Jets and train

Tried a bit of pranayama yesterday evening. One of the UPSes triggered and startled me a bit.

A few dreams from the recent weeks. In addition to what I've described in greater detail, there was a dream of urban exploration at a radioactive site, and a dream of military routine. In general, I think these reflect how after the vacation I decided to work towards the attitude which I used to have about 10 years ago.

Dream: Jets

A couple of fighter jets were circling around at the summerhouse. Observed their flight, and then flew after them. Followed them until the pilots took a break and went somewhere to eat. One pilot was younger, and admitted that he would've preferred a different career but there was nothing available. It turned out that he was also interested in flying saucers and alternative means of propulsion.

At that moment, I joined in on the conversation. I said that I was also interested in these. He then asked if I had read any books by Jüri Lina. I had not, and while I had heard the name, I thought he only had books on illuminati, freemasonry, etc. Apparently he also had something on UFOs.

While floating at an edge, I described my thoughts and plans. The older pilot then pointed out the potential ethics issues which I had considered previously. While we agreed about the issues, none of us could think of good solutions to these. Then at some point I just suddenly poofed (disappeared) and woke up.

Dream: Train

Last night I had a dream where me and a couple of other guys were going somewhere on a train. At our stop, we hopped off and the train continued along the tracks. I looked at the tracks and found a few interesting stones, some of which were unpolished crystals. The other two guys: what are you doing? Come on!

Dream: School

Another dream which I had last night. People were on the streets somewhere, taking a lesson on something technical. We were given a task of some sort, but I didn't understand what it was that I was supposed to do, because instead of a slide about the task, the teacher projected a lewd meme on the screen, expecting everyone to get it (and it seemed as if they really did). Well, I did not, and asked him about the technical details.

Boscovich's "space and time"

From "From Objectivity to a Unified Theory" by Prof. Dr. Konstantin Meyl.

Jesuit priest Roger Joseph Boscovich from Dalmatia in 1755.

Boscovich was a professor of mathematics and theology in Rome and spoke about the world, on the other hand, being deformable, similar to rubber, but on the other hand, we are not able to perceive this effect, because our body is made of the same material and obeys all changes. "In an absolute way, we can neither recognize the place, nor distances, or orders of magnitude", Boscovich wrote in his book on "space and time" and how these are perceived by us. He suspects that the Earth, unobservable for man, "is respiring".

This greatly reminds me of how Owltwelve and others on Shirak's forum felt space-time while practising psychokinesis.

I'll try to find papers on Boscovich's work.

Local anomalies

One day while taking a daily nap on the couch in the living room at the summerhouse, I heard aunt cursing in a way which would've been quite unlike her. As I opened my eyes, I didn't see aunt anywhere nearby.

I read some Quincy patents (negative mass and wormholes to hyperspace) and found that it fits together with Meyl and my prior interpretations. Had a chat about vorticular fields with uncle. He described a couple of anomalies which he had experienced, close to the summerhouse.

Green fog

There was a stone, which had made him feel strange. While fixing a fence over there, he felt being drained of energy. One day he had tried to meditate while sitting on the stone. It had been difficult for him to concentrate, as his mind was constantly filled with a green fog of some sort.

He showed me the spot, and it made me feel a bit nauseated. Not a very good place for meditating, imho. I did not attempt to.

No clue what could've been wrong with that place. Though, at some point we find an iron stone close by.

Heap of stones

While camping at another spot, uncle had seen / dreamt of flying saucers. He also described a close encounter in which the working mechanism of a saucer was explained to him.

Over the years, things had changed around that spot. In the meantime, a Sorbus tree had died and fallen, and the heap of stones had grown a bit. He had slept with his head towards the East (in reference to how Shamans sleep), I think.

Instead of dreaming of alien tech, I decided to camp there to help resolve my own issues. The first time I thought I would go and meditate there, sister called. Then during the call, my eye started to hurt and kept running water. Sister's phone call lasted for uncomfortably long, too. Tried my best to endure but had to leave after the phone call. Failed to meditate that day. Set up camp because of this.

Without thinking much about it, I slept with my head towards North (in reference to how yogis sleep, or how Thoth slept). I think that for Shamans it's important to explore the astral as much as possible. Though, yogis would probably prefer to "condense" their consciousness instead of spreading it across the astral.

Most of my dreams were nothing special. There were a few things which stood out, though.

