Kitchen pipes

While walking towards the bus station with mom, we chatted about renovating the apartment. I said that we ought to prioritize the kitchen, too. But then again, who knows when the sewage pipes would need to be replaced ... so probably shouldn't cover up the pipes yet.

We get home and find a puddle of dark and rusty water on the kitchen floor. We clean it up, I inspect the pipes and their surroundings. Anyway, I wash my hands and look down again, just in time to marvel at the little fountain from the sewage pipes. :)

I burst out laughing.

Months earlier there had been an apartment block management meeting (or however those are supposed to be called) and the main topic of discussion was the replacement of those pipes. The problem was that due to the pandemic, none of the companies were willing to take contracts, unless there was an emergency. In the case of an emergency, the costs would be a lot higher but at least it would get done.

Autumn horses

While practising pranayama, I usually count breaths on my fingers. What I found a bit strange while practising this a few days ago, though, I felt as if I actually had 6 fingers and kept missing one each time I counted on my 5 fingers.

Dream: Autumn horses

There's me, wandering around the pasture. There's not much grass, the ground is covered in yellow leaves, and under the leaves there's a thin layer of water, causing it to make a splashing sound as I waddle about. The trees have shed almost all of their leaves, making it possible to see quite far through the trees. Or, at least, it would be possible to, during the day, but it's slowly getting dark already.

I pick my phone to take a photo of the scenery. While looking for the perfect shot, I reverse a little, and then record the moment with a tap. While looking for another angle, I notice a group of horses running in my direction from the distance. As the group of dark horses kept coming closer, I became a bit concerned that I might get in their way. Though, they juts came, saw and left (my left). I felt a bit relieved, but then noticed that another pack of dark horses in similar number came running at me. They then hit their brakes as they formed like 1 / 3rd of a circle, to observe me at close range, while I was putting my phone away. In front of the pack, there was a young horse with a white patch on its forehead. The horse slowly approached me, and started to rub its head against me (hugging of sorts).

Jets and train

Tried a bit of pranayama yesterday evening. One of the UPSes triggered and startled me a bit.

A few dreams from the recent weeks. In addition to what I've described in greater detail, there was a dream of urban exploration at a radioactive site, and a dream of military routine. In general, I think these reflect how after the vacation I decided to work towards the attitude which I used to have about 10 years ago.

Dream: Jets

A couple of fighter jets were circling around at the summerhouse. Observed their flight, and then flew after them. Followed them until the pilots took a break and went somewhere to eat. One pilot was younger, and admitted that he would've preferred a different career but there was nothing available. It turned out that he was also interested in flying saucers and alternative means of propulsion.

At that moment, I joined in on the conversation. I said that I was also interested in these. He then asked if I had read any books by Jüri Lina. I had not, and while I had heard the name, I thought he only had books on illuminati, freemasonry, etc. Apparently he also had something on UFOs.

While floating at an edge, I described my thoughts and plans. The older pilot then pointed out the potential ethics issues which I had considered previously. While we agreed about the issues, none of us could think of good solutions to these. Then at some point I just suddenly poofed (disappeared) and woke up.

Dream: Train

Last night I had a dream where me and a couple of other guys were going somewhere on a train. At our stop, we hopped off and the train continued along the tracks. I looked at the tracks and found a few interesting stones, some of which were unpolished crystals. The other two guys: what are you doing? Come on!

Dream: School

Another dream which I had last night. People were on the streets somewhere, taking a lesson on something technical. We were given a task of some sort, but I didn't understand what it was that I was supposed to do, because instead of a slide about the task, the teacher projected a lewd meme on the screen, expecting everyone to get it (and it seemed as if they really did). Well, I did not, and asked him about the technical details.

Boscovich's "space and time"

From "From Objectivity to a Unified Theory" by Prof. Dr. Konstantin Meyl.

Jesuit priest Roger Joseph Boscovich from Dalmatia in 1755.

Boscovich was a professor of mathematics and theology in Rome and spoke about the world, on the other hand, being deformable, similar to rubber, but on the other hand, we are not able to perceive this effect, because our body is made of the same material and obeys all changes. "In an absolute way, we can neither recognize the place, nor distances, or orders of magnitude", Boscovich wrote in his book on "space and time" and how these are perceived by us. He suspects that the Earth, unobservable for man, "is respiring".

