Clear but tired

My mind was surprisingly clear (even though tired) yesterday morning.

The printed papers were flying again yesterday .. it was windy.
Applied a heavy stasis-field construct on them. No papers were lifted. I let the construct disintegrate and the next set of printed papers started flying again.

Dark clouds were gathering and making thunder. All of them broke apart before reaching us.

Watched "Sorcerer's Apprentice" and had a discussion with father at night. Learned a lot.

Had no difficulties waking up this morning. My mind was surprisingly clear again (even more clear than yesterday).

While walking past the beach, I looked at people playing volleyball. Visualized how they would move and hit the ball. Found it amazing how well it went.

Yoga in physics building

Nice, there was a hatha yoga class going on in the physics building lounge. The lady told me it was full .. maybe next time. Pretty cheery that they arrange these things in that building =).

Pk on volume

I was thinking what to practice pk on so that I could get dad to practice too. There's an old music station that dad wanted to try again. It only works on pk. It's impossible to decrease the volume via buttons or remote alone. Also, during frequency tuning it keeps throwing random equalizer settings, always choosing for more bass.

So, we practiced lowering the volume for some time.

Seagull control

While in the kitchen yesterday, we opened all the windows to let some cool and humid air in. There were birds flying around. I targeted a seagull, who was flying towards us. Tried to have it keep its flying direction. It occasionally thought of turning away, but decided not to .. continued flying in our direction. I moved back, because it really seemed as if it were flying in. Then just before flying in the open window, it turned away. A pretty scene =).

Geisting objects

There's a nice thundery-rainy weather today.

Dad came back from the balcony. I happened to look back at the balcony and saw a light blue object next to dad. It disappeared. Told him about it and we went back to the balcony. A moment later we saw a balloon fall down from the balcony of one of the neighbours. Thought that was what I had seen - not possible, because it couldn't have floated back. \me puzzled :S.

A similar thing happened last week. I looked to the balcony and saw a cloth flapping over to my balcony with almost no wind. It came from the direction of father's balcony. There were usually clothes drying, so I looked over the edge, hoping to find one that would look like the one that I had seen. None similar. What was even more weird, even if there were, it wouldn't have reached my balcony due to the wall between the balconies (a lot of distance, provided that nothing phases through the wall).

Proposed an attempt to slow down the falling of raindrops. Drops became smaller and fell slower. Dad proposed to manifest lightning strikes. Approached it as if it were a tough one and concentrated on the image and sound of lightning. At some point I let go, blinked my eye and *flash* .. *thunder*. Though, it didn't strike the way I had visualized.

Creating objects

The other shadow was due to reflection.

One morning there were birds flying away from me, dogs barking at me again. Focused on the all permeating light (previously called yellow light - was white this time). I became brighter. A while ago I saw a dream where a strong storm broke a pear tree and it nearly fell on me (missed me by a couple of inches). This time I saw a dream where the fallen pear tree was covered in green grass and pretty flowers.

Yesterday evening we were discussing the weird with dad. Attempted to create an object in a dream today morning. I focused on an image of some steel object in an abstract shape. As I focused on the image, it became sharper and appeared. Focused on it some more, making it more solid. Took it in my hands and focused on it becoming even more solid. Wondering if it was solid enough, I tried to alter the shape of it, morphing a steel fork out of the object. So, it was tangible, but not solid enough to be difficult to shape.

Dug up some old pencils and erasers and started drawing. It's interesting how everything that takes shape on paper, has a feeling to it as if it these objects were real. When there's someone sitting on grass, you can feel them sitting as well as the grass blades bent around them. Feels pretty much the same as creating that weird object in the dream.

Future skyscrapers

A cleaner version with orbs:

Dual shadows

Watched Harry Potter Deathly Hallows 1 with dad yesterday evening. Meditated after that.

Somehow this meditation session made me more gloomy from the inside. I was on my way to work, morning sun shining at my back, when I saw myself have 2 shadows. The "real" shadow and another more transparent one on my left. When I became consciously aware of it, it faded out and disappeared.

Birds were afraid of my psi field today. They always flew away to my left from a distance of at least 6 meters (compared to the 30 cm from a few days ago). For some reason, I even look rather dark to myself. I wonder if it's related to watching Harry Potter or my meditation session.

I guess we can't watch Deathly Hallows 2 soon, because the computer's broken. Windows was occasionally throwing Blue Screen, so we decided to run a memtest and it wore the broken RAM out even more.

