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A follow-up of the prior post.

There were some more realizations which came out of the heart chakra, but the two I considered more relevant.

The issue of misfit

In addition to the realization about my being there in that Discord server, I had previously also unraveled another issue which had bothered me for years. The issue of not belonging in this society (of either having been born too early or too late) but being forced to infiltrate it in order to get any closer to the goals in life. While doing so, the whole life becomes like a stage of fake acting while maintaining the patience throughout life that "one day can work on what I've always wanted to work on". The rest of the society loves to feed on that patience and hope. It tries everything it can to redirect the ambitions and convert them into something temporarily useful for itself.

The issue of pioneers

Another side of this is that when something actually does hit close to the ambition, it develops at a superhuman rate. It can easily happen that one realizes they've gone beyond the line of what is considered mankind's limit and that they are truly alone -- nobody has even followed them. It might even be that just a person or two find the way in a few centuries to come.

On one hand, it might seem like a good idea to turn back and rejoin the rest of mankind, it will eventually still make one restless. It's way too dull and it's not what they were born for.

On the other hand, it might seem like a good idea to turn their back on the rest of mankind and simply continue their path. First, it's probably a rather lonely path, but it's also quite easy to lose the way or start going in circles because nobody has really set any landmarks before.

This seemed like a really difficult problem to solve. However, at some point it simply occurred to me that there probably wouldn't be a solution within the next few centuries, if ever. If it does not have a solution, then it's not a problem and I don't have to worry about it at all.