Dream: Brain surgery

A surgeon girl showed me some new equipment. She set up a bunch of cuboid blocks on the table, then tweaked their frequencies and connected them to a hand-held probe of sorts. Instead of cutting tissues, she pointed light with specific frequencies at different regions of the tissues.

I think the idea was that neurons not only react to electrical signals, but to optical signals as well. She also explained that localization and pointing accuracy were not all that important, for since nothing would be damaged by the optical signals, the brain would readjust itself and recover in just a day or two.

Dream: Spinning crystal

The dream itself was about something else - me and someone else were traveling. I decided to continue along some railroad tracks but happened to take a brief pause.

During the pause, I took a big magnet like what Theoria Apophasis had and put it on the ground. I then took a tiny crystal, put it on top of the magnet and spun it. It roamed across the magnet in an interesting way and I found it fun to observe.

Someone else appeared and placed a similar magnet on the ground. He then took a large crystal, put it on top of the magnet and spun it. The crystal was large enough for me to notice what was going on within the crystal. It looked as if the crystal spanned at least 4 or 5 dimensions instead of 3. The crystal was not only spinning in the first 3 dimensions, for its projection onto 3D space was morphing (it changed shape). This was even more fun to observe, even though I couldn't quite comprehend what was going on.

Meyl

At a webinar at work, we were shown this video:

I found it inspiring, but not for teamwork nor physics. I started to wonder whether this applied to psychokinesis and if it did, then how.

Yesterday it occurred to me that the dark veil also seems to be sticky, perhaps just in a slightly different way. Anyway, from that it seems that the veils are not opposites nor are they fundamental.

For a while I've also been pondering about scalar waves and vortices. Since I found one of Meyl's papers (clicky) to be rather inspiring (though, disappointingly short), I looked for more. Ordered some of his books and then stumbled upon his paper "About Vortex Physics and Vortex Losses". Already halfway through, I've found it quite awesome. A lot of strange phenomena suddenly makes more sense. While it's really simple, it would've probably taken me ages to connect the dots.

More respect towards Hamel

Wind has seemed rather responsive to intent recently.

Yesterday morning when I enabled 4G on my phone, its battery suddenly plummeted from around 80% down to 0, causing the phone to shut down. The battery is over 6200 mAh and has never acted like this before. Luckily it worked again just fine after recharging.

Today morning the cat looked at the ceiling lamp with great curiosity. I noticed that it was making a strange rattling noise. Looked at it but didn't notice any flickering. At some point the sound just stopped.



Recently I've been reading "The Granite Man & the Butterfly" on the bus to work and back. Amazing, but I guess it's a personal thing. For me it ties David Hamel's work together with that of Viktor Schauberger, A. H. Bahnson, T. T. Brown, N. Tesla. It also goes well with the experiences of Billy Meier, those of my father, as well as those of my own. Moreover, the book brought back some of the enthusiasm which I had forgotten.

Grumpy granny on saucer patents

Actually before watching Kimi no na wa, I had watched Texhnolyze which had a very sad ending but it hit the same spot as Kimi no na wa. Texhnolyze is very dark and bloody, so I wouldn't recommend it.

A part of the desire and emotions that I mentioned in the previous post, were about flying saucer patents. After reading quite a few of them, the passion decreased considerably. For me, most of the mysterious shroud has been lifted and I think I have realized at least the following:

1. The reason why we're driving around in cars instead of flying around in saucers:
1. There are plenty of problems that are still not easily solved with today's physics and technology.
2. While there probably is technology that solves these problems, most of this physics and technology is still way beyond mainstream.
3. In general, nobody cares because there's old and proven technology already out there and it's way cheaper to keep using it instead of funding sketchy R&D for tens of years.
2. Most of the patents don't hold water, as it's just some inventors wishing for the big fish without having even tested a proof of concept.
1. Well, I also haven't tested the proof of concept so I shouldn't be the one labeling something as "probably pollocks". However, most of the effects are too weak to produce enough thrust. At least one of the inventors actually mentioned this in one of their patents. All of his patents were about tricks to improve the thrust.
2. Most of the patents are about the utilization of a single effect, without considering all the other factors. Most of the patents are still about ion wind, which would only work in lower atmosphere.
3. A lot of conspiracy nuts (just like myself) are blown away by just images from patents instead of actually looking into the patents. I find it hilarious that among patents of flying saucers, there's at least one patent on a generic UFO-shaped amusement device for kids.
4. Mainstream science is way more correct about things than most conspiracy nuts (including me) like to think.