Listened to uncle's enlightening music and meditated. I want to start drawing pictures when I have time.

Robotex friends

Bumped into one of my friends, who is building a robot for the next Robotex. They asked me to help them with one of their PCBs after work.. Basically a 18 hour workday and got to sleep at 2 AM, which is why I don't want to participate in Robotex anymore. 8 hours the next morning and we got the PCB more-or-less ready.

p>When walking home the first night, I easily managed to clear my mind, because most of it was already sleeping. Laying down in bed felt pretty OBE-ish. Fell asleep with an intense flow of psi penetrating the ceiling of my mouth.

The next day, one guy was listening to the radio. Well, there was a pretty queer song playing and we didn't quite like it. *silence*. The guy asked: "What did you do?" Another one answered: "I just stopped it with my mind."

Some hours later, we couldn't commit the changes from that computer, because there was no Internet connection. So, the radio had stopped because the Ethernet cable had somehow crawled out of the socket.

Hijacked the mind of one of the guys, making them perform operations that I intended them to. Simple commands (which stemmed from emotions rather than some intelligent reasoning) seemed to be a bit easier to relay. For him, it might've seemed like he dozed off or something and realizing it when the other guy asked him what he was doing.

We finished routing. Looked out of the window. There was a nice big cloud swimming towards my right at a pretty fast pace. Applied stasis on it, made it stop and drift farther away from me. Stopped it again, which caused it to break apart quickly. It was instantaneous and effortless.

While coming home, I suddenly felt that my throat hurt so bad that I couldn't swallow. Some sort of a painful knot had appeared in the upper-throat. I immediately thought I must've caught cold, which usually happens pretty often when the body is exhausted.

Visualized psi spiralling up the throat. As I was walking past a certain boulder that I'm attempting to roll out from the ground each morning, I tried to move it again. This made the spiralling psi flow more intense and the next time I swallowed (maybe 15 seconds later), the pain had totally disappeared. As if the pain had only been my imagination.

Vacation in dreams

Took a pk vacation in my dreams last night. Chilled around with friends and family at some foreign hotel, enjoyed sauna and went swimming. Before waking up, heavy clouds started pulsing in the sky (pulsing blue, just like hi-density psi causes camera recordings to go blue). Took cover and watched birds flying away. A chicken flew with them, but what really puzzled me was that it flew completely without flapping its wings. My uncle tried to explain it to me, but it didn't actually explain anything - illogical attempt to prove it was nothing weird.

Woke up, feeling a lot more refreshed than in the previous mornings. I still feel tired, but it's .. different somehow.

Last night there was a mosquito in the bedroom. My mind, being all sticky, it focused on the buzzing, bringing more of it into my room. When I finally managed to fully focus my mind away from it, it disappeared. This seems to have been working pretty well for the last few months.

While practicing pranayama yesterday night, I started seeing a white rectangle with a darker spot near the left edge. The more held my breath, the closer and sharper the rectangle became. I don't know what it was, but it disappeared when I stopped practicing with my left nostril and took the other one. Performing the exercise on both nostrils didn't bring this rectangle back.

A little bit of kundalini

Slept 1 hour extra today morning. Well, I don't think it makes much difference whether it's 6 or 7 hours anyway. Mainly because I seem to be continuing with the day's work while sleeping. Although it helps me to solve work problems quickly, it's pretty exhausting.

While walking to work, a little sparrow surprised me. I didn't notice it and it didn't fly away even though it was maybe about 30 cm from where I stepped.

Experienced a small Kundalini awakening (root turning cold and heat rising from it) and felt sick for a moment, until the blockages cleared. Couldn't take my time off due to inconvenient timing.

Took a nap when I arrived at home. My awareness kept moving away from the body, swinging and swaying out. Somehow woke up 3 hours later, feeling lightweight and shifty without remembering the rest of the day (took some time).

Got a small pot, filled it with water and threw a small pencil into the water. Practiced moving it around, holding it in stasis and pushing it underwater with dad. Shared some of my enthusiasm by proposing ideas of what we could try.

It seems kind of weird to me that he considers a lot of this stuff as too advanced for him, however, he has performed pk feats that I have only dreamt of.

Geisting friend

There's one thing I have wanted to learn with pk .. to cause objects to vibrate and go in resonance. Took out a bronze bowl from India, placed it on a chair and wanted to practice making it vibrate with father's help. He considered it too difficult though. Couldn't get it vibrate enough to make any sounds. Saw some psi moving around inside the bowl and around it.

