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The goal of this blog is to motivate myself and others for further practice as well as provide details that might explain what's going on..


Thursday, November 28, 2013

Blackout

A blackout last night. Had just woken up to turn around in bed when UPSes started beeping and this part of the town went dark block by block. Some time later streetlights switched on again, then buildings lit up block by block. Ours did not. It took several hours before this building was powered on again. The timing matched a visualization in the mind. Wasn't much of a sleep last night.

It has been a while since I last saw a blackout that lasted this long. Was kind of hoping to see it in the news somewhere .. to check against the effects of the visualization.

Sharp things

Watched Criss Angel Believe: Lord of Illusion on Wednesday night. While seeing him manifest people's fears, I found myself thinking what I would answer when asked: "Tell me your greatest fear". Nothing came to mind. However, while watching Criss Angel perform the Lord of Illusion trick, I remembered my fear against sharp objects pointing at me or slicing me (swords, knives pointing at me, falling towards me .. stuff alike).

In the show, there were all sorts of problems with the setup .. hanging swords getting stuck. At the end of the show, a sword fell down on its own. He blamed it on his team. Well, to me it looked more like a construct at works. Someone's fears becoming manifested in a way to warn about the dangers so that nobody's lives would be threatened.

Tried to settle the slightly unsettled mind again by trying to levitate (kept it busy visualizing the sensation of being lifted so it wouldn't visualize some falling swords or stuff). This focus exercise had some cool effects. A strong standing wave appeared from the abdomen to the heart chakra. No levitation, though ..

An evening sauna event. Carefully balanced the timing to maximize the amount of energy gained (there's a peak to it .. once over this, one would start to lose energy again). Psi was released from the abdomen region, spread the whole body until all of it was buzzing of pleasure.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Natural frequencies

An FB discussion with an old skeptical schoolmate. Realized that human brain is probably a fractal antenna (roughly 40 000 km of nerve chains for an ELF antenna?). Just hadn't thought about it earlier. Another possibility would be a grid of smaller antennae with some sort of phase detection. Otherwise it would be pretty strange for our brains emitting that low frequencies.

Anyway, the point of the discussion was all those radio transmitters shadowing the natural frequencies (Schumann resonance, Alpha waves, Theta waves, etc.).

Just a few days ago we had discussed pretty much the same thing with Dad. That meditating is basically focus on some frequencies and amplifying them. By amplifying the natural frequencies and rising the peaks high above the noise, we make it easier for other people to detect and focus on these signals. That's why meditation has a non-localized effect.

There was a good point in why one consciousness would spread into smaller pieces, each of which would evolve into a whole on their own. Say each piece initially represented one frequency. After the pieces have been stimulated with the other frequencies and have evolved to being able to transmit these frequencies on their own .. then the sum amplitude of the whole system has increased. So, this is a way for a perfect presence to gain intensity, to constantly venture beyond its own borders. I guess this answers my question of life's purpose.

Scanned for some frequencies with my psi field last night. Found two, which stood out. One resonated with the whole aura, another with hypothalamus or a volume around it. In order to receive those frequencies instead of just visualizing and transmitting my perception of them, I had to relax the body (such a relaxation caused a wet dream yet again). Focusing on these frequencies helped heal the body without any fancy constructs or visualizations. Kept re-tuning the reception every now and then, until I fell asleep.

In one of the dreams, I decided to practice levitation. Lifted off. Then fancied turning it into an OBE from inside the dream. While flying through the trees, I somehow changed the form of interaction so that the leaves went straight through the body. The details of the scenery were amazing. However, having flown for some 50 meters or so, I reached an area where I got a warning from the dungeon master. This area was off limits and supposedly dangerous to explore. I was disappointed .. dream ended.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Not hungry..

Haven't been feeling too hungry recently.

Yesterday I ate a little bread, cheese and drank water. Cookies made me feel sick in the stomach.

Today I ate lunch at school (potatoes, fish steaks, cheese cake). Right after that, I started feeling uncomfortable in the stomach area. Observed the discomfort poisoning the mind.

Felt pretty floaty while walking around the room, practising for an upcoming presentation.

Monday, November 18, 2013

Pastlife memories and dejavu:

Watched The life of Pi yesterday. A really inspiring movie. A really inspiring life he had. A few flashbacks from pastlives while watching this film. I have nothing against reincarnation. But then again, I'm not sure whether I would want it again or not.

Went to bed. Since a couple of organs had caught a little cold (the jacket no longer helps against strong wind), I wrapped more blanket around the body. This caused me to move less, which in turn caused me to spend more time in the half-dream state. Woke up pretty tired in the morning. Didn't want to go to the meeting, the body wanted 1 more hour of sleep. Went anyway .. and realized I had come 1 hour early (forgot that the meeting time had been shifted).

