A surprise city-permit

Was bored at a bus station a couple of days ago. Attempted to stop the clouds, transform the kinetic energy and apply it to a tree to make it grow leaves faster.

Yesterday morning I woke up, happy about some sort of a pk achievement. Couldn't remember what I had done though. A few hours later I could remember a scene from one of my dreams. I had attached some sort of an object to another with a string. Practiced levitation and flew around with the object, playing with the string at the same time. There were some more pk dreams, which I can't remember.

Before going out in the morning, I started to wonder about the weather. Lost track of time (felt as if it were evening already) and saw dark clouds coming from East, it started to rain lightly. Took me some time to "recover". After visiting a department store in the evening, we saw dark clouds approaching. We got home and it started to rain lightly.

Feel like swimming against the flow again. Busy times and I have to wait. I find it extremely difficult to just sit doing nothing when a deadline is approaching and there's a lot to be done. However, pretty much all attempts to speed things up are futile and hinder the process. Need to learn to take life lightly.

Edit: Remembered that in the train, the lights were flickering all the time. An hour into the trip, I started to wonder what was causing it. Exactly at that moment that I thought about it, the flickering stopped and stopped for good.

Stomach problems

=D That was a stomach flu and I was next. Today the area hurt that I had focused on yesterday. This had me wondering that perhaps the flu melted out from somewhere around the chakra. Maybe disease also spreads astrally when I "explode" or burst out psi.

I've never really focused on that chakra before and yesterday I attempted to focus on it until it would go ablaze. Just like I did with the 2 lowest chakras a couple of days ago.

A quality birthday party today, a relative became 90. With a stomach ache though.

Grandfather admitted that he started to feel better at the bus stop yesterday evening. I don't like the healing method that I accidentally tried there. The visualization of cutting his stomach open and having stuff pour out. Subconsciously doing that to someone doesn't feel too good. Anyway, I tried to quickly fix it in my visualizations. Perhaps a minute later I felt successful. Whew.. =/

Wonderful performances

What a wonderful day during one of the last city permits. In the morning we visited a concert where a cousin performed .. few-year-olds playing instruments like pros .. The music was so good that I had chills and I felt the music resonating in my energy channels all around the body. There were vitrage windows at the hall. Wanted to have sun shining onto the stage through those windows. Entrained to the area and had sun come out, but nothing changed at the windows. Well, later it turned out these were lights, not windows. Facepalm. Anyway, the sunshine and warm weather were well worth it =).

A lady made a poisonous remark on grandma making some noise during the concert. Felt it hurting her ego .. dissolved the pain so that she could continue to enjoy the performance.

Slept until evening and went to see a drama where another cousin performed. The best play I've seen in theatres so far. The plot was deep and mystical (a hotel of bardo (transitional state before death)), acting was pretty much perfect and the dialogues were pure gold. A lot of chills and a lot of attempts to keep the tears back.

Grandma had bought flowers for our cousin, but one of them had become broken in half. Wish I would've succeeded in fixing it with pk. Oh well..

Grandpa had stomach problems. Attempted to heal him .. a few minutes later he started to feel better.

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Had a headache for most of the day today. Perhaps overdid it a little with psionics practice yesterday. Held focus on the lower chakras for almost the whole day yesterday. Tried to keep up with it at night and today as well.

Occasional bursts of weight reduction as well as some shifts of consciousness outwards from the body.

About a week ago, someone gave birth to an epic fart .. a shockwave carried the smell everywhere in the room. Practiced smell manifestation on it, by trying to change the smell to that of some flowers. Interesting that it worked while having focus on the construct. Whenever my mind would wander, the smell of flowers would become faint.

A double-OBE

Paid a visit to the toilet at night and had trouble falling asleep again. Focused on the emptiness where the body stops breathing. Transformed some psi and moved it around. Can't remember what it was exactly that I did, but something happened.

Recognized OBE vibrations, descended out of body, down to the floor. Wanted to verify that it really was an OBE by looking at my face. For some reason, this proved to be a bit difficult. Decided to ascend back to body.

I think my consciousness snapped back to body. Almost at the same moment, I had another experience, pretty much equal to the previous one.

