Circling flames

Before going to bed last night, I taught the pranayama exercise to uncle's wife. She seemed to be pretty interested in it, but admitted that it's a bit tough for her.

A whole day of shoving snow off roofs and digging paths with high snow walls and heating up sauna. A lot of fun.

When I took a short break and entered the kitchen, uncle's little son was playing with candles on the table. Looked at the candle flames, thought it would be fun to perform pk on them and 2 of the 6 started making circles rapidly. He replicated the movement of the flames with his fingers. A moment later the flames stopped making circles. He tried to make them move the way they did before, striking with his hand, blowing on the candles and so on, but nothing worked. It happened without control and effort, similar to how stopping the radiometer has often been..

Held a funeral for the dog that had passed away and lit 5 candles on her grave.

Listening to the wind

Nice, I have managed to catch a cold almost every day and it has disappeared an hour up to a few hours later.

Listened to the wind for a while yesterday. Atmospheric density around me started building up and managed to redirect the wind. It seemed as if even the clouds changed their direction.

Watched Andrei Tarkovsky "Stalker" with Kevin. It was 3rd time that I saw the film and I was surprised at how it discussed enlightenment related subjects. I found the end most surprising .. stalker's daughter was performing pk on drinking glasses.

Long-waited trip

Took a trip to Saaremaa today morning. Organized tickets for a morning bus so that I would be able to practice cloud bursting on the way and enjoy the rest of the day at the summerhouse. Ended up pecking at the chairs in the bus (too tired to practice pk). After waking up and falling asleep for a few times, I finally managed to keep myself awake long enough to focus on my intention and .. although it was snowing, the sky cleared up and there was sun shining through the falling snow =).

Showed Kevin a few cool pk-related videos and asked him about his practices. He said he has become more interested in reading thoughts than moving stuff. We went out to put clothes drying. I was just saying out loud stuff that came into my mind and it turned out that the same things had come to his mind as well. It was like on a spree - about 3 or 4 hits in sequence.

In the evening, the whole sky cleared up again so that we could see stars shining (haven't seen a clear sky for at least a week). It's been snowing quite hard and I even heard on the radio that it was already quite catastrophic in my hometown - snow plows are no longer enough, bigger construction gear is used to transport the snow out of the town and onto fields. It could turn pretty nasty when all of the snow starts melting.

Aunt wanted me to play 'memory' with her son. I didn't want to, but had to, because her son wanted me to. I was amazed at how the game progressed. Every turn aunt had, she was incredibly lucky. She cleared most of the table with cards that were flipped for the first time. We were all blown.

Mission wallet

A whole day of shopping around with Mom. We were on "mission wallet", searching for a new wallet for me. Not knowing where to go in a shopping mall, we thought we should ask someone if they knew where one could find wallets. A couple of minutes later, the following was on the speakers: "If you're looking for a wallet, try the shoe shop on the 1st floor in building A." Well, unfortunately, the prices were overrated and we continued our search in other shopping centres.

While walking to another shopping center, I decided to clean psi blockages that had formed within the last week. Overeating, lack of physical exercises and passing time with stressful people have helped to cause a disorder in my psi flow. When I get to the summerhouse, then I can meditate and perform yoga exercises again (here at Mom's parents place everything suspicious would make them worried or even afraid).

Meditated while walking around and visiting shops with Mom. Shortly after that I said her thoughts out loud when we passed by a peculiar ad.

Pk arts training dream

Had an interesting dream this morning. There were a few of us practicing pk in a park and some kids saw that. They wanted to come and practice with us the next time. Well, we started official training and advertised it so that we would have more participants.

On the first training day, we had everyone give an oath that they would always keep their progress smooth, never attempting to charge through their limits with sheer power. Or something like that (can't remember it exactly).

We started indoors and when we were good enough, we started training outdoors in public (and on a larger scale). This was to help against ego getting in the way. 

One of the kids that first joined, went for a show-off of skills against his oath and died. Can't remember what he did, but he couldn't move and felt being burned from the inside to the outside.

To cope with the anger of some school or something, we took a few days for practicing pk-enhanced running and organized an american football match. Although our guys hadn't played it and not very confident on the match, no-one managed to do anything against them. Actually, no-one even saw them and were shoutin all over the field: "What the heck, how's that even possible?" 

Subconscious

Subconscious is cool, it notices a lot and sometimes draws one's attention to funny things.

Grandma and sister baked cookies yesterday. I was about to have one, when I got the feeling that there's something funny about a specific cookie. Took it and found that it had a perfect heart shape while all the others were circular or slightly oval.

I thought I was numb to presents, but the clothes mother had bought from all over the world .. these made me happy.

Pum in OBE

Waiting for the bus to Tallinn at the bus station, there was an unconscious pum. Police was there and soon Ambulance arrived. It seemed that no matter what they did, he didn't gain consciousness - he had drunk something suspicious and lost it. Visualized pushing him back into his body and at the same moment he regained consciousness and started coughing. I doubt it was me, but the timing was a bit suspicious (synchronicity with an uncertainty of less than 1/4 of a second).

I hurt my feet while wearing the new pair of boots, so I have to use the old boots. Though, the old boots are so full of holes that I can feel the snow I'm walking on. It has been more than a week already that my right heel hurts. Left heel recovered a while ago already. Anyway, visualized big hot socks of psi around my feet. Left foot got warm, but the breeze was too strong to warm up the right foot.

Random attempts

A scale caught my attention at the department store today. It showed 0.000 and occasionally jumped to 0.002. The salesperson had left for some time and I had some time to focus on the scale with nobody interrupting. Started to feel atmospheric density building up on the scale plate. Focused on it becoming denser and heavier while staring at the digits. Managed to get it to show 0.002 constantly, but nothing more. It felt the same as with the hot-spot practice on the thermometer .. I was a bit "doubty".

Sister baked a cake and we visited a neighbor for Christmas. She has a cute black cat. Tried to invite it via telepathy after I had finished eating. It jumped to me and sat down on my lap. I sometimes noticed that the cat was looking at the wall to my left .. I couldn't see anything there.

When Mom wanted to take a picture of the cat stretching itself on my lap, it understood her thoughts and became alert. Mom came back to take a photo and before she managed to do it, the cat jumped off.

There were 4 candles set up on the floor at neighbor's and there were Christian songs on TV. Looked at the candles and fancied pulsing them all. Well, ended up focusing on only one of the candles and enjoyed it dancing (leaning, growing and shrinking) to the rhythm of the songs. It looked pretty responsive.

Back in my room, I attempted rolling a can again, while listening to the song FridgeNatious posted on the forums (Let Go). Too much mind wander at first and after that, I felt stopping it (too much doubt). It wobbled a few times, but didn't roll. What was interesting though, right when I focused on it, I saw psi moving to it, gathering in and around the can (slightly reminded me of a plasma ball but with fully transparent discharge branches - which is a very crude comparison though).

qRV

Been programming again. Decided to try the utility I had written for remote viewing and precognition practice some time ago. It turned out that google had changed their image search page source and I had to generalize the image searching algorithm (a bit slower now). Fixed a couple of bugs and uploaded it here: https://code.google.com/p/q-rv/. I guess it shouldn't be difficult for linux users to get it compiled. For windows users I'll have to build a binary sometime soon.

Almost didn't get any pictures right, but I did see weird things. Mostly fractals, random objects, rooms and people from strange angles. It was interesting that the images became more vivid and detailed when I touched the atmospheric density around my head with my mind.

Watched Green Lantern with dad in the evening and were greatly entertained. Mom and sister are not very interested in anime though. The construct ideas were really ingenious and surprising.

Have noticed recently that lamps sometimes turn off for a split-second when I'm in the room.

Also, the last couple of days I have occasionally been feeling my throat chakra heating up well over normal body temperature. The whole base of the throat is like glowing.

