The left fireplace

Had an unannounced busy weekend with a visit to grandparents. At some point in the morning there was a smell of something burning. Later it turned out that it was coming from the chimney, as the hatch was open. Nobody had been using the chimney for a great many years, so we were surprised. After coming back home, yesterday evening I was feeling a bit down over my lack of dating skills and had difficulties falling asleep. I tried relaxing the body and found a new way of doing that.

I visualized a laser from the root chakra to regions within the body. The laser would heat up the body parts and release tension / stress as it illuminates them. This worked surprisingly well.

Though, soon after, I started getting waves of heat going up the body but mostly on the left side of the body. Additionally, I was seeing yellow or golden rings shrinking in front of my closed eyes. This was while I was laying in the bed on my right side. As I rolled over, the heat waves were still on the left side but I stopped seeing the rings of light. The waves of heat came from the feet up to the throat chakra but rarely beyond it. In the regions washed over by the waves of heat, it felt calm, soothing and a bit blissful. I was sweating a lot.

Today morning I'm feeling increased energy density in and just above the head.

Picture frame

Furniture around me has been making some sounds again recently. I think it was 3 times today, two snapping sounds and while I was chatting with mom in the kitchen, we heard something move in the cupboard.

Some time later I was in the living room, with the cat on top of the cupboard in the same room. The cat hopped down from there, bringing an old painting and a certificate down with him. Luckily, the frame of the painting survived. It was just the frame of the certificate which broke.

Recently I've been feeling like spending more time alone, meditating instead of chatting with people. Not very long ago, this also manifested in a dream where I found myself just staring at an object, meditating.

I think while celibacy might've been helpful in healing at first, I've started to suspect that sexual energy which has piled up and become stale, has caused other health issues. Since I haven't been (and still amn't) particularly keen on transforming it for psychokinesis nor spiritual developments, it has probably failed to serve much of a purpose. By focusing it on psychokinesis and spiritual developments, I suspect that I would end up the same way as I did about 10 years ago ... without motivation and enthusiasm to remain in this material world. This would conflict with my other two paths.

Last night I focused on the spot which has pained me for a couple of weeks. Quite a bit of heat and energy was released. This went on for most of the night, so I didn't sleep all that well. Woke with a bit of eye pain as well (I thought it had healed already a while ago).

Heat and Glitches

Lost a bunch of energy in a dream a couple of nights ago. I've been feeling nervous for the past couple of days for some reason. Today I felt the heat reach the back of the eyeballs.

I'm used to the snapping and cracking sounds around me. However, a couple of nights ago when the cat slept on me, he startled each time something like this happened.

In the recent weeks, it has happened a couple of times that the UPS-es started beeping at night. I think it was on Monday that one of the UPS-es powered itself off after this happened. I probably ought to replace its batteries but I haven't seen it power itself off before. The previous time there was a brief power outage (during Christmas), it just caused all the equipment to reboot (and my home network to obtain a new IP address).

Avatar of strands

Received a letter from my neighbour today. Two Christmas cards, one with some awesome dark and mysterious poetry, the other for Mom.

Dad visited with a cake on Sunday. While we were chatting, I practised maintaining a clear mind. At some point, there was a really loud cracking sound. We were all startled, and started to wonder what might've broken. I thought it was the tea jug, but it turned out to be just a strand of hair on the external surface of the jug. The strand of hair legit looked like a crack in the glass.

I failed to find anything else which might've produced the sound.

I think it was Monday evening that I analyzed what it was that sometimes made me feel disgusted about the human body. Some time at night I realized that it was basically something akin to karma accumulated in the body. So it wasn't the human body itself which triggered disgust, I think it was more the non-physical things which had been stored in the body. Moreover, these things themselves were also not disgusting, but rather the thoughts, memories or interpretations which for me associated to these.

In a sense, the body (or any object, for that regard) could be likened to a shelf of mental constructs. Or to an avatar which represents a plethora of concepts. I remembered that I could refresh my avatar simply by concentrating on the feelings which I wanted it to portray.