Both times, the visuals were somewhat messed up and I had difficulties orienting.

Have been forgetting to blog this for about a month .. one day I had the feeling that my main mission would soon be accomplished. Realized that I hadn't planned anything beyond that. Thought of a happy ever-after with psychokinesis practice. Would perhaps take some new missions as well.

Dissolving mummy curse

Shirak posted an article on the Egyptian mummy curse on the forum. Acquired the feeling of great power and hatred from reading the article. Afraid of "becoming infected with the curse" via empathy, I tried to overcome it by "hugging it". The curse most likely had the purpose of having everyone obey the rules. Though, a lot of these rules are out of date and forgotten. The point is not to punish people for not knowing, but to make sure they won't break any rules on purpose.

The construct felt pretty solid. It was surprised at first, then it seemed as if it had started to fight back. After maybe 10 minutes of focusing on the feeling of love and compassion towards the curse and its victims, the construct acknowledged it. A few minutes later, I felt it dissolve completely .. it gained peace. I felt ecstatic, proud and ego enjoyed a boost.

Asked it for a hint on learning to levitate or fly. A blurry visualization of flying against an opposing force from various directions followed. I had forgotten the benefits of opposing force training.

Had a dream later, where I was accepted as a member into some sort of a society. The environment was dark and reddish, the earth dark brown. Somewhat reminded me of hell, where the members enjoyed their habits and then suffered from their own karma. Other than that, they had some rather strict rules, which forced them to be nice to others.

Still felt extremely happy today morning, though, quite tired as well. Tired and clumsy.

Edit: Hm, remembered that I coincidentally applied the idea of opposing force training for levitation today morning. Walked a neat distance with the backpack a lot heavier than before. Tried to make the backpack and my own body lighter.

Also, while driving, I looked at the asphalt out of the window. A strong entrainment to photons hitting atoms in the asphalt. The feeling of tires gripping to the asphalt, the feeling of air blowing against the car and asphalt. Almost on par with an OBE a while ago.

Excursion

Enjoyed an excursion to the greatest waterfalls of Estonia with grandparents.

At one stop, there was a village swing. Entrained my mind to it and attempted to make it swing. It was quite responsive, but for most of the time, the movements were small and without resonance. A couple of minutes into practice, birds flew away and it started to swing with remarkable amplitude. During the practice, the wind became stronger.

Some standard weather manipulation practice as well .. dissolving the clouds and having sunshine.

On the cliffs, I noticed that I couldn't detect any fear. At one of those waterfalls, there would've been a 30+ meters of fall with just one slip in the mud. Instead of fear, I felt the air being thick, almost providing the lift for me to fly. When I went too close to the edge of the cliffs, the wind pushed me back. It would be pretty awesome to learn to levitate and fly around those waterfalls.

Tried to entrain to the flow of water and to apply a stasis field on it. The stasis field practice didn't go too well. Though, I think I got somewhat entrained to the falls. At least, an old lady standing next to me described the feeling to me that I acquired from the water. Living close to one of these waterfalls and practicing pk there every day would be nice =).

Edit: These are actually called plunges, not waterfalls ;).

Bum-healing

Remembered a healing attempt from about a week ago. That day I practiced self-healing for about 4 hours in a single run, without much success.

We were waiting for our transport at a bus station when a bum came in. Before he entered the building, he looked at me .. he wanted something from me. I thought .. not again; another bum who wants money or something. He took his seat on another bench and started coughing. He sometimes looked at me again. He wanted to be healed. So, I practiced some stealthy remote healing on him.

His lungs looked quite dirty and damaged due to his smoking habits. The other organs didn't look too good either. Evaporated some dirty psi off him and blew him with a beam of psi at various frequencies. Finished when I felt there was nothing for me to do anymore. He sat there for a minute or two, waiting for more, then stood up and went outside, feeling all better. There he looked around to make sure nobody would see him, took a cigarette and started smoking. Facepalm at how simple-minded people often are.

During this healing session, I saw into the target more clearly than ever before. Also, I had expected myself to become disgusted at what I would see, but that didn't happen.

