Kimi no na wa

A masterpiece that hit home way more than I would've anticipated.

Recently I've been struggling with the heat of desire and emotions again. Especially since I know that I need to find a girlfriend. Yesterday I stalked an old crush of mine, to find that she's found a guy. I'm glad and I wish them all the best. I was given plenty of chances but I was a bit disappointed because except for the empathy, I couldn't find a common ground. Timing wasn't the best, either. Pff .. romance in this blog.

In "Kimi no na wa" they got it quite right about the fading of memories after waking up. However, there are a lot of memories stored in the body and when one possesses another, then they can already make use of the memories and skills. I also loved the fact that there was a time shift, and that the protagonists managed to alter things. I found it very realistic how things changed without proof that anything was altered at all, as well as the way Taki only remembered having a peculiar interest in the small town and how the townspeople had survived.

All in all, in exchange for tears, the movie helped me realize a thing or two.

Cat glowing red

Vacation, so have been sleeping a lot.

Had a dream of attending a conference far away (still on Earth, tho) and missing the bus back home. Woke on alarm.

The cat had been sleeping on the blanket, just on top of my feet. As it woke up and stretched itself, I saw it as glowing red. Everything else in my room looked normal. At first, the glowing red cloud extended beyond its fur. With the gradual fading of the cloud, in a couple of seconds I could only see the red glow from underneath its fur, and eventually I lost sight of it altogether.

Haibane Renmei

Watched Haibane Renmei. It's a masterpiece that deals with the cycles of reincarnation and enlightenment.

A really good one:

Communicator: "To recognize one's own sin is to have no sin. So, are you a sinner?"

Rakka: "Uh! But if I think I have no sin, then I become a sinner!"

Communicator: "Perhaps this is what it means to be bound by sin. To spin in the same circle, looking for where the sin lies, and at some point losing sight of the way out."

Non-standard dreams

Went to bed after returning from a sauna evening yesterday. I think my hair was still a bit moist as I left, which might have triggered the second dream.

Dream: Astronaut

For the first time I got to experience being launched to low earth orbit with a rocket, in a dream, though. An awesome experience. At some point during the ascent, the dangers dawned on me, so I started a thorough observation of my emotions and thoughts. The launch was flawless, and got to observe the Earth while floating around weightless.

Dream: Attempts to fix the roof

It was a nice and calm weather, so I went to fix the roof of a building. As a temporary solution, the roof was covered in a plastic film. As the first thing, I removed the film. But then I thought that I could do it better. Rewound and tried it again, then again. Each time that I redid it, it became more windy and it was more and more difficult to even reach the same quality as I did for the first time.

All in all, due to seeking quality beyond what I could achieve without trying, I failed to fix the roof.

Wisdom from a grumpy cat

Got a chance to visit father yesterday. Reserved a few hours for chatting.

Among other interesting stories, he told one of his dreams where their cat asked him a question.

• Cat: "When one asks a question, then what is it that they want?"
• Father: "What a complicated question, how would I know?"
• Cat: "They want their question to be understood."
• .. cat leaves the scene ..

Ingenious, imho.

Latent power

On Sunday evening I found the source of my cellphone wallpaper. Official music video of Porter Robinson & Madeon - Shelter. Found the story and visuals quite good.

After working late again yesterday evening, I went to bed. While meditating / simply laying there before falling asleep, I noticed some kind of a power that I had not noticed for a long time. Guided by prior experience, I kept a safe distance and simply observed the power that was asleep somewhere within the body. I figured that I would need to maintain constant awareness of it, to avoid misusing it.

Well, from my own perspective today I seemed more impulsive than usual, and found it rather easy to produce bursts of psi.

Dream: Predator

A predator entered home. Due to the lack of a better idea of how to get rid of it, I decided to domesticate it by ensuring that it has enough food. Started browsing the fridge. Found all sorts of food, snacks and stuff. The predator gratefully ate all of these. Among the last items from the fridge was a plastic bag with a bunch of moss and green grass .. and as it turned out, a live hare. So the predator ate the hare as well.

Although the predator looked like a large cute cat, all the other cats and dogs were scared for their lives whenever this predator was in the house. The predator was full, so I was relieved and decided to go to the store to stock up for the next day so that it wouldn't eat all the cats and dogs.

Dream of flight

A summary, written during fast times.

Too much media. Probably family will be pissed about me not notifying them about my appearances.

One morning I saw through the closed eyelids again, with a matrix of light overlay. As I opened my eyes, I still saw the matrix for a couple of seconds or so before it faded away.

Yesterday I had the chance to meet a mind that thinks alike. He had not done as much research and was a bit reckless but it's rare to find people with enthusiasm about the taboo topics such as UFO, ZPE, anti-gravity and so on.

Yesterday I put forth some effort to compensate for my sleep deprivation. Today morning I fancied flying in dreams. Flew around a bit, enjoying the freedom. Woke into another dream, still desiring to fly .. realized I've been practising it wrong .. and flew across the street. Saw my supervisor and decided to descend next to him for a quick chat. Walked home, and he transformed into father, I think.

I wish I would become fluent in flying around on all layers of dreamscape. Of course, including this one that they call reality.

Edit: Recently I've also found a lot of power from folk music. Wardruna, Hu and the like. Similar to what uncle's band used to produce.