Enjoyed the sun shining in through the 3rd eye, while sitting in a classroom. A yawny lecture because it was so hot with the sun shining in like that. While in a sort of half-sleep state during the lecture, I recognized several feelings and images from before this life.

Occasionally glanced at the clock, waiting for the lecture to be over. Noticed the cracked plaster on the wall, right above the door. It popped into my mind that it's gonna fall soon. It crumbled to the floor when a fellow student left for the toilet just a few minutes later.

Later had a deja vu of realizing what the time was and becoming a bit nervous about it. Didn't want to experience that again and told my colleague that I would like to leave soon.

At home, I checked the Paranatural comics for updates. The new panels looked a bit too familiar. Knew what was there and even remembered a few lines. But the odd thing is .. it was posted today morning and I hadn't physically read it yet. The info was in my mind but in a sort of compressed format - not exactly 1:1 but the translation of this package was pretty close to what came by. Perhaps I had seen the content in the dreams or something?
Chapter 4 page 54, comment 26630

Chinese cabbage becomes bitter in oil. Well, the same had happened to sister's salad from yesterday evening. Nevertheless, had to eat what I had piled up on my plate. Something cool happened. The bitter taste localized into a cloud of sorts. I breathed this cloud out through the nose. As a side-effect, the bitter taste was no more. The pieces of cabbage that I swallowed tasted fresh.

Figured I should focus more on the throat chakra. Each time I come from the cold into the warm, a pain shoots through the neck as blood and psi comes forth.

ORMUS v0.01

I guess I've forgotten to mention that Dad attempted to extract ORMUS (thin gold powder) from the mineral water from a small island (Ruhnu water). The water is pretty salty, thick and its smell reminds that of oil.

From a glass of that water, he got a fairly small amount of white powder of some sort. Or more accurately, there's still a mix of two powders or something. One of them looks white with a slight yellow shade to it. The other one also looks white but half-transparent.

Dad believes there's still some Magnesium salts in there.

Should try with the Himalayan salts. Both of them contain sulphur, though .. which might be a bit difficult to wash out.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Inside: negative space?

During a discussion (on the subject of how disease interacts with a person physically as well as spiritually) with Dad and sister, something occurred to me.

In one of the videos, a yogi said that an aura extends beyond the physical bounds of the body, thus it's even more further out, less dense and less significant. That we should look inside, instead. I've also read and heard that the physical world is just a projection of what's inside. How can this be, I've always thought.

Well, it occurred to me that inside might not be inside in the physical sense. For example, when one would take a regular convex lens and project an image on it, then at the other end, the image would be upside down. What if in a similar way, the inside is negative space?

Often yogis have used a film projector as an example of how the mind works. This way, it seems to make sense .. a little.

Friday, November 15, 2013

My own curse

Had a dream, where I couldn't sense psi at first. Started working on energy manipulation and gradually built up on the intensity. Eventually managed to lift off the ground. Worked it even further and flying around started to seem rather effortless. Tried all sorts of fancy stuff - flying with the body tilted 45 degrees, flying feet forward, etc.

The day didn't seem all that great, though. 2 tests / exams and didn't feel all that confident in those. Had spent the week on work, instead of studying for those. It's a weird feeling when everyone is expecting you to score the highest and you know you won't. My own curse .. have treated others the same way for 20 years. Instead of becoming what I used to wish, people see me as what I had wanted to become - also exactly how I've treated others for 20 years.

None of this is actually bad, just the problem is that it makes me feel down and not satisfied with myself or something - because of letting others down. Even when I do score the highest, then that's what makes me feel dissatisfied about myself - as if being arrogant and mocking others or something.

Naruto Shippuuden episode 338 was pretty deep on this subject.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Too relaxed?

The heart chakra has been feeling better recently. However, there's some sort of a pain at the back of the neck. A lot of psi still gets blocked before reaching the head.

Relaxed the body last night, which immediately caused a wet dream.

While meditating, everything started looking golden again .. until I found some sort of a dark filament in the body, from the lower left of the body, through the heart and up to the head. Looked at it and darkness shadowed everything. A tall figure, hanging upside down and looking back at me. Instead of a normal human head, it had something black with a swirl on their face (as if looking at the top of its black-haired head, although I was looking at its face). Attempted the usual procedure of hugging it and expressing love towards it, no matter what it was or what its intentions were. I think eventually I acquired the feeling of it.

Have been feeling slightly tired and demotivated. Difficulties with falling into unconscious dreams real quick.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Drop of fear

A healing attempt at my uncle again.

A dark dream (almost pitch black). There was a group of us in some sort of a dark room .. could barely see the faces. We were all scared of something that we knew was going to arrive soon. With us, there was an illuminati puppet of sorts - a girl under their mind control. We were experimenting with her, observing her behaviour when we showed her different symbols. By looking into her eyes, one could clearly see what was going on inside the mind. Eventually we found several symbols which had been used as triggers.