Before going to sleep, I meditated on a chakra above the head and started feeling pressure on the 3rd eye. Focused on energy flow through the 3rd eye until it faded.

Programming stuff

Have been programming mostly. Now that school is over, I could spend a few days on trying to come up with a demo for old-school 8-bit dithered lookealike post-processing.

The past few days I haven't been very active on practicing pk. Fortunately, pk practice never stops and throughout these days I often found towels or curtains swinging around.

During a short meditation session yesterday evening I physically felt my crown opening up. I have felt it before, but this time it felt as if physical petals were spreading and the top of my head being revealed.

Opened the balcony door before sitting down to meditate yesterday. With cold air, I could feel the density of the atmosphere around me a bit better (bigger contrasts with the surroundings). Although in cold, most of my body was covered in dense atmosphere and psi so that I felt the cold, but it barely reached the body.

Wind shield

While coming home, my face and forehead was getting cold (was wearing a thin hat) .. it was windy (about 5 m/s) and about -10*C. Attempted to visualize a stasis field for wind around me. Couldn't get the feeling right. Remembered my discovery on the propeller stasis field last night and how efficiently the field split the wind in two. When I did, a shield appeared on my face so that even though wind was blowing right at my face and I could hear the hood rustling, cold air no longer reached my skin.

Practiced levitation yesterday night. It was great fun and different than it has been a year or even more ago, though, no astonishing results yet. Remembering and focusing on the feeling of levitating from a dream, I was able to make myself feel quite light, but I couldn't help but hold myself back yet.

Wanted to practice for about 30 minutes, but ended up with more than an hour and had to force myself to sleep because of an exam the next morning. Tried to visualize and intend on the feeling of becoming sleepy rather than going through the usual routine of visualizing dreams until they become real. I can't remember being able to spot the half-dream stages with this method, but I could remember my dreams very well the next morning (they didn't contain much pk though).

Wind bending

Wowf, cool.

Set the fan blowing at the propeller and placed a toy windmill at 90 degrees angle from the direction that the fan blows the wind. Attempted to turn the wind 90 degrees with about 30 cm of room. Well, at first the propeller occasionally stopped and the windmill budged. Then, a few moments later, The propeller stood still for a bit longer and the windmill started spinning slowly, stopping every now and then. I scanned the wind with my hand and I was blown .. about 10 - 15 cm towards the fan from the propeller, there was intense wind, however, about 10 cm from the propeller, there was barely any air movement (which is why the propeller barely rotates). The air flow forks and bends to the left of the propeller and to the right of it.

When we went to the department store with Mom, I used the windy weather to practice a dome of stasis field around us. Couldn't keep it constant, but managed to slow down bigger gusts of wind.

At the department store, I got tired real quick (crowded places often drain me of psi). Decided to draw some psi from the ground and almost immediately when I started, I felt a lot better. Started feeling pressure on the upper chakras and psi field becoming denser around me. I was amazed at how fast it worked and all the exhaustion disappeared. The inward flow of psi easily beat the outward flow and I no longer became tired.

While washing teeth, some toothpaste got on the area near the two holes in the palate. Near the holes, there is a spot that makes me hiccup when I try to clean it. This time, something interesting happened: a straw on the edge of the sink suddenly moved, then something snapped and a bottle of shower gel fell into the tub. I wonder what would happen when one performed khechari mudra on the spot..

Studying with pk

There's a great wind outside tonight. It even got too cold with just a T-shirt in my room. Should meditate and practice wind draft forming again.

Took the conspectus of microworld physics (have also called it "quantum mechanics", because it started off from quantum mechanics) and became slightly frustrated when I looked at the clock and at how thick the conspectus was .. there's an exam on Monday. Read some pages and slept for an hour. Continued reading, but it still didn't go too well .. I felt awfully distracted by the sounds from the other rooms (as the whole family is together after a while, there's a lot going on everywhere).

So, I started focusing on the chakras above my head and managed to surpass the distractions. A moment later I started visualizing microworld physics related knowledge pouring in through the 3rd eye and later the top of my head. Doing this has greatly improved the efficiency of studying almost every time I have used it (haven't done this very often). Anyway, the reading speed increased and I could grasp everything faster.

While reading, I was also playing around with pk on neighboring objects and the conspectus notebook itself. Since I was active reading, my mind didn't have the time to start with any doubtful thoughts. Though, I wasn't 100% dedicated to the pk either (more like a passive training of sorts).

Like with the hurricanes and typhoons, after some intent projection and visualization, I have been feeling that FridgeNatious's mother is alright. I simply don't feel motivated to continue the visualizations of remote healing.

I had been visualizing her and evening out her energy just like higheriam described it later. Just like I have done with myself, also I visualized a map of her problems and started changing red areas into green (green should represent calmness and healing intent). I thought it would be fun if she would be into healing with hands after the recovery - this could keep her on a healthier lifestyle.

Mom returns

Yaay, Mom finally came home after working on a cruise ship for almost a year.

Just to mention, my uncle is back from hospital again. It's the second time for him to visit the hospital because of his brain tumor. Although he's into meditation and he's calm, always in control and so on, he still lives the lifestyle of famous musicians (touring from one country to another, performing live, recording songs), giving lectures, selling sea-buckthorns and marketing their products. Relaxing and taking the time off to admire one's work would really suit him. I think the same would work for FridgeNatious's mother as well.

Nice, she asked why did I buy a radiometer, when she saw it spinning under a lamp. I answered: "To stop it with my mind." Then, after we had gone shopping, played around with her Kindle (uploaded a couple of Kundalini pdf-s for her), I showed her the radiometer standing still. After that I released it from stasis again (well, it accidentally slipped when I attempted to move it in the opposite direction). =D She was interested in trying it if she were less tired.

It turned out that she had some books with a lot of info on the Bindu point and chakras above the head .. they just had different names. She suggested the following books:

• "Hands of Light: A Guide to Healing Through the Human Energy Field" by Barbara Ann Brennan
• "Healing with the Chakra Energy System: Acupressure, Bodywork, and Reflexology for Total Health" by John R. Cross

While browsing through the books, the first one seemed to contain pretty awesome imagery on auras (the translation only covered 1/3 of the whole book). The second book contained a lot of diagrams on the positions of different chakras, nadis and their descriptions (though, no chakras outside the body).

I used to be really skeptical about this stuff that I now consider a treasure. From the first book, I learned that these protuberance-like aura movements around my legs probably meant psi / chi leaking out. Though, I have also seen the same aura movements in my room (around the radiometer or on the walls, for example). It would be nice to find original versions of the books (the translations are a bit off).

Mind cleansing

I think I'm overanalyzing all experiences so that I could remember them well enough to write down here. Even though I remember there was something I planned on remembering from a half-dream state yesterday night, I can't remember it =/.

I was visualizing myself with all kind of fun pk abilities on the imaginary island. Whenever I felt the visualization becoming deep and detailed enough, something random would snap in my room (table, door and bed snapped quite loud) and wake me up.

Meditated on a blank mindset today evening. Since I haven't done this for quite some time, already the first 10 minutes had a great effect. I wouldn't have imagined my mind was this full of clutter. While meditating, I started feeling intense psi rushing around everywhere. My fingers were overwhelmed with the intensity of psi rushing through them and I had to change to a mudra that contained enough loops that would either short-circuit or direct psi back.

Anyway, I could barely keep my mind still for a second (the maximum was probably even less than that). Need to meditate more before going to sleep.

Meditated before going to sleep as well, though, nothing special happened.

Ate quite a lot of cheese and saw a lot of pk dreams. Can't remember them very well though =/. In one of them, I met some 2 toddlers with really mindblowing pk skills, but I can't remember any of them.

Sliding practice

Practiced book, notebook sliding and forming wind drafts + whirlwind yesterday evening and last night. I'm having quite a problem with thinking about the results and what would happen if I succeeded in it instead of completely focusing on the intent and feeling of it. I feel like it would all be easy for me to do when I could control my thoughts, feelings and emotions well enough.

