Visualized dense psi clumping together in the central channel and light up, while walking to work today morning.
Felt rather down / apathetic again today, don't know why, but it's pretty frequent. I suspect it might be related to me being disappointed about this world. Though, I guess no matter what the world is, this disappointment would still haunt. There must be a more fundamental problem to cause this.
Subconscious mind suggested me to run across the street and take the bus. Ignored it and acted according to the rules. Missed the bus. Checked the times, went back across the street and missed another one. Both would've taken me home.
Bah, too apathetic to care about that extra hour of waiting. Found an ad paper loose, inside a glass container to my right. I was a bit amazed at how responsive it was, even though it was sealed shut and there shouldn't have been any air drafts inside. It was also fun to readjust the focus .. to feel the glass .. then go through it and feel the paper inside.
Decided to try rising the vibrations again and overcome the depression. Stuff changed, everything started to look different again. Also, felt the body emitting hot psi.
This practice highlighted a problem .. it seems the body caught cold yesterday. Head hurts. It wasn't cold, but perhaps a lack of energy due to skipping lunch and supper (okay, ate a sandwich) yesterday.
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Had a free energy dream last night. I was in a dark auditorium, somewhere. Sneakily performing experiments .. because they had the tech and it wasn't in use during the night anyway.
There were interesting incandescent bulbs scattered around. Slightly thicker than a needle, without any electrodes. Seemed to have been built for radiant energy indicators of sorts.
I guess I tried a lot of different things. Most of them didn't work. Though, within the last hour or 30 minutes, something did. Found a coil with an embedded capacitor, somehow managed to get it to resonate and fill the field with radiant energy and these tiny incandescent bulbs lit up.
Had to put stuff back hastily, people came in.
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Warm dream
As a follow-up from yesterday's breatharian studies, there was an interesting dream.
Went to meet someone in Siberia. Strangely, though, it took place at our summerhouse. Still, it was pretty cold, windy and snowing. To that man, it was nothing. He was busy tweaking his car.
At first, I tucked myself in a lot of heavy clothes. Tried to warm myself up with pk. Practised energy cultivation in the garage there. It was difficult to keep the body warm. Moreover, the feet were uncomfortable in the boots and producing cold sweat .. which made it all even more cold.
At some point, I guess hot psi started emerging out of the body and I would no longer feel cold. With a bit of self-trust and courage, I took the boots off and left them to dry somewhere.
It had stopped snowing and it was really pleasurable to walk on the snow and ice barefooted. Walked to the old man to take a look at what he was doing. Brought him some sort of small tools. It was an old car that looked fresh and clean. He took one of the doors apart and showed me what he wanted to improve. He was a perfectionist. I was taken aback when I saw that the insides of the car were made of gold.
Edit: Car might symbolize a vessel or body. Gold probably symbolizes spiritual riches or attainment. Don't know what boots and being barefooted might represent.
Walked around the yard. Gradually the weather became warmer and more sunny. Then there was someone else surprised that I had left the boots to dry in the sun, walking around barefooted.
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Interesting. I had been worried about having to call the driving teacher after a few weeks. Called him and suddenly everything changed. A feeling of pleasure was poured on me. Felt as if life had suddenly gained a meaning again.
Slightly less than 12 hours without feeling hunger. Just a couple of cups of berry tea.
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Edit: Oh man, sometimes I burst out, being really pissed about the "correct" way of things in this world (makes me feel really sorry for anyone being born here). Why do I whine, when it's all really up to me to change it all?
Went to meet someone in Siberia. Strangely, though, it took place at our summerhouse. Still, it was pretty cold, windy and snowing. To that man, it was nothing. He was busy tweaking his car.
At first, I tucked myself in a lot of heavy clothes. Tried to warm myself up with pk. Practised energy cultivation in the garage there. It was difficult to keep the body warm. Moreover, the feet were uncomfortable in the boots and producing cold sweat .. which made it all even more cold.
At some point, I guess hot psi started emerging out of the body and I would no longer feel cold. With a bit of self-trust and courage, I took the boots off and left them to dry somewhere.
It had stopped snowing and it was really pleasurable to walk on the snow and ice barefooted. Walked to the old man to take a look at what he was doing. Brought him some sort of small tools. It was an old car that looked fresh and clean. He took one of the doors apart and showed me what he wanted to improve. He was a perfectionist. I was taken aback when I saw that the insides of the car were made of gold.
Edit: Car might symbolize a vessel or body. Gold probably symbolizes spiritual riches or attainment. Don't know what boots and being barefooted might represent.
Walked around the yard. Gradually the weather became warmer and more sunny. Then there was someone else surprised that I had left the boots to dry in the sun, walking around barefooted.
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Interesting. I had been worried about having to call the driving teacher after a few weeks. Called him and suddenly everything changed. A feeling of pleasure was poured on me. Felt as if life had suddenly gained a meaning again.
