Remote controlled bugs

Almost the whole weekend of study group in quantum mechanics - getting ready for the exam on Thursday. It's the first subject over the 3 years for which we have organized anything similar. My personal opinion is that it's somewhat overkill, but I guess I would need it for the book anyway (decided to start writing a book for introducing psionics to physicists one day).

I would have had time to also practice pk before going to bed yesterday, but I was rather tired and meditated instead. It felt really good, but furniture started snapping all over the apartment again and being startled, I stopped meditating. When I did, I realized that I shouldn't have - it's like my old habit of waking up from a nightmare; one is supposed to face it and solve the problem instead of always fleeing from it.

Sister bought a couple of remote controlled bugs as Christmas presents for 2 young cousins. She got them cheap and we were checking them with father. Due to a lot of faults, I was rather skeptical about it. 

After charging, one of them worked well (the one with almost no visible faults - only a dent in the antenna), although frequently acted on its own (flying around on the floor without pressing a button). There was probably a lot of noise on 40 and 27 MHz. Also, the manufacturer had shipped a random antenna that was not a multiple of a quarter of wavelength - which causes a lot of interference.

The other didn't even flap its wings (had been left switched on for some reason and its back wing was slightly bent under the weight of the remote controller). We had decided to take it back to the store, but then tried it again. Still only the yaw motor was working. I looked at it with compassion and thought that it would be great if it worked. The wings suddenly twitched on their own and after that, it was working amazingly well.

I don't know what was wrong, but it reminded me of my Robotex robots that worked well before the competition and went on strikes when start had been fired.

Discussion with sister

Discussed all kind of weird matters with my sister yesterday night, as I had visited the gym again and felt too active to go to sleep before 3 AM. While listening to her stories, I practiced pk on a chair in front of me at the same time. I didn't succeed in moving it enough to actually see it moving or cause any sound.

She described her after death experience and how she chose this family - one of the most mind-blowing stories I have heard on this subject. I hope she's going to upload descriptions of her experiences soon.

It turned out that this creepy face that used to stare at her in her dreams (I remember mentioning it somewhere before) was an entity that needed help. During meditation, she saw the aura of this entity and decided to help them. After solving the problem, it all disappeared.

The discussion reminded me that I have had a few telepathic and precognition experiences lately. I guess it was on Thursday that father and I were going shopping and I went to ask my sister if she wanted anything special. The moment I opened her door, a vivid picture of dark chocolate popped into my mind. I could've guessed it with regular logics as well, but it was the first time I have received such a clear picture of what she wanted.

Friday morning in a lecture, the editor of an Estonian popular science magazine explained how to write magazine articles. He showed a slide, where there were several popular science books. When the middle book cover appeared, I noticed a feeling of something interesting happening soon. The last book cover appeared and I got the feeling (I knew it) that Erik rises his hand because he has read it. The editor said: "This last one is perhaps the most popular of these. Raise hands, who has read it." Erik's hand was rising.. =D

Alien dream

For change, I tried the grounding exercise again yesterday night. Rose psi flow intensity to a moderate level, which resulted in sharp pain strikes in the right hemisphere today morning. It's the same area in the right hemisphere that always hurts after doing some more intense pk.

Couldn't listen to almost anything the lecturer was saying - it was too painful. Out of instinct, I visualized welding a big block of iron to cover an opening. During the visualization, the pain strikes got so frequent that I almost became numb to it. When finished, pain was no longer as frequent as before. However, I'm slightly worried about this blunt approach to healing this and its possible side-effects.

I think I should start practicing pk, while concentrating on the right hemisphere or something to improve its endurance to more intense psi flows.

While coming home from school again, I walked past those 3 flags again. It was still quite windy, but it wasn't as strong as during the last couple of days. Attempted stasis by visualizing a dense construct with high viscosity on the "first" flag and it was a success. It looked like during the attempt the flag got sticky and wrapped into a tight cylinder that started descending - became too heavy for the wind to lift. Other flags kept flapping in the wind. This time I was already in a pk state of mind before approaching the flags and the target flag seemed quite responsive. It simply took a thought to bring the flag up and flapping again.

