Dream: Fall phasing

Last night I had a dream where I became self-aware in a tall building. Looking out of the window, I saw another tall building next to it. While I was not on the top floor, it was still fairly high up. It was a large room with multiple windows and a concrete floor. Judging by the architecture, it seemed soviet but much more modern.

I had to get to lower floors and decided to phase through the floor and become solid again before reaching the floor below. This was something which I had not tried before. As everything seemed so vivid, I was afraid of getting hurt and hesitated a bit. Eventually I phased through the floor and fell on a cloud-like structure with a wooden frame, hanging from the ceiling on the floor below. Took a moment to overcome the fear again, and descended further, floor by floor. Ended up in all sorts of different rooms and some of them had people who saw me land through their ceiling and were a bit shocked by that.

Towards the end of the dream I also flew around a bit but that I'm more used to.

Clinging

Dream: Tall help

Remember that tall guy? From the previous post.

Last night one of the deep dreams (first 4-5 hours of sleep, not very stable dreams) featured him. Me and someone else were building a two-storeyed house. To be more precise, we were pouring concrete floor for the second storey. One of the walls was made of glass. This tall dude appeared in front of the glass wall, read my thoughts and wanted to help by taking sand from the pile and passing it to the second storey with a shovel. However, the tall dude was like an NPC or something, and couldn't comprehend that there was a glass wall between us. His shovel kept bumping into the wall, causing the sand to fall off the shovel again and again. The wall was more-or-less impenetrable and I wanted to keep it that way. I wondered what to do and how we could make use of his will to help. Phased his shovel and sand through the glass wall. It worked.

I was then transported (flown) out of the building and off to the edge of the dream (like a cliff into the void of sorts). I guess I wasn't lucid or something, because I was afraid of falling. Instinctively, focused as hard as I could on flying back onto the cliff without dropping any lower. It worked as well, though, I had no free resources to marvel at myself levitating.

Just a day

Yesterday morning I saw the grid of light again after waking up.

Ate lunch at a canteen. Took a beef cutlet but eating it made me sad. I knew I would have to finish it even though it tasted bad but that's not what made me sad. The situation caused me to seriously consider reducing my meat consumption.

Nature of space-time

Sister's birthday, so had a small family reunion. Although most of us had already seen "Arrival", we re-watched a pirated version (haven't seen it in stores and it's missing from Netflix). It's about time. Let's describe the events backwards.

Matrix of Light

A bit back in time, woke at 3:34 AM. Woke from a series of dreams with heavy symbolism. Tried to remember the dreams just prior to waking up, not sure how much time I spent with my eyes closed that way. I had slept on my back the whole time, facing the ceiling. The first time I opened my eyes, I saw irregular vertical lines (like wood stripes) of light on the ceiling. The next time I opened my eyes, I saw a grid of both vertical as well as horizontal lines (both a bit irregular, as if formed naturally). This grid lasted for 10 minutes or so, then gradually faded from sight. Not the first time, though, previously I've seen the grid differently (either dots, stars, etc.).

The dreams

Random prefix, then found myself on a road. Some guy was walking in front, advertising a book to me. Quite a thick book, with all kinds of crossword puzzles. Realized that by working on it regularly, one could enhance their memory to the extent of perfect recall of any details from the past. I was no longer worried about not being able to remember all of the dreams. This triggered something.

Suddenly I'm in the past somewhere, in a mining cave. There's someone there, wanting to show me something. They put their coffee mug out of the way (I think that's what happened). They take a pickaxe and balance it, then put a hat on it (to show how it was before some kind of an event). Seemingly by accident, the pickaxe tips over and falls to the ground, smashing the coffee mug. Oh shi .. there's a coin underneath the ruins of the mug. The coin has the Eye of Providence, two intertwining triangles and Adam and Eve written on it. Holding it in my hand and looking at it from different angles, I was a bit afraid others might associate me with that kind of stuff.

Someone had found a book they wanted to show me and some other people. It was not a regular book, but an artifact that somehow spanned multiple timelines. Looked like a plain book with red leather hard-cover and some powerful-looking text inside. This guy took an albino match, lit it and tried to burn the book from a corner. The book both burned and didn't. It looked as if it partially swapped itself between other timelines, always ending up undamaged. The guy lit another match, burned another part of the book. All his matchsticks had a white or yellowish white head (I think he had bright hair as well). Anyway, he took the next match and lit it right next to the book cover so that he ended up with the matchstick inside the book. The match was burning inside the book, without damaging the book. Instead, this caused the book to become fairly mixed with parts from different timelines. He then showed the first pages of the book, which had different kind of watermarks on them. The watermarks indicated some conspiracies. Though, this was kind of irrelevant. The "feeling" and behaviour of the book was the important detail. This had me realize something (basically found a new viewpoint to look at space-time, which hadn't occurred to me before).

