On Monday and Tuesday I had unconditional love, happiness and heat flowing round and about. On Wednesday there was a local peak in stress. On Thursday it transformed into a local peak in depression. It was a combination of many things:
- Exponentially growing amount of work with a negative timeline.
- One of the best colleagues in the project still severely ill (has been weeks) with no signs of getting better.
- Have been missing deep sleep stages for some time (sleep deprivation).
- Probably some of it from friends (M. Grubb's brother; and another friend with tough times), via empathy.
So, I had been working on detachment .. which wasn't all that successful, either. Today morning I sneezed once and felt something leave. Some kind of a dark cloud around me was gone (everything looked brighter and more colourful) and I felt a lot better. Felt like enjoying a 1.5 h hike to the meeting. Detachment had its effect and I couldn't help but notice again just how sad nature / Earth is. As a familiar side-effect to detachment, I could see the light that shines through everything and my emotions had an immediate effect on the weather. This yielded some cool weather phenomena:
- Sky with high contrast - patches of thick clouds and cracks of clear sky.
- Mild rainfall with thick clouds and a small opening where the sun shines through, producing a column of light.
- Medium snowfall with the sun shining through.
In addition, focused detachment produced a feeling of weight-reduction, several realizations and flashbacks.
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