Yup ::..tired..:: crawls to bed.
A fellow team member called me from a state of deep sleep. Was too confused at first, didn't quite remember how to use a phone, didn't remember the guy who was calling. Didn't know where I was.
However, I was well aware of the problem he was about to describe. Had seen it some time ago and knew every word he was going to say next, even though the words and sentences directly didn't seem to make sense. The brain was still booting up and mind hadn't woken yet.
Earlier in that deep powerdown state, I remember looking at the central channel. There was a stream from bottom up, which broke into pieces on the way up. Felt and heard the pieces moving up the channel.
Inspired by last night's discussions with Mom, I guess I sought for a master in the depths of the mind. Today's walks have been filled with questions to the master and answers from him. Mom plans on going to India to study healing. I had been planning on going there some day as well, though, then I would be away for years. Maybe some years later.
Something that I wanted to blog as well:
A couple of days ago it happened that after waking up, I felt like holding the breath for some time. That was so far the longest breath cessation experience. Breathing through the central channel somehow. I guess it lasted for about a couple of minutes.
Friday, December 28, 2012
Thursday, December 27, 2012
U sure u not sleepy?
It's been rather warm .. and slippery recently. Tried the good old spiky construct for making boots anti-slip. If it worked, it wasn't too effective.
Subconscious came up with something pretty efficient. The feeling of having a good grip, perhaps with a slight feeling of pull towards the ice surface. Also, the posture was pushed upright and more perpendicular to the ground. Pretty cool how well this seemed to have worked. Though, still stepped cautiously, just in case.
Recently, I've been seeing the light again, while walking to work in the morning. Sometimes the weather is cloudy and dull, sometimes there's a hint of a sunrise somewhere through the cloudcover. Still, within a radius from the body, the snow seemed to be reflecting light as if there was sun shining from behind me. A faint shadowless light, white with a slight yellow tint to it.
Yesterday or two days ago (lost track of time due to a 20+ hour worknight), there was a strong feeling from the town and townspeople. This feeling was familiar from the last cycle (few years of spirital circle / spiral) and yet it didn't seem to have sourced from my mind. Became a bit entrained to this feeling, altered it slightly and weather changed. Sky gradually became more clear and weather warmed up a bit.
Some evening I noticed that focus had drifted to the centre of the brain, causing the area to feel dense, floaty and quite warm.
Strange, usually I've had a lot of trouble staying awake late. Though, last night 2 yawns was enough to keep up till morning. Somehow, there was plenty of energy to keep me going .. noticed a slight decrease in the reaction speed and accuracy of this body and that's all.
At home, felt like going straight to bed. Some random shallow sleep for less than 2 hours and couldn't sleep for longer. Welcomed Mom, who's back from Spain, ate and meditated (didn't feel like sleeping) some.
Noticed a specific buzz of discomfort in the body. This might be the source for feeling clumsy or less accurate. In addition to this buzz, there was a feeling of a lot of energy flowing about.
The moment of weighing the satellite was pretty fun. "What the? Oh, you've got to be kidding me." As it turned out, it was exactly 1.000 kg. The chances of getting this number that precisely didn't seem too great.
Took a day off for change. Joined the rest of the family on Hobbit at the cinema. At some moment, I got the feeling of some trouble, in relation to the satellite. The attitude towards the satellite dropped remarkably. Called one of the guys later for status update and it turned out that a couple of things did break during the vibration and / or shock tests.
Subconscious came up with something pretty efficient. The feeling of having a good grip, perhaps with a slight feeling of pull towards the ice surface. Also, the posture was pushed upright and more perpendicular to the ground. Pretty cool how well this seemed to have worked. Though, still stepped cautiously, just in case.
Recently, I've been seeing the light again, while walking to work in the morning. Sometimes the weather is cloudy and dull, sometimes there's a hint of a sunrise somewhere through the cloudcover. Still, within a radius from the body, the snow seemed to be reflecting light as if there was sun shining from behind me. A faint shadowless light, white with a slight yellow tint to it.
Yesterday or two days ago (lost track of time due to a 20+ hour worknight), there was a strong feeling from the town and townspeople. This feeling was familiar from the last cycle (few years of spirital circle / spiral) and yet it didn't seem to have sourced from my mind. Became a bit entrained to this feeling, altered it slightly and weather changed. Sky gradually became more clear and weather warmed up a bit.
Some evening I noticed that focus had drifted to the centre of the brain, causing the area to feel dense, floaty and quite warm.
Strange, usually I've had a lot of trouble staying awake late. Though, last night 2 yawns was enough to keep up till morning. Somehow, there was plenty of energy to keep me going .. noticed a slight decrease in the reaction speed and accuracy of this body and that's all.
At home, felt like going straight to bed. Some random shallow sleep for less than 2 hours and couldn't sleep for longer. Welcomed Mom, who's back from Spain, ate and meditated (didn't feel like sleeping) some.
Noticed a specific buzz of discomfort in the body. This might be the source for feeling clumsy or less accurate. In addition to this buzz, there was a feeling of a lot of energy flowing about.
The moment of weighing the satellite was pretty fun. "What the? Oh, you've got to be kidding me." As it turned out, it was exactly 1.000 kg. The chances of getting this number that precisely didn't seem too great.
Took a day off for change. Joined the rest of the family on Hobbit at the cinema. At some moment, I got the feeling of some trouble, in relation to the satellite. The attitude towards the satellite dropped remarkably. Called one of the guys later for status update and it turned out that a couple of things did break during the vibration and / or shock tests.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Dense blobs
Recently, there has been this sensation of pain (and cracking) on top of the skull. The feeling of the top of the head opening up again.. Released shards of the natural shields to let the psi run more freely.
