Boscovich's "space and time"

From "From Objectivity to a Unified Theory" by Prof. Dr. Konstantin Meyl.

Jesuit priest Roger Joseph Boscovich from Dalmatia in 1755.

Boscovich was a professor of mathematics and theology in Rome and spoke about the world, on the other hand, being deformable, similar to rubber, but on the other hand, we are not able to perceive this effect, because our body is made of the same material and obeys all changes. "In an absolute way, we can neither recognize the place, nor distances, or orders of magnitude", Boscovich wrote in his book on "space and time" and how these are perceived by us. He suspects that the Earth, unobservable for man, "is respiring".

This greatly reminds me of how Owltwelve and others on Shirak's forum felt space-time while practising psychokinesis.

I'll try to find papers on Boscovich's work.

Uneven flames

For some reason I had not been able to sleep much since last weekend, so I fell sick on Wednesday. Had a slight fever and kept visiting the toilet, which had become painful. Luckily, the fever only lasted for a day. On the next day I was already feeling good enough to take a walk to the tent of covid tests (just in case), which was about 6 km from home.

Anyway, today morning I had a dream with somewhat distressing symbolism.

Dream: Uneven flames

I was warming or cooking food on the gas stove, when suddenly the flames went out. I quickly picked a lighter and restarted the fire. I found it strange that the lighter kept having a small flame at the end, and the flames stuck to the bottom surface of the pot like napalm.

Ok, with the flame in control again (the intensity even responded to turning the knob, which usually has not worked in such dreams), I decided to check how the food was doing. I tried if the pot was too hot, which was not the case, and lifted it with bare hands.

Strangely, though, it was just a bunch of different components, each packaged separately in plastic. Well, whatever, I started checking the components. Some of them had nearly become burned while some other components were not even warm yet.

Just in case: In real life it's safer to turn off the gas, wait for a while for the non-burned gas to dissipate, and then restart the fire. Otherwise the gas might explode and cause nearby flammable objects to catch fire.

 

Morning

Somehow today I see my problems and choices from a broader perspective. I think I need to adjust again, in order to skip what I would consider to be a dead-end. For quite a while I've been living to please others, while trying my best to patiently wait for the chance to do what I've always wanted to do. However, since it doesn't really matter to people, I think there's not going to be such a chance unless I make one myself. Based on what a lot of people are already experimenting with, it's probably the right time.

Motivation & enthusiasm

For some reason I used to think that enthusiasm was something one was born with, and that it would wear out over time.

Recently it has started to seem that both enthusiasm and motivation can be practised. That they're skills which can be honed like any other.

Stage curtains

While a few years old, I remember being fascinated by stage curtains. It felt as if they isolated the space, making it really difficult for my physical senses to tell my location. I could still imagine what it was like outside, but while surrounded by these, I could imagine I was somewhere else .. and it felt so real.

Last night it occurred to me that this could perhaps be used for teleportation practice. With the physical senses offering no help in telling my whereabouts, it should be easier to visualize that I'm somewhere else.

Could set up identical small rooms in two different places. Then step into one of these and imagine being in the other one. Ok, maybe there would have to be a small sign which indicates which room it is, so that I wouldn't have to exit the room to check each time.

Avatar of strands

Received a letter from my neighbour today. Two Christmas cards, one with some awesome dark and mysterious poetry, the other for Mom.

Dad visited with a cake on Sunday. While we were chatting, I practised maintaining a clear mind. At some point, there was a really loud cracking sound. We were all startled, and started to wonder what might've broken. I thought it was the tea jug, but it turned out to be just a strand of hair on the external surface of the jug. The strand of hair legit looked like a crack in the glass.

I failed to find anything else which might've produced the sound.

I think it was Monday evening that I analyzed what it was that sometimes made me feel disgusted about the human body. Some time at night I realized that it was basically something akin to karma accumulated in the body. So it wasn't the human body itself which triggered disgust, I think it was more the non-physical things which had been stored in the body. Moreover, these things themselves were also not disgusting, but rather the thoughts, memories or interpretations which for me associated to these.

