Time bubble

Shadow

A few days ago I saw a shadow fly across the living room silently, in peripheral vision. "How did the cat get over there already?" Turned my head back and found the cat still laying to my right. There was nobody else home. Had also seen the shadow before, but always thought it was the curtain or the cat playing shadow bunnies or something. The shadow has always stayed outside my door, I think (has peeked over the doorway a few times).

Time bubble

That previous post. Thought of trying the time bubble idea before falling asleep. Realized that it wasn't exactly a brilliant idea, for the following reasons:

1. The bubble would isolate my room from its surroundings.
2. My room is like Swiss Cheese, full of portals to various worlds. The bubble would eventually break all the portals.
3. The best time for building the bubble is from deep sleep. Deep sleep is when I need the room to be as connected to the surroundings as possible. This provides the freedom to relax and become refreshed.
4. Gradually it would deprive the room of fresh energy and it would be increasingly difficult to refresh it.
5. The surface of the bubble could turn out pretty dangerous (high gradient in time).

Decided to integrate a flip-switch. Left it "on" for the night, to improve the skills and to see if there are any advantages. Switched it "off" in the morning. Woke exhausted. So - no, not a viable way of increasing productivity.

Back to square one, I guess:

1. Accept productivity the way it is.
   No point in pushing it. People don't understand it anyway. They would just increase the workload when they saw an increase in your productivity. They would keep increasing the load until something cracks, then figure out how to cover it up and keep going.
2. Deadlines don't mean anything.
   Based on experience they keep shifting beyond rational explanations. Thus, they cannot be taken seriously.
3. Do things the way you enjoy doing them.That's the way to maintain enthusiasm. That's the way to stay alive. Seek for challenges. Make tasks fun.
4. Don't care what others say.
   They may say it's the most important thing in the world, just before they leave you working on it and go on their long awaited vacation. People don't mean what they say so it's meaningless anyway.
5. Keep politics and work apart.
   It is not worth doing anything for the reason that it would ensure good relationship with corporation X or countries Ys.

This even propagates back to the realization that "I'm alone in this universe. It's just me and my attitude towards the universe." I have to care about myself because there is nobody else to do so. It might make sense to picture it like this: there are entities out there, trying to crush you and take your energy. It's your job to develop to such a degree that they no longer can.

Mining establishment

Today morning I caught myself asleep, observing an odd scene. Violet sunset (or starset, whatever) on a pretty landscape. There was a large craft hovering above the landscape in the distance. The large craft had just a single dot of light on it, somewhere in the middle, towards the right (or maybe an AOL). There was a small craft periodically flying between the large craft and the ground. I assumed it was transporting material to the large craft that then refined it. With the sun setting, it gradually became darker, making it more difficult to tell the outlines but easier to see the single dot of light on the larger craft.

When I realized I was asleep, I had been mindlessly observing the scene for a long time already (it was meditative). After that realization it seemed as if I was observing it from a small shadowless white room with a large window in front of the white bed. Sunset was from the right, and I guess there was a window there as well. Or perhaps even the whole wall was transparent. Not sure, didn't turn my head .. always just a blank stare forward. I did sense, however, that in addition to the perfectly lit room there was light from the right as well.

While at first I had thought of taking the camera for a photo of this mining establishment. Then I realized that I could record it as well. With the analytical mind booting up, the window turned into a computer screen. Realized that I could just as well enable screen capture. So, did that. However, by then I had reduced first-hand experience to a mere 480p video stream on a computer (c'mon why no HD?).

Man I should find the time to improve my digital painting skills. Would want to bring my subpar splatting & scribbling to near photorealistic levels (anime level would already be neat as well, though). This would allow me to convey the mind-imagery visually.

