Me an old asocial pum? Maybe not?

A couple of weeks ago, me and mom both felt as if we had had an extra day in the week (somewhere between Tuesday and Wednesday, I guess). Then the week after, both of us felt as if we had missed a day. This week mom also felt like she had missed a day, but I no longer did. For me, this week was nominal.

Another "friend" found a girlfriend. My hunch says it's the real deal for him.

Also, while looking for some photos of Hutchison's old apartment, I stumbled upon a blog of his. His blog had photos of him with a lady. I had always imagined Hutchison as a crazy inventor who has trouble socializing. I suspect that since I had been his fan since like 6th or 7th grade, I had started to associate myself with this image, too. Eventually I think I forgot about the fact that I did, and started mistaking this image for myself.

Anyway, today at some point I felt that the issue had been resolved. I wonder if perhaps this was also related to the clinic dream.

Dream: Fireworks

I decided to face some of my old fears. Had a dream where I found some of my old weapons but as I touched one of them, it caught fire. I knew it would start firing at some point, but I didn't know when. I put it into a hole in the ground, where I thought it would be the least probable that it causes harm to anyone. I also added some bricks and stuff around it, to prevent it from bouncing around or changing its aim.

I ducked and took cover. Then a couple of other people took over securing the weapon. Anyway, it fired like 10 shots and then went quiet. Some of these shots hit the boxes in the apartment but didn't cause any harm, for which I was really grateful.

Dream: Clinic

Last night I had a dream where I was waiting with my eye problem at a clinic. Since the clinic was closed at night, I was just waiting there in the dark corridors. The eye didn't hurt but it was really blurry and didn't function according to my expectations.

Roosterprank

Feng Shui

Slept with my head towards South for about a week. Felt dead tired. Then slept with my head towards North for about a week. Felt good. Slept with my head towards South for a a couple of hours. Felt dead tired. Turned around and started feeling better again in about half an hour.

Not sure if this is just about the orientation, or the fact that the WiFi access point is at the Southern end of the couch. The couch is less comfy to sleep on with the head towards North, though. Moreover, light from the corridor shone on my face while sleeping with my head towards North.

Maybe Feng Shui works?

I wonder if it works different in different regions on Earth. Does it have something to do with the magnetic field?

Hat

Lost my hat last Friday at the office. I suspected that perhaps the hole at the bottom of the pocket had grown to match the cross section of the hat. Anyway, the hat was gone. I looked for it everywhere (including the floor).

Visited a colleague to play board games in the evening. Unstable Unicorns and The Mind. The Mind seemed quite interesting for mind-reading practice.

Today morning the hat had been put nicely on the clothes shelf. None of the colleagues knew anything about it, so I guess I owe my gratitude to the janitor.

Red rooster

I think it was more than a week ago or so that I had another dream where things caught fire and it was getting out of control.

That time the floor was covered in important papers, sister's notepapers which I had been scanning to save these from her cat's parfume. Anyway, these kept catching fire and I felt helpless. Though, at some point it occurred to me that shuffling the papers works. The flames were extinguished as I buried the burning papers underneath other papers.

Just as I had solved the puzzle, the dream changed. A red rooster hopped around, laughing at their prank.

Bathtub

Yesterday I walked past something unexpected - a bathtub with water and a couple of people enjoying a bath on the street. There was a third person standing by the bathtub, chatting with the two. It's not very warm outside anymore. At first I thought it was some sort of a perverted art project or something again. Sigh .. the youngsters these days.

Later it occurred to me that it could've been the followers of Wim Hof, for about a year ago there were some training sessions, I think.

 

Time anomaly

At the beginning of this week it happened to me and mom that the week got an extra day or something. On Tuesday we were both convinced that it was Wednesday. For me yesterday felt like a Saturday, with the exception of going to work.

Laptop

I was feeling really tired yesterday, for it felt as if I had missed the Saturday (due to the time anomaly) which I've usually used to compensate for sleep deprivation. While waiting for a sister's call, I just sat on the couch. At some point I thought I'd take out the laptop and found it had switched on in the bag. I don't think this has happened to this laptop before, for the power button is not reachable from the outside.

I thought maybe I had forgotten to power it off properly when leaving the office, but the battery was still full whereas I had left the office several hours before.

The laptop must've switched on on its own. It used to happen a lot with my previous laptop.

Letting go

A curious dream, a realization and a couple of observations.

Dream: Visitors

Last week I had a dream where I spent the night playing video games and stuff. For some reason, there were a couple of members from LC (one of the Discord servers) in my room and I felt uneasy about it. I asked them to state their purpose but it seemed that they were "zombies" (asleep or not conscious about it). They themselves probably also wouldn't have known why they were there.

Realization: Procrastination

Had a long discussion about my problems with mom. By the next morning I had realized a potential cause for the problems. Back in about 2011 I had fallen for a girl but I never told her that (hesitated) and eventually I sort of forgot about it but it had still been bothering me ever since.

So I decided to try and see if telling her about it now would help me overcome the problem with the left eye and me being unhappy with myself. We were sort of friends but after I described my issue, she stopped responding. I did suspect that this might happen.

Though, I think I managed to forgive myself and I started feeling better. While I think it's too early to say anything for certain about the left eye, I did notice that it behaved in an interesting way. Previously it used to dry up every now and then. Today the eye sometimes just became wet without any pain.

Observations: Image

Recently some people on LC have been treating me a bit differently. One of them said that when I posted something, it felt like a refreshing breeze of wind from the ocean. Another one thought I had transcended or something.

I wonder if this might be related to my attempt at making my field of consciousness more "compact".

Today I was surprised at the books which the LC book club members had picked and who picked what kind of books. Several books on the spiritualism and enlightenment topics. I don't think I promoted these topics in my posts there. Ordered a couple of the books from the list.

Elevator

Happened to read about the Elisa Lam's case again.

Had a couple of interesting dreams.

Dream: Hotel

I was at a hotel again. I had been there a lot, and I decided to rant about what I found annoying about such dreams.

No matter what I tried, I could not get back to the same floor. There were always these small details which did not match. Once there is a room on the N-th floor, then the next time I go, there is no such room there. Because of this, I would never know where I am, and for most of the dream I would be looking for a place which no longer exists.

Someone then said that whether I liked it or not, I would be moved higher and higher up the floors. Eventually I would reach the top floor (which in the dream was 15th, I think) and there would no longer be a place to go.

In the dream I knew this referred to spiritualism.

Dream: Reverse debugging on a new hardware

A new architecture was announced for the embedded. It came out with proper toolchain support and everything (very unreal). Anyway, while enthusiastically talking to a girl about it, I mentioned GDB reverse debugging. Some guy had also been listening in, and asked me what it was good for. Both of them had only used print statements in the code for debugging and had not used multithreading. Described the benefits of reverse debugging a multithreaded application.

While the whole argumentation and everything was perfectly lucid and all, I failed to remember acronyms. At some point I wanted to reference FPGA with soft-cores but I could not recall what these things were called.

I guess there's still a lot of memory which has not yet been replicated from the physical body.