After the crown blooming experience, I have been having some slight pain strikes around the body again and my head hurt occasionally. I guess I'm slowly adapting again.

=? .. the heck just happened? Opera suddenly threw away everything I had written. Ok, writing it again..

In bed yesterday night I noticed that I was subconsciously playing around with push / pull on the blanket through my hands. Attempted to do it consciously and I could feel it moving pretty well, though, I unintentionally stopped it right after it started moving.

Sat down for sliding practice on the book again. Could feel it becoming lighter and slowly moving, but then at some moment I started thinking about me doing pk. Messed it all up with that and couldn't feel it move that well anymore. Took the next object right behind it, which was a toy windmill. Twitched that in both directions until the same happened. Then took a piece of paper and attempted pk on that.

Again, I could feel myself holding it still while attempting to move it at the same time. So far I have only managed to work around this issue, but I still haven't solved it. With these yoga exercises and focusing on chakras and Bindu point, my awareness has spread and I feel I have more power. However, it was already when I first started with the psi-wheel that I felt I had enough power to do amazing things provided that I only learn to control and use it.

I think I should take serious steps towards enhancing control again .. which means these tedious "chest" meditation exercises. One way to make it all the more pleasant would be visualizing some fun stuff.

Wanted to mention that while I was attempting the book sliding, I took a short break and tried the grounding exercise again that I posted here. Now I could feel the effects of it better. It seems that I have been applying great psi pressure on the Bindu point with this. The feelings I get now while doing this exercise are beyond what I had previously felt and even then (when I had my first successful pk attempt), it already allowed me to greatly increase the amount of psi intensity I could use for doing stuff. It slightly reminds me of how Dragon ball characters raise their battle power.

Ok, maybe it's not only control that I need to improve on .. my hands are twitching, since I haven't used them for pk for quite a long time.

Crown blooming

Yesterday's emotional excitement must have done it =D.

Performed pranayama and khechari mudra again. I focused on the feeling of being for some time. Went to bed after that. Since I had slept for an hour during the day, I had trouble falling asleep.

Noticed that my heart was all tense. I guess I had a heart chakra problem because of not loving my aunt (well, I couldn't even find any reason for me not to). It came to me that perhaps love is the same as a pk connection. A few moments later I started feeling hot psi with the feeling of love radiating from my chest again.

At some point, I almost fell asleep, but it was interrupted with a moment of clear mind and a feeling of buzzing (happens a lot because I usually meditate before falling asleep). When I focused on the bindu point and on the feeling of being, suddenly a large lump of psi started moving in the head. It felt pretty dense, wet and cold from the Bindu fluid and yet hot at the same time.

I focused on a chakra as high as I could feel or visualize any (used the feelings from the rope-climbing visualization from a couple of days ago). As this lump of psi moved on to higher and higher chakras, I felt the projection of these chakras on my head. It's as if there were a crown that has become heavier so that I can feel it applying pressure on different areas of my head. When the lump of psi moved higher by one chakra, I felt the previously active chakras becoming cold.

Couldn't go to sleep yet. Kept focused on the higher chakra for as long as I could, trying to take advantage from this experience. A few moments later I started to feel a hole spreading instead of what I had felt as the uppermost chakra. It felt as if I was a flower blooming and spreading petals. I definitely felt a lot more open but somewhat naked.

Some moments later I started feeling a tingling sensation of pleasure moving up from the legs, up into the head. Now it felt too good for falling asleep naturally. It was already 3 AM and I wanted to wake up at 6.30 AM. Thought I would postpone the alarm for 10.30 AM and force myself into sleeping (by focusing on the noise in front of the eyes, forming figures, then scenery out of it and stepping in when it's ready).

Finally I still managed to sleep, although, for barely 3 hours =D.

Wind draft spiral

Put a lot more effort into pranayama exercise yesterday. When I stood up and took a step after that, I felt a serious irregularity in space and time again.

Performed some khechari mudra and practiced forming of wind drafts. It's somewhat strange that I could stretch my tongue quite well when I first did khechari mudra. However, it seems as if with every day I can stretch it less.

Tried to form a clockwise spiral of wind drafts around me. Visualized wind drafts from the closed balcony door slowly (really slowly) making circles around me and lifting towards the ceiling. At first I couldn't feel the spiraled draft with my skin, but then I noticed that air had just warmed up and was more-or-less at body temperature. Sitting next to a plant, I could see its hangings move around as if there was wind blowing at them. Nice.

I had previously noticed the radiometer shaking and thought it was table vibrations. Hit the table for a few times today morning and the radiometer vanes didn't shake because of that. 

Thought I would go to gym, but it seems I have lost the key (used to be afraid that I would). Oh well, had some visualization training on doing exercises in the gym instead. And when I fell asleep so deep that I forgot I was supposed to be visualizing physical exercises, I continued with pk training. Within the first few minutes I realized I should do this more often, as I had some difficulties visualizing stuff in balance. At some point I realized something and visualizations clicked into place .. I had discovered joint constructs. After that, visualizing exercises on my hand muscles was a lot easier, because I knew how they would react to to these exercises. Ended up doing multiple exercises at the same time (cycling and lifting weights, for example) - this way it was a bit more difficult to maintain the stability of the visualizations. It's a lot of those "chest" meditation exercises that I used to do.

It's about a week of eating food containing meat again. I guess it's also something that works in waves for me. Actually, I barely ate anything during that weird diet and now I eat a lot. During the weird diet period, I had to eat vitamin tablets a few times and drink mineral water, because I couldn't get enough minerals I guess.

Hm, strange timing. I was enjoying Windy Tales ep. 11 when father came into the room, looking at what I was up to. So, I started to describe the anime for him and while I was at it, I noticed that the radiometer stood still again. Wanted to film it and try to stop it again so that I would finally get it on tape. Well, while I was talking, I accidentally shook the table a few times, but nothing happened .. every time the vanes stopped again. In the middle of describing the anime, aunt called and I had do help her with some network related stuff. Father got bored, looked around and noticed the radiometer acting weird. He looked at it from different angles and before I managed to finish praising the anime, he left .. and I was still talking to my aunt. Anyway, the radiometer still stood still when I had finished the phone call. So, I filmed it (though, I had forgotten reduced brightness on since yesterday's candle practice), hit the oscilloscope on which the radiometer stands and stopped it again. Tapped on the glass and attempted to stop it again while recording with normal brightness. This time I found it difficult to hook onto the feeling of stasis on the vanes and only managed to slow it down slightly. The radiometer is spinning really fast again now.

Since it's not much of a development since the last video and since my previous successful attempts on stopping the vanes, I'm not sure if I should upload it.

Edit: Yup, I should, even though it's not much, it might still work as a motivation.

The toy windmill that's on the table started spinning again when I came into my room. It seems as if there's an above normal gust of wind pushing me forward when I walk. Thanks to this, walking feels really effortless even on icy surfaces. I also feel really light as I walk.

Wind and crazy flame

Practiced push-pull on an A4 paper yesterday evening. Probably due to having practiced pk on paper a lot when I first started, I connected with the paper pretty quick. Moved it around slightly, but couldn't make it fall over.

Meditated on forming wind drafts around the room yesterday night. After that, I meditated on what's above the head, which later turned out as a visualization of climbing on an infinite rope of chakras.

Although I had intended on it, I didn't have any lucid dreams of the light table experiment for the last few days. Before falling asleep yesterday night, I put more effort into the intention and got into a half-dream state where I started seeing some objects. Could only remember one of the several objects I had seen like this.

Have also been intending and visualizing on Treasure Hunter succeeding spinning his toy windmill in the opposite direction occasionally.

Attempted forming a hot-spot on the thermometer again. I guess I managed to rise it by perhaps half a degree.