In a sense, the body (or any object, for that regard) could be likened to a shelf of mental constructs. Or to an avatar which represents a plethora of concepts. I remembered that I could refresh my avatar simply by concentrating on the feelings which I wanted it to portray.

During the past couple of days, I've been pumping psi up the central channel. Developed a headache at first, again. The heat has also increased quite a bit, and last night I must've had too much energy to sleep through the night. From about 2 AM to 5 AM or so, I kept turning sides, hoping that I would fall asleep again.

Stomach

The book "No Self, No Problem: How Neuropsychology Is Catching Up to Buddhism" by Chris Niebauer PhD reminded me to practice activating specific hemispheres of the brain again. Left the activation of the right hemisphere ticking in my second attention for a couple of days, then forgot about it.

For a few days before the birthday, I had some stomach troubles. I think it was triggered by an emotional moment.

The brain switches hemispheres every now and then, and sometimes while both hemispheres are active, I've started to feel really weird. Sometimes I've gotten a mild headache from it.

Apparently there are still a lot of blockages at places in the body.

At some point I was so tired that a nap of just a few minutes caused me to lose awareness of the body and drop into a deep sleep.

I watched "Yangguang puzhao" (2019) with some people on Discord last Saturday. There was a scene with firecrackers on the streets. I noticed that I could smell the burnt gunpowder. It has been a while.

Birthday wishes

There's a Lain-themed Discord server in which I haven't been very active, and I think I've only chatted a bit with two people there. On my birthday suddenly some people started posting wishes. At some point one of them asked if any of them knew anyone whose birthday it might be. It didn't seem like any of them knew.

Cool synchronicity. I thanked them for their wishes and then more wishes followed.

Realizations

About a week ago I realized that the world is probably much smaller than I've thought. Each thought and action probably has more immediate and direct consequences than I might've imagined.

Though, since the influence doesn't make that much sense to the rational mind, it just brushes it off or comes up with some alternative stories about it. Due to the mind, the path of feedback is cut, which in turn makes us feel more separate and alone than we actually are.

While taking a shower one evening, I suddenly started laughing about some of my worries. It seemed that I had taken "simple" things way too seriously. Should just go with the flow more.

Deep waters

Recently I've been experiencing waves of heat radiating from the body again.

Due to the lucky numbers spiking recently, I worked from home again on Monday. Felt quite weird, as if I were in multiple places simultaneously. I felt as if I was on the island, just outdoors, in the living room, as well as in some foreign places. Felt somewhat floaty.

I think it was Tuesday night that I saw the cat everywhere in my dreams, which is quite rare.

Dream: Swimming

Deep waters are dangerous. Though, I figured that if I move around all the time, then I could perhaps remain afloat. There were a few other people swimming around in the water as well.

Dream: High pressure on minerals

A sleeping chemist (female) was visiting, and then father came for a visit as well. Father asked her if she had worked with some sort of a specific acid. While asleep, she replied that she hadn't, that she had worked more with salts and minerals. Father then said he had read something interesting: by applying high mechanical pressure on some specific non-radioactive salts, a nuclear reaction was triggered.

Me an old asocial pum? Maybe not?

A couple of weeks ago, me and mom both felt as if we had had an extra day in the week (somewhere between Tuesday and Wednesday, I guess). Then the week after, both of us felt as if we had missed a day. This week mom also felt like she had missed a day, but I no longer did. For me, this week was nominal.

Another "friend" found a girlfriend. My hunch says it's the real deal for him.

Also, while looking for some photos of Hutchison's old apartment, I stumbled upon a blog of his. His blog had photos of him with a lady. I had always imagined Hutchison as a crazy inventor who has trouble socializing. I suspect that since I had been his fan since like 6th or 7th grade, I had started to associate myself with this image, too. Eventually I think I forgot about the fact that I did, and started mistaking this image for myself.

Anyway, today at some point I felt that the issue had been resolved. I wonder if perhaps this was also related to the clinic dream.

Dream: Fireworks

I decided to face some of my old fears. Had a dream where I found some of my old weapons but as I touched one of them, it caught fire. I knew it would start firing at some point, but I didn't know when. I put it into a hole in the ground, where I thought it would be the least probable that it causes harm to anyone. I also added some bricks and stuff around it, to prevent it from bouncing around or changing its aim.

