Pff. Random &> /dev/null
Back to the topic.
Yesterday I realized what this specific anxiety that I've been feeling is about. It's a matter of breathing. When breathing wrong (superficial breathing, sighing too much, not processing the breath for long enough and so on..), eventually some form of prana is drawn out and depleted from the body. This form of prana is necessary for internal heat. Without it, there will be a feeling of cold in the chest. Eventually this grows into a sharp pain, as if there were knives of ice in the lungs. This develops further into the smell and taste of blood and so on. Already the lack of warmth in the chest is not healthy, everything beyond that is .. well .. probably even less healthy. Other symptoms that seem to follow from the lack of prana in the chest: cold sweat, shivering, contracting aura, lack of personal power, lack of empathy, lack of self-confidence. I guess.
Wet dreams twice in a row already. I feel how that is also unhealthy, but for some reason relaxing has caused it. So perhaps it's prior buildup of internal tension that's being released while draining energy as well. In any case, celibacy + prana are a natural protection against freezing over in cold.
Last night it happened when in a dream I saw an angel with their aura. Pretty random and quite rare a symbol, for me at least.
Slowly learning Italian. Second time in Italy and still can't speak the language - there's really no excuse for that. That's why I picked this particular AirBnb host. And it seems that none of the nearby restaurants nor shops understand English. Still getting a lot of confusion and puzzled looks out of my attempts at Italian but whatever.
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