Hmm .. or maybe I'm just becoming old?

Don't get me wrong, though. I'm convinced that by combining mainstream physics, there would be enough thrust for small vehicles. For sure it'll make for an interesting hobby. Also, while at it, might just as well find more pieces of the puzzle for actual anti-gravity.

Dream of flight

A summary, written during fast times.

Too much media. Probably family will be pissed about me not notifying them about my appearances.

One morning I saw through the closed eyelids again, with a matrix of light overlay. As I opened my eyes, I still saw the matrix for a couple of seconds or so before it faded away.

Yesterday I had the chance to meet a mind that thinks alike. He had not done as much research and was a bit reckless but it's rare to find people with enthusiasm about the taboo topics such as UFO, ZPE, anti-gravity and so on.

Yesterday I put forth some effort to compensate for my sleep deprivation. Today morning I fancied flying in dreams. Flew around a bit, enjoying the freedom. Woke into another dream, still desiring to fly .. realized I've been practising it wrong .. and flew across the street. Saw my supervisor and decided to descend next to him for a quick chat. Walked home, and he transformed into father, I think.

I wish I would become fluent in flying around on all layers of dreamscape. Of course, including this one that they call reality.

Edit: Recently I've also found a lot of power from folk music. Wardruna, Hu and the like. Similar to what uncle's band used to produce.

Timerant

Right orb

One day while taking a nap with my eyes closed, I saw an orb fly towards me from my right. It flew into my right eyeball and stopped there.

Car

With Mom in the country and itching for a car, we took a trip to the capital yesterday to check a used vehicle or two. A relative gave us very good advice on how to perform background check. We ended up skipping one of the cars. On another car, the ignition lock had just broken. This made me somewhat more paranoid about used cars. Though, a new car still costs a bit too much.

Oh well, so we finished all the other quests on Mom's checklist. Adapted those quests for myself as well. Visited my sister's new apartment. Bought a book on the life of Milarepa from an antique shop (same book that aunt and uncle had read to me when I was a few years old). Mom bought a somewhat rare book on them illuminazis.

Rover photos

Last weekend I retouched some of grandpa's old photos for another one of his books. Removed dust, fingerprints, enhancing contrast and the like.


In the meantime, I browsed rover photos (and apollo photos) and watched some youtube videos that pointed out some specific photos to look at. Recognized traces of sloppy retouching on some of the photos. Also, they missed some of the anomalies which hinted at what might've been concealed by their brush or clone tool. For me this alone is a good enough argument against the conspiracy theory that "Mars rovers never made it any farther than Devon island" or that "Humans never visited the Moon". On Earth they wouldn't need that sloppy brushing.

Nazi saucers

Read on Nazi flying saucers (not UFOs because they're identified flying objects) again and noticed that during the past few years I've managed to digest it a little. Even the conventional saucers used to seem mysterious but now they no longer do. Both the aerodynamics of the designs as well as the way Germans approached it make sense.

https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/ufo_aleman/rfz/index.htm

I assume (perhaps out of slight ignorance) that since these designs are more than 70 years old without mass production, the patents should be outdated by now. Also, it's publicly available literature so none of it should anymore be a matter of national security or somesuch.

Would be awesome to build small remote controlled drones to test and experiment with the Fleissner design, for example. Perhaps together with some engineers with experience in model rockets and model airplanes.

Vacation

Sigh. A typical smalltalk from the interns: "So how's your vacation going?" + some giggles. My typical reply: "It's going well, I suppose." They then keep the distance, y'know maybe it's contagious.

No vacation and can't do much about it. I've noticed that I've become addicted to the absence of vacation. Always hoping that a vacation would somehow improve something .. leave more time for meditation, psychokinesis, OBE, perhaps enable hiking in the nature, etc. However, I have never had time for these. Whenever I've done any of the aforementioned things, I've done so at the cost of something else but sacrifices almost never feel good.

With disappointment, self-pity and ignorance (sums it all up), I've sacrificed vacation, holidays, weekends, social events to get work done. It's always "nah, will go there do that later when I have time". It's time to stop lying to myself - I'm not going to go there nor do that, for I don't have the time.