I ducked and took cover. Then a couple of other people took over securing the weapon. Anyway, it fired like 10 shots and then went quiet. Some of these shots hit the boxes in the apartment but didn't cause any harm, for which I was really grateful.

Dream: Clinic

Last night I had a dream where I was waiting with my eye problem at a clinic. Since the clinic was closed at night, I was just waiting there in the dark corridors. The eye didn't hurt but it was really blurry and didn't function according to my expectations.

Roosterprank

Feng Shui

Slept with my head towards South for about a week. Felt dead tired. Then slept with my head towards North for about a week. Felt good. Slept with my head towards South for a a couple of hours. Felt dead tired. Turned around and started feeling better again in about half an hour.

Not sure if this is just about the orientation, or the fact that the WiFi access point is at the Southern end of the couch. The couch is less comfy to sleep on with the head towards North, though. Moreover, light from the corridor shone on my face while sleeping with my head towards North.

Maybe Feng Shui works?

I wonder if it works different in different regions on Earth. Does it have something to do with the magnetic field?

Hat

Lost my hat last Friday at the office. I suspected that perhaps the hole at the bottom of the pocket had grown to match the cross section of the hat. Anyway, the hat was gone. I looked for it everywhere (including the floor).

Visited a colleague to play board games in the evening. Unstable Unicorns and The Mind. The Mind seemed quite interesting for mind-reading practice.

Today morning the hat had been put nicely on the clothes shelf. None of the colleagues knew anything about it, so I guess I owe my gratitude to the janitor.

Red rooster

I think it was more than a week ago or so that I had another dream where things caught fire and it was getting out of control.

That time the floor was covered in important papers, sister's notepapers which I had been scanning to save these from her cat's parfume. Anyway, these kept catching fire and I felt helpless. Though, at some point it occurred to me that shuffling the papers works. The flames were extinguished as I buried the burning papers underneath other papers.

Just as I had solved the puzzle, the dream changed. A red rooster hopped around, laughing at their prank.

Elevator

Happened to read about the Elisa Lam's case again.

Had a couple of interesting dreams.

Dream: Hotel

I was at a hotel again. I had been there a lot, and I decided to rant about what I found annoying about such dreams.

No matter what I tried, I could not get back to the same floor. There were always these small details which did not match. Once there is a room on the N-th floor, then the next time I go, there is no such room there. Because of this, I would never know where I am, and for most of the dream I would be looking for a place which no longer exists.

Someone then said that whether I liked it or not, I would be moved higher and higher up the floors. Eventually I would reach the top floor (which in the dream was 15th, I think) and there would no longer be a place to go.

In the dream I knew this referred to spiritualism.

Dream: Reverse debugging on a new hardware

A new architecture was announced for the embedded. It came out with proper toolchain support and everything (very unreal). Anyway, while enthusiastically talking to a girl about it, I mentioned GDB reverse debugging. Some guy had also been listening in, and asked me what it was good for. Both of them had only used print statements in the code for debugging and had not used multithreading. Described the benefits of reverse debugging a multithreaded application.

While the whole argumentation and everything was perfectly lucid and all, I failed to remember acronyms. At some point I wanted to reference FPGA with soft-cores but I could not recall what these things were called.

I guess there's still a lot of memory which has not yet been replicated from the physical body.

Hypnagogic flash of light

Tried visualizing an imaginary gf. It seemed to have worked for a couple of days. The body's healing processes seemed to have sped up quite a bit, and the energy intensity was almost constantly very close to the limits of what I thought I could handle.

Then at some point it stopped working. Eventually I realized my mistake. I suspect that I wasn't capable of visualizing a completely unknown person. The mind probably picked someone who looked or acted the most similar. That's not what I had in mind, so I tried to undo it.

Relaxed, visualized the bond, and then ::blinding flash of light::, and the bond was not there anymore. I wonder if the flash of light was some sort of energy freed from the bond, or maybe I just lost consciousness / fell asleep for a moment and saw a bright hypnagogic image or something? I've experienced this flash of light before but I still haven't figured out what it is exactly.

Something obvious

Realized (insert title) again today.