Lit a candle and thought I would play pk on it. Well, the flame hopped around, pulsed and did all kind of things violently. I thought it was because of the drafts from the balcony door (which slightly leaks cold). Put a box between the candle and balcony door, but the flame still kept hopping around the same way. When I intended on it moving in a specific manner, it usually did and when I focused on being still, the flame didn't rock so violently, but it was not as fun as I had hoped it would be.

Anyway, the drafts around the room have been pretty noticeable today. While attempting pk on the candle flame, I could feel a constant draft coming from the balcony door that greatly tilted the candle flame towards me. When I opened my room door and closed it, a toy windmill on the table started spinning from wind. That was slightly unexpected, as it has never happened before and it also didn't happen when I tried to reproduce it by moving the door.

Meditating on cavity

It has been a while since I last sat down and just meditated. Already 20 minutes of meditation had cool results. Meditated on widening channels and chakras as well as the cavity in the head. Psi density in the area rose remarkably and it felt as if my head was pushed to the right. In the right side of the brain, psi density didn't rise and things were a bit out of balance again.

The bindu point that I used to focus on, for the last couple of weeks I haven't felt like I should focus on it again. It seems that there are other areas that wouldn't be able to keep up with it when I did. So, I have been focusing on the cavity between the ears and forehead instead.

Attempted pk on a soda can after that, but couldn't spot much improvements yet. Need to meditate more and balance the hemispheres again, perhaps then I might see a difference.

Some geisting

Shirak suggested an experiment - light table experiment. It's basically a room which people can visit while having lucid dreams or just meditating. The idea is that everyone takes a look at the table, remembers the objects and perhaps adds a few of their own.

Before falling asleep, I attempted to visit it and added an object. I'm not sure of the objects that were on the table .. couldn't recognize many of them.

TranceEffect had uploaded a video on which he attempted to light an incense stick by doing pk on a nearby candle. I found the way he treated the flame worth noticing. He treated the flame as if it were a perfect lifeform on its own. Then, through love he had become one with the flame. 

There's quite a heavy snowfall around here (which makes it easy to see and feel the wind), so in a morning lecture, I tried to apply the same attitude towards the wind and snow outside. It was fun playing around with redirecting the wind with snowflakes, applying stasis on it, make snowflakes rise higher by blowing wind from below and so on. Tried the same while coming home.

The experience of being filmed by a TV crew and being able to see how it all works made my camera-nervousness drop significantly. At some point I realized it didn't make a difference whether there was a camera or there wasn't. After a while I noticed that I was subconsciously practicing pk there. A few loud snapping sounds appeared from random places around the room while they were interviewing a colleague. Then, even though no doors nor windows were open, the flags on the table started moving. No-one noticed this, because there were bigger problems like someone opening the creaky door, rushing in, talking on the phone and stuff.

At home, I switched the light on (the one above the radiometer) - thought I could slip in some pk practice or something. I ate and read posts on the forums at the same time. Finished eating and when I did, I realized there had been something strange going on the whole time. The radiometer didn't start spinning. I quickly took the camera and started recording. Knocked on the glass and the vanes started rotating slowly, practiced some stasis field on the vanes and then let the vanes go .. they started gaining speed again. Didn't feel any connection, I didn't even feel being in a pk mind-state - it was just another geisting experience resulting from pk practice.

Man, the whole day went into searching for working video editing programs and working encoders for linux. At least I think I've got it now and the editing of next videos should be faster. Gimp for drawing pictures, Lives for turning pictures into video clips and Avidemux for sequencing video clips and adding transition filters.

Radiometer stasis geisting

Toy windmill stasis with wind from the balcony

Nirvana chakra

Opened the balcony door to let some air in yesterday. The air was quite warm (about -4 degrees Celsius) and I decided to place a toy windmill in front of the door. Tried to spin it clockwise, as wind spins it counter-clockwise. Budged it a little clockwise a few times. Although it usually doesn't move much, it responds to pk very well (through small movements).

Performed pranayama and khechari mudra again yesterday night. With the pranayama, there was a rush of blood into my head and it got quite hot.

Then meditated on what I thought was Nirvana chakra. I didn't know where it was and just started visualizing myself cleaning and polishing a sphere above the center of the head. After a while, I started to feel it and my head started getting hot from near the center. The heat spread downwards from there.

Couldn't sleep very well and woke up pretty often. I had slept for a couple of hours during the day, perhaps that's why.

The TV crew postponed the visit XD .. nice.

Took another attempt on the toy windmill at the balcony door today. This time I also recorded it .. until I started freezing (5 minutes) because of the -3 degrees Celsius blowing on my hands and T-shirt. It seems as if cold slightly helps me get into pk mind-set. Anyway, the recording turned out pretty crappy - forgot the camera in macro mode and it kept focusing & defocusing again. Some weird glitches also turned up on the recording (as if a few pixel rows on the sensor had lagged behind the others).

Have been attempting stasis directly on the microwave oven fan for a few times now. I'm seeing some effects of it slowing down slightly. At full speed it looks like one continuous blur and when it slows down, darker (or more transparent) stripes appear. It spins so fast that it's somewhat difficult for me to feel separate blades spinning.

Watched this Oscar Hsu interview again, to figure out what this embryonic breathing is about. While watching it again, I felt some presence also watching it from behind me. Couldn't recognize it and I couldn't get any answer by asking it.

Too many mind

While walking to school .. uphill at that moment, I guess my bindu point opened up a bit more or something. I suddenly got the familiar feeling of density inside and around my head. With it, more cold fluid flowed into the system and my breathing slowed down from wheezing to barely breathing at all (while still going uphill on slippery ice and snow).

It was rather windy today. Practiced wind redirection, blocking and stasis on school- and homewalks. Success rate has been almost 100% for quite a while already. Well, after mentioning success on car location (which was also about 100% for a few weeks) on the forums, I noticed that my success rate had dropped. With every attempt, my mind was clouded with thoughts on the post .. need to improve on that.

Took a pk rolling attempt on a soda can. Thought I should set camera up and recording just in case. Since it's been a while since I last recorded anything, I got a bit nervous and mind became busy. Occasionally my mind became clear enough and the can started wobbling. Should take it on more seriously when there's more time. Too bad there's a test in microworld physics at the same time as TV crew that will be interviewing students working on the student satellite (would've wanted to participate).

Have been occasionally intending on Treasure Hunter's success with opposing force training on a toy windmill yesterday and today. Sometimes I visualized the situation and attempted pk on it, trying to help him. He had taken a picture of this windmill and I found it interesting that when I first saw the picture, I saw it spinning clockwise. It was later that I read the text - he wanted to make it spin clockwise, as it would normally spin counter-clockwise with the fan.

Amrit oven

Had an interesting dream today morning, though I'm not happy about it at all.

There was a strange oven in the kitchen and I noticed it was on so that the whole room was heated up. With the insides of the oven glowing in heat and slight smoke rising, I quickly turned the knobs to turn it off. The grates and walls inside the oven stopped glowing.

Inside the oven there was a small tank with a nozzle that seemed to have been made of some transparent plastic. It was weird that it had withstood all the heat. Anyway, right as I had turned the oven off, a flame shot out from the nozzle. I tried to blow it out, but it always got on fire again. When the nozzle previously had spots of mold and dirt on it, it all completely burned away. I was getting more and more worried both about the tank melting up, exploding or the transparent liquid inside it burning up.

Removed the tank from the oven and managed to put the flame out. When I did this, some of the fluid started leaking out and I realized that the tank was under pressure. I was about to put the tank on the table to look at how I could fix it, but due to moving the tank with an acceleration, the surface of the liquid became unstable, a lot of fumes built up and it sprayed all over the place.

As the liquid fell on my hands, it was soft, but cold and somewhat superfluous - one drop covered the whole hand. It was more than a material fluid - it felt highly spiritual and densely packed with psi. Being pressurized and with a high fluidity, the tank sprayed completely empty. Then I was like: "NoOooOOO" and loaded the save game again (thought I should be able to do that in the dream).