Unfortunately, I don't remember many of the details (would either need to refer to the crossword method or use subconscious processing to recover the details). There were other dreams in between as well, but the book kind of shadowed them. I think I thought about the fabric of space-time based on the book, just before waking up.

Water on flames

Went to bed at 0:00 AM. Woke at 4 AM, due to the feet being too energized. Had spent the 4 hours in a half-sleep state without dreams. Took a meditation pose and focused the energy up the spine, into the head. Mind became a lot clearer, yawned a lot and went back to bed. With the energy up in the higher chakras, I started feeling hunger (barely ate anything at all yesterday).

Before the milk-fetching alarm at 8 AM, I had 2 dreams.

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Dream 1:

There was a strange boiler with mysterious pipework that supplied the bathroom, toilet and sauna with water. It was ancient, it leaked water and looked slightly spooky for some reason. Spent time fixing it so that I could take sauna. Sister wanted to make a bonfire. She piled up wood in the front yard and started spraying water on it with a garden hose. Water burst into flames around the logs. There were 2 other people around the bonfire, who thought that she had piled up too much firewood and that the flames were too great (dangerous, even). I just observed it, somewhat disagreed with the 2 other guys but had nothing against removing a few logs. Sister did so. She took a few glowing logs and piled them behind the corner of the sauna building.

The dream must have been for me to observe without interaction. Because when I decided to take the logs for the boiler that sister had removed from the bonfire, the dream became unstable. The boiler started changing its shape, losing important components and so on.

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Dream 2:

There was some sort of a competition. During a break, we were treated for a feast at a fancy restaurant. I had something to do and arrived a bit late. Chose a table at the back. When I was about to sit down, the two other people at the table suggested me not to sit there, because the table was missing one leg. Chose another seat, which would keep the table in balance. But I couldn't drag the chair from underneath the table because a bed was in the way. Couldn't move the bed enough because it was at the wall already. Asked the waiter for advice. Well, then the competition resumed.

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Enjoyed a jog and a short meditation with Kaspar. He played with the wind .. a strong gust of wind from the left, then from the right. Told him that I've seen several dreams where he has taught me levitation.

He told me about an attempt to move fire some time ago. He had been sitting at the bonfire when his mother put more wood into the fire. It became too hot for Kaspar to sit there. So he focused on pushing the fire away from him. Eventually, the flames were reduced. The bonfire was no longer burning. However, his parents noticed a round spot of grass burning, quite a distance from the bonfire. Puzzled, they quickly took a bucket of water and extinguished it.

Kaspar also told how he had been practising phasing. He wanted to glue two small pieces of wood together but they didn't stick together. He became anxious and just pushed the two pieces of wood together .. they phased into each-other of about 5 mm.

So awesome =D

Inaudible storm

Strange stress from nowhere again.

A dream: Woke up and looked out of the balcony window. All trees were in green leaves already. There was quite a storm outside, judging by how the trees were swaying. However, the storm didn't make a sound. Couldn't hear the wind (or could only barely hear it) indoors.

Another dream: Explored some kind of a dungeon again. Entered through the roof and ventured downwards. There were a few people in the rooms and corridors on the first two floors. Someone entered and poisoned the people there. Winded time back a little and stole something from that someone before he managed to complete their mission. In the dream, that something was symbolized by a large fishing hook. Headed to a small workshop near the building and cut the eye of the hook off so that it would no longer work as intended. Moving around was easy, although that someone had started chasing me. They had a physical body, whereas I didn't - so, I could easily fly from floor to floor, walk through locked doors and so on. Used a lot of that to put some distance between us.

Watched the first episode of the Believe series. I was amazed at the quality. Looks very promising.

Sky was covered in thick clouds and it was raining. Took a short meditative nap during the day. Sky was perfectly clear, sun shining.

Sister invited me and dad to watch a movie on Steve Jobs. Hesitated at first, but decided to still watch it. Stress .. at some moment there was a power surge or something, lamps lit up bright for a moment, everything went dark for a split-second, UPS-es beeped. It seems nothing serious happened.

