PhD

Haven't posted for a while.

Successfully defended my PhD yesterday morning.

It took me some effort to resolve the anxiety but it was totally worth it. Somewhat relieved, I feel happier and some former bodily issues seem to be healing as well.

I've gradually started to realize how my old path was tilted without me realizing it. While I did strive for perfection, it was an imperfect perfection as it was only limited to some aspects of life.

Pain ~ weakness leaving the body

There's a nice Discord server which also kind of feels like a family. Though, more for weebs. On one hand, the server has been taking up quite a lot of free time. On another hand, it has been fun and have also been able to discuss spiritualism, pk and philosophy there. The original owner of the server has serious issues with depression, have been visualizing rays of sunlight reaching her through her darkness.

On another note, had been feeling tired and sleepy recently. A couple of nights ago I focused on some regions in the body which then released a lot of pain. The pain washed over the body and I guess some of it got stuck in the head. Had a headache the next day. Next night I also focused on some regions in the body instead of sleeping much. Concentration practice makes for very vivid dreams.

Regardless of lacking a bit of sleep, I felt pretty good today. Need to continue with the nightly concentration practices. Also, I think I should pay a bit more attention to style.

A friend recommended Paul Coelho's "The Alchemist" which I started reading today. Regardless of how little of it I've read thus far, it's quite awesome.