In-body stasis and overclocking

While relaxing the body before sleep last night, I thought about what causes the issues. Some years ago when I used to regularly practise stasis field on the Crookes Radiometer, I feared I might semi-accidentally produce stasis within the body. One reason for the fear was that back then I realized I couldn't dispel the stasis field well enough (the radiometer still hasn't recovered). I'm pretty sure the fear has materialized over the years during which I haven't enjoyed regular pk practice. Although it has both pros as well as cons, I discourage applying stasis field on the body. Probably would have less cons without work stress.

Short-term effects (a few hours):

• Decoupling of bodily needs from work with the mind.
• Reduced food consumption.
• Reduced need for doing sports.
• Reduced oxygen consumption.
•  Control over performance.
• By applying stasis on everything down from the navel and overclocking the heart and everything above it, it is possible to temporarily boost performance several fold.

Mid-term effects (a few days):

• Maldigestion.
• Food in the body exceeds its expiry date before the body is able to fully process it.
• Increased food consumption, the body tries to get rid of the toxic leftovers from the previous cycle. 
• Malnutrition.
• Exhaustion.
• Body can't sleep properly due to maldigestion issues. 
• Loss of enthusiasm (anger and willpower converted into enthusiasm is still a way to boost it).
• Decoupling from empathy.

Long-term effects (a few weeks):

• Loss of performance.
• Exhaustion with sleep deprivation.
• Depression.
• Tension or pain at the heart chakra.
• Tension or pain at navel. 
• Lack of body heat.

Even longer term effects (a few years):

• Cutting pain at the heart chakra.
• As if there were an ice crystal cutting the body from the inside.
• Taste of blood.
• Panic attacks.
• Occurring randomly.
• Occurring while talking to other people.
• Very difficult to calm the body.

Since the beginning of 2017, I'm back between the mid-term and short-term effects.

Not a very good way of boosting performance, as it has adverse side-effects. Perhaps a space-time bubble would be a better candidate?

Expressed with ignorance, satire, disappointment, anger and willpower:
"Work must be done. There must be a way."

No, seriously, there should be a way to improve performance so that time and manpower would no longer be an issue. There must be a way to become so good at everything that everything gets done fast (10 year work of 5 people, by a single person in 2 years with enough time for hobbies). I know that since work is infinite, this means endless improvement. This is precisely why there must be no side-effects.

I think that so far the following preconceptions have been keeping me back:

• This is not normal, I have to teach people that this is not the way to go (being an example).
• There is a saying "One can dump an infinite amount of work on a man. Work cannot kill a man." <- I have to prove it wrong.
• But I want to do other things as well, not just work all the time (disappointment).
• There is a lot of work that needs to be done (semi-subconsciously causing more work).
• There is not enough time to do things well (which most often ends up in lost efficiency due to re-doing things so that they would be well).
• Edit: And seeing everyone else have the luxury of free time, vacations or holidays makes me jealous.

BS. I wonder where I even got those ideas.

When done correctly, work is a concentration practice and there is a careful balance between work and rest. With a correct attitude, life is meditation.

Revised preconceptions that I use to push myself forward:

• Things are the way they are, I'm simply offered ways to improve them.
• Every problem has a solution.
• No matter what the problem, the solution will be revealed once I'm ready to comprehend it.
• Do or do not, there is no try.
• Superhuman or not, just clear the mind and do it.

Overkill

Forgot to relax properly before bed. Didn't sleep too well (or just woke tired).

A few hours later I semi-accidentally recalled one of the dreams:
There's a lot of us (colleagues, students, friends) around a playfield. The playfield is simple - rectangular floor with a smooth surface. Not sure what the game was about but at some point I was invited to try it. Had to throw a small ball into a tube. Did that, I think. I then decided to play something similar to billiard on the floor, I guess. Threw the "cue ball" against the wall so that it bounced off and hit the tube (or go into the tube, not sure). After trying it for a couple of hours without much success, somebody woke and commented on it: "You throw it too hard, it's like 200 km/h when it reaches the tube". Well that explained why the tube shattered on each attempt. Though, I did not put much effort into throwing, so it would've been pretty difficult to aim for lower velocities.