During the past couple of days, I've been pumping psi up the central channel. Developed a headache at first, again. The heat has also increased quite a bit, and last night I must've had too much energy to sleep through the night. From about 2 AM to 5 AM or so, I kept turning sides, hoping that I would fall asleep again.

Deep waters

Recently I've been experiencing waves of heat radiating from the body again.

Due to the lucky numbers spiking recently, I worked from home again on Monday. Felt quite weird, as if I were in multiple places simultaneously. I felt as if I was on the island, just outdoors, in the living room, as well as in some foreign places. Felt somewhat floaty.

I think it was Tuesday night that I saw the cat everywhere in my dreams, which is quite rare.

Dream: Swimming

Deep waters are dangerous. Though, I figured that if I move around all the time, then I could perhaps remain afloat. There were a few other people swimming around in the water as well.

Dream: High pressure on minerals

A sleeping chemist (female) was visiting, and then father came for a visit as well. Father asked her if she had worked with some sort of a specific acid. While asleep, she replied that she hadn't, that she had worked more with salts and minerals. Father then said he had read something interesting: by applying high mechanical pressure on some specific non-radioactive salts, a nuclear reaction was triggered.

Me an old asocial pum? Maybe not?

A couple of weeks ago, me and mom both felt as if we had had an extra day in the week (somewhere between Tuesday and Wednesday, I guess). Then the week after, both of us felt as if we had missed a day. This week mom also felt like she had missed a day, but I no longer did. For me, this week was nominal.

Another "friend" found a girlfriend. My hunch says it's the real deal for him.

Also, while looking for some photos of Hutchison's old apartment, I stumbled upon a blog of his. His blog had photos of him with a lady. I had always imagined Hutchison as a crazy inventor who has trouble socializing. I suspect that since I had been his fan since like 6th or 7th grade, I had started to associate myself with this image, too. Eventually I think I forgot about the fact that I did, and started mistaking this image for myself.

Anyway, today at some point I felt that the issue had been resolved. I wonder if perhaps this was also related to the clinic dream.

Dream: Fireworks

I decided to face some of my old fears. Had a dream where I found some of my old weapons but as I touched one of them, it caught fire. I knew it would start firing at some point, but I didn't know when. I put it into a hole in the ground, where I thought it would be the least probable that it causes harm to anyone. I also added some bricks and stuff around it, to prevent it from bouncing around or changing its aim.

I ducked and took cover. Then a couple of other people took over securing the weapon. Anyway, it fired like 10 shots and then went quiet. Some of these shots hit the boxes in the apartment but didn't cause any harm, for which I was really grateful.

Dream: Clinic

Last night I had a dream where I was waiting with my eye problem at a clinic. Since the clinic was closed at night, I was just waiting there in the dark corridors. The eye didn't hurt but it was really blurry and didn't function according to my expectations.

Roosterprank

Feng Shui

Slept with my head towards South for about a week. Felt dead tired. Then slept with my head towards North for about a week. Felt good. Slept with my head towards South for a a couple of hours. Felt dead tired. Turned around and started feeling better again in about half an hour.

Not sure if this is just about the orientation, or the fact that the WiFi access point is at the Southern end of the couch. The couch is less comfy to sleep on with the head towards North, though. Moreover, light from the corridor shone on my face while sleeping with my head towards North.

Maybe Feng Shui works?

I wonder if it works different in different regions on Earth. Does it have something to do with the magnetic field?

Hat

Lost my hat last Friday at the office. I suspected that perhaps the hole at the bottom of the pocket had grown to match the cross section of the hat. Anyway, the hat was gone. I looked for it everywhere (including the floor).

Visited a colleague to play board games in the evening. Unstable Unicorns and The Mind. The Mind seemed quite interesting for mind-reading practice.

Today morning the hat had been put nicely on the clothes shelf. None of the colleagues knew anything about it, so I guess I owe my gratitude to the janitor.

Red rooster

I think it was more than a week ago or so that I had another dream where things caught fire and it was getting out of control.

That time the floor was covered in important papers, sister's notepapers which I had been scanning to save these from her cat's parfume. Anyway, these kept catching fire and I felt helpless. Though, at some point it occurred to me that shuffling the papers works. The flames were extinguished as I buried the burning papers underneath other papers.

