A lot has happened, just haven't had the internet / time to post.
Some events that came to mind:
#1
A lot of work to do and hadn't had the time to do anything. Wasn't too happy about it. Anyway, the first lecture that morning. The lecturer targeted me because he thought I was the sulky one (it's a commonly used method to try to get the attention of the worst of the audience as soon as possible). He picked a random person in the audience and let them pick a random number. I knew he would get me. He counted and got me.
- So, he asked me: "What's your mission in life?"
- Me: "I don't have a mission. <long pause> I guess I just go with the flow and do what's fun."
- Teacher: "If you're looking for fun, then you should've gone into show business, instead."
- Audience laughs hard
- Me: "Nah, for me, engineering is fun also."
Next time, the teacher picked a more complex sequence. He took a random person in the audience and let them pick a random number. He counted .. got someone else, who then also had to guess a random number. He counted .. got me again.
- <audience laughs hard>
- Teacher: "It's you again. <looks at the rest of the audience, pointing at me> After the lectures, when this guy steps out of the room, he's gonna win a lottery. <looks back at me> What would you like to have custom made for you?"
- Me: "I don't know. <long pause> The only thing that comes to mind is the optics for <satellite X>" (note that the whole event was the workshop of <satellite X>).
- Audience: "C'mon, no imagination at all? Wtf, dude."
- Teacher: "There's nothing else that you would want?"
- Me: "<long pause> No, I'll stick to the optics."
As it turned out, the teacher was an optics engineer. The lecture was really good but his teacher-tricks didn't make me feel better.
#2
Rainy weather. Someone found a scorpion on the corridor floor and posted it on the FB group. Someone else found scorpions in their bathroom. Glanced at the tiny scorpion in the corridor. It just was, sometimes it walked a bit, then it just was .. again. It felt as if I was looking at myself (I'm a scorpion).
#3
We visited San Marino. A lot of weapon stores (knives, swords, pistols, rifles, automatic rifles, shotguns, etc.). A few stores with T-shirts and caps that had "Obey" written on them in different neon colours. To me, this seemed a bit awkward.
That day they held an archery festival in San Marino. Also there was some sort of a cosplay event or something. Spiderman, batman, batgirl, female Vegeta (from Dragon Ball Z) walked past me. Darth Vader was chatting with some locals there.
#4
A dream. I found myself in Estonia again, wondering how to get back to Italy. However, this time I was not as nervous as the previous times.
#5
Another dream. I'm standing in front of a white wall. To my right there's a window or something. I create a small rectangular frame (looks like a picture frame) on the wall. I then somehow create a portal into the frame. Through the portal, I can see a classroom .. I can even stick my hand into the portal and touch the wall on the other end. Awesome... .... ...
.. .... some sort of a creature appears behind me, to my left. This creature is not human and he glows golden-white. He appeared to teach me something about portals. I let him connect to my mind. A lot of data was transferred, but it was incomprehensive for the rational mind and I can't recall it.
#6
One Saturday I was playing Populous or something, when the fire alarm went off. Ignored it at first. A couple of minutes later I decided to step out to see what's going on. Stepped out
:::click::: Realized that the door closed behind me and I had left my keycard in there. Oh well. Anyway, it seemed that Italians are serious about fire alarms (doors close automatically, a voice instructs in several languages and so on..). After some looking-around, I decided to start walking towards the town centre because the roommate had most likely gone that way. Bumped into my roommate about 50 meters later.
One day I wished I would meet the contact person of
<satellite
X>. The next day the contact person was replacing someone else and
giving the lectures.
One day I wished I would meet
another person from the company involved in the development of
<satellite X>. The next day he was giving a practical.
Synchronicity is very helpful.
#7
The lights were pulsing occasionally (in both Bertinoro as well as in Forli). Often got entrained and flickered them semi-subconsciously.
#8
Ah right, in Italy it seems there's a fair, concerts and stuff each Saturday. Bought another Tibetan singing bowl from Bertinoro. This one has a higher pitch than the one we have at home .. it's a lot louder, too.
#9
Lightning is awesome in Italy. There's thunder and everything is bright for hours. In Estonia it rarely strikes and thunder clouds leave really fast.
#10
Wanted to visit the Chinese restaurant there. Just before departure, we were brought to the Chinese restaurant.
Sat next to a colleague. When he was about to take the second glass of sake, I saw in my mind how he would just collapse. After drinking it, he said he felt he was going to collapse for a moment. Discussed his problems with him. For some reason, Estonians and Polish guys were always drunk, shouting rude words and not behaving well. Didn't feel too proud about being from Eastern Europe.
In the restaurant they offered fortune cookies made in Germany. Mine said "Your biggest strength is calmness." The colleague had a message that said he had multiple choices and that sometimes it's better to take a different choice than continue the same path. I was impressed, hopefully he was also.
The next morning I realized the depth of the message in my fortune cookie. Our flight was cancelled. Crowded with nervous people. Felt compassion towards the lady who had to deal with the issue of re-routing flights. Also felt compassion towards a guy because of whom the lady became nervous (if I understood it correctly, it was the only plane for that guy). Noticed his calmness as well as the fact that almost all of his bags had the Om symbol.
For a moment it seemed that some of us won't fit on the next plane, which would have meant 10 more hours of waiting. A couple of miracles later, we still got tickets to the next plane.
In Tallinn, as the first thing, I saw 2 pums so drunk that one of them had puke-blocked the whole road. Then saw 2 more pums, dance-walking around. Right .. Eastern Europe.
#11
Focused on unconditional love towards the trees, ground, air, everything. Previously I couldn't see how this would let me progress, because willpower was always somewhat aggressive.
Some days later I realized I had become aware of another path. I could focus on unconditional love towards myself, while I could still maintain the will to evolve and push my limits. So far I had thought these were mutually exclusive but actually there was no conflict there.
#12
Missed the signals of a big energy leak. Then messed up even further.
Also became anxious about something that evening. After becoming anxious, the emotional background looked more gloomy and it took a lot of effort to find my way back to focusing on unconditional love again.
#13
Yesterday I found that something was different about meditation. It worked out different. Somehow I became more absorbed in myself.
Today I noticed how I became nervous when some people presenting at the conference weren't doing too well. I didn't understand why I would become nervous because of something like that.
Ah, also .. @iMm0rTa1: Have you read "The Universal Medicine" by
Nicholas D. Collette yet? It describes an interesting methodology for producing ORMUS.
Father has done some research into ORMUS in the meanwhile and he has arrived at an interesting theory. He said since it has the effect of negative weight in sunlight and since ocean water contains the most monoatomic gold, it probably rises from the ocean. In
Collette's book, the morning dew is exceptionally important. Near the ocean, morning dew is condensed ocean water. Father also had the idea that perhaps it's not the salt that's so important - maybe salt only helps to extract ORMUS from the dew.