Golden arrow through the heart

Found a neat motivation for focus practice. Transferred some bitcoins into my peercoin wallet. Then realized that I can't remember the password to the encrypted wallet. So, yesterday I focused on remembering what it was that I changed in the password when I entered it.

Somewhere in the process of digging up those memories, I found a hole at my heart chakra. The edges of the hole were pretty painful. Slowly warmed them with focus. At some moment, something burst and a strong stream of golden light pierced the body at the heart chakra. The experience relieved the pain, while being painful at the same time.

A very detailed dream.

I was walking somewhere again. Noticed that a young girl on a bicycle seemed to be following me. When I stepped aside and stopped, she bumped into me. Enjoyed her company, however, she was too young to be more than a friend.

I had been watching the clouds for some time and had concluded that reality check fail there. Pointed at the clouds and told her about it. Once I did that, the otherwise scattered clouds merged together and formed a tornado. Considered that very awkward, since tornadoes aren't supposed to be forming in Estonia.

Anyway, 2 of these things formed and started tearing the buildings. The tornadoes seemed to be headed towards us.

The girl's dad was leading some sort of an evacuation. He was on a boat on the river, which runs through the town. Even though he was several kilometres away, he was right next to us and we could see him on the boat, hear him shouting and stuff. While we were still at another edge of the town.

People, the girl as well as her father looked nervous. I was just .. calm, observing what was going on.

The dream was very detailed and realistic, but the clouds gave it away. Thus, I knew I could fly, walk through the walls and stuff. However, the dream dissolved soon after I stepped through a thick brick wall and glanced at some electric devices on the walls..

Dream: flood

Remembered 2 last dreams.


Smelled something burning. Sun was shining into face. Turned around and back to sleep.

Became aware of my body in a dream. The room layout was different (like before switching rooms with sister). Sister was organizing something and had some daily meeting with friends while I was still sleeping. Had been listening and woke up to say something, but by then, the meeting was already over. I'm like: "Wait, what? You were all here just a couple of seconds ago, still discussing things. How come there's nobody even here anymore?" Walked through the rooms .. there really was nobody there. At the meeting, sister had raised a problem of needing somebody to clean the rooms or something, while we're away for a long time. Sister asked me to find more people to sign the meeting paper (there were only about 10 or less people at the meeting). I was rather skeptical about it. Couldn't remember any friends, who would actually do that.

Anyway, that's that. I knew I would have to leave soon. Looked out of the window to check for the weather. WTF? All the streets were flooded to the height of 1.5 or 2 floors. Sister was aware of that, but to her it wasn't important. Oh well, went out, exploring .. through a concrete wall, wooden blockades and some other stuff (all of these disappeared simply when I touched them). The dream environment was changing often and no longer made sense. The flood decreased. Found more people sitting on a hill, watching the flood. There was an old bridge at the back. Climbed on there to get a better view of the city. The flood was no more. Apparently, the buildings had been lifted somehow, to reduce the effect of the flood. Some of them had become tilted .. scrap electronics and concrete rubble had come out from under the water. Asphalt was gone, now there was just dirt.

Next dream. Teleported to grandpa's place in the capital city. Both of them were in the living room, which looked even more awesome than before. They showed me their new ceiling lamp they had just recently installed as well as some other stuff. Told them about the flood. Grandpa told me about another disaster in the capital city. A circular area of buildings had been wiped out somewhere. Didn't know about this. Noticed the feeling of a ball in my right hand.

Appeared back into my bedroom .. just laying there. The feeling of a ball in the right hand was still there. Added some more oomph, made it thicker. It seemed to be of rubber, so thick and dense that it took a considerable amount of effort to deform it. Accidentally dropped it .. fell through the physical right hand (couldn't feel a thing there) and onto the mattress. Sensed the vibrations that moved throughout the whole mattress as the ball hit it. Without moving the head or leaning up, I reached for the ball with my right hand and picked it up again from inside the physical right hand. Somehow the right hand knew exactly where it had fallen, without the need to see the ball. Moved the ball up, some distance from the face. Pushed hard, trying to deform it temporarily. At some moment I started seeing the ball .. it was blue, just like those little orbish flashes I've seen here and there. Flowers were at the background, remembered that I had forgotten to water for some time by now. Stood up and put the ball on top of the shelf and went back into the body to wake up and water the flowers.

Wait while patience

Sister came home last night and ringed the doorbell just when I had descended into sleep. She had forgotten her jacket somewhere, in which she had the keys.

A bit pissed but not actually caring too much about it, I gave her my keys. She promised to be home in the evening the next day.