Did not make much sense.

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Anyway, an evening with sauna. I love the team, especially those random discussions on quantum mechanics, the structure of the universe, or other physicsy or mathsy subjects. Occasionally one of us has a moment of ingenuity and tries to prove their theory. A lot of fun with quality discussions spiced with quality humour. Students and trainees are a lot more open-minded than any of the old colleagues.

Plane?

Saw a shiny object move across the sky while on my way back home. It moved from right to left, and then faded within a second or two. It looked oval-shaped, moved quite fast (assuming it was quite far) and there was no sound. It flew along the abandoned air base. Regardless, I was pretty sure it was a plane .. until it faded. Might've still been a plane, making a sudden turn towards the abandoned base (away from me). There are aviation school students flying around at times.

Petrification

Happened to read about the Sansevero Chapel. Plenty of occult symbolism, statues that are impossible to sculpt and other bizarre stuff.

Started to wonder about the statues. Thanks to synchronicity, found a site (Google Translate from Russian) describing different methods of petrification (converting things into stone). Original link for native Russian readers. This also clears up a lot of confusion that I had regarding some granite megaliths in America with handprints in them.

Logical but just didn't occur to me in this context before. It's possible for one element to carry the essence of another and re-manifest it.

Today I realized that I've been using time to separate and categorize my experiences. Shouldn't do that. Shouldn't tie them to time.

Dreams

One of them: walked outside, through the apartment wall. It's snowing. "What the, snowing in late July? Pff .. Estonian Summer (TM)"

Another: woke up somewhere else. Knew I was somewhere else before opening the eyes. Couldn't remember where, though. Red rubber flooring, cheap bed, barely any furniture. Moved the blanket aside, stood up and went looking for the bathroom. Had travelled a lot with Mom and arrived late last night. An acquaintance of an acquaintance offered a place to stay for the night. The host came and greeted me. An indie .. they're very rare around here. Felt a bit embarrassed at first, as I didn't have any daily clothes on. He didn't even pay attention to such a minor detail. Anyway, some time later Mom also woke up and we left. Astral - no hassle with any doors, as all of them are open or there are no doors. Also, the sunlight and the buildings - everything was far brighter and more vibrant than in this realm. Yup, definitely astral. We were going downhill. ..::WeEEeeE::.. Hopped to the ground, tummy first, to bounce into the air and fly around. Note that I don't have a beer belly, but still .. seemed like a fun thing to do. Mom was a bit more grumpy.

Stable portals

Mayhaps not as exciting a summary as the previous one, but it's a post.

Somewhat exhausted from the week of heavy focus on work. A lot of sleep and daily naps. Sleep cycle is pretty messed up. Enjoyed a long chat with Mom about previous lives, space-time and collective dreams.

Oh, but regardless of feeling exhausted, it seems that productivity has not dropped. Or at least, not much. Patched some pretty serious bugs today.

Cat return

Cat was found a couple of days later, the next morning after Mom asked the cat to return in her mind. Climbed the tree and took the cat down. Cat was very humble, so perhaps I was wrong about thinking that the cat had fled for a feline nightclub or something. Perhaps he just fell down from the balcony, after all.

Space-time

Apparently my suspicions were right - her real issue was not physics and math, it was spiritual.

Regardless, stumbled on this:
https://www.reddit.com/r/conspiracy/comments/6o8bue/the_amount_of_quantum_vacuum_fluctuations_that/

This goes amazingly well with personal experience as well as with what I read from Steve Richards' "Invisibility". Though, it shows that my ponderings about finite vs. infinite universe were pretty far off.

Dreams

Took a group of random people (colleagues, friends) and explained what I had found out about portals. Organized an excursion through a few places. This time the portals were stable enough to let a whole group of people through. Showed them a place after a place, while discussing stuff with some of them who displayed deeper interest in these things. However, at some moment I realized that I had led them into a wild area. Had to fend off entities. Alarm rang or something. Anyway, woke up.

