Decided to apply a more forceful push to my progress (a firm design of the avatar). Got that familiar floaty feeling with empathy, visions and weather geisting. Dreams became a lot more vivid and remembered them better after waking up.
Yesterday I noticed that there was something off. Had to visit the bathroom way too often. Also, at night, I would leak jing. During pranayama practice, I held the breath for a bit longer, in order to observe what was going on in the abdomen. There was a pillar of burning heat that caused a mess. Focused on the area and felt a strong bubble of heat emanating from it. Too difficult for me to force that upwards..
Leaked a lot of jing during the night. After that, the body felt more at ease again .. psi could be moved around more easily. Had probably leaked that blob of heat out.
For a few hours in the morning, the mind was amazingly calm and psi was wobbling, pulsing at the crown chakra. Shortly after eating lunch, I became grounded again .. slipped into a slight depression and panic again.
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