Was rather tired today. Multiple days of going to sleep late and waking up early.

Woke up, it started raining. Stopped raining when I went to work. It started raining again and more heavily when I was inside. Erik arrived while it was raining.

Window was open. Printed something out. Then Erik went to print out a few pages .. all the pages started flying around, each in a different direction. One made a somarsault and hid behind the table. A "WTF" smile appeared on his face. we laughed it off. He then checked if there was any wind coming from the window, but there didn't seem to be any (not to me, at least).

Left for a meeting at a restaurant. It was raining. While at the table, waiter brought glasses of icecream cocktail. I could tell that the waiter was new and afraid of spilling some coctail. Praised him in my mind. He got to the other end of the table, where Erik was sitting ::Click:: ..... *Splash*. Somehow all the glasses had tipped over and the coctail was all spilled over the table and Erik. I thought I had seen the waiter hold the salver steady while the glasses tipped over. This one felt pretty weird and kind of sad, too. For some reason, suspicious accidents seem to happen around me pretty frequently when I'm tired.

He said the coctail didn't leave a spot. We had a 20% discount and sun was shining when we left.

Be ye the master of all that surrounds thee

Father said he's about to learn to use psychokinesis and that earlier he had just been interested in what's possible and how stuff works (which would be useful for his scientific research). I guess it's about time to reformulate my own goals as well, based on advice from Thoth's tablets.

Be ye the master of all that surrounds thee.

Never be mastered by the effects of thy life.

Yesterday when I was about to open a can of tuna fish, the fear of injuring myself with the can cover appeared. It dates some years back when I was tired and in a haste, tore a can of preserved meal open and seriously cut my finger. Even months later when it had seemingly healed, it was painful to move it to the full extent. Needed a lot of healing with psi and intent. I was afraid of opening the can even though it had a sign that it's safe for dolphins .. well, obviously not for humans.

Father came and opened it. He suggested visualizing every action before making it happen. When I did, I found how foolish my fear was. Anyway, should start using this method for everything. He also said he doesn't use it because of any practical reasons .. it just feels good to see everything manifesting the way they were visualized.

Funeral

Slept on hay in open air, which was pretty refreshing. Alarm clock rang, cancelled it and fell into a half-dream state. Back in December a dog passed away (Circling Flames post). It appeared in the half-dream state, really happy to see me .. swinging its tail, smiling, licking my fingers and lying on me while I was sleeping.

Today was the funeral of grandma's brother. Although it seemed out of place, I think I did the right thing by emitting cheerful feelings when most people were shedding tears in grief of their loss. One should not be lost in their emotions, but rather use their emotions for productive purposes. Dad seemed to be taking it pretty well, he was at least as cheery as I was. The son of the passed-one was also calm and in good control of his emotions.

In the church, the priest was clearly pulsing a candle behind him. Attempted to light a candle and didn't succeed, but perhaps it was better this way. Might've caused a havoc among people afraid of something satanic going on, body rising up from the coffin or something even more freaky (especially because due to some hassle and confusion, we didn't even know if there was the right man in the coffin before opening it).

When we arrived at the church, the sky was all clouded. Intended for it to clear up for the departure to the graveyard, which it did. The sky was completely clear by the time we arrived.

Orb hunting

Came to the funeral with father. Read Thoth Tablets and discussed them during our bus ride. Also enjoyed feeling the surroundings and other people on the bus. There was a girl, who smoked a lot (one cigarette every hour). I felt her loving the feeling of smoke in her lungs (quite surreal as I never smoke myself).

When we arrived, the sky was heavily clouded. Little meteo-pro Caspar predicted that it would be raining any minute. True, a couple of minutes later, I was hit by some lonely water drops. I had planned to go orb-hunting, so I tried my best to keep it from raining.

Went orb-hunting with dad at night. We found some, though, I suspect at least some of the spots on pictures were the reflection of hay dust (could see the particles when flash was triggered). There seemed to be more on open areas. Sometimes I just felt an urge to take a picture in some direction .. took it .. and there was a bright orb right at the center of the picture. Took about 100 pics in total, need to process them and delete some.

Added a separate page for them, here.

Mortal empathy

Experienced a really strong empathy on my way home today. Birds singing, hopping around me, trees "shining peace and love" .. ::SPLAT:: a bug crashed into my left eye. Blinded for about a kilometer, I was disturbed from empathy again.

