Felt the top of the skull open up during last night's pranayama practice.
For most of the first dream, I was still working, implementing, debugging and testing stuff. Finally, when I was done, there was a sweet sense of achievement. Could finally go to sleep from inside that dream.
However, right when I got it done and the pressure suddenly dropped, something strange happened. Dirty water started pouring from seemingly nowhere (from atop a window sill). Sister happened to be sleeping under that window sill with that water dripping on her bed. Similar to what happened in 2009 (then it wasn't a dream, tho).
Ate yoghurt again today and felt it affecting the crown (started wobbling and pulsing more). Cold air also seems to be affecting the chakras in an interesting way.
While walking home late today, I relaxed on the surroundings and really enjoyed it. Felt the buildings, streets, cars, water beneath the cover of ice and snow .. it wasn't quite as vivid as in an OBE, but still nice..
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Alienation
Didn't feel too aware today. A kind of force seemed to be missing. Still tried to push it up the spine, into the crown occasionally and got that familiar feeling of prana or hot air flowing into the central part of the brain. Even though I mostly focused on the bindu point at the back of the top of the head, this affected the crown chakra and 3rd eye, mostly.
Usually I eat just pies, cookies and yoghurt. Opted for some real food (rice + fish) at an Asian restaurant today. That felt good and helped me re-acquire a state of peace and pleasure shortly after. The weather was affected as well, which is usually the case (snowfall stopped, holes appeared in the clouds and sun came out).
About to leave for home, I flipped the light switch and heard an explosion (some really heavy arcing?) from inside the switch. Tried again to make sure I didn't break it. Worked fine. Well, there was a similar problem with the kitchen lamp just recently.
After this event, I paid some more attention to those street lamps. Next to school / work building, there's 1 lamp which always seems to turn on when I'm nearby. On the pedestrian bridge, there are about 3 lamps that flicker. One of these usually goes out when walk past.
Ah, right. Today morning, toilet water system also got stuck. Geisting as well?
Anyway, I've started to feel alienated again. Most of coworkers' jokes no longer make me laugh. Also, most of what either I or they say, seems pointless.
Usually I eat just pies, cookies and yoghurt. Opted for some real food (rice + fish) at an Asian restaurant today. That felt good and helped me re-acquire a state of peace and pleasure shortly after. The weather was affected as well, which is usually the case (snowfall stopped, holes appeared in the clouds and sun came out).
About to leave for home, I flipped the light switch and heard an explosion (some really heavy arcing?) from inside the switch. Tried again to make sure I didn't break it. Worked fine. Well, there was a similar problem with the kitchen lamp just recently.
After this event, I paid some more attention to those street lamps. Next to school / work building, there's 1 lamp which always seems to turn on when I'm nearby. On the pedestrian bridge, there are about 3 lamps that flicker. One of these usually goes out when walk past.
Ah, right. Today morning, toilet water system also got stuck. Geisting as well?
Anyway, I've started to feel alienated again. Most of coworkers' jokes no longer make me laugh. Also, most of what either I or they say, seems pointless.
nExt dreams
Forgot to mention a dream about a naive king with cunning henchmen. Just a scene from a lunch / dinner. Nothing special in the scene, except for everyone being alien and the intentions, thoughts floating around there.
Forgot to mention another one with a bit strange roundtable. Around it, there were some sort of important people whom I didn't quite know. The president had also taken a seat there. Everyone had dressed polite, except for me (some summer casual clothing). For some reason, our family was sitting at the center. Thought it was some kind of a work-related event (would explain those important people) or an important event for one of the relatives (would explain our family being there).
A lot of strange places and taking photos of UFOs last night. Wasn't as aware as the night before.
Forgot to mention another one with a bit strange roundtable. Around it, there were some sort of important people whom I didn't quite know. The president had also taken a seat there. Everyone had dressed polite, except for me (some summer casual clothing). For some reason, our family was sitting at the center. Thought it was some kind of a work-related event (would explain those important people) or an important event for one of the relatives (would explain our family being there).
A lot of strange places and taking photos of UFOs last night. Wasn't as aware as the night before.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
A few dreams
Managed to maintain some amount of focus on the design of my mindset throughout the night.
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In one of the dreams, I visited the summerhouse. For a few hours, I had been waiting there at the door. It had gradually become dark. Enjoyed being there.
After a while, a dog noticed me and came to play with me. Played and while doing so, I noticed that I could guess its movements by changes in the aura. Somehow saw its aura more clearly than before. Noticed something else as well .. the dog was only attracted towards my right hand (Yang?).
At some moment, I decided to check the health of the right hand, just in case. Realized I had been covered in an invisible protective robe of sorts. These bites wouldn't affect anything through the robe.
Some time later, Caspar came out with a few friends. He demonstrated what he had learned in the meanwhile. He was floating, with a friend supporting his hand. Looked around and got the impression that he had somehow transferred his weight onto that hand. His muscles were twitching a little. A rather impressive feat.
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Another dream. A highly dynamic one. It was a bright morning and with the approach of spring, construction workers had come back to work on the building. Looked back from the roof of a nearby building and saw a workers on dangerous swinging ladders and scaffolding.
Back in the apartment, some guy (an acquaintance of an acquaintance) came to sell schematics, about 100 € each. Noticed that he didn't read my thoughts and assumed I wouldn't either. He wanted the money real bad and finally figured out I wouldn't buy any of those, backtalking about me in his mind. The schematics looked stolen and I recognized some from the student satellite project.
