Peered into stuff that resonated. One of them - Akiakane Flashback. Listened to it for a whole day, couldn't get enough .. until I watched the music video with English subs. Recognized the karmic trace, after which, the strange pull towards it disappeared.
Found myself emotionally addicted to an anime I had not seen before - Shinsekai Yori. So, I checked it out and found it pretty amazing. Recognized the karmic trace there.
That's some pretty old stuff still haunting me. These traces trace back before this lifetime. I recognize the traces but I can't remember where they come from. So far I guess I've ignored them because I can't remember their cause - that is, for the current me, these never even happened. How can one resolve past-life karma without remembering past lives? The only pieces I've remembered are some insignificant events.
On a different note, yesterday my sneaky remote healing experiment on uncle got cancelled. Just felt it wasn't needed anymore. Perhaps it's because the doctors disagreed to do anything before February. That is, in case he's still alive then.
Anyway, the experiment being cancelled + pranayama exercise probably caused a lot of psi to pile up in the body. Couldn't sleep, just laid there in bed, trying to maintain focus on the central channel. With the pranayama exercise, Sahasrara had also opened up and I could breathe into the central channel through the top of the head again.
While boiling potatoes, I was bored and balanced the foam spoon on the edge of the pot. Then tried to rotate it from side to side. A few minutes later, I managed to rotate it 45 degrees and back (almost back to how it was before, perhaps 10 degrees off).
Burned ribs to crisp in the oven. Strangely though, they tasted perfect.
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Uncle
Doctors said uncle had just 2 weeks left. They were rather surprised, however, when another uncle said it's been already 7 years since it was first discovered.
Dad had found from Wikipedia that it's the pressure in the skull that kills. Whereas pressure builds up as the immune system fights the tumor cells. However, doctors don't want to release the pressure because it's not a standard procedure and would thus allow for people to sue them once the patient died (for not following the standard procedure).
At least I used to think it was the tumor that killed, not the pressure. It's easier to release pressure than cut the tumor.
We've also learned that chemoterapy was initially designed against blood cancer and doesn't work well against brain tumor. It usually just suspends the immune system, allowing for the tumor to grow without restrictions.
Yet another session of remote healing. So far all the healings have postponed it a little. It's not much use on a person who believes their faith is in God's hand, not their own.
Dad had found from Wikipedia that it's the pressure in the skull that kills. Whereas pressure builds up as the immune system fights the tumor cells. However, doctors don't want to release the pressure because it's not a standard procedure and would thus allow for people to sue them once the patient died (for not following the standard procedure).
At least I used to think it was the tumor that killed, not the pressure. It's easier to release pressure than cut the tumor.
We've also learned that chemoterapy was initially designed against blood cancer and doesn't work well against brain tumor. It usually just suspends the immune system, allowing for the tumor to grow without restrictions.
Yet another session of remote healing. So far all the healings have postponed it a little. It's not much use on a person who believes their faith is in God's hand, not their own.
Monday, December 9, 2013
Ganesha statue
Read some of the dream yoga book again before bed last night. Became quite fascinated by the description of energy channels. Realized just how non-refined my perception of them was.
URL to the PDF:
http://www.holybooks.com/wp-content/uploads/Tenzin-Wangyal-Rinpoche-The-Tibetan-Yogas-Of-Dream-And-Sleep.pdf
Stared at the Ganesha statue last night. Gradually felt more and more aware of the statue, while awareness of my body faded away. It's been a while since I last experienced this sensation as strong. Though, first time I've experienced it this strong with the eyes open. I was sitting on the edge of the bed, holding the statue in my hands and observing it from different angles. As I moved the focus back to the body, gradually I became more aware of my hands, feet.
Tried to sleep while maintaining focus on the central channel. Felt tired but calm in the morning.
URL to the PDF:
http://www.holybooks.com/wp-content/uploads/Tenzin-Wangyal-Rinpoche-The-Tibetan-Yogas-Of-Dream-And-Sleep.pdf
Stared at the Ganesha statue last night. Gradually felt more and more aware of the statue, while awareness of my body faded away. It's been a while since I last experienced this sensation as strong. Though, first time I've experienced it this strong with the eyes open. I was sitting on the edge of the bed, holding the statue in my hands and observing it from different angles. As I moved the focus back to the body, gradually I became more aware of my hands, feet.
Tried to sleep while maintaining focus on the central channel. Felt tired but calm in the morning.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Neutral presence
Mixed up days and went to school yesterday (a postponed lecture/seminar). While walking there, I kept focus on a neutral sense of presence (without spending psi on thoughts or emotions). There were ups and downs, but for a few minutes, I saw white light shining through objects. From the corner of my eyes, I saw a car driving down the road. Knew it was going to turn towards the road I was about to cross before it even slowed down. The car stopped strangely far from me. Probably the awareness also affected the driver.
Maintained focus on the neutral presence before sleep. Experienced a strong standing wave throughout the body. A constant flow of psi settled down, with a peak in intensity at the 3rd eye.
Occasionally fell asleep, woke up and refocused. Soon the consciousness lifted out of body slightly. The cloud of consciousness was rather hot, almost burning the skin on the face. Eventually the nerves became used to it.
