Uncle

It's uncle's birthday .. visited him.

He was sincerely happy about us being there (judging by the feeling).

When he woke up and looked around, it felt a bit alienating at first. Haven't seen a body in such a condition before, at least not in this life. He couldn't speak, he could barely nod and feeding him was not all that easy. He could barely move his hands (for most of the time, they were in some semi-cramped default position), let alone his feet.

Had a vision / flashback where he still looked similar (thin), however, he was finally free of the tumor. His whole body was now clean. A fresh start on a beautiful day. He was working his muscles and learning to speak and walk again.

Wished him a good recovery and good health so that he can live as an example of inspiration for others who would have a similar problem in the future.

Would be really awesome if he turned a yogi after his recovery.

To me it seemed that it would take him several years of focus to recover and become well. He has taken a really tough mission.

I think I could help him more if I could sense the energy channels in other people well enough. Currently I don't know what's going on and I don't feel confident in messing around in his system without being able to sense it all. I guess a Kundalini awakening could be fatal in such a condition and I'm afraid providing more psi into his central channel might induce an awakening. Perhaps I should reduce the amount of energy in his head, perhaps I should increase the intensity of energy flow in his left channel? Or perhaps in the right channel? I'm not even sure if I really should encourage him and boost his willpower .. it might also be dangerous because it might speed up the process (which could cause extra pressure to build up in the skull). Even though I know I can heal, this situation is currently beyond me. Thus, I've occasionally visualized transferring him knowledge and wisdom that even I don't have. Perhaps one day he can teach me.

Throwing cards

Attempted white skeleton meditation again last night. The flow of psi released some pain in the head. Fell asleep several times and the practice was cut prematurely. Still, it had a great effect on psi intensity and health.

Some pk practice in the dark a couple of nights ago.

A daily nap or two, while staying alert.

Today evening, Hyena called, regarding his recent progress in OBE / astral travel. He had left the TV on a channel with foreign language which he wouldn't understand (easy to focus on, while avoiding the mind translating the text), then took a daily nap. He thought of visiting the ET. Just as he did, he felt being transported to a ship of little Greys. It took him a considerable amount of effort to avoid being kidnapped and to make his way back, which he did. A really amazing experience.

Practised throwing cards today. Used pk to aim before throwing. Lost the cards before I managed to throw it into the crack between the wall and the door. With the help of pk, I did get it about 1 cm from the crack (sometimes directly, sometimes with a deflection from the ceiling, sometimes with a bounce from guitar strings and so on). Pretty cool .. =D Right, the distance was about 5 meters. Outside (no wind) we managed to throw the cards more than 30 meters, but accuracy was way off (the cards would flip over in the wind when they flew over the roof).

Throwing shuriken and nails might be a bit similar in technique. Would want to try nails tomorrow. Though, with a regular playing card it's already possible to cut fruit.
Edit: Nope, throwing nails is different.

Staff-spell to free a wolf

Took a hike to another home farmhouse, a few kilometres away. A slightly foggy day with heavy clouds and a faint howling echoing in the distance. Aunt said this howling has been there for days .. eventually it turned out it's been there for perhaps even a month.

I said: "Let's go take a look, maybe there's a monster after all =)"

I had a staff with me (ahem, a toilet refill valve). Imagined casting a spell with it, which would free the dog. The howling stopped.

As we arrived near a neighbour house shining from behind some trees (Christmas lights), a white wolf dog appeared. It was sooo happy to see us and wanted to come with us.

Anyway, we had to take the dog back to the house so that it wouldn't follow us to our home (we have another dog). The dog was chained again and howling restarted.

What a lovely dog :)

Half-manifested lightning

A couple of evenings ago, I focused on the old oak tree, then on the silent noise of the wind in the forest. Wind picked up. I had just installed an antenna about an hour or two ago and was wondering if it was safe against lightning as well. Bah, at winter there's no lightning anyway.. A flash of white light, followed by a noise that seemed similar to thunder (could've been a steel plate snapping due to temperature gradients or wind). That was the only flash and the only sound of thunder that I heard. Later it was no more.

Yesterday evening there was a nice wind. Played with it a little. Wind picked up. Picked trees to sway around with the wind, turned it around the corner and swayed some Christmas decorations.

Some flickering of lights, disturbed TV transmission (digibox didn't work while I was meditating), some precog (which present was meant for me) and empathy (checked if grandparents were awake before I called them).

White "room"

Periodically woke up yesterday morning, expecting for a Skype meeting, which was supposed to take place sometime in the morning. The meeting didn't happen, ended up pretty tired. Enjoyed a yawn party, which, after lasting for at least 30 minutes, culminated in the brain waking up.

A few hours later, I felt more lucid than I've been in the last few years. Felt really close to waking up from this reality.

Took a nap in the evening. A few minutes into the nap, I noticed a white portal somewhere nearby. There was somebody there, aware of me. Slowly entered through the portal, while the being was cleaning me with the white psi. The white "room" was without form (thus, not really a room), or rather, it had the form that was projected from my mind. Semi-subconsciously I had projected the 3d image of our bathroom. From the white psi, a part of the bathroom appeared.When it manifested, I could feel it inside-out and move around in there, as if it were an OBE.

Okay, just found that the laptop had woken up inside the bag. It had been there for half a day, battery at around 0%. I hope nothing overheated. When I plugged it in, it went to sleep. The new laptop has already developed some pretty unhealthy habits.

Suspicious

Have been feeling floaty for the past few days.

Visited one of the department stores today. There was a group of drunk young men trying to be cool. One of the guards was called there. The guard looked pretty small, when compared to those guys .. who didn't take him very seriously. Targeted the group and tried to make them feel tired and sleepy. Don't know if it worked at least a little or not at all. A couple of minutes later, an alarm went off and firefighters parked at the front. Strange.

A couple of mystical work-related bugs and some geisting incidents.

Yesterday I found myself locked out by the laptop .. couldn't login. An Ubuntu update might have changed the permissions on .Xauthority.

Today some memory corruption appeared on my laptop. Copied a few lines of Pawn script, and when I tried to paste them, I got some funny piece of code that I don't think I have anywhere on this laptop at all - looked like a snippet from a graph traversal algorithm with half-Estonian variable names (I don't write code in such a way). Anyway, watched an SG-1 episode with Dad, came back and it got even more strange .. Ubuntu nearly froze with the SSD activity indicator lit. Couldn't power it off properly anymore, had to power-recycle it. Very suspicious.

Later it became keep the cloud of hot psi from being shot at the laptop. Took me some effort to turn the cloud more inward.

Crown and 3rd eye

Meditated again last night, with attention at the bindu point at the top of the head. At some point I became aware of a being to my right observing and making notes. Someone walked past towards my left. Didn't associate myself with them, I just let them be and continued focus on the sense of my own presence. Eventually, the crown popped open again.

After that, I noticed how breathing became more shallow and consciousness started shifting (it changed shape and leaned forward). There seemed to be an increased concentration of consciousness at the 3rd eye now. This process didn't finish, though .. the point of focus was becoming duller (was about to fall asleep).

Tried to keep focus on something more tangible for the mind (the sensation of levitation), which should be easier to do for a tired mind. Noticed the root chakra pulsating, so I also moved focus there. Some bursts of psi shot up from there, hurting the back of the head slightly. There was some effect - a sensation of a pull upwards. Though, could hardly maintain focus and went to bed.

While attention was wandering, I saw an image of a tree in a storm, visited sister and Dad and so on..

Tantra fail: leaked a lot of psi while semi-conscious. That's the second night in a row that this has happened.