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In one of the dreams, I visited the summerhouse. For a few hours, I had been waiting there at the door. It had gradually become dark. Enjoyed being there.
After a while, a dog noticed me and came to play with me. Played and while doing so, I noticed that I could guess its movements by changes in the aura. Somehow saw its aura more clearly than before. Noticed something else as well .. the dog was only attracted towards my right hand (Yang?).
At some moment, I decided to check the health of the right hand, just in case. Realized I had been covered in an invisible protective robe of sorts. These bites wouldn't affect anything through the robe.
Some time later, Caspar came out with a few friends. He demonstrated what he had learned in the meanwhile. He was floating, with a friend supporting his hand. Looked around and got the impression that he had somehow transferred his weight onto that hand. His muscles were twitching a little. A rather impressive feat.
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Another dream. A highly dynamic one. It was a bright morning and with the approach of spring, construction workers had come back to work on the building. Looked back from the roof of a nearby building and saw a workers on dangerous swinging ladders and scaffolding.
Back in the apartment, some guy (an acquaintance of an acquaintance) came to sell schematics, about 100 € each. Noticed that he didn't read my thoughts and assumed I wouldn't either. He wanted the money real bad and finally figured out I wouldn't buy any of those, backtalking about me in his mind. The schematics looked stolen and I recognized some from the student satellite project.
Mischievous blob of heat
A couple of days ago, father showed us this video:
In which Bashar sums up some of the key points of pk and attitude towards life.
Decided to apply a more forceful push to my progress (a firm design of the avatar). Got that familiar floaty feeling with empathy, visions and weather geisting. Dreams became a lot more vivid and remembered them better after waking up.
Yesterday I noticed that there was something off. Had to visit the bathroom way too often. Also, at night, I would leak jing. During pranayama practice, I held the breath for a bit longer, in order to observe what was going on in the abdomen. There was a pillar of burning heat that caused a mess. Focused on the area and felt a strong bubble of heat emanating from it. Too difficult for me to force that upwards..
Leaked a lot of jing during the night. After that, the body felt more at ease again .. psi could be moved around more easily. Had probably leaked that blob of heat out.
For a few hours in the morning, the mind was amazingly calm and psi was wobbling, pulsing at the crown chakra. Shortly after eating lunch, I became grounded again .. slipped into a slight depression and panic again.
Decided to apply a more forceful push to my progress (a firm design of the avatar). Got that familiar floaty feeling with empathy, visions and weather geisting. Dreams became a lot more vivid and remembered them better after waking up.
Yesterday I noticed that there was something off. Had to visit the bathroom way too often. Also, at night, I would leak jing. During pranayama practice, I held the breath for a bit longer, in order to observe what was going on in the abdomen. There was a pillar of burning heat that caused a mess. Focused on the area and felt a strong bubble of heat emanating from it. Too difficult for me to force that upwards..
Leaked a lot of jing during the night. After that, the body felt more at ease again .. psi could be moved around more easily. Had probably leaked that blob of heat out.
For a few hours in the morning, the mind was amazingly calm and psi was wobbling, pulsing at the crown chakra. Shortly after eating lunch, I became grounded again .. slipped into a slight depression and panic again.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
RV on code
Tried using RV on code and buggy behaviour. Though, saw a tempting sidetrack and decided to go there, instead.
The sidetrack lead into the nature. A lot of green plants and bushes, probably belonging to a warmer climate. Moved further and got an image of a wooden building in there. Got the image and feeling of sun shining on the brown door / window frame. These feelings sourced from somebody living there.
So far RV and empathy on code has mostly been spontaneous. Still, got to find that bug in someone else's code, which is not too easy to read.
Yesterday's random RV attempts were not too successful. Revived the good old qRV project for some precognition and remote-viewing practices.
The sidetrack lead into the nature. A lot of green plants and bushes, probably belonging to a warmer climate. Moved further and got an image of a wooden building in there. Got the image and feeling of sun shining on the brown door / window frame. These feelings sourced from somebody living there.
So far RV and empathy on code has mostly been spontaneous. Still, got to find that bug in someone else's code, which is not too easy to read.
Yesterday's random RV attempts were not too successful. Revived the good old qRV project for some precognition and remote-viewing practices.
Friday, February 1, 2013
More awake
With the last couple of days, I guess stuff in the body has started to melt again.
Felt different after work today. Somehow, the mind was at peace. I was more awake and aware.
Empathy with the surroundings had improved. Felt the cars rushing past, people walking on the street, traffic signs and lamp posts. A mild feeling of pleasure had filled the body.
Edit: Finished reading Jim Marrs "Psi spies". Oh man that's inspiring. Itching for OBE and remote viewing practices again. So far almost all of these have been without feedback.
Visited the kitchen with this excitement and failed 3x at turning the light on. The CFL would just flicker, flash and then go out again. Weird, a bit. Last time I visited the kitchen, it was still working and all.
Felt different after work today. Somehow, the mind was at peace. I was more awake and aware.
Empathy with the surroundings had improved. Felt the cars rushing past, people walking on the street, traffic signs and lamp posts. A mild feeling of pleasure had filled the body.
Edit: Finished reading Jim Marrs "Psi spies". Oh man that's inspiring. Itching for OBE and remote viewing practices again. So far almost all of these have been without feedback.
Visited the kitchen with this excitement and failed 3x at turning the light on. The CFL would just flicker, flash and then go out again. Weird, a bit. Last time I visited the kitchen, it was still working and all.
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