Woke up and noticed some sort of a presence in the room. The fear was caused by me not knowing who, what or why this being was in my room. Politely asked them to leave. They did, after which, dreams flipped 180 degrees, all of them pretty bright and vivid.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Heart chakra

On Saturday morning, I woke up at 4 AM. Not tired, I practised concentration, watched some meditation- and yoga-related videos, practised concentration again and so on. Went back to sleep at about 9 AM or something.

Have been feeling floaty. Energy is moving around but there's still stress at the heart and throat chakras (which I've been attempting to light up a little more). Camel pose, focus on a green forest and visualizing love, heat and light radiating out to everything.

The old laptop HDD started making some weird noises again. Writing this on the new laptop, which I expect to last longer. The same laptop that I saw in one of my dreams some time ago. A lenovo that took some effort to install linux on it for dual boot.

Criss Angel Believe S01E04 was pretty inspiring .. a lot of levitation. He visualized the effect of paper sticking to fingertips due to static electricity. This helped him pull the person off the ground.

I expected a lot more from The Tomorrow People series. The plot and the characters seem a bit too childish. It also caught my attention that the computers were Lenovo with Microsoft Windows 8.
Actually, the Heroes series seemed to have similar issues.

SG-1 series, however, has acquired a whole different meaning over those years.

Friday, November 8, 2013

Vitamins

Not much new, except for the occasional sensation of weight-reduction. Sometimes while walking up the stairs, I've felt the body become lighter, or my bag become lighter, or both.

Excited about the ordering of a new laptop, there has been some geisting (somehow a change of emotions caused a loud pop in the living-room speakers). Some nervousness as well, though, this kind of a reaction doesn't seem very logical.

The weather had been rather dull for weeks. Preferred sunlight today. Played with the clouds a little, which caused it to rain before the sky cleared up.

A lot of unconscious sleep recently. Was feeling rather tired in the morning, until I took a BelVita cookie, which contains a lot of vitamins. Suddenly felt fresh - was probably missing some vitamins or something.

A few days ago in the dreams, I remember visiting dad's room early in the morning, to check if he was still sleeping. Didn't have the body with me.

Last night in a dream I saw a black cat that I think I knew from somewhere. Stroke the cat and noticed that its reaction was a bit weird - for a second, it panicked but then recognized me. As if it were asleep or something, unaware of my presence before I touched it. We communicated via telepathy.

A pre-dream "chest" exercise popped up a couple of days ago. In my mind, a bottomless (or with a portal on its bottom) chest appeared. Underneath the chest, there was an infinitude of space. The lid, however, always fell shut and it took a considerable amount of effort to keep it open.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Buzz

A busy weekend - another workshop. Insufficient sleep, a lot of tension.

Felt rather tense again last night. When I went to bed, the tension was released and a buzzing sensation appeared. A subtle vibration at the resonant frequencies of the body.

Focused on the buzzing sensation. Started hearing hypnagogic sounds. Consciousness started shifting. At some point, I noticed that the mind had split. I was floating out of body, above me, another part of the mind was dreaming. Didn't want to touch the dreaming mind, nor did I want to move back into the body. Carefully floated off to the side, then touched the floor with my feet. Tried to maintain the vividness of the experience by touching all sorts of objects in the room. Strange, but I found the room door to be open (always close it before going to sleep). Walked around the apartment, came back into my room and started thinking of what it was that I had wanted to do.

Right - wanted to go out, fly into space and visit the Moon. Floated up to the balcony window, changed shape to fit through and took off. Bam, unconscious. Apparently, a half of my conscious mind considered glass as solid and got stuck behind the glass. Another half of my conscious mind moved through the glass, to the other side. The consciousness lost its "critical mass".

At the middle of night, I noticed seeing some very heavily symbolistic stuff. Woke up at 5:55 AM to find the blanket cast aside, body cold. Focused on the buzzing again to fix the organs .. too tired to maintain the focus.

It seems that with proper focus, this buzzing sensation allows for recovering the whole body from any illnesses.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Subtle

Let myself be inspired by Stargate SG-1. Seeking for universal wisdom.

Have learned a lot during the past week or so. It's a bit too subtle to list in a blog, though.


Pk-related:
Sometimes psi in the body has become in resonance with the room (focus on space), with light (focus on a field of photons).

Yesterday at the department store, dad and I were thinking of buying potatoes. Behind our back, a cabbage hopped off the counter. So we bought that cabbage as well.

Several days ago, there was a storm. Found wind very responsive to redirection via pk.


Varia:
New inverter and inverter cable arrived. Replaced the old ones, but it seems the real problem with backlight is most likely in the LCD. Wouldn't want to buy a new LCD, though. Let's see.