Just as I had solved the puzzle, the dream changed. A red rooster hopped around, laughing at their prank.

Root vibration

This is something which has been there on/off for years. Sometimes I've thought it's the phone vibrating because someone's calling me or something. Though, usually when I've checked, there haven't been any unanswered calls. As an alternative, I've thought it's some sort of nerve damage due to which some muscles are vibrating sometimes.

Today things have been somewhat different from the usual. This vibration has appeared and disappeared almost every 10 seconds or so, each time lasting for a few seconds. Moreover, the frequency of the vibration is constant, and surprisingly precise.

As a consequence, it feels like bindu throughout the body are also affected.

Apartment cleanup

It has been taking a while, and will probably take some more. I'm glad that mom and sister are patient and cooperative.

In my attempts to raise my HP, I've been battling the issues which I've kept tucked away throughout the years. Sometimes things have gotten quite emotional for me. While most of it doesn't have anything at all to do with her, for some reason, sister has been having precognitive dreams of said battles. I'm glad that the eye medicine has helped to make the eye less sensitive to emotions.

For a couple of times, random people in my dreams asked why the heck I wasn't practising levitation. A bit annoyed, I picked it up for a while. It is helpful / important in raising the HP, too. Not only does it reduce inertia, but it also reduces the friction within the body. This practice has also strengthened the upward flow of psi quite a bit again.

Some days ago I had a typical tummo-related dream where my presence powered some power tools. There have also been crackling noises from the furniture again. Also, one night a blackout occurred right when I opened my eyes. Phone has sometimes behaved strange, and yesterday it shut down during a call with my aunt. I've also been having rather frequent issues with payment terminals at shops. Today I wiped off some dust from the laptop screen and it caused a refresh & redraw of the underlying application window.

Today morning I had a dream where someone was investigating the phenomena of objects moving or floating around randomly in an old barn house. I told them not to worry about it, for it was normal.

I know that the cat enjoys the air humidifier. Recently I witnessed the cat switch it on (by turning the knob). While it was probably accidental (I don't think the cat actually meant to switch it on), it looked cool.

There's something which I've been meaning to post for a while. When I've visited the bathroom, I've sometimes leaned my head against the door. At that spot, there are a lot of bumps in the paint, highlighting the spot. I don't remember there being that many bumps. Perhaps there used to be just a few but that's it.

Stuff

Recently I've been having some increased psi intensity, sometimes with a mild headache and nausea (due to blockages in the channels). There have also been moments with waves of heat propagating up the body.

While sitting in the lotus pose a couple of days ago, the cat curled onto my feet. Though, at some point the cat suddenly leaped off, looking at me with surprise. I suspect it might've been one of those heat waves propagating through the body which maybe caused the cat to feel weird.

I built up the density of psi surrounding the body again, for I realized that it helps with healing. I also realized that the issue with the left eye wasn't an issue with the left eye, it's still nothing more than an indicator for issues elsewhere in the body.

Occasionally I've happened to focus on the standing wave in the central channel. This usually builds up psi intensity really quickly (and results in the headache and nausea).

Watched Doctor Sleep yesterday and it was awesome. Most of it fit very well with past experiences and impressions of how things worked. Though, imho the thing with people hunting people with powers seemed like something out of the ancient times. While perhaps realistic, I don't think they would stand a chance against proper spiritual development in real life. It would simply be too overwhelming for them.

Edit: Ah, almost forgot. Wanted to note down that today morning I saw the Crookes radiometer spinning in sunlight. I had already convinced myself that I had probably broken it. It seems that I was mistaken, and perhaps the stasis field has finally worn off after all these years.


An interesting dream from a few weeks ago.

Dream: Homeless kids

During the pandemic, Grandma liked to visit their summer house and cook food there. She always cooked in large quantities. I wondered why was that.

At some point, a lot of homeless children revealed themselves. For most of the time, they simply remained hidden.

While there were police patrols nearby, thus far the homeless kids had gone unnoticed.

