My ego has raised its head a bit. Yesterday I encountered a couple of emotions that I haven't experienced for a while. It was a beautiful day and I had a tendency to become frustrated in my mind.
Yesterday I practiced alternate-nostril breathing stronger than before. I started to feel unbearably good in my stomach and had to pause for a while. A blockage cleared out and I didn't have a problem with being out of breath again. Though, I was pouring with sweat and the bed got all wet. Now I can take it one level further again (2x more pumps with Wahi Guru's per breath). Catching up to what I could do a while ago.
Interesting, how before coming to the service, I always had the problem of nostrils being shut. Since starting pranayama practice again, I haven't had that problem anymore.
Almost couldn't sleep at night. Kept waking up every 30 minutes or so, expecting the alarm to ring.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
Snapping again
Almost slept the whole Friday and slept some extra on Sunday evening as well.
Experienced a lot of heat waves yesterday during my attempts to push exhaustion aside. Had objects snap around me very frequently. For most of the time, the objects that made snapping sounds were close to the astral body. Tried focusing on an object once and felt as if I had almost lost my ability to stand up and walk right. The feeling of floatiness has also increased.
Experienced a lot of heat waves yesterday during my attempts to push exhaustion aside. Had objects snap around me very frequently. For most of the time, the objects that made snapping sounds were close to the astral body. Tried focusing on an object once and felt as if I had almost lost my ability to stand up and walk right. The feeling of floatiness has also increased.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
A pic
Inspired by Owltwelve's meditation on the wind kasina, I focused on the visualization of wind rocking tree branches in my mind. Started to feel a cold breeze around my face indoors.
It's strange, just how easily the feeling of a picture becomes lost during processing. The sketches drawn by hand always seem a lot more lively than the vectorized and brushed pictures. It might be all the small details, shading and stuff. Or it may be that I gradually lose track of the feeling during lengthy processing.
A sketch and a brushed version.
It's strange, just how easily the feeling of a picture becomes lost during processing. The sketches drawn by hand always seem a lot more lively than the vectorized and brushed pictures. It might be all the small details, shading and stuff. Or it may be that I gradually lose track of the feeling during lengthy processing.
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| Telescopin' for new fairy tales |
A sketch and a brushed version.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Sleepy
For some reason I'm feeling pretty tired. Slept long and slept some extra during the day. Feels similar to how visiting crowded places does.
A lot of dreams of visiting places that I haven't seen before, talking to people I haven't met before and so on..
A lot of dreams of visiting places that I haven't seen before, talking to people I haven't met before and so on..
Friday, January 27, 2012
Bindu flowing
Pranayama exercises have led me back to waves of heat, the flowing of Bindu fluid and occasional blank-outs of the mind.
I don't think I've recently had any pk / geisting events though. With the exception of improved empathy, memory of when I was little(-er) and stuff. Weather has also turned nice(r) again.
I don't think I've recently had any pk / geisting events though. With the exception of improved empathy, memory of when I was little(-er) and stuff. Weather has also turned nice(r) again.
Monday, January 23, 2012
Peek the corners
Yesterday evening I attempted to post something on the forum when the cursor teleported to the top-right corner of the screen, closing the window with all the tabs. Opened it again, but then the router crashed. Found it amusing, gave up and went to meditate instead.
Suddenly mother called from Spain. The ringing startled me, causing a dense ring-shaped cloud of psi to shoot out from the chest. She wanted to have a video conversation via Skype. Postponed the conversation and reset the router and stuff.
On the road today, I tried to glance at the road behind the next corner. With the first attempt I could see the road, trees, fields and approaching cars very clearly. Nice.. The next couple of attempts were also successful, though not as vivid.
Suddenly mother called from Spain. The ringing startled me, causing a dense ring-shaped cloud of psi to shoot out from the chest. She wanted to have a video conversation via Skype. Postponed the conversation and reset the router and stuff.
On the road today, I tried to glance at the road behind the next corner. With the first attempt I could see the road, trees, fields and approaching cars very clearly. Nice.. The next couple of attempts were also successful, though not as vivid.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Addicted
Became addicted to playing Fallout New Vegas in my free time. A few days ago I suddenly developed the urge to watch Naruto Shippuuden again, as I had the feeling that the fillers were over again. Took a break in Fallout NV to watch Shippuuden episodes 242 - 245. Amazing episodes, especially the last ones. Naruto met his true self and hugged it ^,^.
One of the guys at the forum (Alar34) has had dreams of a symbol, eye within an egg. Visited the KUMU art museum yesterday and stumbled upon a painting of the same symbol. Though, the painting didn't emit that much psi. On the painting, the symbol was recursive (one around another).
Grandmother baked an apple pie. Tasted it and then tried to alter its taste this time. I consider it as a success, because the taste did indeed change, though, only a little.
One of the guys at the forum (Alar34) has had dreams of a symbol, eye within an egg. Visited the KUMU art museum yesterday and stumbled upon a painting of the same symbol. Though, the painting didn't emit that much psi. On the painting, the symbol was recursive (one around another).
Grandmother baked an apple pie. Tasted it and then tried to alter its taste this time. I consider it as a success, because the taste did indeed change, though, only a little.
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