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Saw a cool dream today morning. I was doing something with the laptop in the dream and having finished, looked around. In the corner, where I had set up props for passive pk, I noticed that light refracted (through the balcony door glass) or reflected (from outdoors) onto the wall in such a way that it formed crop circles of light. It looked rather boring (reminded me of "sacred geometry," which I have pretty much ignored so far), but it being a crop circle of light and all, I wanted to take a picture of it. Went to ask mother (I was somewhat surprised that she was home) for a better camera.

Came back with the camera, but as I had thought, sun had already moved so that the crop circles were gone and the only thing I could see on the walls were projections of curtain flowers. I thought "Oh, well" and started to look around, wondering if it's a dream or not (it looked and felt pretty real, but had quite a few glitches). When I did, some new stuff suddenly appeared - a drawing of an alien with Aztec or Mayan writings appeared on the ceiling (looked like a kid's drawing in blue ink). Similar drawings of UFO-s and their construction appeared on the bed (these were in color). Also, a booklet with some pretty detailed schematics appeared on the chair.

Although it was interesting and kept me distracted for a few seconds, I was still wondering why there were such drawings scattered around the room when it wasn't even my drawing style nor my handwriting. Furthermore, I couldn't remember having done or even seen any of this before. When I thought that, new stuff appeared again. This time I saw a spoon floating in the air below the ceiling. Looked at it, said "Wow" and picked it up. Threw it up in the air to see if it would start floating again - nope, it dropped onto the bed. I saw more objects hanging in mid-air the same way. Although I had started to wonder why I couldn't remember having set any of this up, it took me some more seconds and then the alarm rang. 

Thinking back on what SeriousKnot posted in the forums yesterday, there really might be a group designing dreams in order to keep us from becoming lucid. I can't think of a good enough reason for my subconscious mind to put so much effort into keeping my mind busy so that it wouldn't become lucid. Usually when I become lucid, I wake up before I manage to do much anyway. Well, who knows - I guess this would need some more research.

Cloud stasis

Saw a weird dream in the morning. I woke up in the dream, checked my blog and I was blown - it had become really popular overnight. There were thousands of people reading it and I knew only a few of them. That has never been my goal with this blog - it's supposed to be a place from where I can search for and analyze my previous experiences, while being able to provide links to them.

Couldn't feel the surroundings so well today. It was windy today, but I didn't manage to feel the wind very well. It was also raining slightly, but I couldn't make any rainshields either (usually I get at least a drop in the probability of getting hit by raindrops, but this time I couldn't even visualize a rainshield).

Clouds were moving fast and when I saw a hole forming in the clouds during a lecture, I started playing around with the clouds. I took a bigger cloud and slowed it down with stasis, allowing for the hole to last longer. When previously the clouds seemed to have been moving at roughly the same speed, then during the stasis field attempt and after that, other clouds moved past the big one. I checked back on it later and all clouds had slowed down along with the wind outside. At first it seemed like the big cloud was completely motionless, but a moment later I could see that it was moving really slowly. Looked as if it was slowly accelerating after the attempt, because a few minutes later it moved at almost the same speed as the other clouds again.

While coming home, I attempted stasis on the 3 flags in front of the construction supply store again. Well, there might have been a small effect in the flapping speed slowing down and flags lowering slightly, but nothing spectacular.

I have set up a few more objects besides the radiometer to practice passive pk on. There is one big toy windmill for spinning and a small stick of wood for push / pull. All of them are visible from the corners of my eyes while sitting at the desk, studying or using the laptop. Hoping for more reliable results that I can tape some day.

Feel the surroundings

On first glance, Alan Watts looked familiar, just like an old friend. There have been quite a few such people, who look like old friends when we first meet. After watching one more of his videos, searching for his life from wikipedia and then walking into the kitchen, I felt like Alan Watts in a new body. Similarly, after watching Serial Experiments Lain a while ago, I felt like Lain for a couple of weeks afterwards.

