Recently I've been rather tired due to the accumulated unsleep and a bit of internal distress. The distress had appeared with vibrations in the lower chakras and a bit of anxiety. After a bit of venting, the distress faded, the vibrations ascended upward and some heat was released.
Hmm .. apparently I never posted about it, but it was maybe a couple of months ago that I skipped yoga because of panic attacks three days in a row. Experienced sharp pains in different parts of the body, together with an intense upward flow of energy, waves of heat and buzzing. As usual at times like these, I kept seeing golden concentric rings shrinking in front of my eyes. It was difficult to think straight and I couldn't sleep due to the intensity. The dizziness and sudden feelings of nausea and being disoriented stayed until recently. Sometimes it still occurs when I get more tired, but I haven't really felt like falling over anymore. I used to think that Kundalini stuff was more of a male thing, but apparently it also occurs to women. A friend also had a similar experience a couple of weeks ago.
Took a nap yesterday but kept myself afloat between the waters of consciousness and unconsciousness. Ate and slept after the cat woke me. Decided to go to the office today, despite the fact that I had marked the day as remote work. Felt like watering the plants at the garden after work.
By the end of the workday, aunt-in-law had messaged that someone was selling sprouts at the parking lot next to the garden. Good opportunity, for mom had wanted cucumbers and tomatoes. There were no cucumbers but bought some tomatoes and ... strawberries caught my attention. There weren't many of them left but none had been planned on mom's map of the garden. I decided that it was extra effort and I already had an infinite amount of extra work for each day anyway.
Just after I had put aside my tomatoes, aunt-in-law called, "I'm feeling too tired to come today, hopefully they still have some tomatoes left tomorrow. Oh, do they have strawberries?" So, still bought strawberries, too, after all.
Found a Deilephila elpenor on the field .. and a lot of mosquitoes, obviously.