At the centre of the brain, there's a dense blob of psi. When I focus on it, it feels as if everything around me were morphing or wobbling in space-time.
Yesterday, I had a nice chance to meditate and practice pranayama before bed (usually I get home late and due to being hungry, eat late, which makes it pretty uncomfortable to practice pranayama). Recently, there has been a dense blob of psi at the navel. Sometimes I've had to move some away from there, to cope with it a bit better. Moved psi from the navel through the head, which was already at high psi pressure. Occasionally experienced mild headaches.
At the centre of the brain, there's a dense blob of psi. When I focus on it, it feels as if everything around me were morphing or wobbling in space-time.
Yesterday, I had a nice chance to meditate and practice pranayama before bed (usually I get home late and due to being hungry, eat late, which makes it pretty uncomfortable to practice pranayama). Recently, there has been a dense blob of psi at the navel. Sometimes I've had to move some away from there, to cope with it a bit better. Moved psi from the navel through the head, which was already at high psi pressure. Occasionally experienced mild headaches.
Sunday, December 23, 2012
An empty post
A lot of rather peaceful visions lately.
Felt really tired yesterday. Managed to break a lot of code at work.
Slept an hour extra today, felt some cold in the body. Let it up and out. Then something happened, a piece of something cold went into the head and stayed there. Have been feeling more aware, floaty and more awake since that happened.
Felt really tired yesterday. Managed to break a lot of code at work.
Slept an hour extra today, felt some cold in the body. Let it up and out. Then something happened, a piece of something cold went into the head and stayed there. Have been feeling more aware, floaty and more awake since that happened.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
:)
Tried once more to change the attitude to being gentle outside of the body and leaving it unchanged inside. Became quite energized with a lot of psi buzzing around, causing it to feel powerful from the inside. For about 4 times, I almost lost the energy.
A couple of days ago, I had been feeling a bit floaty while discussing something with a team member. Right when I looked at him, he said: "Whoa, suddenly felt real dizzy for a moment."
After a somewhat stressful meeting today morning, I had to leave 'work'. Due to stress, the psi channels had shrunk and I was feeling cold from the inside. A thought was born: "I wonder how I can get warm again.." Just around the corner, there was a cute girl, who offered a free cup of glöggi to warm up. Alcohol free, of course. It was next to a church, where they were having a winter fair, as it turned out. That cheered me up a lot.
Happy New World to everyone! ;-)
A couple of days ago, I had been feeling a bit floaty while discussing something with a team member. Right when I looked at him, he said: "Whoa, suddenly felt real dizzy for a moment."
After a somewhat stressful meeting today morning, I had to leave 'work'. Due to stress, the psi channels had shrunk and I was feeling cold from the inside. A thought was born: "I wonder how I can get warm again.." Just around the corner, there was a cute girl, who offered a free cup of glöggi to warm up. Alcohol free, of course. It was next to a church, where they were having a winter fair, as it turned out. That cheered me up a lot.
Happy New World to everyone! ;-)
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
700 A beautiful mix
Thanks to all of you, you helped me realize something important.. =)
Ate some carrots with dip sauce yesterday evening. Somehow, raw vegetables seem to ease the flow of psi. Less blockages and trapped psi. On the other hand, it doesn't fill the stomach.
Watched Dragon Ball Z and went to bed, energized and full of excitement.
Before bed, performed some physical movements by moving psi along. Then meditated for a few minutes.
Occasionally I felt or saw something interesting inside. Sometimes, for less than a split-second, there would be a field with a color, smell, taste and feeling of my favorite. Wanted to grab it, to focus the mind on it, but it disappeared too quickly.
Laid down in the bed, trying to keep the attitude of being gentle towards the bed and everything around me. This time I did not attempt to push away any violent or arrogant thoughts or feelings in relation to power. I let them be there, just trying to be gentle at the same time.
Before, I had had the habit to feel these two being mutually exclusive. Had considered it difficult to maintain the gentleness and caring attitude while feeling powerful enough to accidentally destroy it. So far I had almost always suppressed one of these, then a while later I've suppressed the other one and so on.. always feeling there's something missing.
Yesterday it happened that the two ingredients got mixed evenly, making a light-blue liquid that felt like just the thing I've been longing for since birth. This mix had the true feeling of the 'I' for me. This is what I've wanted to be, what I've wanted to feel like. Suddenly, a lot of stuff clicked together from experiences, habits, favorite properties on stuff, astrology, zodiacs.
This liquid had the Kundalini flow into the rest of the body. A high pressure on all the channels, but it still stayed within the physical limits.
Experienced multiple moments, when it became uncomfortable to breathe. Felt what would happen if I stopped breathing .. an explosion. At first I tried to keep it down. At some moment, I grabbed the feeling of this balanced mix, kept the breath and took the ride, trying to maintain the balance for as long as I could.
After just a few seconds of holding the breath, the light blue mix reached a critical mass of sorts, causing a white explosion of inner light. A great state of bliss appeared everywhere. This immense feeling of pleasure caused a waking OBE. This lasted for about 10 seconds or something. From there I also felt a way to leave for the spiritual world. Decided not to go there yet.
Realized that the chain of chakras that's all over the web nowadays .. it's probably just half of it, much like what Nassim Haramein found out on the geometry of the universe. I guess each chakra should have its counterpart on the other side of the body. This would seem to fit together with the principles of Yin and Yang, or a male and female union.
Ate some carrots with dip sauce yesterday evening. Somehow, raw vegetables seem to ease the flow of psi. Less blockages and trapped psi. On the other hand, it doesn't fill the stomach.