Came home, rang the doorbell. Silence. Called her. Silence. Later called her again. Silence. After 3 hours of waiting at the door, I got a bit pissed (why would she go away for so long, when she's aware that I would be there, waiting without keys) and decided to buy at least some snacks or something. Hugged her in my mind, with an intent to forgive. Pretty much at the same moment, sister called back, apologized and said she had fallen asleep while waiting for me.

That's a way to "sudo meditate" me. Roughly half of the time I meditated in the corridor and half of the time practised pk. Didn't have anything else to do.

Could go behind the door with consciousness, but didn't succeed in 'poofing' the body there. Should've practised teleportation earlier.

Obtained the feeling of the door fast, but couldn't make sense of the locking mechanism. So, there I was, slightly wobbling and bending the metal door but unable to open it (interesting, how body awareness faded and vision slowly zoomed in on the door). Too little practise on obtaining the feeling of complex mechanical systems. Tried creating a construct that would unlock it from the inside. Same problem.

About 2 years ago, it happened several times that I opened a locked door (phasing?). Didn't succeed with it on will and with the apartment door. Attempted to phase a hand through the door, which didn't work either (just felt as if the door bent around the finger .. no soft spots).

Tried to think of it all as a lucid dream. Pk awareness increased dramatically. Started to feel walls, multiple floors, doors, people moving around in their apartments, etc. Still not enough to open the door, tho.

Occasionally gathered focus back around the body and meditated some.

Observed a lot of tiny constructs and orbs moving around there. Some of them made a flash and disappeared or started moving really fast. Some of them changed shape, etc. Pretty interesting, haven't seen such a variety in my room.

Also an interesting thing to note. Although there were a lot of people moving around in the corridor / stairway, no-one walked past me. No-one even opened the door on this floor or the next one. This gave me a lot of startles without actually causing me to stop / pause meditation or pk sessions.

Anyway, to sum it up:

1. Need to become a lot stronger in pk (there are still situations where 'normal' methods won't work).
2. Need to develop more patience (several days instead of just 3 hours).
3. Need to develop deeper concentration.

No geisting, please

Some mornings ago, I had a dream where friends were levitating at the summerhouse. Knew I could do it too, but wanted to take photos, for which I needed a stable ground.

Interesting .. after a few sleepless nights and a deadline rush, time seems to have started progressing real slow. Slept in the car (supposed to be about a 2 hour drive) and just a nap of 10 minutes made me feel as if I had been away for about 24 hours.

TV tower

Visited the TV tower today and tried standing on a tunnel of glass.

Wished I wouldn't geist any phasing effects while standing there.

Thumb thru metal?

Remembered a strange event back at the barracks. I was stuffing some clothes deep into the locker, looking at what was going on in the hallway. The shelf was quite full, but there seemed to be enough space for what I was trying to put in there. It didn't come to mind that there might not be enough room for my hand to fit in. I think I was pulling my hand back when *snap*, my thumb was hit hard and I found it resting on the edge of the shelf. This reminded me of how father closed the car door with his thumb inside .. it phased through the door. Though, in my case, the internals of the thumb were not damaged, just the nail was deformed a little. Don't know if it was something weird or my tired mind just didn't get what was going on; logged it down for later reference.

Another lock

While unlocking the lab door, the key only made one turn and refused to move further. I thought: "ok, someone must have only locked it once.." and opened the door. It opened without effort. However, when I went to close the door some time later, it didn't close .. the lock bolt was out. Then the key turned once more without problems and I could fully unlock it. This is the second time this has happened; the first time I thought I had accidentally turned the key too far before pulling it out or something and more-or-less ignored it. Maybe the door would always open with half of the lock bolt out?

Edit: Tried it today .. couldn't open the door with the lock bolt halfway out. Might be phasing..

It was nice and warm outside. Water was frozen in some shadows but there was no wind and sun was shining. Came home without a jacket on.

Tried fourmilabs pk experiments before going to bed. There was a remarkable boost in my score when I relaxed. I made a construct and attached the line on the Bell curve experiment with the time progressbar and it ended up following the progressbar with a randomized wobbling around it.

Practiced some Pranayama and some Trataka by staring the clock again. Went to sleep.

I was sleeping in a dream and suddenly woke up, feeling that I've finally got it. Got what? Who knows. Anyway, I opened my eyes with excitement and it was a really beautiful morning .. sunrise shining through the balcony. There were a piece of paper and a handkerchief on the carpet, I looked at them and they flew across the floor, up to the balcony, rolling on their way there. I became even more excited, grabbed the camera and started recording. Calmed myself down quickly and did it again. This is the first time I've managed to record anything with a camera in my dreams.

