Accidental shopping

Visited the shop to buy some food while on my way back home from the office.

A few hours later, mom came home. She found that I had also bought the exact same kind of juice. Then she found that I had bought the same kind of potatoes (just more of them). Since she had mentioned that we should buy more potatoes and juice the previous day, we thought it was just a nice coincidence.

Some time later I was checking what mom was cooking in the oven. It was some kind of a Texas schnitzel which I hadn't tried before. Which was also exactly the same as I had bought. Both of us were surprised as I pulled out the other package from the fridge.

Avatar of strands

Received a letter from my neighbour today. Two Christmas cards, one with some awesome dark and mysterious poetry, the other for Mom.

Dad visited with a cake on Sunday. While we were chatting, I practised maintaining a clear mind. At some point, there was a really loud cracking sound. We were all startled, and started to wonder what might've broken. I thought it was the tea jug, but it turned out to be just a strand of hair on the external surface of the jug. The strand of hair legit looked like a crack in the glass.

I failed to find anything else which might've produced the sound.

I think it was Monday evening that I analyzed what it was that sometimes made me feel disgusted about the human body. Some time at night I realized that it was basically something akin to karma accumulated in the body. So it wasn't the human body itself which triggered disgust, I think it was more the non-physical things which had been stored in the body. Moreover, these things themselves were also not disgusting, but rather the thoughts, memories or interpretations which for me associated to these.

In a sense, the body (or any object, for that regard) could be likened to a shelf of mental constructs. Or to an avatar which represents a plethora of concepts. I remembered that I could refresh my avatar simply by concentrating on the feelings which I wanted it to portray.

During the past couple of days, I've been pumping psi up the central channel. Developed a headache at first, again. The heat has also increased quite a bit, and last night I must've had too much energy to sleep through the night. From about 2 AM to 5 AM or so, I kept turning sides, hoping that I would fall asleep again.

Synchronicities

Today morning I replied to someone on Discord. That someone was offline, and I remembered that they usually disable ping when they reply to someone else. I wondered if it had been a mistake not to disable ping. Some time later they woke up and apologized that for some reason Discord had not shown the ping.

It has happened several times already that someone thinks of pinging me on Discord, and I randomly stumble upon and respond to their question before they manage to ping me. On one of the servers, people used to joke that it's enough to just type my nickname into the text somewhere and it would be enough for me to see it. And no, I usually miss most of the messages because there's simply too much to read through all of it.

Today I had been away from the computer for a couple of hours. The moment I arrived at the computer, someone sent a MAL friend request. I got to accept it before they had the time to tell me that they did.

Dream: Flying object

A dream which stood out a bit. There was some strange background music, so I was wondering what was going on. I thought that obviously there would have to be something scary or creepy somewhere, but I just couldn't see it. There was someone with me, and they pointed towards the sky. There was some kind of a tiny object circling around above the stable.

I looked at it, found that it was easy to manipulate with psychokinesis. Had it descend, picked it up and played with it for a while.

Stomach

The book "No Self, No Problem: How Neuropsychology Is Catching Up to Buddhism" by Chris Niebauer PhD reminded me to practice activating specific hemispheres of the brain again. Left the activation of the right hemisphere ticking in my second attention for a couple of days, then forgot about it.

For a few days before the birthday, I had some stomach troubles. I think it was triggered by an emotional moment.

The brain switches hemispheres every now and then, and sometimes while both hemispheres are active, I've started to feel really weird. Sometimes I've gotten a mild headache from it.

Apparently there are still a lot of blockages at places in the body.

At some point I was so tired that a nap of just a few minutes caused me to lose awareness of the body and drop into a deep sleep.

I watched "Yangguang puzhao" (2019) with some people on Discord last Saturday. There was a scene with firecrackers on the streets. I noticed that I could smell the burnt gunpowder. It has been a while.

Birthday wishes

There's a Lain-themed Discord server in which I haven't been very active, and I think I've only chatted a bit with two people there. On my birthday suddenly some people started posting wishes. At some point one of them asked if any of them knew anyone whose birthday it might be. It didn't seem like any of them knew.

Cool synchronicity. I thanked them for their wishes and then more wishes followed.

Realizations

About a week ago I realized that the world is probably much smaller than I've thought. Each thought and action probably has more immediate and direct consequences than I might've imagined.