This greatly reminds me of how Owltwelve and others on Shirak's forum felt space-time while practising psychokinesis.

I'll try to find papers on Boscovich's work.

Minor compilation of weird

It's been a while, and there have been a few glitches, in the meantime.

One day I found that the cat had missed the litter box and left a mummy against the wall. I looked at it, and thought that was going to leave a stain which might be tough to clean. I picked the mummy, looked at the stain, and left for the bathroom to take a piece of cloth and cleaning agent. When I returned, the stain had vanished. Maybe the cat cleaned it?

While I was using the broom today morning, Mom said that one day the attachment clamp (or however it ought to be called) on the broomstick had been broken. The next day it was unbroken again. She had thought maybe I had fixed it somehow. I looked at it, and it looked as good as new. I don't think I could've reliably fixed broken plastic, though.

Almost each time I felt a bit sad and sat down to meditate for a bit, a gap appeared in the clouds and the sun started to shine on my face.

On Thursday we had a lengthy work meeting at a campfire place with gorgeous scenery. Targeted a dandelion for photos. Visualized and intended the lighting to make it glow nicely. It was surprisingly responsive. Later decided to take photos of a road on a slope ... and then a colleague happened to walk down the road and pass by. Loved a couple of the photos. The lighting made it look powerful.

Energy intensity has been a bit tricky to control recently. Mood swings.

Sometimes I've felt someone being "dark" or sometimes I've seen something surrounding or around someone. Discussed the matter with Mom today, and she thought it might be karmic constructs from their past life. This could be why some perfectly normal people scare others with their presence, etc.

Dreams: Rattling plate and dark blob

Nothing much to report.

There were a couple of interesting dreams, though. The symbology of both of these dreams was new for me.

Dream: Rattling plate

I think me and mom were chatting in the living-room when I heard a rattling noise coming from the kitchen. I went to check it out. Walked into the kitchen, and found that a small plate was rattling on the shelf of dishes. Soon after, the plate shot off from the shelf, and crashed into the tap, breaking into a lot of pieces.

Based on DreamMoods, I found that breaking dishes might mean feeling as if I failed to meet other peoples' expectations.

Dream: Dark blob

There was some sort of a purple-black blob in my palms. I found that I could mold it into any shape. The substance felt so powerful that I had previously been unable to handle it. It felt as if it packed the energy of a nuclear or thermonuclear bomb in such a small volume, but it was not just the amount of energy. It had been difficult to handle because of the emotions and feelings which it usually triggered. While I was really fascinated by it, I tried to be very careful.

Thinking back on it, I think it might've looked like the universe. I'm not sure but I think it might not be the dark fog which I've referenced before. Why? Because the blob had a well-defined external surface. It looked like a liquid or a solid, not like a fog. But then again, I think it's possible that it might've looked like a fog from the inside, and putty-glass-like blob from the outside.

Picture frame

Furniture around me has been making some sounds again recently. I think it was 3 times today, two snapping sounds and while I was chatting with mom in the kitchen, we heard something move in the cupboard.

Some time later I was in the living room, with the cat on top of the cupboard in the same room. The cat hopped down from there, bringing an old painting and a certificate down with him. Luckily, the frame of the painting survived. It was just the frame of the certificate which broke.

Recently I've been feeling like spending more time alone, meditating instead of chatting with people. Not very long ago, this also manifested in a dream where I found myself just staring at an object, meditating.

I think while celibacy might've been helpful in healing at first, I've started to suspect that sexual energy which has piled up and become stale, has caused other health issues. Since I haven't been (and still amn't) particularly keen on transforming it for psychokinesis nor spiritual developments, it has probably failed to serve much of a purpose. By focusing it on psychokinesis and spiritual developments, I suspect that I would end up the same way as I did about 10 years ago ... without motivation and enthusiasm to remain in this material world. This would conflict with my other two paths.

Last night I focused on the spot which has pained me for a couple of weeks. Quite a bit of heat and energy was released. This went on for most of the night, so I didn't sleep all that well. Woke with a bit of eye pain as well (I thought it had healed already a while ago).