Watched Dragon Ball Z and went to bed, energized and full of excitement.
Before bed, performed some physical movements by moving psi along. Then meditated for a few minutes.
Occasionally I felt or saw something interesting inside. Sometimes, for less than a split-second, there would be a field with a color, smell, taste and feeling of my favorite. Wanted to grab it, to focus the mind on it, but it disappeared too quickly.
Laid down in the bed, trying to keep the attitude of being gentle towards the bed and everything around me. This time I did not attempt to push away any violent or arrogant thoughts or feelings in relation to power. I let them be there, just trying to be gentle at the same time.
Before, I had had the habit to feel these two being mutually exclusive. Had considered it difficult to maintain the gentleness and caring attitude while feeling powerful enough to accidentally destroy it. So far I had almost always suppressed one of these, then a while later I've suppressed the other one and so on.. always feeling there's something missing.
Yesterday it happened that the two ingredients got mixed evenly, making a light-blue liquid that felt like just the thing I've been longing for since birth. This mix had the true feeling of the 'I' for me. This is what I've wanted to be, what I've wanted to feel like. Suddenly, a lot of stuff clicked together from experiences, habits, favorite properties on stuff, astrology, zodiacs.
This liquid had the Kundalini flow into the rest of the body. A high pressure on all the channels, but it still stayed within the physical limits.
Experienced multiple moments, when it became uncomfortable to breathe. Felt what would happen if I stopped breathing .. an explosion. At first I tried to keep it down. At some moment, I grabbed the feeling of this balanced mix, kept the breath and took the ride, trying to maintain the balance for as long as I could.
After just a few seconds of holding the breath, the light blue mix reached a critical mass of sorts, causing a white explosion of inner light. A great state of bliss appeared everywhere. This immense feeling of pleasure caused a waking OBE. This lasted for about 10 seconds or something. From there I also felt a way to leave for the spiritual world. Decided not to go there yet.
Realized that the chain of chakras that's all over the web nowadays .. it's probably just half of it, much like what Nassim Haramein found out on the geometry of the universe. I guess each chakra should have its counterpart on the other side of the body. This would seem to fit together with the principles of Yin and Yang, or a male and female union.
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Eating and flying
In the following dreams, chilled around with sister and Mom. They showed me great places to eat. Ate a lot.
Bored in one of the dreams, decided to fly over the town. What an awesome feeling, especially when flying up over the edge of a building. Again, both the scenery and time of the year changed while flying around.
A few neat pages on Dharma and the Yugas:
http://www.krishna.es/complexdharma.html
http://www.thewakeup.co.uk/2010/08/21/history-and-the-yugas/
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/esp_precession.htm
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/esp_precession_a.htm
Bored in one of the dreams, decided to fly over the town. What an awesome feeling, especially when flying up over the edge of a building. Again, both the scenery and time of the year changed while flying around.
A few neat pages on Dharma and the Yugas:
http://www.krishna.es/complexdharma.html
http://www.thewakeup.co.uk/2010/08/21/history-and-the-yugas/
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/esp_precession.htm
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/esp_precession_a.htm
Question with a cryptic answer
It's pretty late, but wanted to wake up and write this down.
Worked up the intent to venture a bit further.
Closed the room door.
Meditated first, letting the mind play with the fluid nature of psi in front of the body. Saw all sorts of shapes and figures appearing. A colorful dot (bluish white) appeared at a wall, stayed there for maybe 30 seconds, then disappeared. There was another colorful dot, a weaker one that appeared in a vortex, swirling around on the edges. In the background of all this, there was focus on the sound / feeling of the 'flame' inside the body.
Laid down and noticed dark spots in the aura, somewhere at the chest area. Got the image of a wrecked battleground, when I looked into these.
Visualized the body without internals, just filled with light. Had that going on in the background and then add some more light and warmth to specific locations of focus.
About 30 minutes later, there was one spot remaining .. the one that I had already spent the most time on. The actual problem looked pretty small, but the effects were great - most likely the rest of the spots had spread out from it. Narrowed down the spot, tried to melt it to no avail.
Wondered what the problem was. Visualized the light and heat inside the body increase 2-fold. Heard, felt and saw it becoming brighter as well as warmer in the mind's eye. Heard the stormy wind outside increase, snapping sounds of objects around me also increased. Focused on that tiny bug once more, trying to heal it. Nothing, it's still there, giving off the feeling that unless I fix it, it's gonna be vital sometime soon.
Tried to focus in and ask it what the problem was. Let the mind free, observed it for any clues. A lot of spam, but no answer.
Fell asleep, or into a half-dream state of sorts. Heard father wake up and go to the computer in the other room. The door was open. Now that I think about it, the balcony window seemed larger also. Anyway, as I was laying there, I noticed something weird.
On the window, some sort of a pattern appeared. It looked pretty foreign, or even alienish to me and couldn't decipher it. It was displayed like a bluish white projection on the glass, on the background of what I usually see when I look out of the window. The first page was displayed for a longer period of time, then it smoothly scrolled down until the end of the text. Then it jumped back at the beginning and restarted. This first message was shown 3x. Then there was another message, which was displayed just once.
Told Dad through the open doorway: "There's an alien message on the window.."
Tried to imply telepathically that it's too cryptic for me to understand at the moment. A visitor appeared (a middle-aged man in black with a hat). OBE'd out into the room to discuss this with him. Wanted to tell father about this also, but couldn't speak in that state. So I just closed the door.
We sat down in the middle of my room. He didn't say anything, he just was. At some moment I started to doubt my ability to keep focus in there for longer. That man disappeared also. Wanted to experience another OBE, thinking perhaps he was still there.