Workaholicism

A lot of busy days. A lot of building and then the boss comes in and says we've got it all wrong and need to disassemble everything. Less and less time to finish stuff every day and a lot of stuff still hasn't arrived yet.

In the evenings, I just laid down in bed for a couple of hours, then meditated for about an hour and went to sleep. Oh, and practice sketching a little. I just feel too demotivated to do anything else.

Some of the friends pointed at me and commented on me meditating there. "That's weird. See what all your yapping did to him." Tried to maintain the state of mind and continue focusing on the emptiness and the surrounding area. When I opened my eyes, one of the guys said "Hey, look! He woke up again!" At that moment, my control over the psi in the area staggered a little .. stuff crackled at the boundary of the area in focus.

Today morning, after practicing some pranayama, I enjoyed the emptiness of the mind while having some of the Kundalini flow around. A little bird made 3 attempts to enter the room. Thought that perhaps it was attracted to the Kundalini.

Quite likely the main reason why I'm a workaholic is that it exhausts the mind and offers a small step on my path of enlightenment.

An interesting sequence of events at the beginning of this week. I took my MP3 player out of my pocket. Saw that one of the ear buds bounced against the wall and fell behind the bunk bed. Sought for it for maybe 10 minutes. Gave up and meditated instead. Next morning, I find the bud in my pocket. That same evening, I took the MP3 player, jumped up onto the bed .. one of the ear buds bounced off the blanket and fell behind the bunk bed. At least, that's what I saw. Sought for it for about 2 minutes, gave up and jumped up onto the bed again .. the ear bud was now on the blanket, it rolled off and fell behind the bunk bed. Jumped down again and this time I _actually_found_ it under the bed. I was relieved. Pretty queer. I knew it would happen and I didn't want it to happen, because the bud was so small that I was afraid I would lose it.

Edit: One of the roommates failed at closing the fridge door. It swung open so that he didn't notice. I looked at it and decided to tell him, but some seconds later it suddenly swung and almost closed on its own.

Active, busy, relaxed and lazy

Happened to be quite active and enthusiastic about building and fixing stuff yesterday.

In the evening I went to bed and tried to be as relaxed and lazy as a potato (too lazy to dream - standing totally still with physical body, astral body and my mind). When the mind would experience its reflex to become busy, I tried to relax again.

Psi density was increased and sometime during the night, I leaked it.

Healing =)

Almost a week ago I focused on several painful spots in the chest. Pretty much all of these were in unexplored areas (haven't really focused on those before). Saw a lot of complex patterns, reminding me of organs and their tissue cells. The painful spots seemed to be coplanar, situated on sort of a disk around the heart chakra. Attempted to fix each one of them, by asking (in my mind) what it is and why it hurts there.

Endured some waiting in the cold today and practiced healing later. Remembered that in Six Yogas of Naropa, it was advised to avoid turbulence in the upper chakras. Thought that perhaps I had somehow managed to damage my channels or something.

Started to recite "Aum" in my mind. Visualized the sound of it as if it came from a choir at a monastery. Focused on the vibrations and let the timing manifest on its own. Interesting how the vibrations of the mantra caused the psi to move. It moved down from the head, through a bottleneck (seemed to manifest somewhere between the letters 'u' and 'm'), which pressed it together into constructs. The end result was a pillar of these constructs in the central channel. The shape of the constructs caused it to act as a fountain, applying pressure on the door of the Kundalini.

When the pillar rose close to the heart chakra, spraying psi around in there, I felt the chest being healed at an amazing speed. Within a few seconds, I felt hot from the inside.

Peace treaty?

Pretty weird dreams, don't seem very well related to the daily life.

I think ego signed a peace treaty with itself or something. It's more quiet again and somewhat easier to focus on the psi standing wave in the body.

Psi jolted once while listening to music on the laptop. The sound got distorted, reminding me of the sound in Enter The Matrix after Neo took the pill. Drawing turns the psi field crazy =P.

While focusing on the standing wave or emptiness, I started to see different kinds of light. First yellow, which turned into golden. Then blue and red took me by surprise.