Too many mind

While walking to school .. uphill at that moment, I guess my bindu point opened up a bit more or something. I suddenly got the familiar feeling of density inside and around my head. With it, more cold fluid flowed into the system and my breathing slowed down from wheezing to barely breathing at all (while still going uphill on slippery ice and snow).

It was rather windy today. Practiced wind redirection, blocking and stasis on school- and homewalks. Success rate has been almost 100% for quite a while already. Well, after mentioning success on car location (which was also about 100% for a few weeks) on the forums, I noticed that my success rate had dropped. With every attempt, my mind was clouded with thoughts on the post .. need to improve on that.

Took a pk rolling attempt on a soda can. Thought I should set camera up and recording just in case. Since it's been a while since I last recorded anything, I got a bit nervous and mind became busy. Occasionally my mind became clear enough and the can started wobbling. Should take it on more seriously when there's more time. Too bad there's a test in microworld physics at the same time as TV crew that will be interviewing students working on the student satellite (would've wanted to participate).

Have been occasionally intending on Treasure Hunter's success with opposing force training on a toy windmill yesterday and today. Sometimes I visualized the situation and attempted pk on it, trying to help him. He had taken a picture of this windmill and I found it interesting that when I first saw the picture, I saw it spinning clockwise. It was later that I read the text - he wanted to make it spin clockwise, as it would normally spin counter-clockwise with the fan.

Amrit oven

Had an interesting dream today morning, though I'm not happy about it at all.

There was a strange oven in the kitchen and I noticed it was on so that the whole room was heated up. With the insides of the oven glowing in heat and slight smoke rising, I quickly turned the knobs to turn it off. The grates and walls inside the oven stopped glowing.

Inside the oven there was a small tank with a nozzle that seemed to have been made of some transparent plastic. It was weird that it had withstood all the heat. Anyway, right as I had turned the oven off, a flame shot out from the nozzle. I tried to blow it out, but it always got on fire again. When the nozzle previously had spots of mold and dirt on it, it all completely burned away. I was getting more and more worried both about the tank melting up, exploding or the transparent liquid inside it burning up.

Removed the tank from the oven and managed to put the flame out. When I did this, some of the fluid started leaking out and I realized that the tank was under pressure. I was about to put the tank on the table to look at how I could fix it, but due to moving the tank with an acceleration, the surface of the liquid became unstable, a lot of fumes built up and it sprayed all over the place.

As the liquid fell on my hands, it was soft, but cold and somewhat superfluous - one drop covered the whole hand. It was more than a material fluid - it felt highly spiritual and densely packed with psi. Being pressurized and with a high fluidity, the tank sprayed completely empty. Then I was like: "NoOooOOO" and loaded the save game again (thought I should be able to do that in the dream).

Well, I couldn't load it and had a wet dream. Woke up to stop the wet dream, as I realized that I had just messed up and emptied my Bindu fluid reserves in the dream (that tank with the cold liquid). Visualized filling the tank up again. It felt as if it really did something - my body and head really felt like being filled with a cold liquid.

The pranayama exercise I did before going to sleep probably pumped more psi and bindu fluid together, resulting in too much pressure for me. Need to work on coping with higher pressures.

Time-stop

Father came home late and we kept chattering on psionics and holographic universe subjects .. until it was 4 AM. He suggested me to practice telepathy on schoolwalks instead of doing it at home, as I had previously suggested we should do. Well, it's correct that I haven't practiced it on schoolwalks lately, but I didn't quite like the answer - it's the same as with all other skills, he avoids teaching me stuff and intends on me learning everything by myself. On the other hand, this is what I also like about his teaching - it clearly emphasizes that a student should be more open-minded than their teacher and should in every way surpass their teacher.

Ah, one more thing that we discussed was retrokinesis. Father didn't believe one could affect the past and on my experiment with applying stasis field on an already recorded video, he thought I might've affected the video instead. When he said this, I realized that I had a mind-block that affecting digital information is so difficult it's nearly impossible. I had failed to realize that with pk on material objects, we also don't focus on moving all molecules, but rather we focus on moving the whole. The same could be done with a video - a new kind of training - using pk to draw shapes on a pre-recorded video.

Meditated before going to sleep. Performed pranayama and khechari mudra again. Lately it has happened more than once that I take a look at the clock projection on the ceiling, meditate for what I think lasts about 30 minutes and when I look back at the clock projection, it hasn't changed. Yesterday night it showed 5.49 (which means it was actually 4.49 AM), then continued with khechari mudra and focused on Sahasrara. After a while of tongue stretching and feeling of psi rocking around in my head and above the top of my head, I looked at the clock again and it still showed 5.49. At first I thought I had remembered the clock wrong, but since it has happened at least twice already, I'm wondering if there's actually something going on.

It could be that when we tap into higher frequencies while meditating, we begin to function so much faster than usual that it would appear as if time had stopped.

Hm, judging by this wiki page on mass deficit and assuming that vacuum is full of high-energy oscillations and rather unstable, one could create matter just by dissipating energy. Now this would be fun to do with pk =D.

Increased sensitivity

Felt quite tired, slept for a couple of times and then started studying for an upcoming test.

Couldn't understand much of what I had written there in the lectures. Anyway, at some point, my mind was overcome in calmness and the only thoughts that were wandering were about the text I was reading. During reading, I occasionally made a few short pauses to think about it, but ended up playing around with pk on the conspectus pages without any thoughts.

While going to the bathroom, I passed by the mirror and I was a bit surprised how well I could feel myself through my reflection in the mirror. I wondered if that's why they consider meditation in front of a mirror being dangerous without the presence of a guru.

I came back and opened the balcony window to let in some fresh air. Thought I could attempt pk on the door via wind manipulation instead of the direct manipulation that I usually practice. The door only budged a little in the intended directions. While looking at the door, I noticed I could see psi rising on the edge of the door. Closed the door manually.

Took a few short attempts on other objects as well and I could see psi rising off a chair, psi moving around on the floor just above the carpet. It looked the same - like a totally transparent smoke that stands out from dark background as if it were slightly glowing. On a bright background it appears as a pattern of brighter and darker areas (just like some kind of a smoke).

Meditated some and thought it would be fun to attempt levitation again (it's been a while since I last tried it). Well, I didn't succeed in lifting off, but something was different from previous times. I developed a feeling that I haven't felt before - it's not the regular feeling of being lifted (though, it's difficult to describe). When I focused on the feeling, it got stronger and I started having the feeling of knowing I would succeed in this. I chickened out aka became too excited and lost the emptiness of my mind.

Robotex '10

Watching Robotex 2010 live. This is the time when robots really become alive, acquire a personality and do how they see fit.

I decided to cheer for the robot of one of my friends that take part in the competition. In the first match, their robot just stood still and did nothing. I wished I would see it moving.

Next match it was moving slowly and kicking golf balls randomly around the field.

Next round, it was still slow but started hitting a few goals. There were matches against faster and more accurate robots, but so far they have won them .. with real funny "coincidences". It was nice to see their faces .. amazed at their luck XD.

I had wished they would get the 4th place .. and they've got it, yay =D.

Not-very-titled

Even though I visualized venting the psi of the food I ate yesterday, I still felt the psi at school today. It made me feel uncomfortable.

For the last few days, the psi density around my head has been rising again even while not practicing anything. While walking to school or back home, the psi density around my head occasionally changed rapidly just like during the OBE step I experienced about 2 weeks ago.

Also, that pranayama exercise I've been doing, I went from intermediate to beginner level and still couldn't keep doing it for very long - this probably means that I'm doing it right or at least better than before.

I've noticed recently that I can concentrate on my consciousness without much effort. Although I haven't meditated much in the Mooji way, I can feel my consciousness and body separately. Perhaps it's a side-effect of performing khechari mudra?

Ah, one thing I've noticed for quite a few times already, but haven't quite understood yet. When I switch the light off, radiometer usually takes a quick burst. I wonder if the lamp somehow bursts before switching off (haven't really seen any flashes while switching it off). Also, when I switch the lamp on, it starts off slow because of some self-sustaining constructs around it. Then why would it quickly gain speed before slowing down when I switch the light off?

Weird diet

Aw, man. I haven't eaten much for a day .. been messing around with a presentation for tomorrow. The weirdest / worst thing is that even though I'm hungry, meat foods make me sick.

At first I thought it was one of those vegetarian waves I have had. Most of these waves usually lasted for a day or two and never longer than that. However, it has now been almost like a month - haven't been able to eat meat very well since I had that flu.

It's strange .. some of my favorite foods don't taste edible anymore .. man, at least I have to eat what I have stuffed up on the plate. Hope I won't throw anything up. Have to taste a small amount of stuff before eating. I was able to eat blood sausages last week and somehow these tasted good.

A month ago or so I wasn't able to last very long without eating at school, I grew really hungry and always ate a lot. Now I barely feel any hunger even when I haven't eaten anything for a day.

Eating only dairy products and sweets, can I really get all the nutrients I need this way? Well, after visiting the gym, the only thing I really want is kefir. During the day I eat curd, muesli, black and white bread.

Got to try khechari mudra when I start feeling hungry. I wonder how long I could stay alive without eating anything like this. Well, I think that with this weird diet continuing, I'll soon be only drinking juice and then eating nothing.