Woke up into the body. Woke up with the body, checked the clock, looked around, thought about it. Went back to sleep (which, I think, happened in the dream).
Tried to wake up once more, but found it difficult - took effort this time. Still, got up.
Tried to wake up once more, this time I couldn't do it, sleep paralysis was too strong.
Woke up spontaneously. Found the room in a disarray. Mattress was missing, pillow was off the bed, I was sleeping on the blanket rolled up in a corner of the bed. Thought: "Wow, what a dream to have caused me to do this."
Started to clean that up. Woke up once more, in sweat (probably due to the heat practice). Dad had gone to sleep.
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As a sidenote, before these dreams, I read some texts about Dharma, Yugas and started to wonder about these.
Before managing to open this blog, a page of "Darvill's Rare Prints. Fine antique prints and maps since 1918." popped up. Had expected the browser to shortcut to DaWeird, which it didn't.
From the analytical point of view (of the dream mind), the message might've been a warning with something extra.
Worked up the intent to venture a bit further.
Closed the room door.
Meditated first, letting the mind play with the fluid nature of psi in front of the body. Saw all sorts of shapes and figures appearing. A colorful dot (bluish white) appeared at a wall, stayed there for maybe 30 seconds, then disappeared. There was another colorful dot, a weaker one that appeared in a vortex, swirling around on the edges. In the background of all this, there was focus on the sound / feeling of the 'flame' inside the body.
Laid down and noticed dark spots in the aura, somewhere at the chest area. Got the image of a wrecked battleground, when I looked into these.
Visualized the body without internals, just filled with light. Had that going on in the background and then add some more light and warmth to specific locations of focus.
About 30 minutes later, there was one spot remaining .. the one that I had already spent the most time on. The actual problem looked pretty small, but the effects were great - most likely the rest of the spots had spread out from it. Narrowed down the spot, tried to melt it to no avail.
Wondered what the problem was. Visualized the light and heat inside the body increase 2-fold. Heard, felt and saw it becoming brighter as well as warmer in the mind's eye. Heard the stormy wind outside increase, snapping sounds of objects around me also increased. Focused on that tiny bug once more, trying to heal it. Nothing, it's still there, giving off the feeling that unless I fix it, it's gonna be vital sometime soon.
Tried to focus in and ask it what the problem was. Let the mind free, observed it for any clues. A lot of spam, but no answer.
Fell asleep, or into a half-dream state of sorts. Heard father wake up and go to the computer in the other room. The door was open. Now that I think about it, the balcony window seemed larger also. Anyway, as I was laying there, I noticed something weird.
On the window, some sort of a pattern appeared. It looked pretty foreign, or even alienish to me and couldn't decipher it. It was displayed like a bluish white projection on the glass, on the background of what I usually see when I look out of the window. The first page was displayed for a longer period of time, then it smoothly scrolled down until the end of the text. Then it jumped back at the beginning and restarted. This first message was shown 3x. Then there was another message, which was displayed just once.
Told Dad through the open doorway: "There's an alien message on the window.."
Tried to imply telepathically that it's too cryptic for me to understand at the moment. A visitor appeared (a middle-aged man in black with a hat). OBE'd out into the room to discuss this with him. Wanted to tell father about this also, but couldn't speak in that state. So I just closed the door.
We sat down in the middle of my room. He didn't say anything, he just was. At some moment I started to doubt my ability to keep focus in there for longer. That man disappeared also. Wanted to experience another OBE, thinking perhaps he was still there.
Woke up into the body. Woke up with the body, checked the clock, looked around, thought about it. Went back to sleep (which, I think, happened in the dream).
Tried to wake up once more, but found it difficult - took effort this time. Still, got up.
Tried to wake up once more, this time I couldn't do it, sleep paralysis was too strong.
Woke up spontaneously. Found the room in a disarray. Mattress was missing, pillow was off the bed, I was sleeping on the blanket rolled up in a corner of the bed. Thought: "Wow, what a dream to have caused me to do this."
Started to clean that up. Woke up once more, in sweat (probably due to the heat practice). Dad had gone to sleep.
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As a sidenote, before these dreams, I read some texts about Dharma, Yugas and started to wonder about these.
Before managing to open this blog, a page of "Darvill's Rare Prints. Fine antique prints and maps since 1918." popped up. Had expected the browser to shortcut to DaWeird, which it didn't.
From the analytical point of view (of the dream mind), the message might've been a warning with something extra.
Friday, December 14, 2012
Light from the Matrix
From a night or two after that flying dream, I remember one with walking on water. Didn't consider myself capable of walking on water and took a hike around some sort of a lake, whereas a friend went straight across it.
A couple of days ago, one of the traffic buttons got triggered before I even managed to touch it. Haven't seen that happen during the winter (usually I have to wipe and touch it at least 5 times before it gets triggered).
Today morning, during one of the clock-checks, something interesting happened. Woke up and looked at the clock projection on the ceiling. Strangely enough, everything looked really bright and well-lit. Noticed that this light seemed to be emanating from a grid-like structure on / within everything. The grid of these bright yellowish-white dots looked fairly regular. A bit puzzled, I continued looking at the projection in hopes to find out what it's about. Without effort, I could shift the clock projection around on the ceiling. I guess at some moment this light slowly faded away and everything looked normal again. The projection stayed where I thought I had moved it. Couldn't move it that easily anymore. Might've blinked for a few times, but otherwise the eyes were open for the whole time. Recall having experienced something similar once, a couple of years ago. Weird, wonder what this is.
Edit: Ah, sweet .. found the previous one:
http://sussch-daweird.blogspot.com/2010/09/photon-dislocation.html
For a couple of times, there seem to have been a few minor glitches in time.
