Cultivating

Had been having slightly disturbing dreams again. One of the most recent one was as follows:

We've been summoned to practice some sort of chorus songs on the stage. Well, most of us weren't doing that .. at least not all the time. We were aware that 'they' would come and check on us every now and then. Ignored it.

Here they came. Only 2 of us were singing (dream me and one of the girls). Seeing that we were not doing our job, 'they' formed a meeting. We took seats in a row. Noticed that to my left, all of the chorus members were male and to my right, all of them were female.

The ones I refer to 'they' might've been managers or something. Anyway, 'they' asked why we were not doing what we had been ordered to do. In chorus, we all asked them an existential question, which for us was more important than obeying any orders. The managers felt cornered and said they've been exposed and .. nude content. Fled in order to maintain the energy. They didn't know the answer anyway and had to opt for their last resort for control.
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Practised some dangerous energy cultivation yesterday. Won the gamble and got to keep the energy and move it up into the head.

It was challenging to cope with the emotions yesterday evening. Though, by not acting (or thinking) on them, the emotions were converted into heat.

Picked up an old practice of visualizing the density and thickness of the psi field around the body today. Also, slept while trying to keep focus on the field as well as on the mattress and the pillow.

All of this together seems to be having a nice effect. Waves of heat, slushing psi field around the body and other familiar feelings.