Not a healthy thing to do, but today I experienced myself as an amplifier in a positive feedback loop.
Visited a bank office at a shopping mall. A mother and two kids were walking down the hall and past me. One of the kids passed by very close to me. He was in a bad mood, angry. As he got closer, I felt the anger wash over me .. somehow it was amplified until something snapped (as if something burned out into a short-circuit) and the kid started crying. Since I haven't experienced such a situation in such a way before, I did not try to stop or transform anything .. I simply observed it as it happened (all within a second or so).
For me this was temporary and within the limits of what the body and mind can tolerate. However, for the kid .. I do hope he's alright. If it weren't for the rules of this society, I would have at least discussed it with him and his mother and would've tried to fix it.
Hmm .. now that I think about it, I guess the intensity was so high that I retreated for a moment. I remember feeling how small I was, compared to the flow of energy.
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