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The goal of this blog is to motivate myself and others for further practice as well as provide details that might explain what's going on..


Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Emphasis on intuition

The trip


The Netherlands trip was interesting. I had it so that I would heavily rely on intuition. No GPS, no maps, no compass. Eventually it turned out I had just doubted a bit too much .. and zig-zagged around the correct route :D.

AirBnb host was outstanding. Very caring and helpful. In addition, really luxurious room at very low price. Though, there was a language barrier and it got me confused that she spoke a mixture of Dutch, German, English. So, I sometimes responded in German, sometimes in English .. and sometimes in whatever I had learned of Dutch. It was easier to understand what she meant than it was to respond so that she would be certain she got it correct. A practice of telepathy .. neat. The host also has a dog (which seems to be the case for almost everyone in Katwijk). At first, the dog disapproved my presence, and barked at me each time we met. So I sat down next to the dog and attuned to its level via empathy, after which the dog never barked at me again.

Ambient

Netherlands is really beautiful but I noticed that there is something wrong. Some say it's the weather that easily causes depression. However, at least at the apartment it seemed as if there were a source of darkness somewhere underneath. A knot of old experiences and memories, still lingering there. This seemed like a general issue. Shifted the focus a little, which seemed to have helped a bit. I was a bit amazed at the chasm between what people feel and what they act. But then again, my own life has been a performance as well.

Back

While on my way back, I forgot to show the public transportation card to the reader. Remembered that while standing in check-in queue, and decided not to go back (priorities must always be in-check). Even though I had like 2.5 hours until departure, I didn't want to spend the 15 min in order to save the card. First tried the self-check-in booth. It told me to ask the check-in table from an agent. Did that: desk 8. Stood the line at 8 (took around 30 min), then they told me to go to check-in desk 18, instead. Went there. Desk 18 was closed. Based on intuition, I went to desk 20 (skipped 19) for asking help. As it turned out, desk 20 was the correct desk. Ok, I had lost around 30 min .. no big deal. At some moment I realized that the line progresses very slowly. Moreover, the client service representatives left one by one, without replacement. Finally got the ticket, ran to pay for extra baggage and then ran to the gate. Some other people from the long check-in queue helped me a few times :). Enjoyed running through the crowd at such speed for such a distance. Made it and felt very good. Though, apparently the baggage didn't make it on this flight. Had I spent the extra 15 min on the public transportation card, I might have missed the flight. This whole incident made me very happy.

On the bus back home, I watched "The Maze Runner". It resonated. Although it has quite serious plot holes and logic flaws, it's a very inspiring movie.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Hike

It has been a while.

Enjoyed a 2.5 days hike through bogs and climbed a cliff as well. Very windy and quite a bit of rain. But it was really good and soothing. During the hike, I met two people with somewhat common interests. Coming back to work with all the deadlines poking at me .. that was harsh, though. Then found that some of the tests need to be redone and need to work through the holiday, then fly to Netherlands for a few days, to finish some of the tests. In addition to that, there are also deadlines on another project. Excited to see how I'm going to pull it off.

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Interesting a day(s). Many leaps of faith, to get stuff done that should not be rationally possible in such a timeline. Still managed to enjoy a couple of evenings of holidays as well. Ok, shall pack and board the bus to the airport.

Monday, June 13, 2016

Small OBE

.. a few minutes before the alarm. Something seemed to be moving underneath the mattress. Must be the cat again, I thought. Err .. wait, it's not supposed to be in my room. This got me curious, so I listened attentively. The noise and vibrations quickly progressed from one corner of the mattress to the opposite corner. I recognized the moment I was free and climbed out before I would snap back. Eyesight was awful .. everything looked similar to "Waking Life" (mayhaps because I watched it on Saturday). However, tactile sense was very vivid. Typical procedure. Swept across the floor with hands before I stood up from the bed. I could feel all the grooves in the floor pattern. Then flew through the balcony door and balcony window. A lovely sunny morning. At about 60 m, I turned around, looked back and poofed back into the body. Found it mildly interesting that after returning, I was seeing a circular afterimage with a diameter that I considered a bit too small for the sun.