Left hemisphere on fire

Since the meditation on Saturday, my left hemisphere (and left nostril) had been inactive. For the past couple of days I've been trying to boot the left hemisphere again.

The few times successful boots there has been a fairly intense flow of psi up the left side of the spine, in addition to the left side of the body producing a lot of heat. Occasionally I've felt something melt again in the centre of the brain, helping to calm the body.

The left eye has also been acting a bit strange recently. While the left side of the body was producing a lot of sweat, the left eye started to hurt due to dehydration.

Dream: Blood circulation

A dream from Monday morning. I was shown a prototype of some kind of a setup at a lab. In a plexi-glass cuboid, there were all sorts of tubes and pipes and a pump which acted as the heart. I was amazed. Then someone else entered the lab. They were amazed how efficient this system would be when adapted for producing artificial blood.

Dream: Stage

I don't know why but these kinds of dreams are rather common. For some reason, I sneak backstage to hide (otherwise stand out too much). While there, everyone would try to get me to the stage to perform.

That aside, a friend got a kid recently and this friend showed up in the dream. He was really tired, though. He listened to the concert for some time, then took a tent and went to sleep in the dream.

Stuffed

For the past few days I've been visualizing love and warmth in the heart chakra. This has occasionally caused waves of heat to propagate up the body.

Sunday evening I suddenly felt sorry for myself. That night I had a dream where I slept in a room with a lot of noise. When I woke up in the morning, I felt a bit floaty. It felt as if the head were stuffed and any sound stimulated the crown chakra.

Yesterday I focused on getting work done quickly and efficiently. While stressful, I was surprised to see that I could do that again. This feature probably depends on the heart chakra a lot. Ended up feverishly debugging a non-existing problem, though.

Friends?

Last night I had a slightly disturbing dream. For some reason, a former friend started throwing knives at me, laughing. I dodged them, picked one up, transformed it into a small rock and threw it at him. It hit his head and the dream ended.

Gas stove

Yesterday evening I sometimes felt someone or something breathing onto my neck. When I turned around, there was nothing behind me.

Woke with eye pain again. It took time before the eye drops started having any effect. Consumed some garlic, just in case.

Dream: Gas stove

Last night I saw a lit gas stove three times throughout the dreams. The first two times I tried to switch it off because it was dangerous. Each time more of the burners were lit than the previous time. The third time I smelled something burning, went to the kitchen and saw all the burners fully lit. Since I had switched it off several times already, I figured that it had to be a dream. So, instead of switching it off, I cranked all the burners up to the maximum and visualized the effect on the energy channels in the body. Then cranked the burners back to how they were.

Minor stuff 2

During the past few days I've been seeing power surges (lamps suddenly flicking brighter and then returning to normal). It wasn't just me seeing them, another colleague also stared at the lamps with a disapproving look.

People have been leaving that Discord server left and right, without saying anything. It hurts the ego but improves detachment.

Mind has been becoming a bit more clouded again and tensions within the body have been creeping back. While there has been less tummo, I've at least gotten more actual sleep.

100th anniversary of the national university. Went to see the march. Took photos but due to the lack of light and motion (large ISO and low exposure time), they don't look too good. At the last stop of the march, there was an art installation with animations projected onto the wall of the ruins of the cathedral. It looked awesome.

I had not accounted for the whole event lasting this long and was not dressed accordingly. Shivered a lot, and tried to make the body produce more heat with a breathing exercise. At least it was more-or-less uniformly cold, so I don't think there would be a body part protesting against such abuse.

The sound and animations were so good sometimes that I got shivers and goosebumps which unfortunately was the last thing I was looking for in the cold. Overall, the animations were about the history of the university. It was a pleasant surprise that a project with my contribution was also shown as part of the national history.

Once the show was over, I avoided shops with hot drinks and ran a bit to improve the blood circulation again. Not sure but a hot drink might've caused a thermal gradient across the organs which could've been more harmful?

Feng-palm

With these realizations occurring, tension loosened and waves of heat engulfed more of the chest. Smaller issues burned and let the fire spread further. However, with the more significant blockages gone (consequence of the realizations), prana could make its way from the tail up to the top of the head.