Well, I couldn't load it and had a wet dream. Woke up to stop the wet dream, as I realized that I had just messed up and emptied my Bindu fluid reserves in the dream (that tank with the cold liquid). Visualized filling the tank up again. It felt as if it really did something - my body and head really felt like being filled with a cold liquid.

The pranayama exercise I did before going to sleep probably pumped more psi and bindu fluid together, resulting in too much pressure for me. Need to work on coping with higher pressures.

Time-stop

Father came home late and we kept chattering on psionics and holographic universe subjects .. until it was 4 AM. He suggested me to practice telepathy on schoolwalks instead of doing it at home, as I had previously suggested we should do. Well, it's correct that I haven't practiced it on schoolwalks lately, but I didn't quite like the answer - it's the same as with all other skills, he avoids teaching me stuff and intends on me learning everything by myself. On the other hand, this is what I also like about his teaching - it clearly emphasizes that a student should be more open-minded than their teacher and should in every way surpass their teacher.

Ah, one more thing that we discussed was retrokinesis. Father didn't believe one could affect the past and on my experiment with applying stasis field on an already recorded video, he thought I might've affected the video instead. When he said this, I realized that I had a mind-block that affecting digital information is so difficult it's nearly impossible. I had failed to realize that with pk on material objects, we also don't focus on moving all molecules, but rather we focus on moving the whole. The same could be done with a video - a new kind of training - using pk to draw shapes on a pre-recorded video.

Meditated before going to sleep. Performed pranayama and khechari mudra again. Lately it has happened more than once that I take a look at the clock projection on the ceiling, meditate for what I think lasts about 30 minutes and when I look back at the clock projection, it hasn't changed. Yesterday night it showed 5.49 (which means it was actually 4.49 AM), then continued with khechari mudra and focused on Sahasrara. After a while of tongue stretching and feeling of psi rocking around in my head and above the top of my head, I looked at the clock again and it still showed 5.49. At first I thought I had remembered the clock wrong, but since it has happened at least twice already, I'm wondering if there's actually something going on.

It could be that when we tap into higher frequencies while meditating, we begin to function so much faster than usual that it would appear as if time had stopped.

Hm, judging by this wiki page on mass deficit and assuming that vacuum is full of high-energy oscillations and rather unstable, one could create matter just by dissipating energy. Now this would be fun to do with pk =D.

Increased sensitivity

Felt quite tired, slept for a couple of times and then started studying for an upcoming test.

Couldn't understand much of what I had written there in the lectures. Anyway, at some point, my mind was overcome in calmness and the only thoughts that were wandering were about the text I was reading. During reading, I occasionally made a few short pauses to think about it, but ended up playing around with pk on the conspectus pages without any thoughts.

While going to the bathroom, I passed by the mirror and I was a bit surprised how well I could feel myself through my reflection in the mirror. I wondered if that's why they consider meditation in front of a mirror being dangerous without the presence of a guru.

I came back and opened the balcony window to let in some fresh air. Thought I could attempt pk on the door via wind manipulation instead of the direct manipulation that I usually practice. The door only budged a little in the intended directions. While looking at the door, I noticed I could see psi rising on the edge of the door. Closed the door manually.

Took a few short attempts on other objects as well and I could see psi rising off a chair, psi moving around on the floor just above the carpet. It looked the same - like a totally transparent smoke that stands out from dark background as if it were slightly glowing. On a bright background it appears as a pattern of brighter and darker areas (just like some kind of a smoke).

Meditated some and thought it would be fun to attempt levitation again (it's been a while since I last tried it). Well, I didn't succeed in lifting off, but something was different from previous times. I developed a feeling that I haven't felt before - it's not the regular feeling of being lifted (though, it's difficult to describe). When I focused on the feeling, it got stronger and I started having the feeling of knowing I would succeed in this. I chickened out aka became too excited and lost the emptiness of my mind.

Robotex '10

Watching Robotex 2010 live. This is the time when robots really become alive, acquire a personality and do how they see fit.

I decided to cheer for the robot of one of my friends that take part in the competition. In the first match, their robot just stood still and did nothing. I wished I would see it moving.

Next match it was moving slowly and kicking golf balls randomly around the field.

Next round, it was still slow but started hitting a few goals. There were matches against faster and more accurate robots, but so far they have won them .. with real funny "coincidences". It was nice to see their faces .. amazed at their luck XD.

I had wished they would get the 4th place .. and they've got it, yay =D.

Not-very-titled

Even though I visualized venting the psi of the food I ate yesterday, I still felt the psi at school today. It made me feel uncomfortable.

For the last few days, the psi density around my head has been rising again even while not practicing anything. While walking to school or back home, the psi density around my head occasionally changed rapidly just like during the OBE step I experienced about 2 weeks ago.

Also, that pranayama exercise I've been doing, I went from intermediate to beginner level and still couldn't keep doing it for very long - this probably means that I'm doing it right or at least better than before.

I've noticed recently that I can concentrate on my consciousness without much effort. Although I haven't meditated much in the Mooji way, I can feel my consciousness and body separately. Perhaps it's a side-effect of performing khechari mudra?

Ah, one thing I've noticed for quite a few times already, but haven't quite understood yet. When I switch the light off, radiometer usually takes a quick burst. I wonder if the lamp somehow bursts before switching off (haven't really seen any flashes while switching it off). Also, when I switch the lamp on, it starts off slow because of some self-sustaining constructs around it. Then why would it quickly gain speed before slowing down when I switch the light off?

Weird diet

Aw, man. I haven't eaten much for a day .. been messing around with a presentation for tomorrow. The weirdest / worst thing is that even though I'm hungry, meat foods make me sick.

At first I thought it was one of those vegetarian waves I have had. Most of these waves usually lasted for a day or two and never longer than that. However, it has now been almost like a month - haven't been able to eat meat very well since I had that flu.

It's strange .. some of my favorite foods don't taste edible anymore .. man, at least I have to eat what I have stuffed up on the plate. Hope I won't throw anything up. Have to taste a small amount of stuff before eating. I was able to eat blood sausages last week and somehow these tasted good.

A month ago or so I wasn't able to last very long without eating at school, I grew really hungry and always ate a lot. Now I barely feel any hunger even when I haven't eaten anything for a day.

Eating only dairy products and sweets, can I really get all the nutrients I need this way? Well, after visiting the gym, the only thing I really want is kefir. During the day I eat curd, muesli, black and white bread.

Got to try khechari mudra when I start feeling hungry. I wonder how long I could stay alive without eating anything like this. Well, I think that with this weird diet continuing, I'll soon be only drinking juice and then eating nothing.

Connecting and non-linearity

I feel almost completely normal now - the discomfort that was caused because of my body not being used to the Bindu fluid has faded. The feeling of being high (or what I previously called pk mind-state) has also grown slightly less-frequent (it was almost constant before). Well, it seems to come back stronger when I attempt pk.

Got motivated for practicing push, pull on different objects after seeing this video yesterday (I think owltwelve had found it). There's a guy who has been practicing ChosonNinja's Ki blast and tipped a book over with it.

Attempted pk on a few notebooks on top of the psi-wheel box near my bed. After a short while of concentrating on it, I felt more connected than I have felt before. As I did, I felt I was sliding off and falling down. This feeling of falling down snapped me back .. well, nothing seemed to have happened although it felt quite intense.

Tried pk on that small piece of wood and radiometer again today. Well, when I set up the radiometer, it spun really slow for maybe half an hour and then finally took its full speed (I was doing homework and occasionally just looked at it, attempting to stop it).

When I looked at that piece of wood, attempting to admire it in a similar manner to how owltwelve described he does. I started feeling and seeing space bending around it and felt it becoming closer as I focused on it. It felt and looked as if I were making a low-psi-density channel to the object, while rising the psi density of surrounding areas. Part of my consciousness seemed to have been "sucked" through the low-density channel then. The upper half of my body gradually got colder and the lower half getting hotter. I was sweating. Haven't experienced it this strong before.