Glanced at a radio electronics board built by one of the team members. They were observing the receiver decoding packets at the other end of the lab. Anyway, while looking at that board and the power supply, I got a feeling of this system .. silence for a few packets. Dissolved the stasis that had formed semi-subconsciously and it was working again.
A couple of days ago, one of the traffic buttons got triggered before I even managed to touch it. Haven't seen that happen during the winter (usually I have to wipe and touch it at least 5 times before it gets triggered).
Today morning, during one of the clock-checks, something interesting happened. Woke up and looked at the clock projection on the ceiling. Strangely enough, everything looked really bright and well-lit. Noticed that this light seemed to be emanating from a grid-like structure on / within everything. The grid of these bright yellowish-white dots looked fairly regular. A bit puzzled, I continued looking at the projection in hopes to find out what it's about. Without effort, I could shift the clock projection around on the ceiling. I guess at some moment this light slowly faded away and everything looked normal again. The projection stayed where I thought I had moved it. Couldn't move it that easily anymore. Might've blinked for a few times, but otherwise the eyes were open for the whole time. Recall having experienced something similar once, a couple of years ago. Weird, wonder what this is.
Edit: Ah, sweet .. found the previous one:
http://sussch-daweird.blogspot.com/2010/09/photon-dislocation.html
For a couple of times, there seem to have been a few minor glitches in time.
Glanced at a radio electronics board built by one of the team members. They were observing the receiver decoding packets at the other end of the lab. Anyway, while looking at that board and the power supply, I got a feeling of this system .. silence for a few packets. Dissolved the stasis that had formed semi-subconsciously and it was working again.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Flying night
Circulated psi through the body and outside of it before going to bed last night.
Felt the power of psi flowing around. Saw the thin border between power and fear of it (due to lack of control). Found that a lot of this power came through something dark attached to what I think might be the etheric body. Focused on this dark cobweb-like thing and hugged it from the heart. The thing became smaller, brighter and more cute .. reminded me of panda or something.
The dreams were bright and vivid. Among them, the most incredible flying dream so far.
Visited a cottage somewhere in the woods. Knew that Kevin (another psion) and his brother were staying there. On my arrival, Kevin woke up, tried to wake up his brother but to no avail (in too deep a sleep). With Kevin, we started the journey to our summerhouse .. flying. Flying through the forest with picturesque scenery (from various times of the year). It was a lot of fun to dart through from between tree branches, pick up speed and so on. Arrived at the summerhouse. Kevin decided to opt for walking and warned me about the hawks (kind of familiar, I guess I've been warned about those before). Said I'm ok and would keep a low altitude. In in-dream time, this journey might have lasted for about a day (or slightly less), whereas in wake time it seemed to have been a couple of hours.
Today was a rather stressful day. Though, everything was fine actually.
Some moments of feeling weightless. A coworker showed signs of being psychic (described what was going to happen some seconds ahead).
At home, I happened to see something dark about me. A moment of empathy with something evil.
Felt the power of psi flowing around. Saw the thin border between power and fear of it (due to lack of control). Found that a lot of this power came through something dark attached to what I think might be the etheric body. Focused on this dark cobweb-like thing and hugged it from the heart. The thing became smaller, brighter and more cute .. reminded me of panda or something.
The dreams were bright and vivid. Among them, the most incredible flying dream so far.
Visited a cottage somewhere in the woods. Knew that Kevin (another psion) and his brother were staying there. On my arrival, Kevin woke up, tried to wake up his brother but to no avail (in too deep a sleep). With Kevin, we started the journey to our summerhouse .. flying. Flying through the forest with picturesque scenery (from various times of the year). It was a lot of fun to dart through from between tree branches, pick up speed and so on. Arrived at the summerhouse. Kevin decided to opt for walking and warned me about the hawks (kind of familiar, I guess I've been warned about those before). Said I'm ok and would keep a low altitude. In in-dream time, this journey might have lasted for about a day (or slightly less), whereas in wake time it seemed to have been a couple of hours.
Today was a rather stressful day. Though, everything was fine actually.
Some moments of feeling weightless. A coworker showed signs of being psychic (described what was going to happen some seconds ahead).
At home, I happened to see something dark about me. A moment of empathy with something evil.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Chikara
Awesome.. Dragon Ball, I mean. Still shaking of excitement and inspiration.
Had a feeling of a rather free weekend from Friday. Felt like watching Dragon Ball again. Well, that's how the weekend turned out.
Shall be focusing more on moving psi around again..
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On Friday evening, I guess something was following me. When a dog saw me, it started barking. However, when I walked past it, it didn't bark at me .. it barked at something behind me.
In a half-dream state last night, I saw a witch (a classical one, Walt-Disney style). I guess she wanted power. Kept observing her, which freaked her out. She became quiet, though, then some sort of a powerful monster appeared and tossed her away. Became suspicious about this attitude. Continued observing that monster but probably fell asleep.
Had a feeling of a rather free weekend from Friday. Felt like watching Dragon Ball again. Well, that's how the weekend turned out.
Shall be focusing more on moving psi around again..
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On Friday evening, I guess something was following me. When a dog saw me, it started barking. However, when I walked past it, it didn't bark at me .. it barked at something behind me.
In a half-dream state last night, I saw a witch (a classical one, Walt-Disney style). I guess she wanted power. Kept observing her, which freaked her out. She became quiet, though, then some sort of a powerful monster appeared and tossed her away. Became suspicious about this attitude. Continued observing that monster but probably fell asleep.
Friday, December 7, 2012
Chakras - black holes?
