Parkinson

Grandpa has Parkinson's disease and sometimes sees hallucinations. One day he asked me: "I see the kitchen door handle moving, can you see it too?" Me: "No, it's not moving."

To me it seems that his world is out of his control and gradually collapsing, similarly to what happened to Shun in Shinsekai Yori. Grandpa keeps pushing his willpower to realign his world with that of others. This way he temporarily regains his clarity and ability to speak clearly.

Holy water in yo face

Actually, before dad's concert, there was another concert at the local church. Grandma had told me to wash my face with water that has silver in it, in order to conquer the pesky blemishes. The next day at end of the event at the church, the pastor sprayed the crowd with holy water. ::splat:: and my face was dripping. Luckily my face didn't melt, so I guess I'm not very evil after all. Anyway, I considered this incident convenient, since my face was automagically washed with silver water so that I no longer had to. To be honest, silver water actually seems to have helped a bit.

I guess I've grown used to sleeping in the hammock. Though, with the stormy weather recently, it's occasionally become a bit cold in there.

Had an interesting dream today morning. I was at the fields somewhere in the Alps, I guess. A beautiful scenery with all the details, except for the fact that I knew it was just a simulation. In the simulation, I had to take care of the water and wind. I noticed an inconsistency in the simulation - I was certain it was a computer simulation with limited rendering capabilities but it sure did not look like one. For example, in one direction there was a forest where there should've been the edge of the map. In another direction, there was a river, then some trees and several mountains. At some moment, dad showed up. I showed him around, and both of us took a hike up one of the mountains. While at it, the dream lost a lot of details and quality, I think.

Aliens reborn on Earth

Visited grandma yesterday. Enjoyed a long discussion about consciousness, "soul dynamics" and reincarnation. She wanted me to see a TV show about UFOs and astral travel. Well .. while listening to dad's concert, I missed the show.

At around the time when the UFO show started on TV, we were on our way back from the concert and on our way towards the shop. Roughly at that time we spotted something with a metallic reflection hovering in the sky above the trees. By the time we turned into the parking lot of the shop (about a minute or two later), the object was gone. I thought it was a drone, except for the peculiar synchronicity to the TV show.

Watched the rerun of the episode, only to find that it contained nothing new. They featured Graham Nicholls a lot, whom I had previously read about in the "Consciousness Beyond the Body" by Alexander De Foe.

Recently I watched an interview with a Martian reincarnate:
http://simplecapacity.com/2016/05/boriska-boy-mars-says-humans-live-eternally/

They had some sort of stones that captured souls and released them for rebirth once broken.

Hammock tent

Sleeping in the hammock tent seems like a challenge. So far I haven't managed to fall asleep before sunrise. Sleeping alone makes all the muscles ache. There's pretty much no comfortable position for sleeping more than a few hours, and changing positions takes muscles.

On the other hand, just a few hours of sleep each morning have been enough to feel fresh and powerful throughout the next day. Sleeping in fresh air works miracles.

A couple of nights ago I wandered around the pasture / woods and noticed something white in my peripheral vision. Curious, I went to check it out. Right when I reached the exact spot, sister called me. A normal call .. triggered by a .. touchplate?

Dunno, the next night I went to the hammock a bit late. It was quite dark outside. I asked around if anyone had a flashlight or headlamp or somesuch. Well .. nope. Shrugged and went there anyway. I acted out of intuition and enjoyed the strange movements that I performed every now and then, to dodge tree branches. Bumped into sleeping cows, then took a detour to look .. uh .. normal to them.

Hammock-tent

Arrived at the summerhouse. I was briefed that grandpa hallucinates and we should make sure we won't wake him at night. He's reliving his past. With noise coming from other rooms at night, he sometimes gets paranoid about agents coming to take him away.

So, me and Kaspar set up the hammock-tent at night. Tried to sleep there (first time), but didn't manage to. For most of the time, I simply observed the lightning flashes and thunder all around the village.
 Random geisting. A cousin dropped a mug, which triggered the switch-on of the TV. I had taken a two-hour nap on the couch in the living room, and thought of going to a proper bed for a longer nap. There was a laptop playing radio channel in the bedroom. I thought the radio might be annoying. At that very moment, the radio application started throwing errors periodically. That familiar Windows error message sound. I changed my mind, and the radio started working again.

Today we set up the hammock-tent properly, at the sea.

Congestion of time

Finished work yesterday evening. Called uncle to see if he's going to Saaremaa, as I figured I might be late for the only bus in the evening. Luckily he said he was going just a couple of hours after the bus. He even had a free seat and plenty of space for luggage. Nice timing.

While on the way, we discussed politics (recently it's all just a big mess) and the global goals of mankind. The discussion followed on the nature of consciousness. Uncle mentioned having had a lot of dreams where he has asked questions and received deep answers.

At some point I asked the question that has been bugging me for the past few months:

• Once I've worked on something for some time, I get to a level where I have a lot of different tasks to do, many of which need to be done simultaneously. Although a meditative state can easily be achieved while deeply focused on a single task for long enough, it seems difficult to achieve while having to focus on a lot of different tasks simultaneously. It's especially difficult when the time has become so fragmented that it's impossible to properly finish any of the tasks. So far the only idea I've had is to become so efficient that I can still get away with focusing on them one by one.
• Surely yoga masters who have integrated their practices deep into their everyday life must have encountered the same issue. 
• How do yoga masters handle congestion of time (assuming that it can be called that way)?

Uncle thought for a few minutes, and said:

• Yoga masters would probably see it differently. They would contemplate about what it means to experience that.

I thanked him for his advice, as it answered the question.

He often cited "Lingvistiline mets" by Valdur Mikita, a semiotician. I thought I wouldn't have the time to read it. Though, while crossing the sea with the ferry, I did have enough time to open the book from a random page and read a few pages. It was amazing. It answered a question I had forgotten I even had:

• Why am I in Estonia where there are no pyramids, no temples or ancient ruins of any sort? There's no hidden knowledge here.

According to the book, there's a lot of hidden knowledge in the forests and bogs of Estonia. The nature has remained more-or-less untouched since the Ice Age, and some of it probably predates the Ice Age. The author proposed the idea of tasking the local shamans and witches with uncovering the hidden knowledge and building a sort of consciousness accelerator into the ancient times.

That's another potential global goal for mankind: To uncover our forgotten past.

Holiday

Related to the "Goals" post, one of the goals of mankind could also be

• Evolve to adapt to any environment and elegantly resolve any situation.

Yay, I'm officially on a holiday now and I can visit the summerhouse again. Yesterday I enjoyed a workday, knowing that I'm officially on holiday anyway. Nerd.

Slept a lot on Saturday, went to bed early, took the "vampire sleeping pose" and started releasing tension from the body, while maintaining focus on the crown. This resulted in about 10 moments of clarity per hour. Tried getting out of body during a few of these, but as the body had not fallen asleep properly, it didn't work too well. Tried levitating out of body as well, but that didn't work either. Nevertheless felt really fresh the next morning.

Thought of applying the same exercise last night. However, I had worked late, so I fell asleep in the "vampire sleeping pose". Typically I can't sleep in that pose. Woke exhausted today morning, with a rainy weather. Even when going to bed late, it's necessary to meditate before falling asleep.

Oh, I was wondering why the head seemed thick and why the teeth were hurting a bit. Apparently one of the wisdom teeth has come through the gums.