A new guy joined the forums and posted a link to a cool site: wingmakers.co.nz. Judging by what is written about chakras on the levitation page, it seems like the author knew what he was writing.

Better balanced

Lately I have started to feel the effect of this pranayama exercise that owltwelve had posted on the forums a while ago (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvtx62lUho0). I think I didn't do it right at first - the stomach pumps were too rapid and shallow. When done in the correct way, I started feeling out of breath quickly, my body started sweating and I occasionally took a few breaths without breathing (I felt breath coming back and organs being supplied with oxygen even though I didn't breathe any air).

For almost the whole evening yesterday I practiced my right hemisphere by intending on it becoming as strong as the left one. I also visualized writing, painting and doing all kind of stuff with my left hand as well. While asleep, I continued with it as well as I could.

Today morning I felt weird, but weird in a different way. So far I haven't had any pain strikes or feelings of discomfort and everything feels balanced better. I guess I can focus on the Bindu point without worries again. Uhm, nope, when I focus on the Bindu, I can still feel that my right hemisphere is somewhat behind schedule.

Yesterday I also attempted pk on the temperature sensor again. It only rose by 1 degree, but I noticed something interesting. I could easily feel the sensor hanging in the air and move it around (as it moved around, the wire sometimes slid on the edge of the table). When I attempted to create a hot-spot, I immediately saw transparent slightly white psi moving towards the point and curling around it. There was more psi moving around my hands (a turbulent kind of moving with vortexes and stuff). I hadn't seen it this clearly before.

Getting used to the fluid

Discussed this Bindu fluid experience with my father and he considered everything that feels cold as a bad omen. Though, I think that when body becomes used to it, it should still result in warm feelings.

Meditated on visualizing the fluid becoming warm and golden yesterday. This didn't seem to have much effect. 

Then I opened heart and throat chakras up a bit more and focused a flow of psi on something I thought would be the Lalana chakra. I was a bit surprised that I quickly found what felt like the right spot to direct psi into.

Tried Khechari mudra as well and again, without prior experience, I was surprised at how far my tongue stretched. A moment later, there was a quite intense flow of psi into the Lalana chakra. Felt a lot better after this short meditation - my mind was more silent and there was a feeling of warmth spreading across the spine (instead of the previous feeling of cold spreading). Now I could actually feel a sweet taste in my mouth.

Opened heart and throat chakras a bit more while going to school in the morning. As I opened my throat chakra some more, I felt a familiar rush of cold fluid down the neck again. It seems that when this fluid gets stuck behind a chakra or two, it will cause discomfort and occasional strikes of pain in the regions associated with these chakras.

Meditated and performed khechari mudra some more. I noticed that I can only feel the sensation of that cold fluid flowing in the left half of my body. I think it's related to my right hemisphere being weaker than the left one. I have forgotten to practice pk while focusing on the right hemisphere. I wonder if this means that the right side of my body has already grown used to the fluid while the left side has not? Hm, being both-handed would make things easier, I guess. =D Need to become strong enough to be able to do push-ups on one hand only. Yup, with exercise, the feeling of cold disappears.

OBE step

Watched a few youtube videos this morning and I was a bit surprised at how well I was able to feel the people on some of these videos.

It was snowing outside again, but I thought it would be cool if there were sun shining. Decided to attempt to bring sunshine through the clouds and snowfall while walking to school. Some 10 - 20 minutes after embarking on the journey, I could see shadows on the snow relief. Cracks had formed into the clouds and a little bit of sunlight was shining through.

While walking, I felt like I was pushing myself forward with pk and at the same time somehow lessening the probability of slipping. I felt really light and walking was completely effortless.

Lately, I have always been feeling sort of high or slightly out of body and it occasionally peaks up resulting in what feels like a partial OBE (There were only some bodyparts that I wasn't in or from which awareness had moved out).

However, this time I had an experience that felt like completely stepping out of my body while walking. I remember taking a step and having a full OBE-like feeling at the same time. It was like the feeling of reality collapsed (psi density rose and I felt something like a non-linearity in space and time) and a part of me falling forward while another part stepping forward normally. After this one step, I was back in body again, a bit confused. This feeling of non-linearity in space and time is what I have been calling "feeling high" before - one may feel the same in a deep fever (feels as if space and time were wobbling around them).

When I thought about it, it had also happened before (1 or 2 years ago) when I was walking home from school. Though, back then the experience was not this intense.

I think it was related to the Bindu point, because that's where the OBE-like feeling seemed to have started from.

Took another semi-successful attempt on cracking the clouds at the first lecture.

Have been feeling short pain strikes and feelings of discomfort in random places around the body today. Also, my heart occasionally beats rapidly and pretty strong. Perhaps my body hasn't gotten used to the fluid or something. I don't feel an increase in psi density in channels / chakras, so I guess this hasn't changed much. During the second lecture, a tiny cold ball got formed in my left hand, I dissolved it just in case (seemed to have blocked a channel or something - my left shoulder started twitching when it appeared).

One more thing I have noticed during the past couple of weeks - I'm having difficulties sitting in a bad pose, as I feel disturbed when psi flow and the flow of some fluids is hindered. I start to feel bad (or even slightly sick) when I sit in a bad pose for too long.

Guess I should meditate on a blank mind for a while again.

Pk dream on peanut

Had a cool dream this morning.

There were 2 of us sitting in a lounge. From there, open doorways led to about 3 other rooms. In one of them, a janitor was wiping the floor. It looked all dark, dusty and rather gloomy .. I wanted to cheer the guy sitting next to me.

I noticed that there were a few peanuts in the pile of dust that the janitor had wiped together. Chose one and moved it across the floor up to the other person sitting next to me. Nudged his shoe with it, flew it across the room and had it climb up the wall. I was amazed at how easy it all was in the dream. Managed to entertain him and cheer up a little.

Bindu fluid

Felt too tired for pk practice yesterday evening and went to bed early. I had probably caught some cold with my left ear and hands, so I healed them a little.

While walking to school, I occasionally focused on the Bindu point. For most of the time, my mind was busy with homework.

In the first (and last) lecture today morning, I got a couple of slight pain strikes in the head. Really short pinches that didn't hurt much. A few moments after that, I started feeling a cold liquid flowing down from somewhere around the Bindu point. It flowed down some channel behind the throat (I could swallow and it didn't affect the flow). It reached the chest and got distributed all over the chest area as well as hands. The flow of the liquid stopped at the bottom of my stomach.

I had read somewhere that when it reaches Manipura, it burns up in there. I also remember having read something like when it flows through the throat chakra, it becomes purified and that when non-purified, the liquid is poisonous or something. So, I wanted to direct it back into the head after it had gone through the throat. While visualizing this, it naturally made a knot below the throat.

Although I felt the vapor of this liquid filling my lungs, mouth and nostrils, I couldn't sense any sweet taste (like described in the texts I had read on this subject).

The feeling either weakened or I became more used to it so that I couldn't feel it very well after the lecture. It happened at a slightly uncomfortable time, because we were just doing homework for another subject during the lecture (two things to pay attention at the same time and then a third appeared - this fluid).

The fluid or even its flow is still there - I can feel it when I move or bend myself. 

Temperature fail

Couldn't change the temperature reading much today (less than 2 degrees). There's still something about it that I haven't realized yet. I think I couldn't feel the sensor heating up very well this time.

Tiring myself out at the gym might have affected it. 

I think maybe it would be better to keep doing it when it's already going, no matter how late it is. Perhaps this way I could remember the feeling of it better next day.

Tried it again later and managed to slightly move the sensor around in the air instead of changing temperature. I was having difficulties visualizing the feeling of heat again.

