved up the spine.

Played around with a couple of circuits from the PJKBook again.

Got the relay battery charger circuit working with a random relay, a random diode and an electrolytic capacitor instead of the battery. Well, it did charge the capacitor. Need to borrow some measuring instruments from a friend.

An attempt at Jes Ascanius' aerial system. Sourced a roll of coaxial cable from under the table and hooked its grounding layer to the input (probably a metal plate would be a lot better). Used the kitchen sink for ground (which is quite far from grounded, actually). Used some random ceramic and electrolytic capacitors and small-signal diodes that I found lying around. Well, the capacitors were being charged about 1 mV / s. It stopped when it got to 1.3 V. Too little current to actually use it for anything. When a hi-freq human-antenna (father) was positioned in contact to the cable, then charging sped up remarkably.

Still, so far it seems to be far easier to just hook a rectifier to the dishwasher. For some reason, alternating 94 V are induced in it (almost no current). When shorting it to the sink right next to it, there's a tiny arc and sparks fly around. Hooked up microwave oven transformator in inverse and got 0.9 V out. Should've gotten more; perhaps the induced signal is not sinusoidal? Or maybe the secondary has too big of a resistance (there were still about 18 V between the sink and the dishwasher)?

I figure there should be a separate blog for this. At least, when something starts working..

Tiny white orb

Saw an interesting white orb today at work. While looking at the laptop screen, I saw a white dot swim around in air from the corner of my eyes. When I looked directly at it, I couldn't see it. However, when I looked back at the screen, I could see it still flying there from the corner of my eyes.

Most likely my eyes have become desensitized from the central part of the vision. This would explain why I could only see it from the corner of my eyes, not when looking at it directly.

Psi-pog and ALittleWeird have been archived. A little sad but inevitable. It was / is a really good source for all sorts of pk tutorials.

Single path

Realized that from my viewpoint, there's a strong tendency towards a single sequence of events. I feel cornered and pushed from every direction but one. It looks like it takes a lot of intent and willpower to overcome the thought patterns that obscure the single path. I had become lazy and indifferent about what's going on in this life.

A few days ago I started to regularly move psi up the spinal channel and imprint the strong will on it. The mind seems to have a significant amount of inertia, though. Usually the effect of will didn't last for too long .. mind would become less clear and clouds would cover the sky again. Last time it took about a year of regular self-suggestion and visualization to overcome a thought-pattern or two. This time I want to do it in less than a week.

Yesterday laptop froze, out of the blue. Today mouse cursor sometimes acted weird and the screen occasionally flickered black. Focused more on being cautious about the psi field. The phenomena gradually reduced and later disappeared altogether.

Floors mixed up

Fell asleep, focused on the wall next to me.

A couple of interesting dreams.

I was somewhere in "our new" flat, doing something. In this dream, we had 2 flats, one above the other (on the 4th and 5th floors). Wanted to discuss something with father, who had gone upstairs. Went there, looking for him. On my way, I met a lot of the neighbors in the hallway. Visited father and we discussed something there. Though, when I looked around in the flat on the 5th floor, I noticed some old familiar objects and started thinking .. when did we move our old stuff up here?

In the next dream, I was somewhere at a public place. With mother? Found someone's cell phone. Turned it on, used my psychic powers and entered the pin code, 1532 or something. Anyway, it started up. Quickly identified it to be Tom's. Checked some sort of list with Tom's phones and found out he had already bought a new one after losing this one. He still seemed to have some money on the card, though. Was about to call him, but something came up.

*Doorbell rings* .. at 4.30 AM.
There's a confused girl behind the door, asking for Chris and wanted to know if I were his brother. She didn't know which floor she was on (4th floor). Directed her towards the door of the only Christian with a brother that I thought I knew in the building. Later it occurred to me that I've heard the name Christian from the flat below ours (the flat on the 3rd floor).

... that first dream .. sorry.