Slightly less than 12 hours without feeling hunger. Just a couple of cups of berry tea.
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Edit: Oh man, sometimes I burst out, being really pissed about the "correct" way of things in this world (makes me feel really sorry for anyone being born here). Why do I whine, when it's all really up to me to change it all?
Monday, October 1, 2012
Visualized meditation
There was a queer bug in the SPI daemon, somewhere. After the call of nature, it popped into mind. Subconscious showed the bug (due to the timing of tasks and the order of the code being executed, it appeared). It took the next 1.5 hours to
verify that this was the case. Another part of the bug remained a
mystery, though. It assigns a value to a variable, but then it takes
some 20000 cycles before the variable really obtains the value. Time
travel? Coding is fun, sometimes.
Edit: My fawl .. debugging code that wasn't even executed.
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At some moment, I visualized myself somewhere in India or near there. Found a lot of monks training. Sought a nice place with a few trees and visualized myself meditate behind the trees. Loved the psi streaming through the body. Though, after a while, it became dark. Tried again later .. it was a really calm night. The moisture on the grass and the tree .. the feeling of silence. Body heat up considerably. It was really awesome. Some time later, it started to get dark outside the window, too.
Edit: My fawl .. debugging code that wasn't even executed.
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At some moment, I visualized myself somewhere in India or near there. Found a lot of monks training. Sought a nice place with a few trees and visualized myself meditate behind the trees. Loved the psi streaming through the body. Though, after a while, it became dark. Tried again later .. it was a really calm night. The moisture on the grass and the tree .. the feeling of silence. Body heat up considerably. It was really awesome. Some time later, it started to get dark outside the window, too.
Want to become breatharian
Had a strong urge to burn candles yesterday. Ignored it.
After 3 days of coding, didn't feel tired last night. Meditated a little and the feeling of warmth and love started radiating from the heart chakra. Strangely, felt cold air against the 3rd eye. Since I couldn't see the surroundings with it, so I thought it wasn't open.
Went to sleep 12 PM and woke up before 6 AM. Just stayed in bed, waiting for some dreams or OBE for the next 1.5 hours. Body no longer fell asleep.
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Felt a little frustrated about the body having to eat today. A colleague asked me to dinner, I replied: "I decided that eating is a waste of money. Perhaps I'll visit the store later, when I get hungry."
Usually when I get too hungry, I get really cold. Lack of energy..
About 2 weeks ago, I just ate chips for breakfast and dinner. Well, it seemed okay for 1.5 weeks. Also, I've sometimes eaten cold food for months. Actually, some of it tastes better when it's cold.
Came back from the store, with a lot of junk food today and realized something.
In order to have energy for free, one first has to put in a critical amount of it. Then, this intense resonant blob of energy would slowly bring more and more of the surrounding energy into the resonance. So, it's the paradox that first one would need to have a lot of energy, then they can have more. Need to practice a lot more energy cultivation and meditate more, too.
After 3 days of coding, didn't feel tired last night. Meditated a little and the feeling of warmth and love started radiating from the heart chakra. Strangely, felt cold air against the 3rd eye. Since I couldn't see the surroundings with it, so I thought it wasn't open.
Went to sleep 12 PM and woke up before 6 AM. Just stayed in bed, waiting for some dreams or OBE for the next 1.5 hours. Body no longer fell asleep.
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Felt a little frustrated about the body having to eat today. A colleague asked me to dinner, I replied: "I decided that eating is a waste of money. Perhaps I'll visit the store later, when I get hungry."
Usually when I get too hungry, I get really cold. Lack of energy..
About 2 weeks ago, I just ate chips for breakfast and dinner. Well, it seemed okay for 1.5 weeks. Also, I've sometimes eaten cold food for months. Actually, some of it tastes better when it's cold.
Came back from the store, with a lot of junk food today and realized something.
In order to have energy for free, one first has to put in a critical amount of it. Then, this intense resonant blob of energy would slowly bring more and more of the surrounding energy into the resonance. So, it's the paradox that first one would need to have a lot of energy, then they can have more. Need to practice a lot more energy cultivation and meditate more, too.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Playful dreams
For a couple of times, I've happened to look at the spot just before a situation unfolds.
In one of the dreams, I visited some place in the capital city. There was a parking lot with 1 car near a park. There were leaf trees all around the place and the ground was somewhat yellow of the dropped leaves. The ground was a bit sloped there. I approached the ground at such an angle (face towards the ground) that the car seemed to have been parked on a wall. Played climbing up a cliff. Tried to grab from the ground to pull myself up to the edge of the cliff. Hands moved through stuff, which made it difficult to climb. Afraid of falling off the cliff, I visualized the grasp improving so that I started to feel the moist ground and tree roots. This helped a lot.
Met an old classmate, who was also quite enthusiastic about such a playful approach to dreams. He had been using that for years.