Temperature sensor

I figured that I should use something new or relatively from my room for pk practice. So, I took a multimeter with a temperature sensor. I have attempted pk on it before, but there was no noticeable effect (the effect was less than one digit).

Room temperature was 22 degrees Celsius. At first I tried to make a construct around the sensor tip and then program it to be hot. Not much of an effect. I tried different kind of visualizations for the feeling of hot (bonfire, stove, Sun, a tool that resembles a hairdryer but heats up to several hundred degrees - don't know its name). Not much of an effect.

Then something happened (which happens pretty often, but so far I didn't associate it with pk), my pupils grew narrower and everything got darker. The object now stood out from the background and I could easily see this light transparent haze around it. From the corner of my left eye, I noticed that every time I entered this state, the digits on the display changed - no matter what I visualized, temperature rose quickly.

I got it from 22 to 25 degrees Celsius in maybe 10 minutes, I guess. I think I could've gone further, but it was late already and my eyes started getting tired (of watching Dragon ball the whole day =). Every time I slipped from that pk state, something came to mind or I became excited, the digits immediately started to drop. It was nice, how fast the feedback was.

Before playing with temperature, I tried measuring alternating voltage from the air, but found it disappointing - too much electromagnetic waves flying around. If I even managed to affect it, I would have to do it to a pretty large degree in order to notice anything from the background noise.

Psi pressure vs frequency

Gathered some psi in the morning and meditated after that. It popped into my mind that perhaps control over psi works somewhat similar to how solids work - the more dense the solid, the higher frequencies it takes to make it resonant. For example, it takes a pretty low frequency sound (roughly around 3 kHz) to make a sandstone wobble and it might take roughly around 30 MHz or more to make a diamond wobble in resonance.

Now if one is so full of psi that it would require too high frequencies for them to control it, they are having difficulties with it. I guess that's why I have found it easier to practice pk after a psi "explosion" - when I have blown away excessive psi.

However, when one becomes able to control higher and higher frequencies, they can take bigger amounts of psi pressure and use them. Also, perhaps the higher frequencies are used, the more effectively one is able to perform pk (similarly to radio transmission, there could be a lot of noise at lower frequencies). I'm not sure how it would apply to making big and slow psi waves that could also be needed, but I think that by controlling phase and frequency accurately enough, one should also be able to make low frequency waves out of high frequency.

Though, it could well be that psi doesn't behave like electromagnetic waves and thus has none of these limits. Just an idea that popped into mind while meditating.

Watched Dragon ball episode 148 today and there was something I had never seen in any film nor anime before. After defeating evil Piccolo Daimao, Goku gave him a senzu bean to revive him again. He let Piccolo become even stronger so that he would have to train and get stronger as well. Then, when Kami sama offered Goku his place, Goku ditched it, because it wouldn't be any fun. 

Wow, ain't that a lesson =D .. I couldn't realize that so well before. The closest hint that described this point was simply a Chinese drawing in a book that I had read many years ago. On the illustration, there was a bull and a man sitting under a tree, meditating. Under the drawing, something similar to the following was written: ".. So, he had been trying to tame the bull for weeks without success. One day he realized the meaning of bull, became enlightened and let it loose." After years of thinking about it, I thought I had understood it, but it seems that I hadn't. Well, I still don't think I have understood it completely yet, but thanks to Naruto and Dragon ball, I've become to understand more of this.

Kundalini

While reading owltwelve's post on hi-speed wind in his area yesterday, I noticed that wind was also rising here. Before going to sleep, I just glared outside the balcony and played around with the wind and snowfall.

After that I meditated on my chakras again. The following doesn't coincide with the chakra drawings I have seen so far (which might mean that I'm either a freak =D or I misinterpreted what I saw). 

I found a chakra that I had missed in previous mediation sessions. It was between the throat and heart chakras - its shape seemed to have been something spherical. It could've been actually the throat chakra and perhaps I had simply missed its exact position. Pingala channel hurt and that "new" chakra also hurt. There seemed to be 2 channels that went behind the ears from the throat chakra - these also hurt. From the throat chakra, 2 more channels seemed to be going out - these were okay. Before seeing the branches, I saw the root of that chakra / channel, which looked pretty much like the root of a tree. With all those channels and that root it was sitting on the "new" chakra, the throat chakra reminded me of a tree. I visualized making the "new" chakra and throat chakra wider. Anyway, I was able to open the throat chakra by visualizing it growing wider.

Yesterday I watched the episode of "Dragon Ball", where Goku drank the real super-strength-potion and decided that I would also do one of those Kundalini awakening exercises. When previously I was a bit afraid of the power of Kundalini, then yesterday night I felt confident that at my current energy manipulation skills, I could handle it. So, I did the pranayama exercise again and ended it up with a short Kundalini awakening exercise. Slept incredibly well and felt really good while sleeping.

Today morning I woke up early .. to watch more "Dragon Ball" ( I'm addicted =/ ). After watching a couple of episodes, I felt like stretching a bit. Well, I stretched and stood up and as I did that, I nearly fell over - there was a sudden and really strong rush of energy into the head.

There was so much slush on the streets that I could barely focus on the clouds above. Moreover, there was a fog of moist air below any clouds, which made it difficult to observe any change in the clouds as a result of practice.

At school, it was somewhat difficult to pay attention in the first lecture, because I started to feel bad when I didn't focus on keeping my channels open. Whenever I changed my posture while sitting, I had another energy rush. After the first lecture, I think it became a bit more automatic and I was able to pay attention, but the rushes of heat still made me sweaty. Otherwise it feels like almost constantly being in pk mind-state.

Chakra ambient

Yesterday night, it was incredibly quiet. It was so quiet that while meditating for a few minutes, I could hear my chakras emitting noise (each at different frequencies). I haven't really noticed it before, but this time I could clearly hear it. Lower chakras seemed to have lower frequencies and chakras that located close to each other seemed to have a smaller difference in their frequencies (more difficult to tell them apart by sound).

I wonder what would happen if one compiled an audio file with the frequencies of all chakras and listen to it with their whole body (some big speakers).

I can't swing traffic lights like owltwelve does for everyday practice, because all traffic lights have rigid connections here. So, I have been searching for other ways to practice regularly:

• Every time I open or close a door, I attempt stasis field on it to make its movement smooth and avoid banging.
• When I visit the bathroom, I try to spin the roll of toiletpaper.
• While walking to school or back home, I attempt to make holes in the clouds (when there are any). And when there are no clouds, I figured I should attempt to make some appear.
• If there are fluorescent tubes blinking at school, I try to stop the blinking (by either having them glowing or not glowing constantly).

Actually, there are many more of what came into mind, but at the moment, these are the only ones I have had success with in the last few days.

Max Planck

Owltwelve had set another video as favorite. It was a compilation of well-put sentences from multiple films and videos (some of which I had seen earlier). What caught my attention though, was a quote from Max Planck. I googled up some of his quotes and found this page: http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Max_Planck. A couple of quotes to express my amazement:

As a man who has devoted his whole life to the most clear headed science, to the study of matter, I can tell you as a result of my research about atoms this much: There is no matter as such. All matter originates and exists only by virtue of a force which brings the particle of an atom to vibration and holds this most minute solar system of the atom together. We must assume behind this force the existence of a conscious and intelligent mind. This mind is the matrix of all matter.

I regard consciousness as fundamental. I regard matter as derivative from consciousness. We cannot get behind consciousness. Everything that we talk about, everything that we regard as existing, postulates consciousness. 

Science cannot solve the ultimate mystery of nature. And that is because, in the last analysis, we ourselves are part of nature and therefore part of the mystery that we are trying to solve.

In some of these quotes, I can recognize spontaneous ideas that have popped into my mind at random moments. A lot of them express my perspective on things amazingly well. I'm simply amazed..

Sunset calling

Yesterday night I tried some yoga exercises that either owltwelve had posted in the forums (this one) or I had googled while reading the yoga book that he had posted (this book).