Though, since the influence doesn't make that much sense to the rational mind, it just brushes it off or comes up with some alternative stories about it. Due to the mind, the path of feedback is cut, which in turn makes us feel more separate and alone than we actually are.

While taking a shower one evening, I suddenly started laughing about some of my worries. It seemed that I had taken "simple" things way too seriously. Should just go with the flow more.

Deep waters

Recently I've been experiencing waves of heat radiating from the body again.

Due to the lucky numbers spiking recently, I worked from home again on Monday. Felt quite weird, as if I were in multiple places simultaneously. I felt as if I was on the island, just outdoors, in the living room, as well as in some foreign places. Felt somewhat floaty.

I think it was Tuesday night that I saw the cat everywhere in my dreams, which is quite rare.

Dream: Swimming

Deep waters are dangerous. Though, I figured that if I move around all the time, then I could perhaps remain afloat. There were a few other people swimming around in the water as well.

Dream: High pressure on minerals

A sleeping chemist (female) was visiting, and then father came for a visit as well. Father asked her if she had worked with some sort of a specific acid. While asleep, she replied that she hadn't, that she had worked more with salts and minerals. Father then said he had read something interesting: by applying high mechanical pressure on some specific non-radioactive salts, a nuclear reaction was triggered.

Me an old asocial pum? Maybe not?

A couple of weeks ago, me and mom both felt as if we had had an extra day in the week (somewhere between Tuesday and Wednesday, I guess). Then the week after, both of us felt as if we had missed a day. This week mom also felt like she had missed a day, but I no longer did. For me, this week was nominal.

Another "friend" found a girlfriend. My hunch says it's the real deal for him.

Also, while looking for some photos of Hutchison's old apartment, I stumbled upon a blog of his. His blog had photos of him with a lady. I had always imagined Hutchison as a crazy inventor who has trouble socializing. I suspect that since I had been his fan since like 6th or 7th grade, I had started to associate myself with this image, too. Eventually I think I forgot about the fact that I did, and started mistaking this image for myself.

Anyway, today at some point I felt that the issue had been resolved. I wonder if perhaps this was also related to the clinic dream.

Dream: Fireworks

I decided to face some of my old fears. Had a dream where I found some of my old weapons but as I touched one of them, it caught fire. I knew it would start firing at some point, but I didn't know when. I put it into a hole in the ground, where I thought it would be the least probable that it causes harm to anyone. I also added some bricks and stuff around it, to prevent it from bouncing around or changing its aim.

I ducked and took cover. Then a couple of other people took over securing the weapon. Anyway, it fired like 10 shots and then went quiet. Some of these shots hit the boxes in the apartment but didn't cause any harm, for which I was really grateful.

Dream: Clinic

Last night I had a dream where I was waiting with my eye problem at a clinic. Since the clinic was closed at night, I was just waiting there in the dark corridors. The eye didn't hurt but it was really blurry and didn't function according to my expectations.

Roosterprank

Feng Shui

Slept with my head towards South for about a week. Felt dead tired. Then slept with my head towards North for about a week. Felt good. Slept with my head towards South for a a couple of hours. Felt dead tired. Turned around and started feeling better again in about half an hour.

Not sure if this is just about the orientation, or the fact that the WiFi access point is at the Southern end of the couch. The couch is less comfy to sleep on with the head towards North, though. Moreover, light from the corridor shone on my face while sleeping with my head towards North.

Maybe Feng Shui works?

I wonder if it works different in different regions on Earth. Does it have something to do with the magnetic field?

Hat

Lost my hat last Friday at the office. I suspected that perhaps the hole at the bottom of the pocket had grown to match the cross section of the hat. Anyway, the hat was gone. I looked for it everywhere (including the floor).

Visited a colleague to play board games in the evening. Unstable Unicorns and The Mind. The Mind seemed quite interesting for mind-reading practice.

Today morning the hat had been put nicely on the clothes shelf. None of the colleagues knew anything about it, so I guess I owe my gratitude to the janitor.

Red rooster

I think it was more than a week ago or so that I had another dream where things caught fire and it was getting out of control.

That time the floor was covered in important papers, sister's notepapers which I had been scanning to save these from her cat's parfume. Anyway, these kept catching fire and I felt helpless. Though, at some point it occurred to me that shuffling the papers works. The flames were extinguished as I buried the burning papers underneath other papers.

Just as I had solved the puzzle, the dream changed. A red rooster hopped around, laughing at their prank.