In some of the dreams, I saw virtual worlds that I couldn't change with visualizations. These had been modelled with some sort of a map editor and I realized just how tedious it was to build something like this. Expanded my awareness to the surroundings, looking for a way to model maps out-of-body. This would seriously boost productivity if one were able to create video game maps instantly, just like it can be done with a dream world. Lacked good ideas, though. The only one that came to mind was a sort of volumetric noise. Though, it would take a lot of training to learn to sculpt that with one's mind.
Woke up to some sort of an intermediate state, where I was just sitting on the bed, thinking about the dreams.
In one of the dreams, I visited some place in the capital city. There was a parking lot with 1 car near a park. There were leaf trees all around the place and the ground was somewhat yellow of the dropped leaves. The ground was a bit sloped there. I approached the ground at such an angle (face towards the ground) that the car seemed to have been parked on a wall. Played climbing up a cliff. Tried to grab from the ground to pull myself up to the edge of the cliff. Hands moved through stuff, which made it difficult to climb. Afraid of falling off the cliff, I visualized the grasp improving so that I started to feel the moist ground and tree roots. This helped a lot.
Met an old classmate, who was also quite enthusiastic about such a playful approach to dreams. He had been using that for years.
In some of the dreams, I saw virtual worlds that I couldn't change with visualizations. These had been modelled with some sort of a map editor and I realized just how tedious it was to build something like this. Expanded my awareness to the surroundings, looking for a way to model maps out-of-body. This would seriously boost productivity if one were able to create video game maps instantly, just like it can be done with a dream world. Lacked good ideas, though. The only one that came to mind was a sort of volumetric noise. Though, it would take a lot of training to learn to sculpt that with one's mind.
Woke up to some sort of an intermediate state, where I was just sitting on the bed, thinking about the dreams.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Psychic presenter
Somehow enjoyed waking up really early today morning.
During the last presentation at the conference today, a triple-A battery started rolling on the table. Previously, I had glanced at it once, thinking of practicing pk on it. Quickly changed my mind, though. Then, an hour later, as the presenter was making hand gestures about 2 m from the table, the battery rolled. There were 2 batteries on the table and the other one didn't move .. so, I guess it wasn't table vibrations. Also, there were no air drafts .. there were papers on the table, which didn't budge. No doors or windows were open .. had to put a lot of effort into staying awake without the oxygen. Kept pecking in the front row, with my eyes rolling around like a crazy cow. Suspect that the presenter is psychic ^,^
iJodix and PsiKriztjan gave me a big bar of chocolate. Thank you, wish you all the best. We'll be practicing pk together the next summer, hopefully.
During the last presentation at the conference today, a triple-A battery started rolling on the table. Previously, I had glanced at it once, thinking of practicing pk on it. Quickly changed my mind, though. Then, an hour later, as the presenter was making hand gestures about 2 m from the table, the battery rolled. There were 2 batteries on the table and the other one didn't move .. so, I guess it wasn't table vibrations. Also, there were no air drafts .. there were papers on the table, which didn't budge. No doors or windows were open .. had to put a lot of effort into staying awake without the oxygen. Kept pecking in the front row, with my eyes rolling around like a crazy cow. Suspect that the presenter is psychic ^,^
iJodix and PsiKriztjan gave me a big bar of chocolate. Thank you, wish you all the best. We'll be practicing pk together the next summer, hopefully.
Monday, September 24, 2012
Apathetic absorption
Went to meet sister with all her bags at the bus station yesterday. Arrived and felt that sister won't be there .. for at least an hour. Grandma called that sister had missed the bus and would be late.
Even though it was a bit cold, I decided to take a longer walk and wait for her without going back home.
For some reason, I've been feeling apathetic again recently.
Stared at the ripples on the channel surface. Attempted stasis on the water. There was a lot of pressure building up in the central part of the brain and the 3rd eye region. Fish started splashing around the area of the stasis field focus. Occasionally it seemed as if the ripples did slow down a bit. Though, mind absorption in the water felt better than practising stasis field on it.
Looked up into the sky and became absorbed in the clouds and their movement. The clouds moved really fast. Buildings on the other side of the channel started to seem like tiny models beneath the all-covering sky.
Went to bed late, due to figuring out something about karma and enlightenment. Can't recall any special dreams.
Even though it was a bit cold, I decided to take a longer walk and wait for her without going back home.
For some reason, I've been feeling apathetic again recently.
Stared at the ripples on the channel surface. Attempted stasis on the water. There was a lot of pressure building up in the central part of the brain and the 3rd eye region. Fish started splashing around the area of the stasis field focus. Occasionally it seemed as if the ripples did slow down a bit. Though, mind absorption in the water felt better than practising stasis field on it.
Looked up into the sky and became absorbed in the clouds and their movement. The clouds moved really fast. Buildings on the other side of the channel started to seem like tiny models beneath the all-covering sky.
Went to bed late, due to figuring out something about karma and enlightenment. Can't recall any special dreams.
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