When walking to school yesterday morning and today morning, I could feel the height of the buildings and trees that I passed by. I could feel the ground beneath me to about 10 meters or more in depth. When I looked at the river, I felt the water so well that I became uneasy about looking at it from a bridge. Location of incoming cars, bicycles and people worked without forming a shield, as I had realized that we can already feel the surroundings by default (we usually just ignore it). My empathy and telepathy seem to have improved thanks to this.

I figured that I should do the grounding exercise again, but fell asleep during meditation. Slept for a couple of hours during the day.

Recently, while listening to music, I have noticed that it sometimes bends and pitches weird (slows down and frequencies lower), like I was performing unconscious pk on the sound. Edit: Luckily, the sound files have stayed untouched.

Another nice video clip on enlightenment, featuring Alan Watts - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1LzVN8nqg0. "..and when you're like everybody's dream of a sultan in a palace, you suddenly notice there's a button named "surprise". You push that, and here we are.." XD.

Auric sight

Meditated before going to sleep yesterday, which gave me a powerful feeling even though I couldn't move much psi around.

While walking to school in the morning, I noticed that some people passing by were looking above my head with amazement. I thought it was something similar to what owltwelve was talking about. However, the people staring at me were not children - one was about 20 and the others were about 40 or 50. Wondering what they might have seen, I visualized myself from the eyes of one of them and saw a slightly expanded golden bud (could've been just my imagination though).

This 4 hour lecture that had been skipped twice now finally took place. It was one of the most boring lecture I've been to, so I just stared at the lecturer for some time. I started seeing a transparent haze around him (I think it's aura because of how I saw it radiating from my knee at Voore). I noticed that every time I looked at him, I saw bright vertical lines and some bright dots floating around next to him (in addition to the haze that he was surrounded by). There was also a line or something on his neck that had more contrast than the rest of his skin.

Then, I experienced an ego slap and felt down and slightly depressed for seemingly no reason. =/ I could barely see any aura and could no longer feel psi very well. Need to boost my motivation again.

Drank kefir and ate nuts with dried fruits. When I did, I started to feel the surroundings again. So, perhaps it was a lack of some nutrients or something instead? 

Stumbled upon a nice Alan Watt's monologue on fear of enlightenment: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUXodFgbDfQ

Edit:

Before falling asleep, I intended on experiencing unity. I remember that it was amazing, but a bit overwhelming. Had almost forgotten it in the morning though, and intended on experiencing unity again. This time I was eating muesli when I started to feel the surroundings again - so, it's not nutrients, it's a mind-block. The experience was more intense than I can remember having before - I saw myself in all the objects on the kitchen table. Being indoors and feeling things that I couldn't see from outside the building was overwhelming at first.

While walking around in the apartment, I noticed that I could feel everything a lot better than I used to. I could swing hanging clothes with almost no effort. I went outside, intending on experiencing unity with other people as well. I remembered that I had blocked myself from feeling other people out of fear that I would unconsciously manipulate with them. However, it no longer makes sense to block a part of me from myself.

Radiometer attempts

Man, I was hoping that I could finally record the radiometer. I had just finished homework and the radiometer vanes were spinning quite fast (several hours under the lamp). Started setting up the tripod and mounted the camera on top of it.

When I was finished and ready to push the record button, I noticed that the radiometer was barely even rotating anymore - my intent had already done all the work ='(. So, I shook it, tried to dissolve the stasis field around it and held it even closer to the lamp for some time. Got it spinning a bit faster for a moment again.

Pushed the record button and no matter what I tried, the radiometer kept gaining speed. I can do it pretty easily with passive pk, but I'm having difficulties doing it on demand.

Tried it again, but since it was now spinning at higher speed with no previous stasis field constructs around, I had difficulties slowing it down. At least there's something now - there are a few slowing downs visible on the first recording. I'll make a better one for youtube submission.