While watching that 7-hour video of Nassim Haramein's lecture, a few images have popped up in the mind.
He was describing the sun gods, tall as they had been according to him. Saw an image of the sun gods appearing on the streets from a sphere of light in my mind's eye. That was pretty vivid.
When he described the Ark of the Covenant and the vortex that it most likely generated, the vortex of cloud and flames became vivid in the mind's eye. Along with it, the feeling of power was there as well.
Images, feelings and emotions of false expectations for "the end of the world" as well. A lot of people are thinking it would turn their lives for the better, somehow. Liberation, peace, etc. Though, a shortcut it definitely is not.
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An idea that there might actually be more than one geometry of equilibrium and that there might be more than one type of black hole.
What if each of the 7 most well-known chakras is a black hole? Perhaps centres of equilibrium at different "planes of existence" or frequencies. Well, for the chakras, the structure or geometry is different. It seems as if the higher the chakra, the more petals, the higher resonant frequency, the more stable the balance between the forces and so on.
Started to wonder about the 3rd eye, which is depicted with 2 petals (less than 1000, which would be the number of petals for the crown chakra). Found this on wikipedia:
In Tibetan Buddhism, this point is actually the end of the central channel, since the central channel rises up from the sexual organ to the crown of the head, and then curves over the head and down to the third eye. While the central channel finishes here, the two side channels continue down to the two nostrils.
From this perspective, Nassim Haramein might be describing the geometry of the realm that we're currently focused on the most (most likely conceived to be at the center - heart chakra). From the subset of 7 most well known chakras, there would be 3 chakras below the central one (less petals or force vectors to balance the system? Less stable?) and 3 above the central one (more forces to balance the system? More stable?).
Food for thought? Amazing, how much I've eaten and how hungry I've still been today.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
A bit tired
Have been feeling somewhat tired today. Well, actually, did yesterday too. And the day before .. now there's been some days with less than 12 or 15 hours of work.
Sneezed for a couple of times today. Felt pretty floaty occasionally (not related to the feeling of weightlessness, though). More like bouncing out of the body and back.
Let go of some of that stuff, erupting warm psi off into the surroundings. Could feel the waves of psi slowly moving away from the body (roughly 2 inches per minute). Got some cold chills after that.
Started to experience a mild headache. Remembered some of the karmic traces that I've left without attention.
Somewhat cool .. today's Naruto Shippuuden episode looked a bit related.
Sneezed for a couple of times today. Felt pretty floaty occasionally (not related to the feeling of weightlessness, though). More like bouncing out of the body and back.
Let go of some of that stuff, erupting warm psi off into the surroundings. Could feel the waves of psi slowly moving away from the body (roughly 2 inches per minute). Got some cold chills after that.
Started to experience a mild headache. Remembered some of the karmic traces that I've left without attention.
Somewhat cool .. today's Naruto Shippuuden episode looked a bit related.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Spontaneous breath-freshening
Tried to have the body fall asleep without maintaining it in the half-dream state for too long. Wanted it to feel more fresh in the morning.
Became a bit overwhelmed while coding and debugging at work. Reached a trance-like state and felt something open up in the head again.
A taste (and feeling) similar to mint appeared in the mouth. It seemed to have breath-freshening properties and a slightly sweet taste. Somewhat familiar, though, I can't remember the taste of mint from the previous experiences.
Intuition had me practice light-stepping on snow again. Had troubles visualizing the feeling of weightlessness and levitation today. However, for a few times it happened that I got attuned to the feeling of the snow surface being rock-solid.
Became a bit overwhelmed while coding and debugging at work. Reached a trance-like state and felt something open up in the head again.
A taste (and feeling) similar to mint appeared in the mouth. It seemed to have breath-freshening properties and a slightly sweet taste. Somewhat familiar, though, I can't remember the taste of mint from the previous experiences.
Intuition had me practice light-stepping on snow again. Had troubles visualizing the feeling of weightlessness and levitation today. However, for a few times it happened that I got attuned to the feeling of the snow surface being rock-solid.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
A precog of the lab?
I guess now a couple of nights ago, there was also a dream, which I recognized as precognitive.
So far, all of the precognitive dreams have had that bluish black veil to it. As if everything were in a slight dark blue fog of sorts.
Entered the lab .. knew it has been a long while. Some things were still familiar, though, everything had gone way more hi-tech. Even the middle room was full of electronics and some tools. Entered the lab and it was amazingly crowded. Had never seen that many people there. Something was going on in one of the cleanrooms, some people were soldering boards together and stuff. Most of them I didn't know, but some of them were the old guys. Recognized one of the old management guys and some from other parts of the project. I was welcomed.
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Came home late yesterday and had difficulties falling asleep right away (had been hungry and had to eat before bed).
Suddenly, there was a period without mind. Breath didn't cease completely yet. This might've lasted for slightly less than a minute, I guess. Left the body there like that.
Later, I suddenly found the body overclocked with vibrations of psi. The frequency seemed to have doubled.
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Felt really tired and dull today. Everyone wanted something of me again, just wanted to finish at least one of the things that I considered of highest priority.
Would occasionally feel myself becoming irritated. Happened to lean once and felt a pulsing in the crown chakra. This helped me to calm down quickly.
At home, I found one of the flowers drying up. Took a bottle to water it. Poured some .. it seems there was a dried leaf on the edge of the pot .. now there was water dripping down from the pot, onto the cabinet.
"Now ain't that sweet," I thought, noting that almost exactly the same happened a couple of years ago, during another cycle of this life.
Opened the cabinet and observed water dripping down on the clothes, cabinet doors, me and the floor. Emotionless, I started to clean that up. During this process, felt psi pulsing strong in the upper body.