Took yesterdays program and upgraded it a little. I noticed that programming brought me into the pk mind-state - I started to feel the laptop and objects surrounding me. If I could always be in the same state, no matter what I were doing, then that would be fun - it would all be like a big meditation and pk practice.

While reading instructions for an upcoming practical, I visualized the weather outside changing. Visualized a beautiful sunset emerging from an otherwise cloudy sky. I noticed a slight change in the light that was reflected off the wallpaper and walked up to the balcony door to check the weather. A nice sunset had emerged indeed and I realized that I could control the brightness of it to some degree. Anyway, I went back to continue reading and a few seconds later, the sunset got covered in clouds again.

ESP aid

Took a few hours and wrote a simple program for practicing ESP, clairvoyance or remote viewing today. It queries Google Image search for random numbers, takes a random image and downloads it. There are still a few problems though:

• It only downloads small thumbnails of the pictures
• QT doesn't display .gif files and fails with wikipedia .svg.png files as well
• For some unknown reason, most pictures are car pictures =/

So far I haven't had much success with attempts on it though. Practiced some stasis on a large toy windmill and tried again when I felt overwhelmed by that. At first I was like "Nah, wrong again.." but then I changed my attitude so that it would be more fun. When I did, I guessed the texture that was on one picture, color on another and just when I was about to give up for today, I guessed the shape on the third one - the shape was exactly like on the picture. The color of the shape also looked like it had popped into my mind. Cool..

During these attempts, I occasionally saw rooms and places in the darkness of closed eyes. Everything was dark and I could only see some room edges. I could sense the surroundings better by feeling walls, trees or whatever was around me. I felt my presence in these places and I felt the response / echo of the presence from the walls so that I could almost tell how far the walls were about 360 degrees around me. Something similar often happens during meditation or before falling asleep.

Tried to spin one of those big windmill toys with an open balcony door again and was able to twitch it more than yesterday. I once even managed to turn it 360 degrees and when I stroke it with a finger, then I managed to speed it up when it was starting to slow down. Managed to help it make about 3 turns like this. Perhaps wind was also slightly stronger, but it certainly wasn't enough for a full turn - I would've felt that wind. A slight gust of wind did come later when I was about to stop practicing.

Here's how I attempted stasis on the big toy windmill today: 

I set the windmill right in front of the fan so that propeller was exactly behind the windmill. The toy windmill is so large that it blocks almost all the wind coming from the fan. I attempted stasis on the toy windmill, while trying to "transfer" the rotation to the propeller (aka stop the windmill and make the propeller spin). I think it should be an easier way to get all kind of objects spinning, since there's an example of something spinning right next to the object one would want spinning. It was the first time I attempted stasis on such a big toy windmill and almost the first time with moving the propeller without using a fan for it. Although I could visibly slow down the windmill, I only managed to turn the propeller less than 90 degrees once. For most of the time, it just wiggled up and down a little.

Writing scientific articles

The first lecture today morning was on preparing scientific articles (prof. Peeter Saari again - the one, who also gave Quantum Mechanics, Electricity and Magnetism). It addressed most of the problems that I had read about throat chakra blockages yesterday. Most of the lecture goes for pk as well as writing articles.

Some points from the lecture, slightly modified for pk:

Tune in

• Who am I? (psion-wannabe, psion, master, superhero - always position yourself one step higher than who you think you are)
• Why am I doing this? (to figure out how the universe works, for enlightenment, for saving people, for proving skeptics wrong...)
• How can I make myself enjoy the process? (devise fun experiments for pk practice, make up new skills to improve on)

Overcome the potential barrier of hard work and get started

• Start from the best point (practice the most fun skills and take the most fun experiment set up for that)
• Write the introduction last (you don't have to start from the basics and then get to more advanced stuff - you'll get the basics while practicing the more advanced and more fun stuff anyway)
• Don't postpone it - hit the iron while it's still warm (always continue practicing and do at least something even when you don't have the time; tuning in is costly)
• Logics must not limp (when you have decided to go at it with proper belief and without doubt, make sure to keep it like that)

Use the power of technology (pk practice can be made more fun with the help of technology)

Decided to take another recording attempt on the radiometer (this time at slower speed). Well, I hadn't practiced on it for quite a while and couldn't stop it at slower speed. However, practicing pk with a camera rolling is good for overcoming stage fever anyway.

Attempted to spin one of the big toy windmills I bought recently. I think I got it to twitch barely, but nothing remarkable. Opened the balcony door and positioned it in front of the balcony hoping that for enough wind from the outside to make it wiggle or something. Well, it didn't even budge with such a small air draft. Took another attempt on spinning it with pk and it twitched noticeably. I gave it a spin with my finger and attempted to spin it with pk again - it twitched even more. Practiced on it like this until my hands and feet got cold. I got it to twitch by about 1 cm along its outer circle.

Also attempted pk on my room door in a similar way, but didn't see much effect. 

QMech exam

Quantum mechanics exam didn't go too well. Well, I don't have anything to lose if I fail it, nor do I have anything to lose when I pass it. Either way, I have to study it more, because even when I pass, I would have to take an oral exam to rise the grade.

Edit: The total maximum number of points that was awarded on this exam was 68 of 100. I got 51 points (barely passed it). It was funny, how quickly I was able to react - professor had just uploaded the page and hadn't even managed to write an e-mail yet. I just suddenly got the feeling that it's up while studying for spectroscopy.

Anyway, it's finally a free weekend in the span of about 3 weeks and I can practice some pk (and do homework). 

Attempted pk on that wooden stick and my throat started to hurt when I put effort into trying to move it. So, I guess I'm stuck at the throat chakra now and need to solve the problems that block it.

Googled on throat chakra and found other symptoms of a slight blockage there as well. I have occasionally found it difficult to express myself in correct terminology. So far I have also had difficulties leading people - I'm too soft and often unable to motivate them (I'm too used to doing everything myself).

Meditated on the chakra before going to sleep. I started feeling a lot better. 

Dragon Ball

Although quantum mechanics exam is tomorrow, I watched quite a lot of Dragon Ball episodes today. All the episodes I watched today were the most interesting and inspiring episodes of Dragon Ball I have seen so far (50+ something to 61). Interesting pk in the Penguin village (a small kid fixing and building electronics with intent, sensing and analyzing pk around him and downloading new information with his mind). Then a bulletproof Indian and that assassin Tao Pai Pai, who redirected a sniper bullet with his slipper in a very cool way. Also, it was inspiring to see how the cat hermit trains people - that strength potion probably won't do much, but it serves as a great dummy goal to make one strong while they're trying to reach that potion.

Edit: Yup, the potion was tap water =D.

Nothing worth mentioning on pk today though - a rather regular day with only small occasional pk attempts.

QMech hangover

Had a slight headache today, but it seemed like it was a hangover from studying quantum mechanics.

I feel a bit down for not having had the chance to seriously practice pk for about 3 weeks or even more. Reading pk success stories of other guys from the forum make me want to practice it more, but my days are stuffed with homework, preparations for the exam and work for my thesis. Need to meditate and make myself more joyful again.

Anyway, I'm happy that in addition to integrating over wavefunctions in the dreams, I also saw a cool dream. I was helping people with remote viewing. Some guys started chasing me because I was freeing people they had kidnapped. We were hitting fences with a girl I was helping and at some point I realized that gravity was only an illusion and flew to rescue someone. Since I had not watched any "Green Lantern" videos yet, I think it could have been "The men who stare at goats" that I watched Saturday evening after a day of quantum mech.

Yesterday evening, after watching a video on the Bindu point that owltwelve had posted on the forums a while ago, I meditated on moving psi through the point. Found that it was the same point that had occasionally hurt after the grounding exercise I sometimes performed. It was the point, through which the psi flow left the head and turned into a fountain. Perhaps it wasn't the studying that made my head hurt, but the Bindu instead .. don't know.