By the looks of it, that's how life is - first it's all school, then all work, then all family, then if one survives all of the former, there's retirement with maybe slightly more free time. However, with retirement there are other responsibilities like visiting the other elders to discuss prostheses as well as to whine about the body. There's probably not much time to work on hobbies after death, either.

Sigh. The long awaited summer is here. Several years have I patiently waited for the summer so that I could enjoy it, only to miss it each time and continue waiting for the next summer. This year is no different. Moreover, it's tedious to work throughout this persistent sauna. Spending time in the nature would be so much more attractive.

At least I got to enjoy about a week of summer (and a week of chilly August) a few years ago. This summer I've managed to have a day or two off (including a couple of weekends when I've skipped work for my über-selfish reasons).

To be honest, I'm a bit puzzled why I'm bitching about any of this in the first place. Whether it's vacation or not, the most remarkable difference is simply that I'm doing a different kind of work (typically physical workout instead of just typing away at the laptop). Due to being a workaholic, I easily overdose with both kinds of work so that they start to feel repugnant. Ok there is also the fact that compared to the countryside the city is a rather nervous place and being at the countryside for at least 2 weeks per year works wonders on health. But that should be possible to achieve with meditation as well. Me imagines the stupidity of me running from one place to another, ever hoping for a sanctuary that's a lie anyway.

I ought to be happy with everything that I have. I've noticed that the less I have, the easier it is to be happy with it.

Gypsy dance

Argh .. vacation but work.
Same as it used to be back in preliminary school - they tried to kill with homework.

Anyway, onto topic.

Dream: Journalists

The night before dad's performance I had a dream of some work-related workshop or something, which concluded with a sauna evening. Left the sauna to bring more snacks. There was a large queue of people (fans and journalists) waiting outside. It was not possible for me to leave or return without letting the people in as well.

Edit: I hope it wasn't about the sauna evening that took place today. Anyway, it seems to be related to dad's performance.

Among the people there was a journalist girl with her father. They kept following me no matter where I went.

Taking photos at a dad's performance

At first, he asked me to record the event but I declined because I only have a DSLR which is not fit for recording a continuous 3 hours of video. He got someone else with a camcorder I think.

Anyway, I was late for the event (18:30). It disturbed me that being late did not disturb me. Like: "Is that how little I care about some dad's event that he asked me to pay a visit to?" Regardless, that was me waiting for a bus at 18:50 without worrying about much of anything.

Showed up at the event at 19:15. The hall was full and there were long queues of people waiting to even just get a glimpse at what was going on on the stage. People had come from different corners of the country but had to leave because they couldn't fit in. The event was free of charge, so there was no reasonable way of keeping count of the people that would show up.

Apparently the hall was full already at 12:00. Seriously, 7 hours before?
The situation made me laugh.

At perhaps 20:30 or so, there was a short break and some people left the hall. That's when I waltzed in and sat on the stairs next to an old colleague of dad.

The performance was awesome indeed. Out of the ~650 photos that I took, I think I got a few reasonable ones as well. I was actually surprised. Though, on most of the reasonable photos, there's this model that I've seen on some magazine covers for a few times.

The performance left me cheered for the weekend.

Saturn ringmakers

At the end of dad's performance, I passed him a hint about Norman Bergrun and The Ringmakers of Saturn.

He will most probably find it interesting. At the end of the video, Norman also analyzes some imagery from the Apollo mission. It might be that the popular "fake lunar landings" and "moon hologram" conspiracy theories are not completely off. Augmented reality, perhaps.

The topic with Saturn and its rings reminds me of a dream from last year.

Close-ups of the Apollo images remind me of dreams that seemed to have been designed by some other entities. They almost fooled me but on closer inspection the flaws became obvious.

Pk

Ever since I reached the official start date of vacation, weather turned cold, wet and stormy.

Stared at the balcony door the day before yesterday, yesterday and today. The door was quite responsive to pk, probably because it was wobbling slightly in the drafts of air (the balcony window is not completely shut and has a 1 cm gap). I managed to amplify its wobbling, or direct it to one direction or another. Haven't been able to close the door with pk yet, though.

"The Sacred Riana" videos look pretty cool:

Her Asia Got Talent performances made me giggle, though. Her acting is not very good but it still works because of her persistence.