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Almost forgot. This lab dream had me wondering if I had been visiting the lab at night. The thing is, one morning the middle door was found unlocked. Also, for several nights (or mornings) in a row, there had been an alarm in the lab.
So far, all of the precognitive dreams have had that bluish black veil to it. As if everything were in a slight dark blue fog of sorts.
Entered the lab .. knew it has been a long while. Some things were still familiar, though, everything had gone way more hi-tech. Even the middle room was full of electronics and some tools. Entered the lab and it was amazingly crowded. Had never seen that many people there. Something was going on in one of the cleanrooms, some people were soldering boards together and stuff. Most of them I didn't know, but some of them were the old guys. Recognized one of the old management guys and some from other parts of the project. I was welcomed.
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Came home late yesterday and had difficulties falling asleep right away (had been hungry and had to eat before bed).
Suddenly, there was a period without mind. Breath didn't cease completely yet. This might've lasted for slightly less than a minute, I guess. Left the body there like that.
Later, I suddenly found the body overclocked with vibrations of psi. The frequency seemed to have doubled.
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Felt really tired and dull today. Everyone wanted something of me again, just wanted to finish at least one of the things that I considered of highest priority.
Would occasionally feel myself becoming irritated. Happened to lean once and felt a pulsing in the crown chakra. This helped me to calm down quickly.
At home, I found one of the flowers drying up. Took a bottle to water it. Poured some .. it seems there was a dried leaf on the edge of the pot .. now there was water dripping down from the pot, onto the cabinet.
"Now ain't that sweet," I thought, noting that almost exactly the same happened a couple of years ago, during another cycle of this life.
Opened the cabinet and observed water dripping down on the clothes, cabinet doors, me and the floor. Emotionless, I started to clean that up. During this process, felt psi pulsing strong in the upper body.
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Almost forgot. This lab dream had me wondering if I had been visiting the lab at night. The thing is, one morning the middle door was found unlocked. Also, for several nights (or mornings) in a row, there had been an alarm in the lab.
Monday, December 3, 2012
The room of someone else
Experienced a lot of 3rd eye sight on Saturday evening. Lost some more energy yesterday morning.
Tried light-stepping on snow yesterday. I guess there was just a little effect on the weight. Somewhat difficult to tell with the snowdrifts this shallow.
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Among some of the other things that I realized recently, I got the feeling of black magic.
At the department store, happened to look at one of the clerks, while dad bought minced meat and realized that black magic is pretty much just leaving a mess at someone else's place. Almost like paying a visit to someone and not expressing respect and gratitude towards their hospitality. Along with it, I saw an image of someone's room in a mess.
Wouldn't have considered it important enough to blog about, but this morning, there were a couple of related dreams.
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In one of the dreams, there was a multiplayer war game. Remembered that game, as well as that map there. Though, as nobody was playing it, the tanks, planes, helicopters were just standing there .. y'know, on a grid, as if in a map editor. Flew over the potential battleground, admiring the graphics, the detail and the ingenuity of the artists.
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Flew home, I guess. Or at least, what seemed to be like home. Next to the roof of a building, there was a big pear tree. A blonde girl had climbed or flown up there. I guess I recognized her from some other dreams or something. Stopped by, she asked if I wanted a pear or two.
Thanked her, took one randomly and lifted off, holding a tree branch lightly. Looked at the pear, to take a bite and saw a worm climbing out. Blew the worm out and ate the pear.
Noticed something that I hadn't seen before. I thought I was next to the storehouse at our summerhouse. However, at a corner of the storehouse, there was a small room. Wouldn't have noticed that, if I hadn't stopped at the tree. Definitely someone else's - that girl's place?. It gave off a slightly frightening feeling.
Flew in .. no doors, nothing there, just an open doorway. The room was dimly lit with a yellow light. The walls were all made of wood. I guess there were a couple of windows or weren't there, can't remember. What really caught my attention, though, were these two bunches of red feathers hanging from the ceiling (via strings).
In that room, I started to feel that familiar feeling of fear (like that of the satan goat dream). The feeling of an immense power without a source - couldn't trace it, because it was absolutely everywhere. So, there was a choice, either I could let this fear enter me and resonate with me or I could just flee. Did neither of these. Tried to purify and transform it to something better.
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Woke up in a bed at some foreign place. Mother was chatting with some of her acquaintances there. The one who woke up, told her about the dream.
Encouraged, I think I entered her Mom's room. Could just barely sense any fear. A rather small room, with a lot of furniture. All of this seemed to have been related to her past jobs. She had been working in a jury system? Cool. Found that the jury hammer was missing .. gently knocked on the table, listened to the sound and poofed away.
Tried light-stepping on snow yesterday. I guess there was just a little effect on the weight. Somewhat difficult to tell with the snowdrifts this shallow.
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Among some of the other things that I realized recently, I got the feeling of black magic.
At the department store, happened to look at one of the clerks, while dad bought minced meat and realized that black magic is pretty much just leaving a mess at someone else's place. Almost like paying a visit to someone and not expressing respect and gratitude towards their hospitality. Along with it, I saw an image of someone's room in a mess.
Wouldn't have considered it important enough to blog about, but this morning, there were a couple of related dreams.
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In one of the dreams, there was a multiplayer war game. Remembered that game, as well as that map there. Though, as nobody was playing it, the tanks, planes, helicopters were just standing there .. y'know, on a grid, as if in a map editor. Flew over the potential battleground, admiring the graphics, the detail and the ingenuity of the artists.
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Flew home, I guess. Or at least, what seemed to be like home. Next to the roof of a building, there was a big pear tree. A blonde girl had climbed or flown up there. I guess I recognized her from some other dreams or something. Stopped by, she asked if I wanted a pear or two.
