Lots of geisting

Remember a dream, where I observed a magician do their escape trick. It was some sort of a black plastic wrapping that seemed to have been covered in something poisonous. The magician entered the wrapping. There was a small transparent straw at the top, to provide some air. I was not impressed by the trick.

Woke up tired .. several days of just 6 hours of sleep.

Realized that for energy density, there's a maximum and I usually oversleep that .. having the body drained again. Just like sleeping in a pyramid works.  A physicist friend is building pyramids and at least that's how he described it.

Scientific articles .. they're such an inefficient way of spreading knowledge and experience. Takes so much time to write, review and in the end it's still merely scratching the surface (eventually everything gets out of the scope of the article).

A lot of strange geisting today. First, touchpad started behaving weird, which is pretty common (happens once a month). Plugged a mouse. An hour later, screen backlight goes off and doesn't light up anymore. Hard-reset. Kernel panic. Hard-reset. Back to normal (with a fallback graphics card config).

Aunt called. Answered, holding the mobile phone to my right ear. She couldn't hear nothing, and kept asking what was wrong with my voice. Thought the mic was broken or something. Took the phone into the other hand (held it to my left ear) and she could hear me perfectly.

While walking home, focused on energy stuff and levitation .. a young boy drove past me with his bicycle. He drove straight and then suddenly at the middle of an asphalt road, the bicycle slipped to the ground, as if he were driving on ice at slow speed. As he fell, his helmet flew off, rear light fell into pieces. I do hope he didn't hit his head. Can't recall if he did or not. He looked more or less okay .. had just hit his right knee. Heard people near me say something about him doing tricks  - no, he did not and I saw that. He drove completely normally, until the bicycle just lost its ground.

Actually, before going home, I happened to glance at my reflection on a van. Saw a martial arts teacher and felt the energy density and attitude of the teacher. Perhaps triggered by a white shirt with a circular logo.

Earth half-naked

This particular bed feels so much different. After all these years, it's still almost as if sleeping in a fountain of energy.

Woke up tired. Went to work and some time after lunch (and some semi-conscious weather manipulation), something happened that ignited the central flame again. A cloud of heat arose around the body again. Started feeling calm and at times, a bit floaty. Pk felt a lot easier.

The sky cleared up. Father came home as well, from Germany. Now hot again in Estonia. While away from home, half of Earth had a clear sky (except for our home country and its neighbours).

While driving home in a bus last night, I saw a couple of red orbs fall. One of them looked like meteoroid with a red tail. Another one just flashed once and disappeared. Not sure, but these might've been in the aura of my colleague, who was sitting next to the window.

Back

Spent almost a week in Guildford. Warm weather followed us there. It got cold and rainy in Estonia and Latvia as soon as we left.

Haven't been feeling too enthusiastic about life for the last couple of weeks. Life seems boring, people seem so predictable and boring. It seems that there's so much more important to do out there (someplace I can't visit with this body anyway). And I'm just playing with barbies down here or something.

While on the plane, I noticed a heartache. Still decided to continue living, just for no reason. Bought some peanuts and asked a colleague for some water as well. Got the necessary minerals and water. Had probably become dehydrated and had run out of minerals as well.

Couldn't sleep the first night. Didn't feel being accepted there at first. After visiting a lot of places, talking to a lot of people in the half-dream state, I got some sleep the second night and felt normal after that. Some minor pk, OBE and geisting there.

For most of the time, I was pretty tensed up. I mean, I go there for a presentation and find people thinking: "Oh he's got the nerve to come here and present a project that has been trying to sneak past the rules. Shame on him."

Here's the situation from since I first joined the project. I propose for the project to be public and open-source. Nobody in the project wants to do that. Propose it again later .. still the same reaction. Then I cause a situation, which brings that subject up for discussion again. A couple of guys understood me and pointed out that we need to do that because of some agreements we have signed. Then I'm sent off for a presentation somewhere and I get scolded because our project is not the way I want it to be. Right, it is my fault, because I haven't succeeded in convincing the rest of the team yet. Thought this battle was over, because I had given up. But no, people are upset at me because of waving the white flag and not fighting.

Both of them are right, but I'm not a warrior nor a messenger to be dealing with these kind of things. Sigh.. I often feel as if I've long outlived my mission in this life. Got it done while in the army. Still don't know what it was, but the sensation of achievement was just amazing back then.

Back from Britain. Met amazing people there .. work-related.

A lot of non-mainstream ideas on stuff. A few conspiracy theories confirmed from another angle. Inspiration for pk practice.

An interesting observation. My mind was really troubled all the time. However, each time I would focus on a problem for longer than 0.1 seconds, the problem would be revealed as a phony. In both my mind and those of others'. So, there actually were no problems, never have been. Just an illusion. Though, still need to play the role, I guess.

Met someone in one of the dreams. He was a foreigner. He tried to be humble, as he approached me with a problem. As opposed to all other people in the dream, he was amazingly vivid and detailed. Can't remember what it was about, just remembered his face.

Also, further confirmation that celibacy itself is not enough for celibacy. Just a change in sleeping pose and it's leaking completely on its own. Unless there's really high tension everywhere in the body. Happened twice, while I was relaxed and not sleeping straight (which is not always the most comfortable way to sleep).

Man of Steel

Watched "Man of Steel" today with sister.

Really amazing and inspiring. A lot better than I would've imagined.

Gotta go to bed.

Walking toolbox

Woke up today morning and something was suddenly different. Can't remember what I did in the dreams.

Re-experienced the elegance and cool of considering the body and ego-mind as tools for doing stuff in this material world. Well, not quite .. difficult to express .. again The Secret of Kells conveys the feeling pretty well. Walked to a rendezvous point for work, without thoughts for about half the distance. Experienced the world from dozens of familiar, yet new viewpoints.

The same for some distance back home.

Some karma ripening?

Really enjoyed yesterday's walk towards the sunset while it was raining cats and dogs. Made me feel real happy and at peace.

Random dreams, which I forgot again. Woke up tired.

Focused on the crown, to feel more fresh. It helped a lot.

Yet another hectic workday without actually having the time to do what I consider important (but too lazy to do).

Started experiencing a pk hangover. It's been a while since I've taken pk as seriously as I did a couple of days ago .. on those doors.

Encountered several angry and violent people on the streets today. Probably some karma is ripening for me again. Sigh.

Eh, a random post

Awesome..

A mind weak in concentration, is like a new snowfall that doesn't stick. Though, if you persist, the snow will eventually begin to stick & accumulate. If you persist further than that, you may look up one day & find yourself in the midst of a blizzard, with hard sheets of ice everywhere you step. You may even find yourself in need of a big truck to plow all that accumulation.
Matter is like that...accumulated attention. What are you concentrating on; what are you accumulating:)

~ Owltwelve

Inspired by all those Michael Grubb psychokinesis videos, started walking through the rooms and attempting to open or close the doors with pk. Perhaps a few twitches, but no larger movement yet. However, got floaty pretty quickly. Moments of feeling weightless as well as the feeling of "reality disintegrating". Shaped the curtains a bit, too.

Finished Mirror's Edge and Antichamber. The latter one is really good at making people think outside the box, since conventional logic does not apply. It's pretty amazing how the ideas come and riddles become solved. And I really enjoy those wall-tips as well, generic and aimed at life, not the game itself.