Last night it took me a while to fall asleep because of the heat and the constant release and burning of old thoughts, thought patterns, emotions. I would fall asleep and then startle awake for hours.

Dream: Dog-Cat

Eventually I did fall asleep but had sleep paralysis. I was in bed, couldn't move .. at first I just laid there. Then at some point the cat came next to my bed, I think. I think it was the cat, because its presence reminded me of the cat. But this creature made the sound of a large old dog panting while staring at me in the bed. Then a cat's paw creeped up to the blanket but I think that was my imagination because the dog did not move nor did its sound change .. and the cat was not really there. I tried to rise and check the dog but only ended up waking my body again.

The same heat, constant release and burning of thoughts. And, of course, the constant sound of "flames roaring up the chimney" (central channel).

Dream: Feng-palm

Managed to fall asleep again. Someone came, pointed at the bed and showed what a mess it was. I wouldn't have cared much because I was tired, but regardless, I looked at it as well. It looked like a pile of garbage. This someone asked if I had even noticed the worms crawling around. I hadn't, and still couldn't see any .. but while cleaning the bed a bit, I found that underneath the matress there were literally old garbage bags still waiting when they'd be thrown out. Well, I guess the Feng Shui of my bed could be improved a notch (Feng Shui failure aka feng-palm?).

Checked the time, it was less than 2 AM (had gone to bed at 11 PM). After that, I failed at each and every dice roll for sleep. Well, I would have probably gotten some sleep if I didn't have to wake so early.

Alt pastimes

Yay, another flu, apparently. Yesterday could not keep the eyes peeled for more than a minute at a time. Today it doesn't seem to be too much of a problem anymore, but I detect a barely noticeable headache and a fever.

Anyway, a difference which I noticed this time regarding the eye pain. The rear side of the eye hurt instead of the front. The last time I had this issue I had not tried to heal the rear side because that did not hurt.

Since Monday I've minimized the off-work time I spend at the computer screen. But since there are very few things which can be done without a computer screen nowadays, I spent the time sitting, meditating or sleeping.

As has often been the case for me, meditation comes with side-effects. Some of the bodily tensions were released with jolts of pain running through the body. I found it interesting that some of the outbursts of pain followed the model of a regular dampened oscillator. A form of prana flow reached the head and it made the body feel even more at ease.

Sometimes when I closed my eyes, I saw a white vertical column with what looked like heatwaves coming off from its sides. Another image which occurred to me was of an object at room temperature but with a shield of red flames surrounding it on one side. The flames kept a distance from the object, mimicking its shape.

Another side-effect of the meditation was flashbacks of memories and feelings from early childhood, which re-instilled some enthusiasm.

Yet another side-effect was a difference in dreams.

Heat

For the past few weeks I've been releasing the tension in the chest and visualizing hugging it with love.

As a side-effect, I've noticed occasional releases of pain from the body.

Most of my body used to be at ambient temperature for most of the time. Yesterday evening I noticed that a significant amount of heat was emitted from the chest.

As another side-effect, I've noticed that stress is relieved more easily and the mind occasionally becomes clear of thoughts on its own again.

Canoe hike

Enjoyed a 3 h canoe hike with colleagues yesterday.

It was probably about +3 *C without sunshine (for most of the day, at least). I did not have waterproof pants and I had totally forgotten to take gloves. The paddles had metal handles. I also didn't have rubber boots. While being driven to the starting point, I tried to somehow mentally prepare the body for what it was about to experience.

Eventually though, had to even remove one of the jacket (had 2 jackets, a hoodie and a shirt) because it became too hot while paddling around. I was actually glad that I hadn't brought gloves - it would've probably been colder with wet gloves. Also decided to remove boots and socks because my feet were sweating and I know that when this happens, it's very easy to catch cold.

Overall, it was awesome and it only made my body feel so much better.

While on our way back home, I saw the sunset and thought of asking the colleagues whether they had heard about the green flash. Considered it too insignificant and kept blabbing on conspiracies and conspiracy theories. Then at some point looked back at the sunset and it had turned into a vertical beam. Pretty cool.

