Another exercise that I have performed occasionally. When you're awake, try to wake up even more. Visualize what it would feel like to be even more aware. After a while, this will cause a shift of focus / assemblage point.
Yesterday I looked up an old friend from the kindergarten and invited him to join a project.
Last night two dreams stood out.
In one of them, I was in service for 2 weeks with old classmates. Had a chat with Hyena (used to go to the gym together back when I had enough money to spend on it). Proposed to visit the gym in the evening, since I hadn't been to the gym for years and here it was free. Well, before the evening there was a physical exercise outside. I was waiting for a challenging exercise .. got one, which I wouldn't have been able to perform with just muscles. Focused on emptiness, entered a meditative state and stood there for as long as we were asked to. It was interesting, how in the meditative state in the dream, I heard myself humming in my mind at a low frequency. However, I wasn't doing it consciously .. it was like a deeper layer of subconscious that I was observing. Once the exercise was finished, I noticed that there had been another person (an old classmate), who performed the exercise till the end. He praised me and himself, which seemed a bit awkward.
In another dream, I was visiting the place of an old friend, looking around. In the dream, the family was a bit strange, because their faces did not match my memories. Also, the people there seemed to have taken the form of anyone that I saw on the photos. Some of them I knew couldn't even be there and yet they were, walking around and interacting. In addition to the people with form, there was someone there, whom I didn't see nor feel. They said I would meet a girl and have a child. I responded: "No .. what .. why?" Woke up and realized I had overcome my desire.
A while ago I said on Mark's forum that I have nothing against a wife and children, however, I would want to overcome the desire first. Oh well .. now I want to overcome the aversion.
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