Sparkly figure

Have been more focused on work recently. Sorry for that, especially because I've noticed how every time I focus away from the weird, the same happens with other people in the community. I can't fully dedicate myself to something, without affecting other aspects.

Yesterday I saw something slowly crawl across the table, up to the laptop and disappear. In 3d, it was a formless transparent figure, with random tiny golden orb sparkles moving around inside or something. Looked away and back in different ways for multiple times and still found it crawling there. So, it wasn't a clump of eye floaters nor eye strain. Don't know what it was, but it looked harmless and, actually, somewhat cute.

A couple of nights ago I had a dream I considered interesting. I was put in a box, to see what I would do. Can't remember a ceiling, but the walls and floor looked somewhat soft and plastic (similar to wet cardboard). Everything in the box had rotten to dark and the stench of energy there seemed pretty toxic. The goal was to solve the puzzle and get out. Walked to the closest wall, there was a pillar with a tiny box on top of it; touched it, the tiny box nearly fell down. Walked back and looked around. Walked to the center of the room, just to check out what was there. Looked like an old airlock with some pieces of cloth around it. Started moving air around with pk. With movement, the air started to produce ambient light, the box eventually lost its darkness and I could no longer sense it (became transparent).

Edit: The dream was inspired by this video:
http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=451_1345954346

Teachy discussions

Sometimes it's pretty rewarding to discuss the weird with fans of the scientific method. Had a thrilling discussion yesterday on para-web, about "Does consciousness reside in the brain?" Thanks to Chaos, I learned a lot from my replies. Also, learned about some of the controversies of modern science. Remembered some physics, quantum mechanics and quotes from old physics teachers and professors.

The psi field is becoming denser and it feels as if it has become more fluid-like again. Dreams have become a lot more lucid. Usually remember multiple dreams in the morning. Though, the dreamscapes have been rather solemn. Daily life has been more cheery.

Suddenly became really hungry today. Came home and ate a lot of meat and salad. Usually I can't eat meat much, as it would make me feel sick. Maybe it's because it was a rather cold day, in comparison to others.

Patience and control

Some mid-day sleeping today too, with attempts to stay lucid.

Had difficulties controlling the emotions again. Unbearably pleasant psi pressure in the abdomen region was the cause. Tried to move it up the spine with the help of pranayama. However, the pressure was back in just a few minutes. Then attempted to move it up with intent or will. This intent or will originated from somewhere deeper than usual.

Sometimes, there would be the feeling of a large chunk of dense psi or consciousness moved in the body, resulting in a strong floaty feeling.

Feeling really energetic and lightweight again.

Occasionally had difficulties with patience, due to being so energized. Took some of the tedious tasks head-on to overcome this. Amazingly rewarding.

Blue

For the last couple of days, I've found it a bit more difficult to achieve the stillness of the mind. Felt quite tired and slept most of the day off, trying to stay lucid.

Somehow felt possessed by DestinyBlue today.

Another weird

With a few friends, visited a foreign student from India yesterday. She told amazing stories of weretigers, ghosts and black magic.

Learned that a weretiger would leave their human body and materialize the physical body of a tiger (with a few human properties). Any injuries to the new body are carried with the soul back to the human body (which might not show up in that body).

One of her ideas was that one might be experiencing sleep paralysis because of being haunted by someone or some thing. Haven't thought about it this way before.

Well, sister used to be haunted some years ago. It dawned on me that with a friend, they had once attempted to summon a soul. I just more-or-less observed. Anyway, this might be what started to haunt her later on. Her sleep paralysis experience almost always featured the face of her "follower".

As for black magic, the foreign student told stories of black magic being practised on her relatives. The stuff from FullMetal Alchemist and a lot of old horror stories might be a lot more real and serious than I've ever dared to think. So primitive desires and yet so much power .. why and how's that even possible?

From this perspective, I think I understand why people seek seclusion from their everyday horrors and go meditate somewhere in the mountains. Somehow I've born into one of the most comfy environments for spiritual development. It's so much harder for so many people.

The discussion continued far into the night. Came home from work, straight to bed and slept for 4 hours. There was a neat pull out of body.

Low vibes?

Father came home yesterday. Felt considerably more tangled in the Maya yesterday.

The psi channels near the heart and throat chakras have shrunk, causing psi to pile up and induce pain. Also, the astral body had become dirty yet again. I wonder how it happens so quickly. Just washed it in the dreams on Tuesday. Cleaned the ears, too.

Practised some pranayama before bed again. Some more of that thick psi moved up into the head. It then felt as if the head were under pressure, pressing ear drums outward.

Meditated on emptiness and stillness in the body. Started experiencing vibrations familiar from pre-OBE. However, the frequency of the vibrations was way too low (close to 1 Hz) for the soul to be detached from the body. Waited for the feelings to subside and increased the frequency again, attempting to heal the body while doing so.

Had pretty gloomy dreams. An attempt at convincing a mass-murderer onto his spiritual path.

Next dimension

Realised another mistake I've so often made in meditation. Although it might seem simpler to meditate on the formless everywhere around oneself, it's more important to meditate on the soul inside them. I guess it might be especially true during times of transition, when the frequencies of external objects could be lower than the frequencies inside. By keeping focus on the external objects, one would just ground themselves more on the mainstream dimensions, making it more difficult to actually sense beyond.

iJodix's brother shared an inspiring video yesterday:

This veil between dimensions as they describe it .. seems rather similar to what I've called "the yellow light" or perhaps what Owltwelve has described as "the white light". Also, the way everything can be perceived when there's that yellow light .. it really seems similar to looking at the 3 dimensional world from the 4th.

Practiced some pranayama and meditated before bed again. Intending for the crown and 3rd eye to open up. Just visualising the crown petals and looking at them was quite pleasurable.

Slept twice yesterday. Tried to stay lucid for as long as possible, throughout the night. It seems the weather might've gone close to 0*C at night, which might've helped a little.

Remembered some of the dreams and felt rather energetic in the morning.

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Took a couple of photos of the monochrome flower graffiti on the path to work and back home.

One of the first that I noticed in this town.

Noticed this one on the asphalt when
I took a longer path home yesterday.

Link to the original post on the monochrome flower construct.