Felt well in tune with the environment today.

Commuting read


Read Graham Nicholls' section 7 in "Consciousness Beyond the Body - Evidence and Reflections" (Alexander De Foe). Graham admitted that he spends a lot of time in Estonia. Nice. Would be cool to meet him. First in OBE, then IRL, perhaps =)

Anyway, it's a very good book. Hector Durville's calcium sulphide screens caught my attention as well. Would be cool to set up screens in the room, with RPi cameras that would trigger when activity is detected on the screens. Though, dedicated sensor and filter I would fancy more. Would be direct feedback on OBE and PK progress. This was in reference to Monroe's polaroid that picked up faint clouds of consciousness. No wonder Max Caulfield loved polaroid cameras so much :D.

Sunday, June 12, 2016

Best coffee

Messed with some kind of bureaucracy at night. Smeared a lot of papers with ink. Then somebody suddenly brought a cup of coffee. A friend's Mom, I think. "The coffee must be good," I thought, while struggling to lift the cup and hold it there. Took a few sips. With each sip, the coffee became even better. Eventually I found myself sitting at a fancy coffee restaurant. The coffee was mild (I don't like strong coffee) and had a subtle taste of pine and some herbs. The best coffee I've ever had. Wanted to make sure I wouldn't leave without paying, but accidentally woke up before I managed to.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Odd


A lot of strange coincidences and things manifesting. At the moment I still don't see the full picture yet, but some of the pieces are gradually coming together.

An odd number of summer trainees

Yesterday a cute asian student popped up at the observatory. There were a lot of bright sparkles popping up around her, which caught my attention. Chemistry? Very odd, because previously no-one has showed up that randomly and asked for an internship. Especially because the place is quite a distance from the town and it doesn't really have any background in chemistry. Thanks to synchronicity, found a job for her to work on.

I accidentally build a shelf


And it was working. Today there were a lot of forgotten meetings where I popped up thanks to synchronicity. Between all the meetings, I "accidentally" also got the job done I had planned for today .. in addition to all the bureaucracy overhead.

Misc

Last night I went to bed early. Suddenly something happened and the mind went blank. Some kind of an external noise stopped, after which I spent a while wondering what just happened. It was as if the noise preoccupied the mind somehow, making it difficult to focus or think clearly. Strange but I have experienced this before.

Sunday, June 5, 2016

Malta

I wasn't too happy about my presentation performance at the conference, though.
Nevertheless, traveling always boosts spiritual development, which I enjoy a lot.

The first night at the foreign place it seemed as if there were many entities moving around the place. My bed was at the window and between two doors, so there was a lot of flow through the area. I tried to maintain a somewhat humble attitude. It seemed to have worked for the first night - the entities were protective. Some time later, they turned into demons or something. My own thought patterns were biting me at every corner :).

There was an exceptionally chill dude at the conference. He was usually dressed in random and seemed to have been free from any obstructive thought patterns. A millionaire because his company makes the world's best products in a niche market that's quickly growing more popular. For years, many others have tried but he is still leading the market because his products are still better. Very inspiring.

Inspired, I took out some trash in the dreams. Realized a visualization with pitch black emptiness surrounding a pure consciousness. Some trash still remained, though, at quite a distance from the consciousness. Managed to use this visualization twice, after which it lost its power.

One evening there was someone flying around with a helicopter, circling around (probably around the place where the conference took place) before they flew straight over our apartment at very low altitude. Joking, I said it's probably that chill dude. Googled him and indeed, it seems he's also a pilot.

Would have wanted to visit the megalith temples but barely had any free time to look around. Well, I guess the temples will stay there even when I won't visit them. Small absurd tricks like that, to make it easier for the mind to let go of something that it has grown attached to.