Some time in the morning, I found myself in the body but detached from it. Could see the room clearly, while hearing someone making a ruckus by moving chairs around. Feeling full of psi, for a second, I visualized a being in front of me. It did not manifest.
Maintained focus on the neutral presence before sleep. Experienced a strong standing wave throughout the body. A constant flow of psi settled down, with a peak in intensity at the 3rd eye.
Occasionally fell asleep, woke up and refocused. Soon the consciousness lifted out of body slightly. The cloud of consciousness was rather hot, almost burning the skin on the face. Eventually the nerves became used to it.
Some time in the morning, I found myself in the body but detached from it. Could see the room clearly, while hearing someone making a ruckus by moving chairs around. Feeling full of psi, for a second, I visualized a being in front of me. It did not manifest.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Re: ORMUS v0.02
K, I'll try to reproduce it from memory..
He took a 0.5L glass, poured it almost full of the old soviet era sea salt. Produced a solution of NaOH with a pH of 3.5, then waited for a white powder to settle out. He took the white powder and put it into a solution of NaOH with a pH of 3.7 and let it settle out again. He washed the white substance out with bi-dest water several times. From 0.5L of salt, he had a few milli-litres of white powder. He then put it into a -20 *C freezer. After a day in the freezer, he dried it in vacuum.
In the vacuum, something happened so that later 1/3 of the powder was outside the glass but in close proximity to it (some on the glass, some on the plastic base plate as a ring around the glass).
After drying, he put in some vinegar with a pH of 5 to remove Magnesium. After this, little grains with a golden shimmer settled out. He then washed it with bi-dest water again.
When he would rock the glass, these little grains would spin around in the water and it would take a long time for them to settle down at the bottom of the glass again.
He took a 0.5L glass, poured it almost full of the old soviet era sea salt. Produced a solution of NaOH with a pH of 3.5, then waited for a white powder to settle out. He took the white powder and put it into a solution of NaOH with a pH of 3.7 and let it settle out again. He washed the white substance out with bi-dest water several times. From 0.5L of salt, he had a few milli-litres of white powder. He then put it into a -20 *C freezer. After a day in the freezer, he dried it in vacuum.
In the vacuum, something happened so that later 1/3 of the powder was outside the glass but in close proximity to it (some on the glass, some on the plastic base plate as a ring around the glass).
After drying, he put in some vinegar with a pH of 5 to remove Magnesium. After this, little grains with a golden shimmer settled out. He then washed it with bi-dest water again.
When he would rock the glass, these little grains would spin around in the water and it would take a long time for them to settle down at the bottom of the glass again.
ORMUS v0.02
Dad said the old sea salt back from the soviet era seemed the best candidate for extracting ORMUS. The salt probably originates from somewhere around the Caspian sea or something.
While cold-drying the washed salt in the vacuum, something happened so that he eventually found 1/3 of the substance outside the glass .. covering the glass and the base plate. A little weird.
While cold-drying the washed salt in the vacuum, something happened so that he eventually found 1/3 of the substance outside the glass .. covering the glass and the base plate. A little weird.
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Stimulated growth
Read a few pages from the beginning of the dream yoga book again. Realized that since the last time I read it, I have learned more about ignorance and how it works.
Lifeforms grow according to the stimuli. The part which is stimulated the most, usually grows the most and becomes the most sensitive. It is said that when a child is in mother's womb and the mother often sings to them, the child's auditory acuity improves and the child more easily develops musical hearing.
Karma, thoughts, emotions grow the same way .. which is why one should not try to suppress thoughts or emotions, but rather avoid acting upon them.
Tried to avoid interaction with the senses and thoughts. Eventually forgot it in the dreams, though.
Before falling asleep, in a way I tried to turn off the senses, which caused a loud snap in the light bulb and startled me back.
While moving psi around in the central channel, I experienced a mild pop in the throat chakra. Although I've experienced this before, I didn't know what it was.
For the past few months, I've been seeing localized flashes of white light when I change something (modify a thought pattern or look at an issue from another angle). When the eyes are open, the flashes of light seem to have a structure or a shape to them. When the eyes are closed, I would just see the light through the eyelids.
Lifeforms grow according to the stimuli. The part which is stimulated the most, usually grows the most and becomes the most sensitive. It is said that when a child is in mother's womb and the mother often sings to them, the child's auditory acuity improves and the child more easily develops musical hearing.
Karma, thoughts, emotions grow the same way .. which is why one should not try to suppress thoughts or emotions, but rather avoid acting upon them.
Tried to avoid interaction with the senses and thoughts. Eventually forgot it in the dreams, though.
Before falling asleep, in a way I tried to turn off the senses, which caused a loud snap in the light bulb and startled me back.
While moving psi around in the central channel, I experienced a mild pop in the throat chakra. Although I've experienced this before, I didn't know what it was.
For the past few months, I've been seeing localized flashes of white light when I change something (modify a thought pattern or look at an issue from another angle). When the eyes are open, the flashes of light seem to have a structure or a shape to them. When the eyes are closed, I would just see the light through the eyelids.
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