Thanked her, took one randomly and lifted off, holding a tree branch lightly. Looked at the pear, to take a bite and saw a worm climbing out. Blew the worm out and ate the pear.
Noticed something that I hadn't seen before. I thought I was next to the storehouse at our summerhouse. However, at a corner of the storehouse, there was a small room. Wouldn't have noticed that, if I hadn't stopped at the tree. Definitely someone else's - that girl's place?. It gave off a slightly frightening feeling.
Flew in .. no doors, nothing there, just an open doorway. The room was dimly lit with a yellow light. The walls were all made of wood. I guess there were a couple of windows or weren't there, can't remember. What really caught my attention, though, were these two bunches of red feathers hanging from the ceiling (via strings).
In that room, I started to feel that familiar feeling of fear (like that of the satan goat dream). The feeling of an immense power without a source - couldn't trace it, because it was absolutely everywhere. So, there was a choice, either I could let this fear enter me and resonate with me or I could just flee. Did neither of these. Tried to purify and transform it to something better.
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Woke up in a bed at some foreign place. Mother was chatting with some of her acquaintances there. The one who woke up, told her about the dream.
Encouraged, I think I entered her Mom's room. Could just barely sense any fear. A rather small room, with a lot of furniture. All of this seemed to have been related to her past jobs. She had been working in a jury system? Cool. Found that the jury hammer was missing .. gently knocked on the table, listened to the sound and poofed away.
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Million dollar question
Father found this lecture from Nassim Haramein:
7 hours, but what a nice overview of how the universe works.. =)
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Discussed some of that stuff with father and asked him the million dollar question, certain that out of all the gurus from the dreams, he would have the answer today.
Guess what, he did.
To me, life has often seemed like a conveyor belt work. Walking up the same stairs over and over again, then falling back down and on for another ride (and fall). The seemingly infinite loops of enlightenment process with slipping and starting from scratch again. At least several months, if not years to get up the stairs again.
Took a shower and realized I've been whining about this taking months, when it actually should take tens of lifetimes. Missed the point, there's no rush, never has been.
I already know that it's the process that matters. Also, even though it looks so much the same, there are these little and yet absolutely vital details that I failed to notice during the previous cycles.
Still, from the holistic perspective, there shouldn't be anything to gain, lose or achieve.
Father's take on the point of life was the perfection of the process of enlightenment. Which means hundreds of times of trying, preferred without success. That is, because being successful doesn't mean mastery just yet.
He reminded me of how he had been trained to fly one of the interstellar saucers of the Greens. Hundreds of trials with different modes, menus and what not and none of them even close to successful. A lot of effort without fruit, and then the teacher would reprogram the device, after which, everything suddenly worked without effort. This sparked some thoughts in my mind.
If we take the alien way of teaching and consider all the obstructions laid on the path of mankind, we get the same process .. takes a lot of effort just not to sink in and drown. However, perhaps one day, the obstructions would be gone and we would have mastered a part of the enlightenment process pretty much without realizing it ourselves.
So, I guess the problem might be the guys (and gals), who keep finding those shortcuts or flaws in the system. In other words, us. For several times, someone has helped me (effectively having me skip the intermediate steps) or against all the odds, I've managed to break out of the loop with the help of self-suggestion and meditation.
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Discussed some of that stuff with father and asked him the million dollar question, certain that out of all the gurus from the dreams, he would have the answer today.
Guess what, he did.
To me, life has often seemed like a conveyor belt work. Walking up the same stairs over and over again, then falling back down and on for another ride (and fall). The seemingly infinite loops of enlightenment process with slipping and starting from scratch again. At least several months, if not years to get up the stairs again.
Took a shower and realized I've been whining about this taking months, when it actually should take tens of lifetimes. Missed the point, there's no rush, never has been.
I already know that it's the process that matters. Also, even though it looks so much the same, there are these little and yet absolutely vital details that I failed to notice during the previous cycles.
Still, from the holistic perspective, there shouldn't be anything to gain, lose or achieve.
Father's take on the point of life was the perfection of the process of enlightenment. Which means hundreds of times of trying, preferred without success. That is, because being successful doesn't mean mastery just yet.
He reminded me of how he had been trained to fly one of the interstellar saucers of the Greens. Hundreds of trials with different modes, menus and what not and none of them even close to successful. A lot of effort without fruit, and then the teacher would reprogram the device, after which, everything suddenly worked without effort. This sparked some thoughts in my mind.
If we take the alien way of teaching and consider all the obstructions laid on the path of mankind, we get the same process .. takes a lot of effort just not to sink in and drown. However, perhaps one day, the obstructions would be gone and we would have mastered a part of the enlightenment process pretty much without realizing it ourselves.
So, I guess the problem might be the guys (and gals), who keep finding those shortcuts or flaws in the system. In other words, us. For several times, someone has helped me (effectively having me skip the intermediate steps) or against all the odds, I've managed to break out of the loop with the help of self-suggestion and meditation.
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Strange cylindrical object
In one of the dreams, there was a strange form of matter. A small cylindrical metallic-looking object (reflectance similar to that of aluminum) with some sort of a pattern on top.
Well, its properties changed with thoughts and emotions. I guess it occasionally lost its shape, melted and started boiling without changes in its physical environment. It didn't become hot when it started boiling.
Somehow felt the object being cross-dimensional by nature.
Well, its properties changed with thoughts and emotions. I guess it occasionally lost its shape, melted and started boiling without changes in its physical environment. It didn't become hot when it started boiling.
Somehow felt the object being cross-dimensional by nature.
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