Dream: flood

Remembered 2 last dreams.


Smelled something burning. Sun was shining into face. Turned around and back to sleep.

Became aware of my body in a dream. The room layout was different (like before switching rooms with sister). Sister was organizing something and had some daily meeting with friends while I was still sleeping. Had been listening and woke up to say something, but by then, the meeting was already over. I'm like: "Wait, what? You were all here just a couple of seconds ago, still discussing things. How come there's nobody even here anymore?" Walked through the rooms .. there really was nobody there. At the meeting, sister had raised a problem of needing somebody to clean the rooms or something, while we're away for a long time. Sister asked me to find more people to sign the meeting paper (there were only about 10 or less people at the meeting). I was rather skeptical about it. Couldn't remember any friends, who would actually do that.

Anyway, that's that. I knew I would have to leave soon. Looked out of the window to check for the weather. WTF? All the streets were flooded to the height of 1.5 or 2 floors. Sister was aware of that, but to her it wasn't important. Oh well, went out, exploring .. through a concrete wall, wooden blockades and some other stuff (all of these disappeared simply when I touched them). The dream environment was changing often and no longer made sense. The flood decreased. Found more people sitting on a hill, watching the flood. There was an old bridge at the back. Climbed on there to get a better view of the city. The flood was no more. Apparently, the buildings had been lifted somehow, to reduce the effect of the flood. Some of them had become tilted .. scrap electronics and concrete rubble had come out from under the water. Asphalt was gone, now there was just dirt.

Next dream. Teleported to grandpa's place in the capital city. Both of them were in the living room, which looked even more awesome than before. They showed me their new ceiling lamp they had just recently installed as well as some other stuff. Told them about the flood. Grandpa told me about another disaster in the capital city. A circular area of buildings had been wiped out somewhere. Didn't know about this. Noticed the feeling of a ball in my right hand.

Appeared back into my bedroom .. just laying there. The feeling of a ball in the right hand was still there. Added some more oomph, made it thicker. It seemed to be of rubber, so thick and dense that it took a considerable amount of effort to deform it. Accidentally dropped it .. fell through the physical right hand (couldn't feel a thing there) and onto the mattress. Sensed the vibrations that moved throughout the whole mattress as the ball hit it. Without moving the head or leaning up, I reached for the ball with my right hand and picked it up again from inside the physical right hand. Somehow the right hand knew exactly where it had fallen, without the need to see the ball. Moved the ball up, some distance from the face. Pushed hard, trying to deform it temporarily. At some moment I started seeing the ball .. it was blue, just like those little orbish flashes I've seen here and there. Flowers were at the background, remembered that I had forgotten to water for some time by now. Stood up and put the ball on top of the shelf and went back into the body to wake up and water the flowers.

Seagull, swimming, etc.

Heard a seagull mimick the sound of a toddler crying yesterday. The same seagull?

I think it was also yesterday that I had gone to the kitchen for a drink. ... a white feather floats past ... and sticks to the bottle of mineral water. The window was merely cracked open, curtains deployed, with the chances of a feather finding its way in being somewhat slim. A seagull feather.

Yesterday I observed me, then observed the observer observing me and so on..
Eventually felt nicely calm and at peace.

Went to bed last night .. teleported for a swim somewhere. Out of body, most likely.? It was amazingly vivid and real .. interaction between the body (a construct?) and water.

Yesterday I also scanned an area in the chest, just below the throat. This area is responsible for causing addiction to drinking cold mineral water, kefir, yoghurt, eating ice cream, etc.

Father once expressed it very well: "We're fed with stuff that's not what we need, but close enough for us to become addicted, without realizing that it's not what we're after."

So, while focused on that area, I tried to find what was that it really needed. Found it wasn't material at all. It wasn't cold, it wasn't liquid .. rational mind couldn't grasp it. If I would manage to self-generate this thing in that area, then I might just find that I no longer need to drink nor eat.

Felt rather tensed up again. In a sense, this tension yields a compression of time as well as a greater productivity. Visited the shop today evening. On my way there, I sensed an incredibly strong connection with everything. Dense field of consciousness in the trees, buildings, etc. A lot of people staring at me.

I, me and myself

Took a nap. The mind was chatting a lot, until suddenly a short pulse of pain appeared in the "throat" of the mind. From that moment onwards, the mind was
silent.

Today I realized that if I were someone else, then I would find this me interesting enough to enjoy and spend time with .. meditating. This seriously cheered me up from the inside.

Interesting .. sloshed psi around in the head and left hemisphere + left ear often released pain, whereas the right one did not.

Seagull alarm?

Just sat in a full-lotus pose and thought about stuff. Noticed that just sitting already cleared 1 layer of mind, just sitting in full-lotus pose cleared 2.

Sitting there for about 40 minutes was enough to lift a bunch of heavy warm psi up the body. Soothing.. No need to force the intensity of psi flow to do that.

It was nicely .. no, a little bit too soothing to sleep after that sitting.

Woke up on the sound of a cellphone alarm. No, it was a seagull, who had mimicked the alarm. What the seagulls..?

A rather empty but happy day. Good timing with intuition.

I've grown fond of that Tibetan singing bowl. Gets me feel dizzy and floaty real quick.

Oh well..

During today's weekly meeting, saw a bright white orb fly from my right to my left (most of the people were sitting towards my left).

Noticed that the orb looked brighter in the field of view of the right eye. In the field of view of the left one, it looked a bit more pale.

Then again, at first I thought it was an eye-effect or something, but when I saw it continue its trajectory with the other eye, then that got debunked. Didn't move the eyes from the laptop screen.

During lunch, I sensed intensity building up and becoming directed at a colleague, with whom we were in a heated discussion. This was unintentional and a little bit surprising. I hope that didn't cause any problems. Sorry, mate.

While going home, I started experiencing sharp pain on the left eyeball. The more energy I directed there, the more it hurt. Slept for a couple of hours at home, which felt pretty good. A pretty random call woke me up. Something about helping to transport windows.

Wordplay

Was reading the comments on Paranatural chapter 4 page 20. Found "Skeleton" mention his lucid dreams and OBE. Found his comic to be pretty funny and weird.

Intensity

Since the last post, I've been cranking up the intensity. Feeling great so far .. better than before, actually. It seems the intense flow of psi greatly helps the metabolism.

As I increased the intensity, I noticed that the frequency of the body also increased. Cranked it all up until the pulsation became so frequent that I could only sense it as a single continuous buzz.

Had a bazillion dreams or something.

Today I decreased the intensity while near other people or animals (dogs started barking).

Felt tired in the evening. Cranked up the intensity again. Thought I should attempt white skeleton meditation again. Started from the toes again, but it didn't feel right (no feedback there). Felt like I should start roughly from that place where I left off the last time. A lot of heat was produced. Realized that the right hand had accidentally gotten into a position, where the index finger touched the back at the spine, exactly at the spot where I had stopped the meditation last time. Somehow the finger focused more energy into that spot, amplifying the heat even further .. with the heat rising into the hands, some of it was fed back through the index finger. The same thing with almost each of the bones in the spine. I guess I found acupuncture or something.

There was a darker spot in the chest somewhere (right to the heart). When I focused on that with all the heat going around, it started spreading pain through the psi channels. The shoulder, right arm was pulsating in this tingling pain. The pain subsided after a few seconds. Started to wonder if there's 2 hearts, only one of which is fully materialized. It would make sense to have symmetry or balance.

I've forgotten to post this, but a few nights ago when I attempted white skeleton meditation again, I noticed the sound of a strange seagull. Well, it sounded strange .. because it almost seemed as if it were yelling "tummo, tummo".