Dream: Levitation

A regular levitation dream, except for the fact that I tried to float face-down horizontally, just barely above the floor without actually touching the floor. Keeping myself balanced took quite a bit of effort and I only managed to keep it up for a few minutes.

Minor geists

Cat is painfully bored. Today one of the cat's toys hit the floor and started rolling towards me. However, the cat was on the other side of the apartment and the toy rolled at 90 degree angle from the cat's line of sight. At first I thought that sister had tossed it and it had bounced off her shoe, which caused the 90 degree turn. Threw the toy and noticed that it doesn't bounce .. too soft for that. Psychokinetic cat? Cool.

Recently there have been a few geisting events. A loud bang here or there without anyone in the vicinity, or something hopping off the table right in front of my eyes (in that particular case, it was a clothespin).

Edit: Toaster started buzzing pretty loud. Started headbanging to it. It then became even louder and produced a sound a bit similar to an electric guitar riff before suddenly becoming more silent again as one slice of white bread dropped a little.

Prediction of near-future events has been pretty good.

Babylon 5 is pretty awesome, and yet quite predictable as well, I think. Yay for space! Though, stumbled upon some exciting conspiracy stuff as well.
https://www.reddit.com/r/conspiracy/comments/80dqu3/lets_talk_about_secret_stuff_like_the_tr_3b_astra/

Focus inward

Still wondering about that owl about a week ago, I realized that I'm worried about someone else's dreams whereas I should really focus on my own issues first. Ought to be more selfish and pursue my own path without always trying to drag anyone else down the path. Also, I noticed the uncanny similarities between us - I've also been downplaying my family relations. He helped me realize that it's an impossible task. No matter how alienated I may feel, I'm still a part of my family and I'd better take it into account.

Then bumped into a redditor who offered help in interpreting dreams. Many thanks to nova029 for the enlightening words:

... you were in this projection with this teacher to make sure you dont fall into the same trap. figure out what logic he is missing and dive into it

Without nova029, I would've missed this point of view.

Anyway, after about a week of focusing inward each night, I started having problems sleeping. Tried to leak jing on purpose - has typically helped. This time it did not .. caused me to feel tired but still couldn't sleep (red eyes throughout the day). This helped me re-realize something else. I've gotten way too lax and comfy in everyday life. I know that it's my counter-reaction of compulsory service. However, lax and comfy seems like the inverse of focus and concentration. Instead, should specify rules for myself and follow them. This would be a lot more efficient in helping me tame my own mind. Perhaps that's the point of order? Naturally entropy is always increasing, so decreasing the entropy would be more of a challenge.

It's small things like always sitting with a good posture, properly cooking meals instead of just snacking, acting polite, sleeping in a vampire posture and so on..

This has been occuring for months, but I haven't really mentioned it much thus far. Today I attended a meeting in the morning, then had to go to the office ~20 km away. Asked a colleague if they're going as well. She didn't plan to, had lunch together and then she thought she would take me there. In the evening I asked another colleague if she could drop me off at a specific place in the town. "Uhm, that would be quite far from where I'm going. No, I almost forgot, I was supposed to pick up my son so I would be going down the same road anyway." Just that this has become more and more frequent.

Watched pirated editions of Dreamscape and The Fury yesterday.

Dream: Passing storm

Not kidding, actually had a dream this morning (~6 AM, just 1.5 h before the alarm).

Most of the family is together at the summer house. Although a bit cloudy, it's a lovely day and I'm chatting with one of the uncles in the front yard. ::Although I remembered the topic in the morning, managed to forget it during the day::. I suspect it might've been about another really inspiring student project that's going on in the country - student formula. I had more-or-less finished when it started raining lightly. I went inside, whereas he and others preferred to stay outside. From the inside, I saw the wind pick up, and it quickly transformed into a heavy storm. The doors and windows were banging as the storm hovered straight over the building and faded as quickly as it appeared. I stepped to the back yard. With great enthusiasm, father explained that I had just missed an awesome sight. He said it was not a storm like any other - it was some kind of an alien spacecraft that caused the peculiar weather phenomena as it flew over.

Plane?

Saw a shiny object move across the sky while on my way back home. It moved from right to left, and then faded within a second or two. It looked oval-shaped, moved quite fast (assuming it was quite far) and there was no sound. It flew along the abandoned air base. Regardless, I was pretty sure it was a plane .. until it faded. Might've still been a plane, making a sudden turn towards the abandoned base (away from me). There are aviation school students flying around at times.