Rain tilting

A heavy cloud appeared with thunder and lots of rain. Went out on the balcony and tilted the raining direction. Got it almost horizontal, made rain fall straight down and tilted it again .. this time to a 45 degree angle. On both attempts, wind picked up, trees bent and the direction of rainfall was affected.

Went to bed. Out of nowhere I started swinging in body. Swung back and forth with an amplitude of maybe 2 cm. Tried to improve the amplitude by pushing further like one would do on an ordinary swing. Didn't work .. there was absolutely no gravity .. *ahem* .. no force to pull me back.


It felt almost exactly like it would, when I lied down on my back on a village swing. It felt like levitating, falling down, levitating and so on..

Imagine lying on your back while swinging on this.
Feels pretty interesting.

Pleasant buzzing

I was feeling a bit down and stressed yesterday for some reason. Meditated on a lot of different things yesterday night:

• Focusing on the pleasant feeling of wind gently touching the skin in 27*C
• Pulling and pushing psi through the third eye
• Moving psi up from lower chakras
• Breathing psi into the central channel and building a dense pillar of psi in the channel while breathing out

Tried to sleep in such a way that I wouldn't lose psi. Today morning, my whole body felt calm and tingling of pleasure again. It feels good already even though I'm not done with the cleaning yet.

One of my aunts called yesterday. They were about to print the death wish, but the name turned out all caps and they couldn't change it back. They could write lowercase text everywhere else, but couldn't delete or modify the name (confirmed with MS Office on 2 different laptops).

Geisting on shockwave plugin

Uh, wtf =S. Wanted to listen to music. Opened one of my youtube playlists .. flash plugin window is pitch black. It was working just a moment ago. Ok, I decide that a radio might be better anyway and download a radio app. It installs just fine and everything, but it doesn't run for some reason.

Well, I decided not to listen to music then. iJodix posted a youtube link. I thought it wouldn't work anyway, because something had happened to the plugin. It was black, as expected. He posted another link that was supposed to explain it better. The second one was working. Checked and the plugin only seems to be working for the second video that iJodix posted.

Cool, now they are all working again and I can listen to my playlist.

One of the dreams stood out this morning. I couldn't trace its sources (didn't seem to be based on memories). There was some sort of an automatic driving system with distributed computing. Managed to forget most of it due to the next dreams.

It reminded me of one of dad's dreams some weeks ago. He saw a crane that had a web of tiny fingers that contracted around the object. It was made in such a way that it required power to keep the fingers apart, but no power was needed for gripping.

A close relative has died. He looked pretty depressed and alone the last time I saw him.

Some OBE and healing attempts

Have been taking a lot of naps today. It's so hot that it makes me sleepy.

During a nap I visualized myself glowing soft white light with the feeling of unconditional love to all body cells.

I think I healed a part of my body during a half-OBE. I remember debugging it while asleep and when I woke up, the bug was fixed.

Tried to crawl out of body, but it made me feel sick in stomach. Maybe detaching from it feels bad because it's still "digesting in progress". It seems there's a blockage there .. need more pranayama exercise.


Recorded a couple of more attempts at construct thoughtography. No groundbreaking results yet. 

There seems to be a correlation between noise from sensitivity and movement of psi. Noise pixels seemed to move around in waves and spirals.

Some pk n geistin

Man it's hot .. perhaps something like 35*C outside during the day and 28*C at night.

Yesterday there was a moth that caught my attention for some reason. A moment later I noticed it in spider web, fighting to get free. I thought it was over and it made me wonder why I needed to experience this. Commented the situation to father, who was in the same room. A moment later, we both saw the moth in freedom. Dad helped it out. That's two good lessons: "It's never too late" and "Don't underestimate your teachings".

Dad lit an incense candle, wondering if one could practice pk on it. I joined him. Tried to make smoke rings, spiral the smoke and hold it in place with stasis. Worked pretty well.

Felt quite shifty and it was easy to spread my awareness, feeling stuff on the way. Might have been due to doing sports and not eating much. Though, on the other hand, I was surprisingly weak at the gym. Psi was around me, not in my muscles, like before.

Radio was occasionally skipping again, some songs were all quirky and stuff. I think I saw a barbell rolling again .. in the intended direction. A toilet flush button at the gym seemed to be working with Pk only (should've worked on proximity, but worked on intention instead). After leaving, a storm cloud appeared, but dissolved above us.

Watched Volcano.High.Whasango and the recent Naruto Shippuuden episodes with dad.