Half-thoughts

Focused on emptiness again, while walking..

No breath cessation this time. This time energy started buzzing around, up the body. Also, it felt as if the body had become a bit lighter as well.
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It has been a while, since I experienced half-thoughts or however they should be called. In order for a thought to take shape, a critical amount of energy needs to be invested. When you either de-focus from the thought or cancel it, when it hasn't reached the critical amount of energy, then it dissolves.

Full thoughts seem to be self-sustaining constructs.
Half-thoughts seem to lack an effect.
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Some more attempts to burst a matchstick into flames with pk. Came up with some new constructs that I hadn't tried before.

Managed to visualize (and see them forming) vortexes quite vividly. Had two vortexes with their tips together at the matchstick head. Had them spin in reverse to each other, creating more friction at the center.

Saw some strange effects in the area of the match head (real tiny dots of light, wobbles, waves and strings in space, some of them glowing slightly). No flame .. yet. However, stimulation of the 3rd eye was great.
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While cooking some pelmeni, focused on the curtains.

Tried to push/pull them at first .. about 1 cm of movement and not always consistent with the intent.

Decided to try to lift the curtains upwards, folding it along the way. Quite considerable movement, about 3 cm or even more. Movement occurred exactly when I released the intent of pulling it upward. It was quite fun to look at how tension distributed along the surface of the curtains..

I guess this stimulated the central back part of the brain or something.

Breath cessation

Remembered that yesterday morning I had a discussion with the construction workers. Expressed my worry about our neighbour, an old lady, who cannot walk down the stairs without a handrail.

When I came home yesterday evening, I found it already installed.
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Attempted to clear the mind and open some channels, while walking home.

For a couple of minutes, reached a state where I barely had to breathe. Sushumna channel and that cavity in the head felt connected.

Later, about 50 meters from home, experienced breath cessation spontaneously as well.
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A fellow psion inspired me to practice some pyrokinesis on a matchstick again. No success yet.

Caught exploring forbidden areas

Had an interesting dream last night (probably influenced by some youtube videos and playing of fallout 2 for 15 minutes before bed).

Here goes .. we're out exploring with a friend. It looks like a summer evening or early morning, couldn't tell the difference very well. The scenery was unfamiliar and amazingly detailed.

We're coming along an asphalt road, looking for entrances into some kind of underground tunnels. Every now and then, there were air intake grills. We were wondering if there was a larger entry somewhere.

To the left of the road, there's a lake and ahead, there's a wooden house at the shore (partly built on water), surrounded by leaf trees with some pine trees as extra. The soil was a bit sandy.

On the lake, there's a fisherman with his boat, replacing fishing nets or taking them out. We intended to sneak past him, by going around the lake. Sadly, when we arrived at his house, we had to stop. He had reached the shore with his boat.

From his facial expressions, I could tell that he could see us, or rather, sense us (looked straight at us for a few times). His rational mind dominated, though, making him doubt what he saw.

The man came closer, as we were at the place, where he would clean his nets. Well, that was pretty much the worst place to hide. Had positioned myself behind a tree, so that sun would shine through me, into his face. There, he realized about our presence. Asked who's there and started to see us. He told us it was dangerous there and he might've accidentally shot us, thinking we were a pack of deers or something.

Highly suspicious about us, he let us go.

We went on, along the road, looking for an entrance. Found a bigger one, looked in and saw a spacious room down there. Found it interesting, how these air intakes generated a lot of loud noise, as if there were ventilators installed at some of them.

An alarm went off, heard them call security over the radio or something. Panic .. scanned the surroundings at hi-speed, absolutely nowhere to hide .. nearest woods were way too far. Jumping into the lake was not an option. The best bet seemed to be hiding ourselves into the ground, right next to the road, hoping that they would just miss us.

Semi-woke up from that dream, with the bus surrounded. Apparently, we had been astral-travelling from that bus or something. Busted...
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Saw a lot of police cars moving around today morning, felt a bit uneasy.

Edit: This is the 666th post. ;)

Meditative work

Some meditating and pk practice last night. Barely any movement on the objects.

Ran out of sleep, went to work early.

Reached the meditative state during work for a few times. Started to feel more wobbly and a bit weird. Saw myself starting to project more light onto the surroundings, transforming the feelings that stuff gave off. A channel and a cavity opened up in the head and later closed again, resulting in a slight headache.

Just some healing

Another satellite workshop at autumn school.

Not much pk related stuff.

Some weird dreams.

Some attempts at focusing on the emptiness last night. Each time I did that, I felt the psi field thicken. Each time I lost focus, the psi field seemed to have became thinner. Played with it, creating an onion-like shield around the body.

Healed the body a little today morning. Focused on the key points where something was off and visualized warmth and light entering there. Also, applied a simplified version of the white skeleton meditation on the bones at these key points. This took some time, but made me feel really good afterwards.

Saw a dark blob speed across the floor from under a closed door once.
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While back at home, took a nap, mixed with meditation. Visualized the body engulfed in inner flames, burning away any toxins that have accumulated over time. The smell of something burning (or really hot) appeared.

Woke up, feeling energized. Tried to pull psi up the spine, staring at the floor.

There was a sudden bright reflection on the floor. Found it strange, as there didn't seem to be any rational cause for it.

Daily pk

Inspired by these videos:

While it's either compiling or reflashing some of the chips, I've been recently been practising pk on a balanced pen. Not much of a movement yet. Though, I haven't quite acquired the feeling of the pen yet.

It started snowing today .. feels quite soothing. Also, it's nice to observe and play with the air when it's thick of snowflakes.

Meditated more than usual yesterday and felt pretty calm and refreshed in the morning.

Presentation

Had trouble falling asleep last night. Up until late hours, I spent in the half-dream state, sister showing me some interesting stuff. This lasted for almost as long as sister was awake.

Hm, the presentation didn't go too well. That familiar feeling of pleasure was absent today. I guess I was too nervous or something. It seems the crowd liked it, though.

Now there's this sweet emptiness.
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Happened to see a cyan-blue flash exactly at the heart chakra of a coworker today.