Someone else organized an excursion through a heavily guarded area for me. Claimed it was safe because almost everyone was on vacation. "If something were to happen, you could climb down this vent here." I tried the vent and fell .. into the exact same room. Sensed somebody coming. Casually sat down behind a chair, trying to think myself invisible / unnoticeable. A dude entered the room and seemed to have been oblivious of me being there. Woke up.

Will do this

Although there is no time, I feel like posting at least a summary of events.
I'm more-or-less left alone on the project, so need to do the full-time job of at least 3 people. Regardless of the fact that the crunchtime marathon has gone on for months already.

The way to cope with this is: f*cuk it, I will do this. As deep absorptive focus as possible, on the task at hand. Then at night or during breaks, relax the mind and every muscle of the body. It's also important to have the state of mind that "This is the current status of things. I have the chance to make things even better." In other words, there are no bad situations, there are only situations that can be improved.

For one, this has gotten OBEs and lucid dreams going. Also, it has become easier to maintain celibacy.

Learning the elements

One night I decided that I would fly about till the morning, so perhaps some of it would stick when I woke up. Flew a lot, but a moment later I was interrupted. I was shown to some exercise grounds. I understood that in addition to just flying around, I would need to learn different elements. The environment was unearthly - unrecognizable flowers, unrecognizable animals. There were some kind of circular plates in the ground, each with a picture on it. I guess I passed the first one (or first two) so quickly I didn't even notice what they were. There I was, with the symbol of the previous plate in my right hand, standing in front of another plate. The plate had the shape of a mountain and some arcs symbolizing water. I put the symbol from my right hand on top, and started finger-painting it out so that the original image would be restored. It was like finger-painting in mud with different colours. Finished, I walked past a puddle, went uphill and noticed a more reddish zone to my right. In these exercise grounds, one could not just move from one zone to another. One had to enter through a chain of portals that might lead to the next zone if allowed to. While walking along the fence of the zone to my right, I heard something walking behind me. Turned around and saw two animals that looked somewhat similar to ostriches. Grabbed a camera and took a photo. The animals perceived this as a sign of danger, but oddly enough started running towards me (with anger) not away from me. I put the camera away and they stopped immediately. They realized that I was not a threat. Enjoyed the glimpse of a pretty sunset for a moment, and left for the portal that might take me to the next zone. It did not. The dream became incoherent.

Has anyone here played From Dust? It's an awesome game that probably influenced my dream.

Skewed portals

Mom visited us (all the way from Spain, yay). Spent a night trying to explain portal dynamics to mom and sister. While I had managed to use the same portals to go to the same place several times over, none of it worked right when I got others into the dream. The portals became very unstable and started pointing to other places.

Levitation with gravity assist

Many more flying dreams. Though, one of them stood out. Me and an ex-friend walking the corridors of a large building of some kind. I tried using walls and corners for gravity assist. Ended up going faster and faster, afraid of splashing against the next wall. Pretty fun, though the speed got a bit frightening in the end. He was not that amused about it.

Space-time

Another night that I intended to redirect my nervousness, worries and anger into learning something new .. wanted to figure out how space-time works so that I could work more efficiently. Perhaps a time-warp bubble around me, so that I could stretch the working hours from 13 hours to several days.

Nothing happened.

Yesterday an old acquaintance suddenly messaged me with a physics / math problem about maintaining stable wormholes. This, in addition to her personal realizations about the fabric of space-time, similar symbolism from old texts and a lot of other stuff.
~"Nah I don't have the time for this."
~"Shut up and absorb the info."
Well, alright.

Catscape

On Sunday evening, the cat encountered another cat and went nuts. "Dragged" the cat home. Next evening I found my soldering station cable chewed broken. Locked the cat out of my room. Cat escaped through the balcony (a refreshing fall of 3 storeys). Welp, cat's own choice. Choices have consequences. Thunder and heavy rain for a great many hours.