Dream: Chubby haxor

There was some kind of a chubby girl in front of an expensive PC setup who asked for my help in finding and fixing some bugs. I knew she was working on sinister software for getting through the security of some kind of services. She tried various different ways of attracting me towards the monitor to look at the code. Normally I try to avoid judging people and remain helpful no matter what. However, this time when I got to within a few meters, a tiny green snake started slithering towards me. While keeping my view fixed on the snake, I slowly backed up. The snake pushed me to a distance of what seemed like 20 or 30 meters. The snake looked friendly and did not have any intention of harming me, instead, it seemed as if it were guiding me out of danger.

Today morning it turned out that one of our servers had been hacked (some software-specific exploit).

Red hands

Felt sick while going to work in the morning. Also felt slightly nauseous at the bus. Figured I had probably caught cold on the previous days (it was somewhat wet, windy and chilly sometimes).

Today while coding at work I randomly looked at my hands for a moment and suddenly remembered something which I haven't experienced.

The flashback:

• I'm standing outside with just a T-shirt and the weather is as cold as it is at the moment (spring weather, windy and perhaps a few degrees).
• Thanks to tummo, it's not cold for me. The body feels perfectly calm and healthy. There's quite a bit of heat radiating from my body.
• My hands look abnormally red. The blood circulation is better than it has ever been before.
• There's also the familiar feeling of seeing things for what they are.
• Though, I feel slightly older as well.

Thus far, my blood circulation has typically been such that my hands have been at ambient temperature.

Why I may have witnessed this scene somewhere before (such as a dream or something), I probably semi-subconsciously blocked it because my hands looked so freaking bloody red.

Some dude is coming to country to teach the Wim Hof method. It's not Hof himself and the event costs quite a lot .. I won't go. In my opinion, these things lose their value when there's a lot of people around and when someone is collecting money for it. I know I can learn these things on my own as well.

Had some strange humor again today. What I said seemed totally absurd but actually had meaning. Struggled maintaining a straight face.

Hypnagogia: Blue portal

Two evenings ago just before going to bed I noticed a strange visualization occurring in the back of my mind.

Pitch black darkness. There are 2-3 figures whom I can't see but can sense in the darkness, because they have dark robes.

There's a bright blue portal (or two of them, not sure) which I can both see as well as cannot see because it's covered by a projection of darkness.

I can tell that the portal is meant for these figures that are waiting right next to it. The figures wait for a second or two, then enter the portal one by one.

Since I'm quite close to the portal (at least one of them), I become curious about it. Although it feels as if the portal is not there for me, it doesn't close. I'm about to draw my attention away from it, as it suddenly starts to feel as if the portal is now meant for me to explore.

I stretch an arm and touch the portal. It feels liberating. I slowly step towards it, then eventually step all the way through. There doesn't seem to be anything except darkness on the other side (same as the side from where I had come).

I'm about to fall asleep (due to nothing happening) when suddenly I see a creature in front of me, amidst all the darkness. A large blue non-humanoid creature that looked highly intelligent and in a calm state of mind. I was a bit startled by its looks and the image vanished .. fell asleep.

Minor heat

Met another astronaut. Though, the meeting was a rather short one and had to compress info as much as possible. For that, I assumed that he was already aware of our mission. It turned out that he wasn't, nor was he aware of the technology that we've set out to test. In the end, he probably didn't get a thing that I blabbed about and there was no time to start over and explain everything thoroughly. Sigh.

I suspect that I've become acquainted to higher info density again, which makes it difficult for me to speak normally. Reading books is not good for the social skills.

After watching some cartoons of evil, focused on the feeling of love before bed.

For the first few hours, I had a dream that was difficult to control. Barely made the correct decision and managed to avoid a major leak of jing and probably a bunch of other unfortunate consequences.

Woke with a lot of heat in the abdomen. Had produced a lot of sweat, and had to visit the kitchen in order to absorb some water. Gradually propagated the heat up the central channel, while trying to fall asleep again. Spent 2-3 hours trying, eventually fell asleep again.