Aliens reborn on Earth

Visited grandma yesterday. Enjoyed a long discussion about consciousness, "soul dynamics" and reincarnation. She wanted me to see a TV show about UFOs and astral travel. Well .. while listening to dad's concert, I missed the show.

At around the time when the UFO show started on TV, we were on our way back from the concert and on our way towards the shop. Roughly at that time we spotted something with a metallic reflection hovering in the sky above the trees. By the time we turned into the parking lot of the shop (about a minute or two later), the object was gone. I thought it was a drone, except for the peculiar synchronicity to the TV show.

Watched the rerun of the episode, only to find that it contained nothing new. They featured Graham Nicholls a lot, whom I had previously read about in the "Consciousness Beyond the Body" by Alexander De Foe.

Recently I watched an interview with a Martian reincarnate:
http://simplecapacity.com/2016/05/boriska-boy-mars-says-humans-live-eternally/

They had some sort of stones that captured souls and released them for rebirth once broken.

Mysteries, theories

Was ill

A few days ago I thought about taking a sweater or a fleece jacket. Realized that all of them were enqueued for washing. Didn't have time to process the queue, so I decided to try and survive without. Well .. caught cold. Noticed these:

• There was a distinct "smell" or "substance" throughout the body, which seemed disgusting (in addition to clogging the system and hampering the functionality of the organs, obviously).
• The next morning the body was covered in a white aura .. just like a blanket of snow, which obstructed the internal light. Transformed the snow into a golden aura (I've noticed that for me the two are quite similar and it's easy to transform between them).
• Realized that illness can serve as a stepping stone towards increased love and empathy. Also realized that I've used this many times already.

With the eyes watering and head dizzy, couldn't do long sessions at the laptop. So, just for fun I improved my skills in bash scripting, PHP and SQLite .. a quick web server that performs statistics on the guys brute-forcing my SSH port. Eventually I still remapped the port via iptables (now it's all quiet). Relaxing hobbies =D.

Mysteries

Via reddit, I found a dark web link that answered my curiosity:
https://www.reddit.com/r/deepwebpics/comments/30dd2n/some_strange_website/

An interesting page, though, it doesn't look quite right. A lot of effort has been put into the diagrams (read: puzzles). These puzzles look very much like how extraterrestrials would logically convey information (similar to what father has described in his abduction stories, also similar to crop circles). Except that it seems these puzzles aren't info-packed efficiently and they seem to have factual errors. So, don't take it too seriously. Nevertheless, the exercises are inspiring.

Started noticing very commonplace phenomena, but from a bit different perspective.

For example, during lunch I realized that as I pressed the spoon against the surface of the soup, the oil bubbles moved out and became thicker. However, the oil bubbles did not seem to have merged. Surface tension of water .. and water is not compressible. You know, maybe something similar would work for space-time, too?

One morning I noticed that lamp post shadows were more refined near the base and more blurry at the distance. Realized one can measure the optical properties of air. Or acquire rough estimates for the height of objects (different distance that light travels through the medium). There are a lot of parameters that need to be taken into account to get any reasonable accuracy, though.

In regards to the first puzzle, I realized the connection between the bubble tree hierarchy (mentioned it briefly in this post: clicky) and hyperdimensional nature of the universe. The diagram also highlights the power of two in cell multiplication.

The second puzzle is a bit strange. Or maybe I've missed the point. Anyway, 432 Hz is a multiple of 8 Hz, which is considered close-enough to the Schumann resonance frequency of 7.83 Hz. For some reason, I remember it being closer to 7.3 Hz .. dunno. Anyway, it's as if 432 Hz is treated as half-wavelength and then there's this triangle at 3.5 wavelength. At first I thought it might indicate how the root chakra is related to Schumann resonant frequency .. but the triangle should then be upside down. And why is the triangle sandwiched between two waves of opposite phase? And why is the diagram symmetric around the triangle?

There are many more on the onion, which you can find via the reddit link.

OBE

Also had a brief OBE. Noticed the moment when the body fell asleep and let go. Flew out and landed on the floor. I was a bit blurry and realized I had perhaps landed too close to the mirror. Scary. Jumped away but the experience had already destabilized somewhat.

