Felt more like aiming for detachment today morning.
Apparently ego didn't like the idea and used the good old plot to stab itself and then have someone feel compassion. This way it has usually gotten the attention that it wants. It's like a recursive function .. ego starts to hate itself, then hates itself for hating itself and also for trying to beg for someone's compassion. Also, it 's kind of addicted to the feeling of being sad and lonely and then pities itself for being all sad and lonely.
Today, when the workday was about to end, it started raining. Started walking home .. so heavy rain that it became difficult to keep the eyes open. 30 minutes of walking while soaked .. bitter-sweet.
I know how this construct was born. I don't need it any more and I want it to finally become at peace.
don't try to understand others man.
ReplyDeleteif you just know yourself problems won't exist.
you can believe/think you understand others, but the real truth is that that is arrogance.
treat experience only as it appears to be and you will know yourself.
in the real truth of all things, all only exists for the flawless happiness beyond imagination.
True, thanks!
ReplyDeleteA lot of sleeping for the last couple of days. Feel a lot better now.
Ego is still there, but it seems easier to avoid feeding it.