Instead of crashing into what the gravity is pulling towards, it sometimes makes sense to just orbit it, instead. When too close to the golden veil, this world seems fake and meaningless. It's the same when too close to the veil of darkness. But one doesn't need to bob back and forth between the light and darkness.

I don't think I've explored the realm sideways much as of yet. There's probably a lot still to be learned just by walking the edge of the blade without leaning too much to either side. It should even be possible to gradually lean in one or the other direction ever so slightly, while maintaining full control without falling. The more used to the balance, the more I could probably tilt without losing ground. This should make it possible to use either of the influences, depending on the situation. Pretty much exactly what I had in mind with the monochrome flower or gray-robed wizard avatars / visualizations.

This would easily solve the incompatibility of the spiritual path and the other path(s). This way none of them would be in conflict with each-other and I could freely do what I've always wanted to. Now it seems strange again that something this simple only occurred to me now.

Local anomalies

One day while taking a daily nap on the couch in the living room at the summerhouse, I heard aunt cursing in a way which would've been quite unlike her. As I opened my eyes, I didn't see aunt anywhere nearby.

I read some Quincy patents (negative mass and wormholes to hyperspace) and found that it fits together with Meyl and my prior interpretations. Had a chat about vorticular fields with uncle. He described a couple of anomalies which he had experienced, close to the summerhouse.

Green fog

There was a stone, which had made him feel strange. While fixing a fence over there, he felt being drained of energy. One day he had tried to meditate while sitting on the stone. It had been difficult for him to concentrate, as his mind was constantly filled with a green fog of some sort.

He showed me the spot, and it made me feel a bit nauseated. Not a very good place for meditating, imho. I did not attempt to.

No clue what could've been wrong with that place. Though, at some point we find an iron stone close by.

Heap of stones

While camping at another spot, uncle had seen / dreamt of flying saucers. He also described a close encounter in which the working mechanism of a saucer was explained to him.

Over the years, things had changed around that spot. In the meantime, a Sorbus tree had died and fallen, and the heap of stones had grown a bit. He had slept with his head towards the East (in reference to how Shamans sleep), I think.

Instead of dreaming of alien tech, I decided to camp there to help resolve my own issues. The first time I thought I would go and meditate there, sister called. Then during the call, my eye started to hurt and kept running water. Sister's phone call lasted for uncomfortably long, too. Tried my best to endure but had to leave after the phone call. Failed to meditate that day. Set up camp because of this.

Without thinking much about it, I slept with my head towards North (in reference to how yogis sleep, or how Thoth slept). I think that for Shamans it's important to explore the astral as much as possible. Though, yogis would probably prefer to "condense" their consciousness instead of spreading it across the astral.

Most of my dreams were nothing special. There were a few things which stood out, though.

Dream: Brain surgery

A surgeon girl showed me some new equipment. She set up a bunch of cuboid blocks on the table, then tweaked their frequencies and connected them to a hand-held probe of sorts. Instead of cutting tissues, she pointed light with specific frequencies at different regions of the tissues.

I think the idea was that neurons not only react to electrical signals, but to optical signals as well. She also explained that localization and pointing accuracy were not all that important, for since nothing would be damaged by the optical signals, the brain would readjust itself and recover in just a day or two.

Dream: Spinning crystal

The dream itself was about something else - me and someone else were traveling. I decided to continue along some railroad tracks but happened to take a brief pause.

During the pause, I took a big magnet like what Theoria Apophasis had and put it on the ground. I then took a tiny crystal, put it on top of the magnet and spun it. It roamed across the magnet in an interesting way and I found it fun to observe.

Someone else appeared and placed a similar magnet on the ground. He then took a large crystal, put it on top of the magnet and spun it. The crystal was large enough for me to notice what was going on within the crystal. It looked as if the crystal spanned at least 4 or 5 dimensions instead of 3. The crystal was not only spinning in the first 3 dimensions, for its projection onto 3D space was morphing (it changed shape). This was even more fun to observe, even though I couldn't quite comprehend what was going on.