Floating light

On my way home, I spotted a plane. Or so I thought. A yellow light, with a faint light blinking underneath. It seemed to be flying away from the local airport and gaining altitude rather slowly. It seemed quite far, too. Observed it for a few seconds, then crossed the street, looked back and it was gone. Looked for it for some time, then wondered if it had gone into the clouds.

Once I reached a darker corner, I looked at the sky to check if the sky was clear. There were tiny ice crystals falling, so everything was in a slight haze and couldn't see the stars. There was indeed a cloud of smoke at where I had seen the light, but the cloud did not seem thick enough to block the lights that suddenly.

Checked the airport time schedule and found that there shouldn't have been any planes arriving or leaving at around 19:20. The last arrived 17:05 and the last left 18:15. Moreover, the light was moving towards West, not North. Also remembered that the airport in this town is so small that the passenger planes have propeller engines. Judging by the fact that I've heard them from similar distance before, I should've heard it as well.

So, I'll tag my first (or one of the first) Unidentified Flying Object(s) here .. until I find a friend sharing a drone video or somesuch =D.

Metal sphere

Started focusing on the bindu on the top of the head a couple of days ago. The first night I found a very bright white light on top of the head. In the previous years, I've seen it as yellow or golden but not white like that.

I've been feeling alone .. with an urge to do something amazing. However, nothing feels amazing. Well, digging into meditation, psychokinesis, ufology, conspiracy theories might be the closest. So I visited Mark's forum and saw a post by nowforever13:
http://psychicinvestigation.forumotion.com/t2935-small-metal-ball-with-strange-writting

He showed a small metal ball with a strange writing.

Drew it up and thought it looked like an illustration of a procedure of some sort (shapeshifting?).

The same sequence repeats around the sphere (twice?). It looks as if the dot symbolizes the beginning or the end. When read from the right, there's an arc (marks the quarter of a sphere?) with a plus. Then, 3 more plus signs appear. Three of them on the top merge into a line, as does the plus sign in the middle. Then the lines merge and a part of the arc is pulled inward (close but not touching the top line). The way the arc changes its shape, made me associate the illustration with shapeshifting. Don't know what the plus signs and lines are about, though. Anyway .. exciting enough, so I browsed the web for alien languages, metal spheres and crop circles:
https://www.reddit.com/r/Paranormal/comments/1lrqj5/this_is_driving_me_crazy_metal_balls/
http://hauntedohiobooks.com/news/materializing-mediums-and-flower-apports/ 

Edit: For comparison, dad referenced this sphere story:

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Recently I've been playing Hitman a lot. Probably it has made its way into the dreams. There was a young girl, who got trapped into a foster care of some sort. I thought both parents were dead, but then someone turned up: "We have a problem. Her mother has suddenly become a millionaire, learned levitation and telekinesis." I found it inspiring and wondered how that could be a problem at all.

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Birthday. Visited a small shop on my way home, because I felt like it. Rational vs. irrational mind. There are larger stores near home, why go there? Went there .. "See? No cakes. Period." Eventually found something that caught my attention. The only cake-like thing, which was on the cookie shelf. Read the contents .. "It contains rum (in addition to a lot of additives) and is not suitable for children." Bought it anyway, wondering why I would do that.

While on the bus, I realized that I could think about it this way: someone brings / offers cake, I look at the contents and start whining. Wouldn't that be, like, arrogant or something? There's cake and I should be happy about it, no matter what sort of cake.

Well, it happened that dad stopped by, and brought salad and a large chocolate cake as well. Then sister appeared with fruits and a friend of hers (stranger for me). So, all in all there were five of us, plus a cat.

Short OBE nap

A nice video about the last waves of incarnations on Earth, aliens and such.
I found Dolores a bit creepy, though. Hypnosis is not safe and one might never know what the hypnotherapist has programmed into their mind.

Took a couple of naps during the day. One of them led to an OBE. Spontaneously whispered something, which worked as a signal that got the vibrations going. The vibrations were of low frequency and as they originated from the chest, it felt as if heart had started pounding really fast, followed by pectoral muscle spasms. Then gradually breathing stopped and I crawled / levitated / moved towards the mirror next to the bed. Looked at myself and at the body, then sat next to the bed. Looked around the room and tried to maintain focus on it. That didn't work for very long, as I realized I had started breathing (in the body) again.

Oh, one more thing. While watching the video, I realized that my time for enlightenment and leaving this place is .. well, not very near. This made me feel a bit more happy, because it provides time for psychokinesis and self-mastery practices. This also means that the challenges of dealing with people and worldly issues are not going to be over anytime soon.