Kevin popped up and we went out. It was so early in the morning that the streets were quiet and there were no people on the streets. We played with pk, I levitated some and then Kevin targeted an old rusty bus wreck next to a parking lot. He crossed the street with it and tried to lift it up in the air, but it didn't rise evenly. It crashed down on its nose, breaking in half. I left.

Sun was higher already and there were people moving around. Arrived at a mountain of sand rock. A friend was at the top. I had come down a few days ago and lost my fleece on the way. There were a lot of my old shirts, socks and stuff in the rock, but I couldn't find what I was looking for. Fell off while pulling stuff out. Everyone else was scared .. I just levitated back to the ground.

I think what I got was a specific feeling that might help me on pk and enlightenment practices.

Googelismus

It happens pretty often that I want to google something and yet I don't know what. This time I felt like googling for something spiritual, just went with the flow of the feeling and typed in "dhali". It felt like it had something to do with India (which I really like). It seems it's a small town in India, though, couldn't find any pictures on it .. there's really not much info on it. Found that there's a temple nearby - Palani. Well, yeah, now I've googled something random and I don't have a clue what to do with it .. =D

Have been meditating while listening to KPM Music again. It seems that I'm becoming more used to these psi flows again, as I no longer feel as dizzy as before.

I also wanted to note that there haven't been any snapping noises or flickering lights recently.

Woke up in the middle of the night, because I was falling through the bed with the mattress. Set the mattress support ribs up again. I don't have a clue how that happened, because I would have had to lift the ribs, tilt them and then push them down in order for anything similar to happen. Since there's a mattress constantly applying weight on the ribs, I don't know how these ribs could be lifted like that. Another way would be to phase these ribs through the bottom of the bed frame. <\me scratches head>

Went back to bed, but couldn't get back to sleep right away. The construct that was applying pressure on the top of the head had become so strong that it felt like I was physically squeezing my brain. So, I let go of it and built another one .. this time around the spinal channel.

Suspicious 7 of spades

Joined #psionacademy and chattered with ShadowmanX. We tried RV on some cards. I visualized looking out of his monitor, towards him. Saw his hand and a card he was holding up. It was 6 of diamonds. However, it turned out that he hadn't started yet. I tried it again a couple of times, but as the image was built from feelings, I always saw many cards and I couldn't tell which one was the right one. So, I cut some of them out by using just logic (well, I cut out the correct card along with a few incorrect cards). The more we practiced, the more blurry the image became and I ended up seeing just a few faint symbols on a completely black background. Well, that 6 of diamonds reappeared later, but then I thought logically and came to the conclusion that it just couldn't be.

It was really fun, but it put a lot of doubt in my few previous RV attempts (subconscious keeps putting up things that actually aren't there - things that come from some other source). That's probably what happened when I saw ShadowmanX rotating the card (looked like 7 of spades) in his hand when he actually wasn't. It could've just been the subconsciousness's reaction to trying to spin the psi-wheel before the RV practice.

Talked with my father on the subject of RV-ing things. He thought that the "extra information" that subconscious puts onto the images can probably be recognized. Anyway, he smoothly changed the subject to phasing through walls and said that it's probably about making all the atoms resonate with the same frequency so that they keep their distance and each-others frequencies while body is going through a solid. I asked: "What if there are some atoms in the wall that happen to be at the same frequency?" He thought about it for a minute or two and asked: "Why is it that the magicians always use some kind of cover when going through a solid? Or why can the gate of Aramu Muru only be accessed during the night?"

Edit: He thought that maybe sunlight or light in general has the effect of making the surface atoms of the solid vibrate with the same frequency.

An interesting thought and that would explain why phasing is supposed to be really painful and why father's thumbnail came off after he had accidentally pulled it through a car door. Maybe it is because of doing these things in light. Another thing that came to my mind is that magicians always look for the soft spot before going through, which means that they prepare the wall beforehand.

There could be a connection between this vibration and the one that can be felt after an OBE. Just like he made an example of a crystal repairing itself with vibrations, it could be the same with our bodies. So, even if something gets damaged while phasing through a wall or something, it's constantly repairing itself with the vibration.

Well, I thought there were no limits and that maybe phasing would work some way similar to atoms stretching out in one direction when electric field is applied to a metal. When the atoms are stretched out enough, other stretched out atoms could move through. Maybe it's just a wild dream, but I like to think that there are no actual limits.