Faraday's unipolar generator

During the holidays, I experimented a bit with a variation of the Faraday unipolar generator from another one of Meyl's papers:
http://www.rexresearch.com/meylscalar/FaradayorMaxwell.pdf

Basically, a rotating permanent magnet, with one brush at the axis, and another one at the outer rim of the magnet. I re-used some pieces from a previous generator experiment.

Despite the fact that I tried it at a rather miniature scale (magnets of either 1 cm or 2 cm diameter), I got an output voltage which depended on magnetic field strength and magnet diameter according to Faraday's induction law. I didn't have a load on the output and the signal was rather noisy, though. It was probably that noisy because of misalignment between the motor and magnet axes.

I found it more interesting, though, that as I moved the motor + magnets away from the brushes, the signal remained (with reduced amplitude). The output amplitude displayed dependency on the angle between the axis of the motor + magnets, and that of the brushes.

While K. Meyl and a few others seem to suggest that the Faraday unipolar generator in such a configuration would not produce changes in the magnetic flux, I would guess that it still might. I think that in a permanent magnet, not all the magnetic domains are perfectly aligned, and that one could consider each domain as an individual magnet with its own edge / rim effects. The magnetic domains at a distance from the spin axis, however, would indeed have translatory motion and could potentially cause a change in the magnetic flux. But then again, the change would probably not be very large, and would average out.

Disregarding magnetic flux, there's also Lorentz force on electrons which would be on translational motion due to the magnet spinning. How this would be interpreted from the perspective of Meyl's vortex physics, I don't know. Would need to play more with vortex physics.

An interesting experiment, also showing a difference between the magnetic field at the middle vs. around the rim of a magnet:

The same dude also experimented with a gyroscope:

By the "Tesla motor," he probably meant the classical Faraday unipolar generator in which a copper disk is spinning in a static magnetic field (clicky).

Meyl

At a webinar at work, we were shown this video:

I found it inspiring, but not for teamwork nor physics. I started to wonder whether this applied to psychokinesis and if it did, then how.

Yesterday it occurred to me that the dark veil also seems to be sticky, perhaps just in a slightly different way. Anyway, from that it seems that the veils are not opposites nor are they fundamental.

For a while I've also been pondering about scalar waves and vortices. Since I found one of Meyl's papers (clicky) to be rather inspiring (though, disappointingly short), I looked for more. Ordered some of his books and then stumbled upon his paper "About Vortex Physics and Vortex Losses". Already halfway through, I've found it quite awesome. A lot of strange phenomena suddenly makes more sense. While it's really simple, it would've probably taken me ages to connect the dots.

Stuff

Recently I've been having some increased psi intensity, sometimes with a mild headache and nausea (due to blockages in the channels). There have also been moments with waves of heat propagating up the body.

While sitting in the lotus pose a couple of days ago, the cat curled onto my feet. Though, at some point the cat suddenly leaped off, looking at me with surprise. I suspect it might've been one of those heat waves propagating through the body which maybe caused the cat to feel weird.

I built up the density of psi surrounding the body again, for I realized that it helps with healing. I also realized that the issue with the left eye wasn't an issue with the left eye, it's still nothing more than an indicator for issues elsewhere in the body.

Occasionally I've happened to focus on the standing wave in the central channel. This usually builds up psi intensity really quickly (and results in the headache and nausea).

Watched Doctor Sleep yesterday and it was awesome. Most of it fit very well with past experiences and impressions of how things worked. Though, imho the thing with people hunting people with powers seemed like something out of the ancient times. While perhaps realistic, I don't think they would stand a chance against proper spiritual development in real life. It would simply be too overwhelming for them.

Edit: Ah, almost forgot. Wanted to note down that today morning I saw the Crookes radiometer spinning in sunlight. I had already convinced myself that I had probably broken it. It seems that I was mistaken, and perhaps the stasis field has finally worn off after all these years.


An interesting dream from a few weeks ago.

Dream: Homeless kids

During the pandemic, Grandma liked to visit their summer house and cook food there. She always cooked in large quantities. I wondered why was that.

At some point, a lot of homeless children revealed themselves. For most of the time, they simply remained hidden.

While there were police patrols nearby, thus far the homeless kids had gone unnoticed.

Mission

Today I think I realized what it was that I was doing, and that it was the right thing. I had been a bit unhappy with myself because of spending that much time chatting with people on social platforms.