Weird silhouette

Tried letting go of the filters of my sight before bed last night. ::Rhymes, yeah! Pathetic one, tho:(:

Saw the 4D flow of some field that had all the colors and more. "Very trippy" is I guess how people would comment on a visualizer of similar nature. Observed it for until I fell asleep. Some random dreams again. Although I became lucid, I couldn't do much about it. I walked down a dark corridor with green walls of some sort. There was a red-framed square window with a single glass plate to my right. Glanced out. There was a small building or shack in front, an empty street and the faint glow of an upcoming sunrise. There was something behind the window, flying around. At first while writing this down, I thought it was the black silhouette of a large bird, perhaps an eagle .. but I think it was actually a large moth, which had a triangular shape as it circled around. Anyway, this image triggered lucidity. At first I tried to apply psychokinesis on its flight, to make it fly upward and away. Didn't work. Then tried to OBE from the dream .. also didn't work, ended up simply waking up.

At work there's a summer trainee from Korea. While driving back from lunch, she pointed to the sky and wanted us to see what was there. Later I saw it too, but it was quite far already and from the angle I couldn't determine what it was. Asked her what it was, but I didn't get her English. I thought she thought it was a large bird of some sort. Then I thought she thought it was a drone. Here's a list of what came to mind .. in the same order:

1. Would be awesome to see a person flying..
2. A large bird, such as an eagle, or perhaps a crane?
3. ::it came properly into view:: No, can't be .. that's a very weird shape / silhouette .. most likely a drone?

Note that this was over the fields almost in the middle of nowhere. If that were a quadrotor, it must've had quite a battery to have flown a few kilometres from the nearest buildings.

Dangers of the scalar

Some things I've noticed during the past few days:

• Yesterday saw flashes of yellowish-white light, which sometimes had a pattern (reminded of interference pattern). Light source was always out of view and somewhere from behind or from above the head. Saw it with my eyes open.
• Yesterday morning I woke on the sound of a mattress spring creaking back and forth just at the back of the head. As I woke up, the sound faded away .. consciousness had sunk into the mattress.
• The tiredness + lump of nervousness + pain in the heart chakra was back today. Noticed more geisting with sharper influence (snapping of furniture, mostly).
• Since reading Armando Torres' book and playing Might & Magic with Stronghold, there have been more shaman-lookalikes in the dreams.

Read some suspicious text on scalar fields again. Pretty wild .. especially if it's for real. Serial Experiments Lain and Steins;Gate FTW! Here:
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/scalar_tech/esp_scalartech37.htm

Anyway, even though the text seems to have been written by some guy who isn't very familiar with scalar fields, it did trigger spontaneous visualization and the familiar feeling of remembering how it works. Though, the attunement to the perspective where it all fit together, only lasted for a few hours.

With an idea of the power of scalar standing waves and Earth grid lines, this "dream" now makes more sense:
http://sussch-daweird.blogspot.com/2013/06/gloomy-dreams.html

Also, it seems that the more I remember about it, the less interested I am in technology in general. My curiosity for science and technology seems to be mainly driven by having forgotten it all. Although on one hand I would want helpful technology to be accessible to everyone, it seems that already the working principle of scalar fields makes it very difficult to use without destructive consequences (which are hard to predict). The fact that we're still here probably indicates that whoever is using the technology, has been using it quite carefully so far. Anyway, because of all the dangers I think commercialization (read: everyday use) of that technology probably won't happen during my lifetime and maybe not even during the generation that comes after me.

All in all, spiritual practice and psychokinesis seems to be the best way to study scalar fields, because it provides direct feedback. I guess psychokinesis is more difficult to use immaturely, whereas everyone could poke the big red button on a physical gadget.

Long audio-books on ETs

A lot of stuff has happened. A lot of manifestations, realizations, interesting dreams, etc. Thought I wouldn't post any of it, but then it occurred to me that I should post at least some of it .. which might be of interest for others.

Father discovered a long series of videos on the history of the atlanteans (260 of 1 hour videos in total, I guess):

Recognized a part of myself in there. This brought up a feeling of love that I had been missing for the past few years. Grabbed it and started focusing on it.

Michael Grubb's video(s) on his experience with extraterrestrials was also very very good: