Outsmart deja vu

Today morning, something clicked and started to see more joy in everything. Had suddenly become calm and found beauty in everything again.

Soon after, the fog cleared up and sun came out.

After 3-4 days of designing a file system, got a deja vu that it has all been in vain. Why, I asked .. "that guy would find a serious problem in the design and you'll have wasted a lot of time, getting nowhere." Thought I would outsmart it by asking that guy to review it now. Another deja vu (more faint): "You failed in trying to outsmart me, since he's offline". Yup, offline he seemed, but only by appearance. Hopefully that changed something.

Walked home. It was really pretty outside today. Sun shining, slightly raining with a double rainbow at the direction of home. Sky and water were more blue than before, grass was greener and leaves more yellow.

Remembered the intent to visit the boulders after work. Tried to acquire the feeling of a great boulder there. It felt as if it twitched and changed shape ever so slightly.

Edit: Ah, remembered that I saw a white orb fly around again today. Eyes were focused on the screen when, from the right corner of the eyes, I saw it fly linear and then turn around.

Cultivation

Practised some energy cultivation yesterday. Experienced a slight nausea and a floaty feeling today.

Fallout dream

Was about to try making a psi-ball yesterday evening. Moved the hands close to each other and started to feel a pulsing between the hands. The psi field in the cavity between the hands started resonating at around 6-10 Hz. Noted that hands were close to the heart chakra. Found it more interesting than creating a psi-ball.
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A dream, where I was in some sort of a building near the town centre. There was a nuclear plant at the center. Don't know how or why (Conspiracy? War?), but one of its reactors suddenly went ablaze like a rocket. It looked as if there was no end to this yellow-orange flame. Roughly at a radius of 1 kilometre around the reactor, there was a smaller ring of fire (red), fed by the central flame.

It was raining pretty hard and I wanted to record the event on camera without being touched by this rain with radioactive dust (didn't know if that would harm me in this dream).

Saw an UFO float to the reactor, with a symbol of an ancient god sitting behind the instruments in the device. The craft was dark blue, with the symbol glowing white on the side towards me (the symbol looked planar).

Somehow, this dream reminds me of that bonfire from a while ago:
http://sussch-daweird.blogspot.com/2010/03/art-of-breathing.html
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Observed the wallpaper pattern with the 3rd eye before waking up in the morning.

Felt quite light and floaty in the morning.

Came home and saw an area of the laptop bag handle having a clear blue outline. Had already started to think these blue dots were symptoms of some sort of eye disease.

Fresh psi

It seems that Friday night did heal it.

Received a lot of energy during yesterday's presentation .. cheery people =). Some more encouragement from various sources.

While reading Protector CJ's journal, suddenly regained the feeling of psi on this material plane. For a long time, I had been working on a more subtle plane. A strong feeling of pk appeared.

With a lot of extra psi now, the ice looks pretty thin. A lot of annoyment from all sort of sources.

Managed to read a few pages in a meditative state this morning. Some semi-conscious pk on the pages. Practiced levitation again, too.

Slept about an hour during the day and had a dream, where I slid the laptop on table at work.

Edit: It's not just fresh psi .. some kundalini seems to be moving up the spine as well.

Restaurant dream

A lot of sweat.

Had an interesting dream. Decided to walk home and see how much the surroundings had changed in the meanwhile. Construction workers were installing a new fence around a couple of children playgrounds. Then, some houses in a row with the same architectural planning. Wondered why they always have the windows facing away from the direction of a great view. There was a hillock or something, with a very modernistic looking building on top. This one actually had windows in the direction of a great view, too. Walked in, looking for old acquaintances.

I guess it was called a Leigo restaurant or something. With the music, lighting effects and semi-open-air catering. A really expensive and hi-quality place, going by the looks of it. A lot of people looked familiar, but then I realized I actually didn't know them .. or they didn't know me.

Most of them wore suits and spoke foreign languages only. I guess it was some sort of a conference or a meeting between companies that was taking place and this was where they had supper.

Occupied a free chair at the back, near the stairs. A girl walked in and sat next to me. I guess, one of the organizers recognized her and threw her a golden key (might've been sort of like a ticket to the event). She was pretty surprised .. this meant she didn't have to pay for the event. She had a small company with a budget not too great.

This is a bit weird. Found a spoon from somewhere under the chair and the organizer threw me one of the golden keys too.

Asked her about her company, trying not to spoil the music. It provided some sort of software for distributed computing. She and her brother had started it some time ago. Some more chattering..

Later, I guess we descended the stairs and took a bus somewhere.. woke up.

All in all, everything looked bright and at peace there.

Sick?

I think I feel sick. Well, I guess it's about time .. pretty precisely one year since the last time.

Today morning I found it difficult to wake up. Previous mornings I woke up about an hour before the alarm would ring .. didn't seem to matter when I went to bed. Felt cold and all the muscles still hurt. Found it difficult to do anything intelligent. No appetite.

Almost witnessed a man get run over by a car. Although the subconscious mind told me what was going to happen, I didn't grab him. Found it strange that he didn't smell of alcohol and yet he seemed more drunk than any pums I've seen so far. He was lucky, running around on the street with the red light and heavy traffic. A few more events, seemingly aimed at catching my attention.

Got to be well for tomorrow morning. A presentation coming up.

Brighter

Today was considerably brighter than previous ones. Thanks to everyone, who helped.

Pretty much all of the muscles hurt today. Working in an uncomfortable pose and catching a cold does that.

Had a chat with Protector CJ from the psychokinesis forum. He made smoothie and asked whether I would like to have some. Took a sip via Chatzy. It healed the clump of psi that had formed in the stomach. Thanks a lot!