Today on one of the servers, someone mentioned that the suicide rate has increased considerably due to the lockdowns, and that it will probably still keep rising for a while. It clicked. I've been trying my best to support people in difficulties.

I wonder how come I've missed something this obvious.
Anyway, I think I'm somewhat more content with myself now.

Maybe it's not yet time for other stuff, and trying to force myself to do anything "more productive" as a hobby would be counter-productive, instead?

2012

Argh, woke with the left eye in pain again at about 4 AM. Washing the eye nor applying eye drops helped. Had to sit through the pain for about an hour again. Eye sight is blurry again for a couple of days now.

Discord chat history

About a week ago, had a Discord chat with someone about spirituality and what the universe seems to be like. Anyway, at some point I said that I should probably meditate instead of talking about such things, for talking about these things made me too excited (for there's almost nobody to talk to about these kinds of things).

He then posted that for him the history of that particular discussion vanished. For me it was still there (and still is).

2012

I thought a bit about my post from yesterday and realized something about 2012. Already in 2010 and 2011 I found it somewhat easy to "see" the golden veil / fog. I think it was in early 2012 that there was an ecstatic day when everything seemed to have been enveloped by this golden fog.

Remembered that I had read about there being a day of soul harvest at the end of each great cycle of the Mayan calendar. I think I read it somewhere that the plan was to accelerate the development of mankind (has taken enough full cycles already, time to wrap things up). While I could've left as well, I decided to stay and maybe help if I can.

Due to this, I can't expect for my 1st path to still be the same. It would probably be more difficult for me to find my way beyond the veil, and it would be somewhat immature of me to even attempt to, given my decision. Thus, the 1st path is not a problem. I'm free to take as much as I like from that path, but there wouldn't be much of a point for me to pursue it any more than my health or well-being requires.

Discrimination of info

Tried relighting the heart chakra and realized some mistakes which I had made on the Discord server. Apologized, and while doing so, realized some more about myself and the issues which I've been having for a while.

Today it occurred to me that one of the reasons why I don't really fit in anywhere is a concept which most people seem to be missing. I've been using this quote from Bhagavad Gita as a signature at the psychokinesis forum for many years:

A stable-minded person will neither hug nor hate the world, he will take things as they come.

It seems that generally people only want to hear happy news. It's as if they thought that all problems would disappear if they simply ignore them. For example, a lot of people refuse to read any news regarding the Corona virus because the news would make them feel bad.

Yesterday the neighbour visited again. This time was a bit different, though, for we got to discuss things. He had the idea that a lot of problems would disappear if TV, radio, internet were to disappear. That these media were only a means of propaganda and brainwashing. I tried to explain to him that mankind wasn't ready for a global network of telepathy and empathy yet, and that the internet was simply a technological alternative for the time being. I don't think I managed to convey it in a way which he could grasp.

Quite often when people say something which makes them upset or emotional. At times like these, I would point out that they're emotional simply because they're missing some of the viewpoints. However, when I describe some other viewpoint, it probably only upsets them even more .. for they don't want to hear it. They want to stay in the bubble where only their viewpoint is correct. Me trying to correct people in order to point out the multiple facets to everything is probably what causes problems in fitting in.

Ideas from dreams

There have been a couple of thought-provoking (in my opinion, at least) dreams which I've meant to post about.

Dream: Interpretation of a black hole

I was working on something while someone approached my table from my right and asked how I thought a black hole worked. I then described an idea based on the assumption of an aether (officially disproven in late 1800s). Moreover, it assumes that aether has friction against mass or charge.

You could take a mass (probably charged) and gradually spin it up to an angular rate high enough to close the loop of rotating aether. The closed loop would be the event horizon.

Dream: Grounding issue

I was debugging some kind of an amplifier for some kind of a measurement equipment. Hooked it up and found that its output saturated sometimes when I moved magnets or something ferromagnetic around. Realized that the device did not get good enough ground connection through the cable. Attached auxiliary ground and it worked without issues.

Engineers typically consider common mode effects a nuisance. However, maybe for some zero-point generators they could be quite important not to filter it out.